Benzo Buddies ghouls gang up on addict who relapsed

The abuse goes on for ELEVEN pages! They later accused poor Timmy of being a troll and a hacker. That’s the kind of support an addict gets at Benzo Buddies – no support at all. 🙁

It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« on: September 13, 2016, 05:32:05 pm »

[Buddie]

I couldn’t handle the intense pain last night of my depression it was so excruciating that i swallowed 3 mg of klonipin. I know people in here have tried to help me but i can tell you today that i give up. I cannot handle this intense withdtawal and i think it’s from kindling. If i can be a poster boy of what not to do, please learn from me.
Slowly taper and no rescue doses. I have the most severe depression thst i dont even think it helped. I just made another huge mistake and in sure it’s one il never recover from. I’m so sorry benzo buddies and in ashamed that im such a failure. I guess i couldn’t pull up my big boy pants. I’m leaving the site now and i don’t know what to do from here, but i obviously can’t handle this wirhdrawal. It’s way too much depression and chest pain. I’m out of answers and unfortunately you don’t get 2nd chances in life.

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #1 on: September 13, 2016, 05:41:56 pm »

[Buddie]

<<yawn>>>

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #2 on: September 13, 2016, 05:48:20 pm »

[Buddie]

So you either did not run out of all of them the other day, or you drove to the pharmacy in excruciating pain last night to get more. My feeling is you had them.You know I don’t really know what to say. Past experience for you has proved that reinstatements and rescue doses have done more harm than good for you. You have greatly regretted each time you have done so. Do you expect if to me different this time around. Your right, kindling has probably caused your withdrawal to be worse. I don’t know what your future plans are for Klonopin, but reaching tolerance quickly would not be out of the question for someone who has kindled. Is you plan to just keeping up your dose over time time you reach tolerance? I don’t know timmy. I think you should have tried to hang on a bit longer.

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #3 on: September 13, 2016, 05:53:44 pm »

[Buddie]

Good grief, Timmy. I think you need to step back from all this and ask yourself some tough questions as there is obviously a lot more going on here than just withdrawing from benzos.

It’s been suggested, many times, that you have a plan in place for the time when w/d becomes too overwhelming for you. Have you done that? Simply posting on this forum after you’ve reinstated/changed meds/added new meds/reduce dosed does NOT constitute a plan.

Furthermore, you are both right and wrong in regards to not getting second chances in life. We actually don’t just get second chances….we get third, fourth, fifth, etc. The key to this however, is the ability to adapt, or change or accept your circumstances….something that you are indeed struggling with.

You’ve been on this forum long enough to know that benzos cause depression, so the fact that you continue to take them FOR depression is bewildering. Of course it didn’t help.

If you’re depressed, it would likely be in your best interest to start some intensive therapy, continue your long walks, get some sunshine and eat properly.

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #4 on: September 13, 2016, 05:58:12 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on September 13, 2016, 05:53:44 pm
Good grief, Timmy. I think you need to step back from all this and ask yourself some tough questions as there is obviously a lot more going on here than just withdrawing from benzos.

It’s been suggested, many times, that you have a plan in place for the time when w/d becomes too overwhelming for you. Have you done that? Simply posting on this forum after you’ve reinstated/changed meds/added new meds/reduce dosed does NOT constitute a plan.

Furthermore, you are both right and wrong in regards to not getting second chances in life. We actually don’t just get second chances….we get third, fourth, fifth, etc. The key to this however, is the ability to adapt, or change or accept your circumstances….something that you are indeed struggling with.

You’ve been on this forum long enough to know that benzos cause depression, so the fact that you continue to take them FOR depression is bewildering. Of course it didn’t help.

If you’re depressed, it would likely be in your best interest to start some intensive therapy, continue your long walks, get some sunshine and eat properly.

The mental pain and anguish last night was just too much. I literally felt like my life was on the line. Worse is a friend gave them to me and now im totally out. This is really goung to kill me. I know il get flamed but the mental torture from kindling is so bad i had zero choice in my mind. I’m throwing in the towel. I am not capable of this obviously.

edit: fixed quotes
« Last Edit: September 13, 2016, 06:36:45 pm by [Buddie] »

13 thoughts on “Benzo Buddies ghouls gang up on addict who relapsed

  1. I’d love to read that whole thread. Can you remember which board it’s in as my initial scan didn’t find it.

    Cheers. ?

