Another Ashton failure: 10 months off and worse than ever

« on: November 22, 2017, 04:35:53 pm »


Does anyone or can anyone relate to a screaming type inner head feeling-not pain but just a wretched and painful crying…I get this almost daily and it’s straight from hell…I don’t know how anyone survives this-I feel so traumatized..have stopped eating much or drinking..really doubt my survival at almost 10 ms off

Why are so many Benzo Buddies members bedridden?

Can't get out of bed. Worried.
« on: November 04, 2017, 03:58:46 pm »


I had my bf’s parents staying at our house twice in three weeks. This stressed me out. Before that the pharmacist gave me quetiapine/seroquel made by a different company. I took this for about two weeks and was wondering why I felt so bad. It seems that it could have been that to blame.
Anyway, I am back on my original tablets but I can’t seem to get back to how I felt before this happened. I am stuck in bed because getting up is just too much right now. I feel guilty being in bed but this is such a bad wave.
Will my body go back to how it was before and has anyone else had to go to bed to ride out a wave? Thanks.

Mind control cult brainwashes terrified addict into fearing wife and daughter

Scared to leave bedroom.
« on: May 24, 2017, 11:20:03 am »


Today is my 14 year wedding anniversary I can’t even leave my bedroom because I am scared everything including my wife and daughter. This makes absolutely no sense and it really bothers me. I have an appointment with a therapist this morning and I don’t think I can even make it out of the bed. I’m trembling in complete fear. I know people say they get this but I really think that I’m permanently damaged. How the hell can I be scared of my own wife and daughter? What the f*** is wrong with me? Today is the 6th day in a row with no sleep and spent 3 hours last night suffering an anxiety attack so bad that I was convinced I was going to die it felt the blood leave my limbs and my head was popping out of my chest. I know people say things get better but I really don’t know if I could hold on any longer. I really wonder why I can’t just fall asleep and not wake up so I could be put out of this misery