Our Pupa stage
« on: September 30, 2017, 08:43:49 pm »
Even though this is an otherworldly, hellish experience. We just have to be patient until we are healed and are stronger and more beautiful inside and out!
My draw-ring for today:
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Please help, desperate, got fleas in house but flea spray affects GABA
« on: August 08, 2017, 09:50:04 pm »
My friend brought his dog in my flat and the dog has left fleas, ive been bitten.
I’ve tried vaccumming, but I am so depressed and anxious and stressed about other things including withdrawal that I only have the energy to vaccuumm part of a room a day, ,whereas to get rid of the fleas, eggs and larvae you either have to vaccuum every day for a week or use flea spray with insect growth regulator in.
The problem with these substances is that they all have chemicals in which, on doing research, affect gaba in a bad way, I wont ramble.
I even tried to find a respirator online so that I did not breathe in any of the vapours, but there is so much choice that I am totally confused as to which respirator to buy to prevent me inhaling the fumes of the flea spray, as you have to keep windows shut while it works when you spray.
Has anyone ever used any of the strong flea sprays in withdrawal?
Did they react with you in a bad way?
I am desperate to hear of anyone’s experience with these flea sprays, they worked for me when i wasnt on valium but I am scared to use them given what I have read online about them interacting with GABA.
« on: July 21, 2017, 11:32:44 am »
The withdrawals got to me too much yesterday so I took a rescue dose of 10mg valium. I felt better the rest of the day but now I feel like a failure. I don’t know what I did to my taper schedule and where to go from here. Even when I make small cuts and hold I still feel sick. I think I’m going to die every day. I just want to give up. I have no life and haven’t left my house in 2 months, I can’t talk to anyone, I’m useless. I can’t even go outside. I question why I’m even doing this when I was doing so well on the valium. I do want to stop. I need some support from people who understand. Thank God for this forum.
« on: March 29, 2017, 01:14:49 pm »
Before I was put on a benzo I had Pure o OCD. My theme was I thought I was dead and in the afterlife. Today while in benzo withdrawal I can’t seem to break through the thoughts that I’m fine. Like I’m totally losing it.
I have Mental illness so it’s kinda hard to help me when I have so much going on.
Re: Afterlife fear
« Reply #1 on: March 29, 2017, 02:49:54 pm »
I think it may be your mental illness combining with the DP/DR that happens in withdrawal! For me it was just creepy things like the feel of plastic grocery bags was all wrong, I was sure they were much thinner and cheaply made and I despised touching them for a long time. Religion and your concept of what an after-life is are probably overwhelming right now.
So, research Depersonalization and Derealization, I hope that will comfort you…
It's a shame we don't have medical professionals checking in here
« on: March 05, 2017, 02:50:39 am »
It’s very odd that there are apparently so few doctors that check in here.
I used to be a chronic pain patient (I’m one of the few that got better btw). That’s how I ended up on lunesta. I used to frequent chronic pain forums. There were usually several pain doctors that frequented those forums and they were quite helpful.
There seems to be a total absence of doctors here.
We did have Perseverance, who was apparently some sort of medical professional (I’m not sure of the details). She came here because of her own ordeal with benzos, but she was so helpful to so many here as evidenced by all the pinned topics she was responsible for at the top of this forum. Thankfully she seems to have healed and moved on, but she’s left a hole that no one else has filled.
It almost feels like the medical profession has deserted us, which is a bit cruel given that they were in most cases the ones that gave us these drugs in the first place.
“The horrific life-destroying implications of benzodiazepines have been known about for decades and yet the medical profession remain largely in denial of the damage. The doctors are in denial not us. They conspired with Big Pharma to turn us into accidental addicts. Blah blah blah. The Department of Health, the BMA, and Parliament have a duty to give justice to those whose lives have been ruined. Blah blah. There must be an inquiry for the sake of future generations and for those undergoing the horrific consequences of this iatrogenically induced pandemic. Iatrogenic? Big word that means the doctors did it and we hate them. Pandemic? An epidemic of infectious disease that has spread throughout the world? Get a grip.”
Even though it is a UK petition, signatures are being solicited, at secret online kook sites, not only from UK, but also from U.S. and Canadian, citizens. At last count they had 604 signatures. Their goal is 1000. One of the doctor-bashing groups claims to have over 1500 members but can’t even rouse a significant percentage of its members to sign the petition (they don’t have 1500 active members). Benzo Buddies claims 28,000 members but over 90% of the listed membership never posts, or has posted once, and ran from the site screaming (it is rumored doctor-basher Moran even keeps dead members on the membership rolls, sick if true). If Benzo Buddies had that many members it would be very easy to get 5,000 of them to sign a petition that bashes doctors. Some movement. It is as fake as their claims Big Pharma targeted them.
- UK population 64 million
- U.S. population 319 million
- Canadian population 36 million
That is to say, out of a combined total population of 419 million only 604 people signed this garbage. What percentage is that? Is it even a number, or is it too small to be one? Someone figure it out and let me know. Pathetic is not even the right word to describe this. It is abuse of people who are often mentally ill and desperate. It is criminal the way the leaders of these cult groups lead their members on like this.
Medication helps people live productive lives.
Facing the unfortunate fact: for some of us, it's permanent
« on: January 28, 2017, 06:30:13 am »
Title says it all.
I’ve seen enough two, three, five year even 10 year off posts to know that there seems to be a set of preconditions which disposes some of us to permanent brain damage. Not sure what those are and of course the science isn’t there yet to tease this all apart. It’s an unfortunate truth.
11 months off, complete brain damage feeling in my head. Can’t think complex things anymore.
I’m puzzled just looking at this now?
Re: Facing the unfortunate fact: for some of us, it's permanent
« Reply #1 on: January 28, 2017, 06:35:18 am »
No “we all heal in time” here… I can’t take this horseshit line of patter any longer.
This is for people trying to cope with the reality of our situation and where we go and what on Earth we do from here
Please help headed to ER no sleep 13 days
« on: January 14, 2017, 07:38:07 pm »
I cant go on like this what is safe to let them give me? Advice please soo scared!!
Re: Please help headed to ER no sleep 13 days
« Reply #1 on: January 14, 2017, 08:09:07 pm »
Wow, 13 days is a long time, but unless you were up out of bed moving around the whole time you probably were getting periods of light sleep that you were not aware of.
I totally understand your desire to head off to the ER. I live just down the street from an ER and many were the nights that I wanted to run on over in desperation. Just know that ERs are all about stabilization and immediate symptom relief. They tend to be overworked and probably will want to give you a powerful sleeping aid so they can move on to the next person in line. You don’t want that. If they admit you to the hospital you will be pumped full of the same drugs and be knocked right back to where you started.
If you have not already tried any of them, you can try Trazadone, Remeron or Seroquel to help with sleep. You can just see or call your regular doctor to get a prescription. Otherwise, stay away from driving and other potentially dangerous activities and put in your time in bed (if only for badly needed rest) and sleep will find you eventually. In spite of your fears, you will not die from this. You will fall asleep before that happens.
« on: September 03, 2016, 09:24:49 pm »
In the trailer for Holly Hardman’s upcoming documentary “As Prescribed,” there is a man, a fellow benzo victim, who mentioned that his teeth feel “electrified.” I’ve been complaining about this symptom for years! It’s as though the interior of my teeth, especially the ones at the top and front, are hooked up to a nine volt battery. Anyone else have this or is just me and the poor guy in the trailer?
BTW here’s the link to the trailer. Excellent! http://www.asprescribedfilm.com/