Public health emergency: Benzo Buddies members unable to eat normal food due to cult brainwashing, lives at risk

Hell breaks loose after first meal
« on: March 04, 2018, 04:02:43 pm »


It doesn’t matter what I eat although I try to just stick to healthy fats and proteins. I don’t have any sugar, carbs or anything unnatural in the mornings. The minute after I take a bite of food in the morning is when my head pressure, dizziness and blurred vision come on. The hell usually lasts all day after my first bite of food but sometimes gets better towards the evening. The only break I get is for two or three hours in the mornings.

Anyone else?

Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal
« Reply #1 on: March 04, 2018, 04:44:47 pm »


Same here. Still happening 20 months out.

Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal
« Reply #2 on: March 04, 2018, 04:44:47 pm »


What symptoms do you get?

Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal
« Reply #3 on: March 05, 2018, 09:34:13 am »


Exactly that made the psych diagnose me with “anxiety and panic disorder”.

Newsflash, it’s called DYSAUTONOMIA!

Thanks doc. for the misdiagnosis and putting me on this poison, and completely destroying my life.
I told every doctor about it, it didn’t matter matter what i ate, i felt sick, became extremely anxious and had to spend the whole day in bed.

NEVER blindly trust a doctor, do your own research too.

Ashton worshippers replace benzo addiction with food addiction, pile on the pounds

Can't stop eating
« on: March 06, 2018, 12:17:44 pm »


My brain is telling me to every minute of every day.

It is not like hunger but a sort of panic stricken compulsion that I am unable to ignore. I can’t get any control over it.

I am gaining weight fast.

I don’t know what to do.

I have never experienced anything like it. I lost half my body weight a couple of years ago and don’t want to be fat again.

I think it is tied to my being completely unable to feel any senstion from inside my body including feeling full.

Re: Can't stop eating
« Reply #1 on: March 07, 2018, 02:49:32 am »


I went through a similar phase. I ended up gaining a fair amount of weight which I then had to work back off. And like you, I had lost a bunch of weight (102 pounds) the year before I withdrew.

Maybe go for a nice long walk (without taking any food). Or make sure all the food around the house takes a good hour or more to prepare (no ready-to-eat foods or snacks laying around).

Re: Can't stop eating
« Reply #2 on: March 07, 2018, 03:24:15 am »


I understand what you mean when you say you can’t feel sensations on the inside of your body.

For awhile I was so numb internally I wondered if my heart was still beating. I would have thoughts that would make meme panic mentally but I couldn’t feel any physical response. My body felt dead.

I wonder if your hunger signals are simply misfiring and miscommunicating too. Hunger (or lack thereof) is signalled by various hormones like leptin and ghrellin. I would say that amidst the chaos of benzo withdrawal, the signal to release those appropriately has been temporarily affected.

It could also be that your body is under a lot of stress and is working very hard so is interpreting the need for excess energy.

I would focus on physical exercise where you can. In terms of eating, all you can do right now is try make healthy balanced food choices. Think protein and fibre every meal to try keep your GI low. That should aid satiety and feelings of fullness. And then try and eat as frequently and as much as you know to be healthy for your body. If you logically know you’ve had enough, then perhaps try distraction (although I know how hard this is.

Overall, don’t beat yourself up. You can only do your best. Once you have recovered you can focus on the weight aspect if you still find that to be an issue


Re: Can't stop eating
« Reply #3 on: March 07, 2018, 07:49:49 am »


Don’t let the weight issue get out of hand. It’ll be hard to comeback later, no matter what they tell you. Eat healthy, and above all, exert control.

Re: Can't stop eating
« Reply #4 on: March 07, 2018, 12:56:41 pm »


You know I am going through something similar… the absence of internal sensations, an undiscript urge which feels like an urge to eat. It is confusing and harrowing… especially when you had already worked so hard to get back into shape!…

Do what you can. This is withdrawal… but don’t let go either. Don’t beat yourself up, is what I mean, and try to stay as healthy as you can – but know that this is not the way it will always be.

So I agree with not keeping snacks around, or if there are any, no more than what would feel like a decent portion, something “healthy”… nutrients which will help you function and heal.

Do you cook? Do you share meals with family? Try new recipes, take time to prepare and plate nicely… that could help you think of food differently…?

