Boyfriend broke up with me and guess what...HUGE WAVE « on: January 19, 2020, 09:13:53 pm »
Perfect timing right? I knew it was only a matter of time but seriously, in month freaking 6, one of the most difficult ones thus far and he breaks my heart. If I was not self conscious and insecure enough, well…now I have never felt so unbearably awful.
I knew something was up for some time, but of course wham! Hits me with it in a cowardly way, through his sister…and he’s 50 years old, I’m 36. I do not even have words for the extreme pain I feel…think there were symptoms in a wave before…I feel like I’m back in acute hell. I am Absolutely devastated. Thank you so much EX boyfriend for choosing to explore other options while I’m in the middle of the most difficult period in my entire life. Completely selfish and inconsiderate. With that being said, I’m so anxious I’m shaking, Ive never cried so hard, I’m starving and can’t eat, exhausted from not sleeping, and I have completely lost my mind. So much so, I was extremely close to going to the hospital last night, oh and this morning, because the trembling would not let up. Thankfully, I was able to take an hour nap this afternoon…but gosh I could go on and on about the extreme pain in my ears and chest…my nerves are stinging beyond words. I’m in despair BBs…heart break without a sedative, in month 6, not sure I will survive it.
What an asshole.