Does anyone else have a fear of going insane? « on: February 01, 2016, 09:41:37 pm »
Does anyone else have a fear of losing their mind? I’m so scared throughout this whole thing that I’m going to go insane. I’m so terrified of it. That and a huge fear of psychosis. Lately I’ve just had a need to write my fears down, to see if anyone else going through this can relate. I swear sometimes all that I’m enduring is so bizarre and horrifying and just unimaginable. I can’t describe it more but sometimes I just get this feeling along with just a huge fear of it that I’m actually or going to actually lose my mind. I had this much worse at about 3 months off but it’s come and gone all throughout my withdrawal. It’s been especially bad during this past couple of weeks after the emergence of tremors which I hadn’t had since cold turkey and once exactly one month out. Does anyone else get this too? I’m so tired of feeling terrified of things I had never even thought of ever in my life before this horrific nightmare. I literally feel poisoned, and as though my brain is melted in spots, damaged beyond repair. I’m sorry for so many posts lately. And I’m sorry if this one makes me sound crazy. I’m just doing the best that I can to get through it. If you can share feeling similarly to anything I’ve written above it will be so very greatly appreciated. I just really need to feel like I’m not alone in this today. Thank you so much.
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Re: Does anyone else have a fear of going insane? « Reply #1 on: February 01, 2016, 10:28:28 pm »
And sometimes I do go just a little bit insane, I’m glad there’s only my dog here to see me sometimes. One thing though, that helps…The Buddhist thing: everything changes, nothing stays the same for long…That goes for the bad, as well as the good. So I know that even if I do feel kind of out of my mind today, I also know that the next hour, the next afternoon, the next night, the next day, the next week…it will change. It’s what I count on while I try to stay in the moment and not fight anything, but just try to relax into it, this helps me get through. Just my thoughts.