Dark chocolate binge sends kook over the edge

Dark Chocolate Caused Big Wave
« on: February 23, 2018, 02:09:14 pm »

[Buddie]

Major DR, depression, poor sleep, hopelessness, anxiety, SI, detached. All from eating (a lot of) dark chocolate. I hope I feel better today.

Re: Dark Chocolate Caused Big Wave
« Reply #1 on: February 23, 2018, 02:39:01 pm »

[Buddie]

I hope you feel better today, too! As much as I love chocolate, I found out the hard way that it affects me in the same way. It seems I’ve become quite sensitive to both sugar and caffeine, both of which are ingredients in most chocolate.

THIS TAPER FAILED

2 years out
« on: February 06, 2018, 01:47:28 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi, I’ve been off for a couple of years but lately, the past 2 or 3 weeks, I’m back where I was during my withdrawal, anxiety, pounding chest etc. Is it even possible that the aftereffects can last this long or is this just the way I am and I was covering it up with the meds? This is no fun.

Lack of medication causes panic attack

Re: Health Anxiety
« Reply #391 on: April 10, 2017, 07:16:03 am »

[Buddie]

Hey […] .. here’s one to bring a smile to your face.. sad thing is it is all true ! This is even better than the smiling at yourself in the mirror each morning to see if you had had a stroke..!
Anyhow last night I woke up in the night and got up to go to the bathroom and noticed blood on the pillowcase… not a lot but enough to be scary on a white pillowcase , right where my mouth had been … could feel the fear just rush through me.. what on earth .. my mouth felt kind of sore , could it be a new type of stroke?? I had a small paper cut just at the side of my mouth that is taking a long time to heal.. I figure in the light of day I must have scratched it and it has bled a little.. added to that ,reflux and you have a messy pillowslip.. oh no , could I be that logical in the middle of the night ?? Not on your life.. I was bleeding internally , I was bleeding from an artery in my nose somewhere.. oh my goodness… funny now as I tell it but you can bet it wasn’t funny in the night … the sight of blood always scares the daylights out of me…. health anxiety in the extreme ….xx

Panic breaks out as cult high priestess Perseverance flees Benzo Buddies

Searching for Perseverance
« on: December 02, 2016, 07:56:41 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi All,

I have introduced myself here before as the director/producer of As Prescribed, a documentary (in production) about the benzodiazepine scourge. I find BB member […]’s theories about benzos to be compelling, and would like to contact her. Does anybody know her? I believe that she is based in Maine. I don’t think she visits BB much anymore, but I would not be surprised if some current members know how to reach her. If so, I’d be enormously grateful. And if you have additional questions of me before sharing contact information, please PM me here, or email me at hollyhardman88@gmail.com.

Thanks!
Holly

Re: Searching for Perseverance
« Reply #1 on: December 02, 2016, 08:53:54 pm »

[Buddie]

I have no idea how to contact her, but just wanted to say that I agree with you about […]’s work. Her research was top quality. I’d say the ‘glutamate theory’ is the best one we have right now.

Re: Searching for Perseverance
« Reply #2 on: December 02, 2016, 08:58:29 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi […],

I haven’t seen her active here in some time; if she is still set to allow PMs, you could contact her that way and it will go to her email if that’s still valid.

Good luck.

Cult superstar Perseverance called to account for fear-mongering

PERSEVERANCE: WHAT EXACTLY ARE YOU TRYING TO ACCOMPLISH IN YOUR POSTS?
« on: July 15, 2016, 02:05:25 pm »

[Buddie]

Assuming these posts aren’t a cut & paste patchwork of various research data obtained from the many resources that exist in cyberspace, I do admire you and appreciate the time and painstaking analysis involved in contributing to the BB.org information collective…

…unfortunately, I find the essence of many posts to be discouraging, disheartening, and offering little to no hope to those severely debilitated and crippled from the hellacious symptomatology of iatrogenic illness, as it exists in benzodiazepine withdrawal.

Words such as “permanent;” “irreversible;” and “learning deficit,” inspire hopelessness, fear, and a deep-seated sense of despair and anguish that isn’t easily resolved or relinquished; in fact, often thrusting the reader into a downward spiral, deeper into the abyss.

