Withdrawal worse than COVID-19?

Withdrawal in the time of Corona
« on: March 17, 2020, 12:47:46 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi,

So I had my last dose of valium 7 weeks ago. Cold turkey-ed. Without realising any of the effects or hazards and not knowing the hell I was about to enter into. I realise now I was in tolerance withdrawal for about a month before I jumped off the train wreck that valium was and is.

I had 8 weeks off work. I run my own business. Yesterday I went back to work. Now I can comprehend how stressful my business is. Coupled with many clients being demanding – there is stress at every corner. Stress is bad bad bad for withdrawal I have learnt – the hard way. I must learn mindful mediation, have to learn to deal with stress differently. Today I almost had a volcanic melt down when I was trying to fill out an insurance form. I don’t feel like myself. I miss the person I used to be before I slammed my body into the concrete wall that is Valium. I know there is no magic formula to make withdrawal go any faster – I learnt that the hard way. No supplements. Last week I had days mostly filled with windows – some waves. This week so far I have had days mostly filled with waves – with a few creaks of windows. I crave the windows. I loathe the waves. My appetite came back – I could only eat about 10 things but it was amazing – this week I have to force myself to eat. I was sleeping like a log last week – this week I’m fending off the madness of insomnia.

And then there is Corona craziness, Benzo withdrawal in the time of Corona virus hysteria is not the way forward at all. Supermarket shelves are empty, many people are in a panic. Try benzo withdrawal I want to mutter at them – then you’ll know what panic actually feels like to the core of your very being. I couldn’t have picked a worse time to withdraw from ghastly valium. I will never, ever touch another benzo again. I plead/bargain/beg with god for this withdrawal to be over. I promise to the universe or god or who ever is listening to my silent prayers that I will do anything, anything just to feel like myself again – for longer than a window – for good.

Any soothing words would be greatly appreciated. I”m having one of those moments where I”m losing hope that I will ever feel like I permanently reside in my own body again. At the moment – for most of today – I feel like I reside on the outside – looking in.

Thank you so much.

Benzo Buddies members forbidden to take anti-anxiety medication agonize over dentist visits

Going to the dentist tomorrow. Would love some support.
« on: December 28, 2019, 12:12:26 am »

[Buddie]

Hi!
I’m going to the dentist tomorrow because of a bad tooth. I have not been there in 10 years because of anxiety when it comes to the dentist. I still have agoraphobia.

Re: Going to the dentist tomorrow. Would love some support.
« Reply #1 on: December 28, 2019, 12:17:58 am »

[Buddie]

If its a lot of work to do, ask them to split the appointment into more single appointments to make it easier.
Ask them to interrupt, then stand up and do some jumps or stretches to lower the cortisol.
If you have to wait, walk around in order not to freeze in fear.
Tell the doctor that he must stop abruptly if you lift your hand.
While sitting in the chair, tap with your fingers on the legs and count from 1 to 1000.
Drink a cup of water before and after treatment.
After the appointment, move your body, shiver, shake it, jump.

You are in control. Tell them BEFORE about the stop signal, tell them to open a window, its you in charge, its your body.
If things are too difficult, stop and make a new appointment. You can decide, okey?
Tell them about your anxiety, if you want, but then TELL them about your strategies as well, because then no one will try to do things tHEY think are good for you and you might feel like a victim again. Instead – tell them while being bold and proud that you need some more time and air and you have some orders to follow – thats it. No big deal. Okey?

Marigold!

Re: Going to the dentist tomorrow. Would love some support.
« Reply #2 on: December 28, 2019, 12:19:19 am »

[Buddie]

I have been having to go to the dentist, because if alot of cavities. Another gift from Ativan. It is very stressful as I do not get anything to numb me. I only get two at a time done. Sometimes it causes a wave, but eventually it settles down. I think it’s my own fear more than the actual dentist visit itself.
You will be fine though, it will be over before you know it.

Re: Going to the dentist tomorrow. Would love some support.
« Reply #3 on: December 28, 2019, 12:21:56 am »

[Buddie]

I also have someone go with me. It makes it easier to deal with the anxiety. If you can, have someone go with you and hang out with you for awhile afterwards.

