Hophead begs cult’s permission to try Remeron

losing all hope
« on: June 06, 2017, 08:23:44 am »

[Buddie]

I am losing hope to recover. Even if I am only fighting for such a short time compared to all of you.
I can handle it all, but not the insomnia.
I thought things were getting a bit better, I slept 17 hours last week. But the past 3 days I slept NOTHING. I feel relaxed, still stay awake, heart pounding, night sweats etc.
I am going to lose my job over this, my social life is already nothing for months.

Sure, I can still try remeron, but I feel I am masking the problem only by taking medication. And what if I take it for a while and have to cut back on that eventually, then I get rebound insomnia from that too? And I just really get depressed if I gain weight. I already gained a lot past years. My weight is healthy now, but I don’t want any more.

I need to get to work (interacting with a lot of people and making decisions). I took some time off, but it didn’t help with the insomnia at all.

I lost all hope for a good (normal) life.

Sorry, to complain, but I am crying my eyes out here….

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