too traumatized to heal « on: September 29, 2020, 08:48:43 pm »
i wont be on bb much longer but if you never hear from me again i guess this will let you know why. Im simply too messed up and have messed up too badly to heal fully. Jesus is supposed to be the healer and redeemer but sorry there is no healing this mothers heart from the monsterous symptoms ive had and the betrayal ofpeople i intrusted with this info when i was at my most frightened and f”@$ed up. i swim through the success stories of all these people who just plain didnt go as off their nut as i did. severe but kept their jobs. seveer but somehow stayed out of the wards. severe but somehow kept their heads about them. No one to tell me hey ive been where you are…no one yo say this is how we get you past this. i scared off the only person who has any insight into the horrors i have been through and even she didnt f up her life and is now i guess doing ok.anyway. ive said it before. satan knew what he was doing when he did this to me.