Stay away from corn and prawns?

Corn
« on: December 07, 2019, 08:01:17 pm »

[Buddie]

Has anyone had a bad reaction to eating corn? I ate a corn cob last night and about a half hour afterwards i got huge adrenaline surges that have lasted for hours, bp went sky high 260/144 and runs of Afib, managed to keep out of the hospital thank god. I read it’s high in glutamate, anyone know anything?

Re: Corn
« Reply #1 on: December 07, 2019, 08:49:07 pm »

[Buddie]

I have been fine with corn, but seriously, I have heard people reacting strangely to so many different kinds of foods, who knows. I would keep a list of the foods you react poorly to. That sounds really scary for your BP and Afib. Hope you are feeling better today

Re: Corn
« Reply #2 on: December 07, 2019, 09:04:39 pm »

[Buddie]

Thanks Green, yeah i definitely need to keep a list, i had a similar reaction to prawns a few weeks ago but it passed off very quickly, at least my bp is down today, normally it’s really low, i just feel totally wiped out today. Hopefully i won’t get a repeat performance.

Irrational fear of furniture forces Bigglesworth to sleep on the floor (furniturephobia can be treated with medication)

Was exposed to insecticides please help!!
« on: September 24, 2019, 04:02:41 pm »

Mpershe

Please, please no triggering comments. On Friday evening we had to have our master bedroom and bathroom and my sons room sprayed (baseboards) with insecticides due to carpet beetles. They said to not go in the room for 2 hours but we left the house for 24 to be safe. I am now in acute with horrific chemical anxiety, no sleep, can barely function because mental and cognitive are so bad. The product is no longer ‘airborne’ but something has gone terribly wrong!! I’m still tApering, I’m on.16mgs klonipin but now holding. Please, anyone help me!!! (The product the used was onslaught)
My husband is going to wipe the baseboards down tonight and I’m not sleeping in there but it’s sohard to even be in my house as I’m afraid to get worse!

Re: Was exposed to insecticides please help!!
« Reply #1 on: October 03, 2019, 03:10:53 am »

Bigglesworth

So sorry youre going through this. I can relate as I have severe chemical sensitivity, and cannot even be around new furniture without having breathing difficulties and over stimulation of my nervous system. I actually sleep on the floor in my bedroom with just a pile of pillows and some old blankets, because I am allergic to every new mattress I’ve tried. So much for claims of being hypoallergenic. All that memory foam stuff is a toxic nightmare for me.

I see this post is a week old so I hope you were able to get the situation under control and are feeling better.

Addict develops domatophobia after joining Benzo Buddies

Will I Ever Want to Go Home Again?
« on: September 03, 2019, 11:33:50 pm »

[Buddie]

I know I’ve spoken with a few people on this forum about this. This has been going on with me for about a year now. I don’t like going home at all. I get no joy from being in my own house. I feel mad at my family. I have no hobbies I want to pursue when I’m here. I can’t nap lately. It’s like the moment I’m gone for a while and then have to come back, I dread it. And when I’m here, I just feel mad and miserable. It doesn’t really matter if I’m home alone or not. I don’t know how many others deal with this. Being at home used to be the place I was most comfortable.

Benzo Buddies member kachina can’t watch the Food Channel

TV
« on: August 03, 2019, 11:58:46 pm »

kachina

Can anyone else not stand tv I can’t even watch the food channel

Ativan 1mg 3xday 3 month’s ct. on trazadone 50mg gabapentin, Effexor, insulin short and long acting, thyroid med, blood pressure med, cholesterol med,

Big Pharma blamed for Benzo Buddies member’s scary trip to the zoo

Setback from walking too much?
« on: August 05, 2019, 06:54:20 pm »

[Buddie]

Went to the zoo with my son and my family in law yesterday and walked so much. Now today my whole body is aching and burning from head to toe and I’m so scared. Has this happened to anyone? Everything burns worse than fire and the pain is so deep across my back, arms, legs, everywhere. Trying hard not to cry at work. This will go away right?