  2. “BenzoBuddies: an inclusive, nonjudgmental mutual-support environment for those who wish to withdraw from benzodiazepines.”

    Of course it is. And I can hold my breath for fifteen minutes while juggling angry Phiranas.

    Ps, Mike…. yes they will be, it’s part of the benzo community guide “How to foolishly believe an unproven conspiracy theory and give away your money and resaleable medical details to youtube beggars, scam laywers and narcissistic members of a forum”.

    Page one, chapter one. But don’t worry, the benzobuddies admins are there to protect members. Apparently.

  3. Timmy, for some it is better to just stay on the pills and continue to work out your treatment plan with your doctors. I hope you stay off the benzo buddies site, it seems to be a bad place for you. It is a bad site, run by bad people, that are fatally misguided, for sure.

  4. Knight, have you ever been a member of benzobuddies? What benzo are you on? I think maybe some people need to be on these meds.

  5. Yes I was a member at BB, and several benzos I was on a long time. I have been drug free for several years now and doing very well. Everyone is different. There is no cookie cutter approach that works for everyone. Some should just stay on benzos, or what they and their doctors decide they need to take, for sure. If you are doing well on them, why try getting off them in the first place? Timmy, please tell you will stay off BB and other sites of the same ilk. The consequences of spending time on these sites can be very dire, indeed.

  6. Sometimes, the ‘now’ is not the right time to quit a substance. Sometimes it’s better to wait for a better time, and to do it with medical supervision from someone who’ll be aware of a person’s medical history and be accountable for any mistakes.

    Peer-support models do not, and cannot, ever provide this.

    Good luck, Tim.

  7. This is alarming -Alcosynth replacement for alcoholic drinks
    « on: September 24, 2016, 04:41:26 pm »

    [Buddie]

    The most alarming quote that caught my eye:

    Quote
    Early experiments into alcosynth, such as those reported on by BBC’s Horizon in 2011, used a derivative of benzodiazepine – the same class of drugs as Valium.

    http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/health-news/hangover-free-alcohol-david-nutt-alcosynth-nhs-postive-effects-benzodiazepine-guy-bentley-a7324076.html

    Can you say possible epidemic if this ever hits the market?–V

  8. ^^^
    Buddy quotes this excerpt to scare people about Synthahol containing benzos…

    Buddy dishonestly fails to mention this passage that’s directly underneath the above quote in the article…

    “Mr Nutt said his new drinks did not contain benzodiazepine, and their formulas would remain a closely guarded, patented secret.”

    So it doesn’t contain benzos, nor did it ever, its’ early prototype contained a benzo derivative.

  9. Thanks you for replying. I think I will stay on the drugs. Now is not the right time for me. Is anyone who posts here still on benzos?

  10. I can’t speak for anyone else but I’m not. They served a purpose while I was medicated, though.

    The benzobuddies narrative may have started out with good intentions but it’s been lost to conspiracy theorists, scams, and general vitriol for what they call big pharma.

    In reality, people should work with trained medical professionals, not listen to online groups as that’s the blind leading the blind.

    Some of us need a little pharmacology to help us through tough times.

    Meds are not a solution, they’re designed to buy us time to figure out ourselves, but the ignorance and hate generated by the online groups significantly muddies the water and enables continued mental illness.

    Do what YOU and a your doctor feels is right, Tim. It’s by far the lesser of any potential evils.

  11. Timmy, staying safe is the number one objective for you, correct? No hurries to get clean, no need to be an online benzo hero or anything, right?
    Work with the best doctor you can find. Also, do you have a non drug addicted loved one or friend who can help you make decisions with your doctor? Sometimes when you are an active addict, your judgement and decision making is not really very good particularly with regards to drug consumption. Hell, some poor souls are so confused the nonsense spouted over at benzo buddies almost sounds plausible, lol!

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