Ashton cultist slowly drifting into oblivion…

Blank brain
« on: July 26, 2020, 06:29:37 pm »

[Buddie]

I have blank brain it is sleeping and it is switching off, I can’t think I lost short and long term memory, I can’t see at all, my brain just like doesn’t work like it should I have severe insomnia because I can’t put it to sleep because it is already sleeping when I’m awake. All my body functions are disappearing can’t pee I’m constipated, I don’t feel hunger or thirst.

“One bad apple”

Alcohol in foods
« on: July 05, 2020, 09:31:09 am »

[Buddie]

Hi, I just ate an apple that had a little alcohol taste to it and now I’m afraid it will set me back a little.. Do such small amounts of alcohol have any impact on the gaba receptors?
« Last Edit: July 05, 2020, 11:08:25 am by [Buddie] »

Re: Alcohol in foods
« Reply #1 on: July 05, 2020, 11:35:14 am »

[Buddie]

Apples don’t have alcohol in them. You should worry about eating apples, they are very good for your overall health.

Re: Alcohol in foods
« Reply #2 on: July 05, 2020, 12:09:38 pm »

[Buddie]

Thank you for your response, […]. Well there can be if the fruit is ripe/overripe. The yeasts can ferment the sugars of the fruit and produce alcohol.

Re: Alcohol in foods
« Reply #3 on: July 05, 2020, 12:12:37 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on July 05, 2020, 12:09:38 pm
Thank you for your response, […]. Well there can be if the fruit is ripe/overripe. The yeasts can ferment the sugars of the fruit and produce alcohol.

Honestly, this should not be something you need to worry about. I ate a lot of fruit during my taper and recovery in an effort to eat cleanly.

Re: Alcohol in foods
« Reply #4 on: July 06, 2020, 08:21:31 am »

[Buddie]

Unless your apple was a mushy pile of fermented goo= I think you are getting a bit overly anxious. Not many people are going to pick up a fermented apple and manage to eat it. Animals do it fairly often and exhibit signs of intoxication but those are some seriously fermented fruits! It is much more likely that your apple was in the same container as a bad apple and took on some odor/taste that absolutely will not mess your system up. This is why they have the whole “one bad apple” saying = They quickly take on the icky odor/flavor of a nearby nasty one. It doesnt hurt you, it just makes for an unsalable product. Maybe just don’t eat the rest of it if it doesn’t taste right?

Taper leaves Benzo Buddies member bedridden for three years

Bedridden
« on: July 11, 2020, 01:15:36 pm »

[Buddie]

Hey guys

Has anyone experienced being severely bedridden with extreme muscle atrophy and deconditioning? For the last 3 years I would estimate I’ve been stuck in bed Probably 98% of the time. Aside from making quick easy meals and coming close to passing out, and short trips to the bathroom, that is the only time I’m not recumbent. My mobility problems stem from severe POTS like symptoms and pain. My head also feels really unstable on my spine when I walk.

Can anybody out there relate to this?

30 years of Xanax ends with a cold turkey

Benzo hell
« on: July 15, 2020, 05:56:55 pm »

[Buddie]

After recently researching Xanax withdrawal and symptoms was directed to this group. Been on a cocktail of psych meds since the age of 25 currently 58 years old. This was for the all so common depression and anxiety Diagnosis, started Xanax at 25 years of age with ever increasing doses up to 55 years of age. Emergency room visit at 55 years of age was abruptly taken off Xanax, and that’s where the horror begin.

52 months out…

Will taking a med to help stop the tremors keep me from healing...
« on: June 30, 2020, 01:54:31 pm »

[Buddie]

I am 52 months out and take carbidopa/levadopoa to control the shaking/tremors so that I can go to work. Does anyone know if this will keep me from healing?

Cult women claim benzos cause them to grow moustaches

Facial hair loss
« on: June 28, 2020, 05:06:21 am »

[Buddie]

Any males experienced this? I first noticed it about a month ago and since then it’s fallen out and thinned our considerably with large patches with no hair.
I don’t know if this is Benzo related or not.
« Last Edit: June 28, 2020, 05:48:13 am by [Buddie] »

Re: Facial hair loss
« Reply #1 on: June 28, 2020, 01:14:55 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m female and have lost hair on head but growing a moustache.

Dark Thoughts

Dark thoughts and nightmares
« on: June 24, 2020, 09:04:43 pm »

[Buddie]

I have had violent thoughts on and off throughout this despicable predicament I’m in. I thought they were a thing of the past and I was afraid to even post on here that I was having them. I had a nightmare that I punched the woman my ex husband is having a baby with. I do not even know what the woman looks like. This is just disgusting…I hate myself, this is not okay!!! I want to be back to normal…this has been a very difficult week. Does anyone have violent nightmares or thoughts? I did a search and found a post but it was a long time ago…am I going insane?
« Last Edit: June 24, 2020, 09:46:04 pm by [Buddie] »