Update - My Dr. told me I would have to stay on Valium forever - I'm not kidding « on: October 27, 2020, 10:35:35 pm »
Well, let’s just say my appointment did not go well. Now that I am done crying I wanted to share with you all what happened.
This was the appointment where I asked her if she would help set me up with a compounded liquid Valium taper. I said that I know I’m on a very small dose (2mg) but that when I tried to go to 1.5mg I had severe anxiety & insomnia. So I wanted to taper very gradually with liquid.
She said NO. She said she had talked to her supervising Dr. and that they both agreed, given my history with anxiety and getting off and on benzos, that . . . WAIT FOR IT . . . I need to accept that I will have to take it forever.
I could not believe my ears. I wish I was making this up. This is an actual licensed medical provider in the US.
I tried to respectfully make my case that I did not want to be on benzos forever, that they were not healthy to be on forever, etc. and that I just wanted her help to get off. And that I didn’t want to add on additional meds to help (she has prescribed hydroxyzine & trazodone). The hydroxyzine doesn’t really work and I’m too scared to do Trazodone for fear that I will become dependent on it. She said it’s not possible to become dependent on Trazodone.
I was in tears and by the end of that horrible call I just agreed to do what she said. Not really of course but just to end the call.
I already have another appt with a different Dr. set up for tomorrow. They originally couldn’t see me till 11/11 but called and said they had a cancellation for tomorrow. I pray this new one can help me.