The scholarly, didactic verbiage that is necessary and inseparable from professional clinical trial and research writing format, further confuses and exacerbates the reader’s fragile psychological state.

For example:
“In rats given benzodiazepines chronically, the common α 1 γ2 sub-units are down-regulated, while rarer sub-units are elevated proportionately (Holt et al, 1999). It is suggested that transcription of the Gene cluster on Chromosome 5 (which encodes for α1 β2 γ2 sub-units) is inhibited on chronic benzodiazepine administration, while the transcription of the Gene cluster on Chromosome 15 is upregulated (Holt et al, 1999). In certain brain regions, the Chromosome-5-encoded receptor sub-unit proteins are replaced by those encoded in Chromosome 15, which show less sensitivity.” (4)

This excerpt is quite esoteric in nature and would require the highest level of comprehension and routine familiarity found mostly in researchers with PhD’s (not practitioners).

The one thing I’ve learned in neurology is that few things are conclusive or certain. BWS is severely under-researched and much is not fully understood by the medical community.

One question I continually ask myself since joining BB.org is, “How many people have I inadvertently hurt through bad advice?”

If for every 500 I helped, but hurt 1, I would cease to interact any further, simply because it’s not my call to make in weighing human wellness, health, and life.

Benzo Buddies maniacs demand hallucinating Ashton devotee keep tapering

Paranoia
« on: July 07, 2016, 09:34:17 pm »

[Buddie]

Hello everyone!
I need all the help and advice I can get about this topic. It’s really embarrassing for me to talk about, but it’s a real serious issue and it’s causing severe pain in my life. I was on clonazapam .5 mg 1x a day for 5 years for anxiety and insomnia. I am currently off of it and am going through a Nasty withdrawal. I got off of it because I noticed that things were getting bad for me. Anxiety was getting worse, insomnia would happen even when I took the pill sometimes, I developed ocd on this drug. And this is the topic I want to discuss..the ocd. I have/developed irrational fears of thinking someone is going to kill me. It can be anyone, if my mom just yells at me I think she is going to kill me. Literally. If my brother is sad, I think he’s going to kill us. If I don’t do my check..there is someone in my room going to hurt me. Now that I haven’t taken clonazapam
For a few days it’s getting worse. I did do a taper off of this drug. I realize I’m probably going through withdrawal, but I seriously can’t sleep at night not only because of the withdrawal, but because of these rediculous thoughts. My mind can’t calm itself down anymore, so when a thought comes in…regardless of how nuts it is..it sticks and my body reacts in fear and panic. I’m struggling with insomnia because I can’t get these crazy thoughts out. Last night I thought there were bombs placed in my room. I know I’m sleep deprived and being on clonazapam I haven’t gotten good sleep in 5 years…but how can I control these thoughts. Please talk some sense into me. I’m falling apart. I’m 23 years old, and going through a lot.

Re: Paranoia
« Reply #1 on: July 09, 2016, 12:23:33 am »

[Buddie]

Hi […], you did the right thing and stopped taking the pills. I cannot say they gave me OCD but I do know the bad thoughts are part of this. I have all kinds of crazy intrusive thoughts and we just have to tell ourselves the reality of the situation. Like your mom or your brother probably are not going to kill you, well I don’t know them maybe they will, just a little joke. That is beside the point my craziest thoughts are around suicide and I have to tell myself I’m never going to go through with it so why do I keep telling myself I will. I cannot answer that question myself. But I’m sure it is all part of this difficult thing we are going through.

Re: Paranoia
« Reply #2 on: July 09, 2016, 06:06:35 am »

[Buddie]

You were tapering too fast. I would go back to .5 and try again tapering much slower. OCD feeds on anxiety and so once you will go back to .5 you will have relief. It may take a few times until you learn how your body reacts to the withdrawal so don’t look at this as a failure. I now gone back to my original dose again because I tapered too fast. Everyone has different way they react to withdrawal and take different time to taper off. You need to give yourself time and keep trying.

