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Brainwashed Benzo Buddies members trained to hide symptoms from family, embrace cult family

Hiding your actual feeling for family and friends. Feeling so bad!!!!
« on: September 14, 2018, 10:34:57 pm »

[Buddie]

I am really suffering terribly last months, but don’t speak about my symptoms anymore with family and friends. After so long I don’t want to bother them. I get the question “how are” you several times a week and actually the answer in my head is always bad, because that is what it is. The only reason why I am posting so much is because I need to share my thoughts somewhere. Sometimes with response which I appreciate. I am feeling so hopeless and the only thing I think; what if I don’t wake up tommorow? I am fine, wow the fact that these thoughts are going through my mind is something I could not imagine. I used to be the opposite always positive and happy, but don’t see light at the end of the tunnel right now. The fact that 18 months came and went by with 0 improvement is so depressing. Sorry for my negative post.

For all the (long) term sufferers how do you stay positive and what do you do to distract your mind on the worst days? How do you handle your emotions?

Some positive words are appreciated.
« Last Edit: September 14, 2018, 10:47:23 pm by [Buddie] »

Re: Hiding your actual feeling for family and friends. Feeling so bad!!!!
« Reply #1 on: September 14, 2018, 10:42:05 pm »

[Buddie]

I can really appreciate your words. I too am trying so hard to keep how I actually feel to myself . I still breakdown with my husband on occasion . I cry most days and just wish the day away. I was always the happy person at the all the events now getting up is a struggle . I feel like I am falling farther and farther away . I am sorry I do not have any encouraging words but wanted you to know how much I understand . Sending you a gentle virtual hug as it is all I have right now

Re: Hiding your actual feeling for family and friends. Feeling so bad!!!!
« Reply #2 on: September 14, 2018, 11:00:15 pm »

[Buddie]

Thanks […], too tired and sick to help others right now. So understand your comment.

A bug hug for you too!!

Re: Hiding your actual feeling for family and friends. Feeling so bad!!!!
« Reply #3 on: September 14, 2018, 11:23:41 pm »

[Buddie]

We have each other. We can lean on each other. Cry on each other, and no explanation needed. You Don’t have to exert the energy of faking how you are feeling. We know it’s hard. You are significant and only human. There is no judgement here. No one goes to battle and is happy, rested, feeling and looking their best. Just know that your brothers and sisters in this battle understand, support and validate your journey.

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Benzo Buddies cult members argue over whether or not to get a flu shot

Flu Shot
« on: September 25, 2018, 04:51:08 am »

[Buddie]

Do any of you get the seasonal flu shot? If so does it cause you any problems?

My body is so weak and battered, it feels as if flu would end me right now, so maybe getting the shot will help prevent me getting really sick this winter, from one flu strain anyway. The shot only protects you against one strain of the virus, and if the virus decides to mutate half way through the flu season, the vaccine is rendered useless. Is it worth the bother and potential risk of an uptick?.

Thanks.

Re: Flu Shot
« Reply #1 on: September 25, 2018, 09:42:17 am »

[Buddie]

I get them. Totally worth it.

Re: Flu Shot
« Reply #2 on: September 25, 2018, 04:39:44 pm »

[Buddie]

I have gotten a flu shot for years with no negative side effects. I think it worth whatever risk there might be.

Re: Flu Shot
« Reply #3 on: September 25, 2018, 04:53:05 pm »

[Buddie]

NO never! I hate any vaccines but the flu shot has mercury in it. It doesn’t prevent the flu only helps the intensity. And 1/2 the time it’s not effective towards the strain going around that year. I have influenza A in January fresh off Benzos and I was fine. Just eat well, and take care of your body.

Moran works brainwashed kooks into frenzy over whether or not cooking with alcohol is safe

Cooking with alcohol?
« on: August 21, 2018, 11:11:14 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi, I'm 18 months off. Wanna know if its safe to cook with alcohol, I don't want a set back.

Re: Cooking with alcohol?
« Reply #1 on: August 21, 2018, 11:32:34 pm »

[Buddie]

If it’s heated yes…..

Re: Cooking with alcohol?
« Reply #2 on: August 22, 2018, 01:03:09 am »

[Buddie]

I cook with alchohol and have not had any problems. I don’t use a lot but if the recipe calls for it then I go ahead and use half of what it calls for. I don’t do it very often though. I haven’t noticed it making me worse.

Re: Cooking with alcohol?
« Reply #3 on: August 22, 2018, 03:00:11 am »

[Buddie]

I had soup with alcohol and it gave me a wave for several terrible months. It’s a myth that it cooks out. Google it… studies have been done!

Re: Cooking with alcohol?
« Reply #4 on: August 22, 2018, 05:09:05 am »

[Buddie]

I have not had any issues with food cooked in alcohol. I am 21 months off, but have had things cooked in alcohol a few time and never had an issue.

