Third time the charm?

Going for it for a 3rd time
« on: September 25, 2018, 07:40:36 am »

[Buddie]

I was put on Klonopin 22 years ago when there really wasn’t anything much about it on the net. Over the course of the years I went up yo 8mg thanks to the doctors , Realized I was in deep trouble and slowly titrated down to 4 which was hellish and then stopped for a few years . I then began my titration to completely get off of the 4 mg 10 years ago. Not an issue at all and stepped off at .25mg and within a month or so all hell broke loose and I tried to stay with it but it got the best of me when I landed in the hospital. Reinstated at 4 mg and have held until now. I am now 64 and feel that this is my last chance. The klonopin isn’t working. I have many issues as a result. Neuropathy in feet and fingers, heavy sweats, feeling like bees are stinging me all over my body and tinnitus that comes and goes especially when anxiety flares up. If its not working as in my brain wants more like it did last time and I am in pain now and seeing it worsening. I am getting very little sleep and my adrenals are not doing well. What else can I do. So, wish me luck. Any help or advice would be seriously appreciated. I wish all of you the best life can offer.

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MSG affecting sleep?
« on: September 10, 2018, 09:38:52 pm »

[Buddie]

Does anyone find that consuming MSG have an effect on how you feel or how you sleep? Anyone found a diet that helps you feel the most stable? Thank you

Re: MSG affecting sleep?
« Reply #1 on: September 19, 2018, 01:08:10 am »

[Buddie]

I was really sensitive to MSG and I could tell whenever I injested some. Especially when it was the type added to food vs natural MSG. Now it doesn’t bother me at all. I can eat anything I want.

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Brainwashed Benzo Buddies members trained to hide symptoms from family, embrace cult family

Hiding your actual feeling for family and friends. Feeling so bad!!!!
« on: September 14, 2018, 10:34:57 pm »

[Buddie]

I am really suffering terribly last months, but don’t speak about my symptoms anymore with family and friends. After so long I don’t want to bother them. I get the question “how are” you several times a week and actually the answer in my head is always bad, because that is what it is. The only reason why I am posting so much is because I need to share my thoughts somewhere. Sometimes with response which I appreciate. I am feeling so hopeless and the only thing I think; what if I don’t wake up tommorow? I am fine, wow the fact that these thoughts are going through my mind is something I could not imagine. I used to be the opposite always positive and happy, but don’t see light at the end of the tunnel right now. The fact that 18 months came and went by with 0 improvement is so depressing. Sorry for my negative post.

For all the (long) term sufferers how do you stay positive and what do you do to distract your mind on the worst days? How do you handle your emotions?

Some positive words are appreciated.
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Re: Hiding your actual feeling for family and friends. Feeling so bad!!!!
« Reply #1 on: September 14, 2018, 10:42:05 pm »

[Buddie]

I can really appreciate your words. I too am trying so hard to keep how I actually feel to myself . I still breakdown with my husband on occasion . I cry most days and just wish the day away. I was always the happy person at the all the events now getting up is a struggle . I feel like I am falling farther and farther away . I am sorry I do not have any encouraging words but wanted you to know how much I understand . Sending you a gentle virtual hug as it is all I have right now

Re: Hiding your actual feeling for family and friends. Feeling so bad!!!!
« Reply #2 on: September 14, 2018, 11:00:15 pm »

[Buddie]

Thanks […], too tired and sick to help others right now. So understand your comment.

A bug hug for you too!!

Re: Hiding your actual feeling for family and friends. Feeling so bad!!!!
« Reply #3 on: September 14, 2018, 11:23:41 pm »

[Buddie]

We have each other. We can lean on each other. Cry on each other, and no explanation needed. You Don’t have to exert the energy of faking how you are feeling. We know it’s hard. You are significant and only human. There is no judgement here. No one goes to battle and is happy, rested, feeling and looking their best. Just know that your brothers and sisters in this battle understand, support and validate your journey.

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Benzo Buddies failure: 33 months off and worse than ever

33 months off updates
« on: September 27, 2018, 12:29:48 am »

[Buddie]

Hi BB

TODAY I completed my 33 month off paxil cold turkey, still suffering hard
My symptoms
– anxiety
– depression
– mental fog and bad cognitive skills
– no emotions
– insomnia
– senstive to all stress situations even small things
– anger and hate
– irritation
– low self esteem
– vision and hearing issues
– neirve pain
– fatigue
– cant work out
– intrusive thoughts
– negative emotions
– fear

I thought I would be finished by now but it seems a long road to take, I cannot live my life as normal people do. I hope this ends soon.

Re: 33 months off updates
« Reply #1 on: September 27, 2018, 01:16:39 am »

[Buddie]

Congrats on the milestone, although you probably don’t feel very celebratory.

Did you taper off of benzos too?

Benzo Buddies cult members argue over whether or not to get a flu shot

Flu Shot
« on: September 25, 2018, 04:51:08 am »

[Buddie]

Do any of you get the seasonal flu shot? If so does it cause you any problems?

My body is so weak and battered, it feels as if flu would end me right now, so maybe getting the shot will help prevent me getting really sick this winter, from one flu strain anyway. The shot only protects you against one strain of the virus, and if the virus decides to mutate half way through the flu season, the vaccine is rendered useless. Is it worth the bother and potential risk of an uptick?.

Thanks.

Re: Flu Shot
« Reply #1 on: September 25, 2018, 09:42:17 am »

[Buddie]

I get them. Totally worth it.

Re: Flu Shot
« Reply #2 on: September 25, 2018, 04:39:44 pm »

[Buddie]

I have gotten a flu shot for years with no negative side effects. I think it worth whatever risk there might be.

Re: Flu Shot
« Reply #3 on: September 25, 2018, 04:53:05 pm »

[Buddie]

NO never! I hate any vaccines but the flu shot has mercury in it. It doesn’t prevent the flu only helps the intensity. And 1/2 the time it’s not effective towards the strain going around that year. I have influenza A in January fresh off Benzos and I was fine. Just eat well, and take care of your body.

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