Brainwashed woman risks health to adhere to cult dogma

Women's issue, your experiences would be appreciated
« on: March 02, 2016, 04:28:53 pm »

Sunny14

I read where women get urinary tract infection symptoms but are tested and it’s negative. I had one small spotting of vaginal blood, because I went through menopause 5 yrs ago went to dr who ordered an ultrasound and follow-up with gynaecologist. it does look like my vaginal discharge may have blood in it as it’s dark yellow and seems to stain underwear. I’m terrified that they’ll want to do something invasive when this may all be due to hormonal stir up caused by benzo.

Has anyone had any experience with this?

Thanks
Sunny

EMERGENCY ROOM NIGHTMARE

Anyone else been told this?
« on: January 17, 2016, 09:13:40 pm »

[Buddie]

Night before last i went to the ER and the doctor there told me that after 2 weeks off of xanax, the symptoms I’m having are no longer physical. He thinks I’m no longer in the acute phase of withdrawal and that it’s all anxiety causing the symptoms. This doesn’t make a lot of sense to me for a few reasons.
1. He doesn’t have any idea how bad my anxiety is or what it’s been like during my taper.
2. I’ve had these same symptoms at the worst parts of the taper.
3. I was feeling bad, but bearable, and then suddenly I woke up feeling awful a couple days ago, so why would it just pop up out of nowhere?
4. I don’t doubt anxiety contributes to symptoms, but to cause all of this by itself seems like too much. I’ve had anxiety make me nauseous, but not all of this.
5. That’s the first time I’ve heard anyone say that after two weeks, the symptoms would be gone.
6. Everyone I’ve talked to here on the site has said it may take months for things to disappear.

This guy bragged first thing that he and his team were experts on withdrawal of all kinds. I listed off my symptoms to him and he said “all the things your having are not typical withdrawal symptoms. We don’t associate these with withdrawal at all”

okay, so nausea isnt?
tremors arent?
headaches?
dizziness?
on and on
none of those are withdrawal symptoms? I guess millions of people are full of shit then
how could a doctor think this?
thats the most ridiculous thing ive ever heard

i laid on a bed for six hours crying and shaking, trying not to throw up, waiting to be seen at all, and then this idiot tells me its all in my head and that everything ive gone through for 7 months is nothing.

Re: Anyone else been told this?
« Reply #1 on: January 17, 2016, 09:21:20 pm »

[Buddie]

Don’t believe it

It’s real!

Re: Anyone else been told this?
« Reply #2 on: January 17, 2016, 09:30:35 pm »

[Buddie]

What absolute nonsense! This guy knows nothing about benzos. :crazy: Two weeks off is, unfortunately, just the beginning for many of us.

Re: Anyone else been told this?
« Reply #3 on: January 17, 2016, 09:35:11 pm »

[Buddie]

I was told the same thing the one time I went to the ER shortly after my own Xanax taper was finished. I had extremely high blood pressure and my doctor had told me to go if it got that high.

I was treated very patronizingly by the hospital staff, diagnosed with panic attack (it was not) and offered Klonopin. I sat in a chair, a nurse came in and patted me on the shoulder and took my BP …for $1500.

In a way it is anxiety, but it’s not the type of anxiety he’s referring to. Your central nervous system is pretty fragile and any little thing is likely to set you off.

Benzodiazepine withdrawal is an animal of a different nature and from what I’ve heard and seen, few ER docs or other medical personnel are ‘experts’.

Most people here consider the first month off to be acute. That was about how long it took my worst symptoms to settle down… probably four to six weeks and then things got easier.

Re: Anyone else been told this?
« Reply #4 on: January 17, 2016, 09:38:58 pm »

[Buddie]

Laura I’m sorry you are suffering bad enough to go to the ER for help. Yours is a sad but familiar story about clueless health care professionals who don’t know anything about benzo withdrawal. The level of ignorance is truly shocking. How can this be after 50 years? You can understand how your friends and family who don’t have a medical background might be clueless, but doctors? It makes for a lonely and solitary journey with very little empathy and understanding, except for this forum.

:smitten:
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Re: Anyone else been told this?
« Reply #5 on: January 17, 2016, 09:40:37 pm »

[Buddie]

He is exaggerating about being an “expert”. Most ER docs I have ever seen arent very benzo educated.