Re: Cooking with alcohol?
« Reply #5 on: August 23, 2018, 01:20:43 am »

[Buddie]

I’m 18 months and I wouldn’t have a drop of alcohol if my life depended on it. It always pisses me off how crazy people are that they would be willing to risk pure hell over some damm alcohol! How is it worth it?

I would have healed over a year ago had I known the kind of hell alcohol puts us into with this illness.

Anti-psychiatry cult blames Big Pharma and doctors for Anthony Bourdain suicide

Re: Yep, Its Confirmed Kate Spade was on Anxiety Meds
« Reply #14 on: June 10, 2018, 04:03:12 pm »

[Buddie]

I googled, “How does Anthony Bourdain sleep on the plane” and came up with this interview, posted two years ago:

How I Travel: Anthony Bourdain
https://www.bootsnall.com/articles/how-i-travel-anthony-bourdain.html

“I generally knock myself out with Valium and try and sleep through the flight. Seems to work for my crew also.”

Re: Yep, Its Confirmed Kate Spade was on Anxiety Meds
« Reply #15 on: June 10, 2018, 04:04:45 pm »

[Buddie]

:( :( :(

Re: Yep, Its Confirmed Kate Spade was on Anxiety Meds
« Reply #16 on: June 10, 2018, 04:21:38 pm »

[Buddie]

:( :( :(

And there’s this, which is more anecdotal:

https://www.quora.com/Does-Anthony-Bourdain-still-do-drugs-Is-he-still-an-active-addict

E.g in The Layover he mentions taking some “medication” to put him to sleep on the plane which knocked him out for hours.That & his drinking.

Re: Yep, Its Confirmed Kate Spade was on Anxiety Meds
« Reply #17 on: June 10, 2018, 04:47:36 pm »

[Buddie]

Okay, I just googled “Anthony Bourdain and Valium” and came up with this:

Jan.15, 2013, Page 6
https://pagesix.com/2013/01/15/anthony-bourdains-launches-epic-rant-after-plane-seat-incident/

The cranky cook even visited the panini bar to wait for his flight when he found out what was causing the delay. He also sarcastically wrote, “But I had timed my airport margaritas and Valium for a timely departure.”

And he traveled apparently 280 days of the year…

Re: Yep, Its Confirmed Kate Spade was on Anxiety Meds
« Reply #18 on: June 10, 2018, 05:04:15 pm »

[Buddie]

Tony’s 13 Things I Won’t Leave Home Without
https://www.travelchannel.com/shows/anthony-bourdain/articles/tonys-13-things-i-wont-leave-home-without

11. Valium or Similar Substance
For long flights and for adjusting to new time zones.

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Re: Yep, Its Confirmed Kate Spade was on Anxiety Meds
« Reply #19 on: June 10, 2018, 05:09:54 pm »

[Buddie]

Seems a bit like they were as innocuous as breath mints or gum. Just stick ’em in your carry-on luggage to make you comfy when travelling.

Re: Yep, Its Confirmed Kate Spade was on Anxiety Meds
« Reply #20 on: June 10, 2018, 05:14:04 pm »

[Buddie]

Yup, seems to be. Here he is on Twitter:

Feb. 2011

Jammies. Check. Jerky treats. Check. Valium. Check. Oh, Jesus! beer! Nada!

Jan. 2012

One more episode of “My Little Pony”, pop a Valium. Fly to Finland.

Re: Yep, Its Confirmed Kate Spade was on Anxiety Meds
« Reply #21 on: June 10, 2018, 05:42:56 pm »

[Buddie]

Ugh. :(

Re: Yep, Its Confirmed Kate Spade was on Anxiety Meds
« Reply #22 on: June 10, 2018, 05:45:00 pm »

[Buddie]

It is so desperately sad. >:( >:(

Re: Yep, Its Confirmed Kate Spade was on Anxiety Meds
« Reply #23 on: June 10, 2018, 07:23:59 pm »

[Buddie]

:'( :'( Re: Yep, Its Confirmed Kate Spade was on Anxiety Meds « Reply #24 on: June 10, 2018, 08:52:16 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on June 10, 2018, 05:45:00 pm
It is so desperately sad. >:( >:(

It is and the Dr prob never warned him of any of the horrors they can cause, including depression and it was well known by people that knew him, he had depression. Hurt and anger :-\

Benzo Buddies cult brainwashes member into fearing everything

Phobic of everything?
« on: April 25, 2018, 05:37:24 pm »

[Buddie]

I seem to have become phobic of the world.

It is the touch and sound of things.

I can’t bear it.

Every time my dose wears off it gets worse.

I know when I get back to zero it will be constant again.

Does anyone else have this.

When it’s everthing how to get around it?