Television (and books) forbidden for Ashton cultists

Fear over Books and Television
« on: August 04, 2019, 11:16:50 pm »

[Buddie]

Does anyone become filled with anxiety when you try to watch television or read a book?

I use to love both, but now I can’t handle more than a few seconds of either. It makes it so so so hard to fill the day.

Re: Fear over Books and Television
« Reply #1 on: August 05, 2019, 12:48:27 am »

[Buddie]

Yes.

Re: Fear over Books and Television
« Reply #2 on: August 05, 2019, 12:53:29 am »

[Buddie]

YES. I actually stopped watching TV during WD. The violence, the negativity, just became way too much for me. I did not watch TV for several years because of this. I already had enough dark and negative thoughts in my mind. Did not need to add to that. Believe it or not I only resumed watching some TV a few months ago. And you know what? Seven years of NOT watching TV was truly a GOOD thing, a nice thing. I had to find other ways to pass the time.
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Re: Fear over Books and Television
« Reply #3 on: August 05, 2019, 01:25:23 am »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on August 05, 2019, 12:53:29 am
YES. I actually stopped watching TV during WD. The violence, the negativity, just became way too much for me. I did not watch TV for several years because of this. I already had enough dark and negative thoughts in my mind. Did not need to add to that. Believe it or not I only resumed watching some TV a few months ago. And you know what? Seven years of NOT watching TV was truly a GOOD thing, a nice thing. I had to find other ways to pass the time.
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Same for me. Stopped watching TV completely. Cut back my online reading to only a couple local news and weather reports. Can’t handle the stress. I get too worked up. I am getting better, though. I was much worse a few years ago. So maybe I’ll be able to get back to where I was, though I’m not sure I want to. TV is all propaganda or pornography, and often both, mixed together into one tempting toxic brew. Who needs that?

This butterfly wants to fly (get shit-faced)

This butterfly wants to fly now ....so stressed
« on: May 27, 2019, 07:23:17 pm »

[Buddie]

Recently I have been under A LOT of stress everything has just piled up and I been having chest pains it then gives me more anxiety and adds more stress and worry. The pains feel like a pinch right where my heart is.

Then recently past few days I have been feeling kind of numb no motivation not much energy just want to be on the couch the whole day.

When is it safe to have a drink I’m 8 months off and I have had a drink just on certain occasions.

Can anyone relate? How do you deal with stress?

Kook loses his shit after eating piece of steak

meat
« on: May 18, 2019, 08:03:14 pm »

[Buddie]

Uh. Im confused. I just ate a piece of steak. Nothing else. And im in a wave 5 minutes later. Does red meat cause glutamate storm or whats the deal? I bet its got antibiotics or msg in it.
« Last Edit: May 18, 2019, 08:16:11 pm by [Buddie] »

Re: meat
« Reply #1 on: May 19, 2019, 12:36:55 pm »

[Buddie]

Red meat has been a serious issue for me, too. I was diagnosed with Lyme and other parasites.

Interesting article.
https://mosaicscience.com/story/mammalian-meat-allergy-alpha-gal-allergic-lone-star-tick-bite/

Re: meat
« Reply #2 on: May 20, 2019, 08:59:25 am »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on May 19, 2019, 12:36:55 pm
Red meat has been a serious issue for me, too. I was diagnosed with Lyme and other parasites.

Interesting article.
https://mosaicscience.com/story/mammalian-meat-allergy-alpha-gal-allergic-lone-star-tick-bite/
kinda scary, these type of things.. I have a pretty bad tick history from several angles… 🙁
The pictures of meat in the adds looked slightly yummy, so I wont stress on it…
I must have heard of this here in Aust at some point, as it rang a dull bell..

Thanks…

Hey Cres, 🙂

Sorry, not very relavant I guess, but I often get dropped from some “reaction” after a “meal”… Size is a factor, from a small burger upwards… Meat is a factor, or say, deep fried…
-Stomache pain, deliberate breathing, sweats/fever, chills, tight numb/chewy burning up neck jaw and face..
I just have to lay down and it passes in a bit… -Sorry, I dont know why I get this…

Is there a pattern, or is this out of the blue..??

Dark chocolate binge sends kook over the edge

Dark Chocolate Caused Big Wave
« on: February 23, 2018, 02:09:14 pm »

[Buddie]

Major DR, depression, poor sleep, hopelessness, anxiety, SI, detached. All from eating (a lot of) dark chocolate. I hope I feel better today.

Re: Dark Chocolate Caused Big Wave
« Reply #1 on: February 23, 2018, 02:39:01 pm »

[Buddie]

I hope you feel better today, too! As much as I love chocolate, I found out the hard way that it affects me in the same way. It seems I’ve become quite sensitive to both sugar and caffeine, both of which are ingredients in most chocolate.

THIS TAPER FAILED

2 years out
« on: February 06, 2018, 01:47:28 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi, I’ve been off for a couple of years but lately, the past 2 or 3 weeks, I’m back where I was during my withdrawal, anxiety, pounding chest etc. Is it even possible that the aftereffects can last this long or is this just the way I am and I was covering it up with the meds? This is no fun.

Lack of medication causes panic attack

Re: Health Anxiety
« Reply #391 on: April 10, 2017, 07:16:03 am »

[Buddie]

Hey […] .. here’s one to bring a smile to your face.. sad thing is it is all true ! This is even better than the smiling at yourself in the mirror each morning to see if you had had a stroke..!
Anyhow last night I woke up in the night and got up to go to the bathroom and noticed blood on the pillowcase… not a lot but enough to be scary on a white pillowcase , right where my mouth had been … could feel the fear just rush through me.. what on earth .. my mouth felt kind of sore , could it be a new type of stroke?? I had a small paper cut just at the side of my mouth that is taking a long time to heal.. I figure in the light of day I must have scratched it and it has bled a little.. added to that ,reflux and you have a messy pillowslip.. oh no , could I be that logical in the middle of the night ?? Not on your life.. I was bleeding internally , I was bleeding from an artery in my nose somewhere.. oh my goodness… funny now as I tell it but you can bet it wasn’t funny in the night … the sight of blood always scares the daylights out of me…. health anxiety in the extreme ….xx

Panic breaks out as cult high priestess Perseverance flees Benzo Buddies

Searching for Perseverance
« on: December 02, 2016, 07:56:41 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi All,

I have introduced myself here before as the director/producer of As Prescribed, a documentary (in production) about the benzodiazepine scourge. I find BB member […]’s theories about benzos to be compelling, and would like to contact her. Does anybody know her? I believe that she is based in Maine. I don’t think she visits BB much anymore, but I would not be surprised if some current members know how to reach her. If so, I’d be enormously grateful. And if you have additional questions of me before sharing contact information, please PM me here, or email me at hollyhardman88@gmail.com.

Thanks!
Holly

Re: Searching for Perseverance
« Reply #1 on: December 02, 2016, 08:53:54 pm »

[Buddie]

I have no idea how to contact her, but just wanted to say that I agree with you about […]’s work. Her research was top quality. I’d say the ‘glutamate theory’ is the best one we have right now.

Re: Searching for Perseverance
« Reply #2 on: December 02, 2016, 08:58:29 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi […],

I haven’t seen her active here in some time; if she is still set to allow PMs, you could contact her that way and it will go to her email if that’s still valid.

Good luck.