Healed after 12 years!
« on: April 13, 2017, 05:51:33 pm »


I’m coming up on 12 years benzo free. On may 5, 2005 I was cold turkeyed in the hospital. It was the most horrific and unforeseen event in my life and it has changed me as a human being forever. Slowly, very slowly over 1-5 benzo free years my symptoms waxed and waned until at 5 years benzo free my life was about 80% of what I was pre-benzo. Life was good but not great for a few months. The unrelenting horror, mental anguish and general displeasure for life had abated but the physical symptoms were still alive and well… just milder and I expected them to all abate as well as time marched on.

At almost 6 years benzo free the flood gates reopened again and I was cast back into what I would call acute benzo withdrawal! It was just as bad as the beginning if not worse… as a matter of fact a lot worse! All the progress I made was suddenly gone and I was left a 40 year old man with a wife and two kids, a beautiful home crying on the floor with no hope for a future. It nearly broke me as a human being and I was ready to give up.

Luckily I had tremendous support from the person I had been with my whole life…My loving wife. She knew me since high school and knew that this was not the man she married. Luckily she believed in me because I didn’t and at 6 years I didn’t think recovery was possible. I thought I had permanent brain damage from the ativan and I would never recover.

My wife got busy and contacted many people on my behalf.  Una Corbett, Barry Haslam, Baylissa Frederick (Bliss), and even to professor Ashton herself! They ‘ALL’ said to my amazement ‘HE WILL RECOVER’ and ‘THIS SOMETIMES HAPPENS’. She even made an account here to talk to people on my behalf (I was too unwell to post then). I’m Mr. B by the way!

The symptoms were very hard up until 11 years benzo free and right now at almost 12 years benzo free my life is brilliant!!!  I can see the light again and feel love, joy, and happiness. I’m 47 years old and have a new lease on life and you will too. Please people believe in recovery…BELIEVE!!!

It happens for ‘EVERYBODY’ given time and staying off  benzos and ‘ALL’ chemical crap!

Mr. B


  1. Hmmmmmm, I wish they provided the very important details to rest of this story. Sounds like one of the original cult members spouting the cult dogma. He sounds like a classic generalized anxiety sufferer and online cult guy. What drugs and supplements did he take? What was his diet and exercise program like? How was his mental health, family life and career going when he “re entered benzo WD at 6 years out”? Did he drink alcohol or smoke weed?
    Look, I know these people mean well, and want to be cult heros and such, but please do not pull people’s legs with these wild and incomplete tales of cult miracles. Thank you.

  2. You are a twisted man Mike. Preying on sick people trying to get their lives together. Hope u rot in hell you piece of shit.

  3. I’m not preying on anyone, they elect misery over help. I’m a lifelong anxiety sufferer and I know a thing or two about what’s going on in their minds. They could buy one Claire Weekes audiobook and be well in a few months. And I suggest you not threaten people with different opinions even if you are brainwashed.

  4. I also realize that I may be confusing comments about the owner of this site with me, either way you should damn him to hell over a disagreement. That’s cult behavior as he points out often.

  5. Lockie, have you even been to benzobuddies?

    It’s one big forum full of people and special-interest groups, scammers and man-haters, crazy people and energy thiefs from vulnerable people trying to get their lives together.

  6. Ditto Lockie. Mike is a very sick person. He likes picking on sick people who are trying to quit a very nasty addiction which btw makes you sicker and sicker over time. Shame on you Mike59.

  7. “Victim playing (also known as playing the victim or self-victimization) is the fabrication of victimhood for a variety of reasons such as to justify abuse of others, to manipulate others, a coping strategy or attention seeking. Where a person is known for regular victim playing, the person may be referred to as a professional victim.”

  8. Quit your lying mike59. Benzos are addictive and they ruin your health long-term. You should discontinue this blog. It is full of lies.

  9. “Many addicts have problems dealing with anger and expressing it in appropriate ways. Feelings of anger can be linked to relapsing because often that is the only way an addict knows how to deal with anger – by using their drug of choice to mask their feelings. A person who is unable to express their anger in a healthy way will resort to using more drugs or alcohol as a method of coping with these strong feelings, leaving them in an endless destructive cycle. If you want to achieve abstinence, it’s crucial that you learn how to manage your anger in a positive way.”

  10. Ok, Nikki. You’ve demonstrated that you can come here and troll, and parrot the misconceptions of someone else.

    What else do you have?

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