Brush your teeth after eating… you might feel less tempted to reach for the fridge again…

Plan your meals and snacks, that way you may be able to bargain with yourself…

Exercise and relaxation should also benefit you – especially if like me, you feel a weird “urge”. And any distraction, anything you enjoy…

Not sure whether that is advisable… I chew gum. Yes, full of yucky stuff but it helps with the “urge”… looking forward to being able to give that nasty habit up!!…

And tell yourself that you are healing. That things will get better… because they will. No matter what you believe right now!

Hugs  :smitten:
[…] xx

Re: Can't stop eating
« Reply #5 on: March 07, 2018, 04:21:30 pm »


I am not able to exercise much due to ME/CFS.

I had managed to get my exercise up while tapering but I think I pushed itto much and have made ME/CFS worse as well as withdrawal stuff.

I am mainly housebound.

I can’t explain the eating thing – it does not feel like a normal craving. It feels qualitively different and related to the hypersalivation and neck/jaw tightness that makes my body feel like it is chewing all the time I am awake – like the signals are all messed up.

Also the feel and taste of food is all wrong in my mouth.

The lack of sensation applies to my sense of touch as well – my body feels like it is made of something inert like plastic and the world feels too insubstantial. I manage to forget about it sometimes and then I rub my face or something and the full horror of it returns.

I think I need to talk to the neurologist again.

Before withdrawl I had a very small appetite and ate a paleo style diet. I mainly had one meal a day.

Cult screwball tries GABA supplement, flips out, begs Ashton’s forgiveness

word of caution
« on: March 07, 2018, 08:23:12 pm »


please do not move this post to the supplement section as I think it’s something everyone needs to see

i am going to be taking a break from BB for a little while due to lots of travel but wanted to post something – i am 9 months out now and had been doing amazing – then – in a frustrated moment with sleep – i decided to try – literally – a 1/2 capsule of GABA – i had used it years ago before z drugs, i had carefully carefully avoided all GABA impacting things until then – well – for 72 hours – i went back into acute – severe severe withdrawal – absolutely terrifying – no sleep in those 72 hours – my heart rate that had been back in the 60s went back to 100 – severe muscle pain, constant chemical induced panic – not anxiety – panic. so – for those of you who have been dabbling with GABA supplements thinking they will ease the burden of withdrawal – this experience showed me that – it is indeed true what the ashton manual says– that anything acting on GABA really isnt helping you but delaying or preventing healing…… withdrawal is horrible – and its just something you have to get through – i really believe that anything acting on GABA is going to hinder or prevent healing – so carefully research what you take – things like holy basil, ashwagandha, relora, passionflower, CBD – they all hit the GABA receptors. if you find you aren’t getting better – this may be why.

thankfully after 72 hours everything went back to normal and i learned a very valuable lesson. i suspect alcohol would have this same effect so will continue to abstain for a good long while – not worth the terror of what i went through in those 72 hours wondering if i had totally reset the clock back to zero… looking forward to my vacation in the sun and then lots of work travel – i am grateful to have reclaimed my life and will never risk my recovery again. I accept sleep will be up and down a while longer!

Benzo Buddies member agonizes over whether or not a cup of French onion soup will drive her insane

Am I screwed
« on: March 02, 2018, 02:32:25 am »


I went out to dinner with my fiance tonight and had a cup of French onion soup. Well I got home and started feeling almost normal like. I actually feel good. Vision is clear and my head is not pounding I feel almost myself well I was reading some recipes online and in homemade onion soup they use alcohol in it? Im really wondering if I screwed myself over and there was alcohol still in the soup now I don’t know what to think and I’m hoping I didn’t blow my whole recovery I seriously can’t take much more of this bullshit. What do you guys think?

Re: Am I screwed
« Reply #1 on: March 02, 2018, 03:08:45 am »


Why not call the restaurant and ask the chef if they used alcohol in the recipe? They probably don’t, unless they say so on the menu, but it won’t hurt to ask.

Re: Am I screwed
« Reply #2 on: March 02, 2018, 03:14:50 am »


Just said French onion soup and a price I just don’t get why I was feeling normal

Dark chocolate binge sends kook over the edge

Dark Chocolate Caused Big Wave
« on: February 23, 2018, 02:09:14 pm »


Major DR, depression, poor sleep, hopelessness, anxiety, SI, detached. All from eating (a lot of) dark chocolate. I hope I feel better today.

Re: Dark Chocolate Caused Big Wave
« Reply #1 on: February 23, 2018, 02:39:01 pm »


I hope you feel better today, too! As much as I love chocolate, I found out the hard way that it affects me in the same way. It seems I’ve become quite sensitive to both sugar and caffeine, both of which are ingredients in most chocolate.