Addict develops domatophobia after joining Benzo Buddies

Will I Ever Want to Go Home Again?
« on: September 03, 2019, 11:33:50 pm »

[Buddie]

I know I’ve spoken with a few people on this forum about this. This has been going on with me for about a year now. I don’t like going home at all. I get no joy from being in my own house. I feel mad at my family. I have no hobbies I want to pursue when I’m here. I can’t nap lately. It’s like the moment I’m gone for a while and then have to come back, I dread it. And when I’m here, I just feel mad and miserable. It doesn’t really matter if I’m home alone or not. I don’t know how many others deal with this. Being at home used to be the place I was most comfortable.

Benzo Buddies member kachina can’t watch the Food Channel

TV
« on: August 03, 2019, 11:58:46 pm »

kachina

Can anyone else not stand tv I can’t even watch the food channel

Ativan 1mg 3xday 3 month’s ct. on trazadone 50mg gabapentin, Effexor, insulin short and long acting, thyroid med, blood pressure med, cholesterol med,

Big Pharma blamed for Benzo Buddies member’s scary trip to the zoo

Setback from walking too much?
« on: August 05, 2019, 06:54:20 pm »

[Buddie]

Went to the zoo with my son and my family in law yesterday and walked so much. Now today my whole body is aching and burning from head to toe and I’m so scared. Has this happened to anyone? Everything burns worse than fire and the pain is so deep across my back, arms, legs, everywhere. Trying hard not to cry at work. This will go away right?

Jelly legs worse than benzo belly?

Alright, this is not just jelly legs
« on: July 26, 2019, 09:22:11 pm »

[Buddie]

So I am between 2-3 months out of C/t rapid detox (had some overlap of drugs they gave in hospital)
As awful as it gets with a host of symptoms, but my most profound physical symptoms is beyond jelly legs.
My legs started out where I couldn’t lift them or walk at all, and they began contracting nonstop, the clenthcing was very large and you could totally see it happening….they did this for 6 weeks straight without EVER stopping even if I slept, which most of time I didn’t. They then started calming down a bit and have settled into a constant movement of muscles and twitching (both surface and deep)
They have still never stopped. When I walk (can walk from room to room and stand in shower) they just start getting worse.
So here I am, cannot walk on them to make them stronger and they cannot ever rest to heal. Because even when resting them….they are moving. It is an unbelievable, impossible situation.
Anyone relate?
Btw…I am a mom and was a competitive athlete until the last 10 months of all these meds. Not being active is hindering my recovery, and we all know that these drugs have destroyed life as we know it. But not being able to use my legs…is stopping me from everything

Benzo Buddies members drink booze, snort ketamine to deal with failed benzo tapers

Alcohol setback
« on: July 20, 2019, 06:21:46 pm »

[Buddie]

Drank some beer about two weeks ago, and a few hours later I started to feel this weird electric feeling in my chest and my sleep got way worse. Over the next few days I started having all sorts of weird physical sensations. It felt like electricity was surging through my body, my skin was burning, and I had this weird electric butterflies in my stomach type feeling. Horrible anxiety set in, I started to feel like I was losing my mind, and my sleep got worse and worse. The anxiety has faded pretty much entirely and I’m having less of the weird bodily sensations, but my sleep SUCKS now. I’m getting 1-2 hours a night. I was doing so much better before I drank. I felt like I was finally turning a big corner. I was mostly getting 4-6 hours of sleep a night, sometimes a bit more, without taking anything to help me sleep.

I’m 13.5 months off, and am pretty concerned about this lack of sleep. It’s like I’m back to where I was at the start of my withdrawal with sleep.
Anybody else experienced something similar?

Re: Alcohol setback
« Reply #1 on: July 20, 2019, 06:39:11 pm »

[Buddie]

Oops I meant to post this in the post withdrawal recovery support section

Re: Alcohol setback
« Reply #2 on: July 20, 2019, 07:41:32 pm »

[Buddie]

I am sure one of the mods or admins will move it soon. How much beer did you drink?

Re: Alcohol setback
« Reply #3 on: July 20, 2019, 07:51:05 pm »

[Buddie]

Only one tall glass of beer. This is crazy.

Re: Alcohol setback
« Reply #4 on: July 20, 2019, 08:38:35 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on July 20, 2019, 06:39:11 pm
Oops I meant to post this in the post withdrawal recovery support section

I’ll move this over to the Post Withdrawal Support Board! :thumbsup:

Re: Alcohol setback
« Reply #5 on: July 20, 2019, 08:42:41 pm »

[Buddie]

Drinking alcoholic beverages tends to be a highly charged topic here. For some, perhaps many people, drinking can cause a return of withdrawal symptoms. Others may be able to tolerate it fine.

I’ll just share my personal experience. I am not a big drinker, just a glass of wine on occasion and a mixed drink even less often. However, I did not drink anything, not one sip, until I was completely healed. Even then, I didn’t have a drink right away, it took some time.

I’ve been recovered for many years now and do enjoy a glass of wine or a mixed drink at times with no ill effects. Everyone is different in this regard. Personally, I would not rush into beer again if you had a negative reaction.

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Re: Alcohol setback
« Reply #6 on: July 20, 2019, 09:20:51 pm »

[Buddie]

I had one small glass of wine after many weeks of feeling better. I then had many weeks of feeling worse! And it happened pretty immediately. No more alcohol for me.

Re: Alcohol setback
« Reply #7 on: July 21, 2019, 01:09:30 am »

[Buddie]

Two beers set me back for a month. Still not where I was prior to the beers. Im alcohol free for the foreseeable future.

Re: Alcohol setback
« Reply #8 on: July 21, 2019, 01:14:23 am »

[Buddie]

I experimented with drinking wine a year off my taper. First 1/4 glass, then 1/2 glass, then a whole glass. 3 oz. No problems. So now I drink a glass of wine a couple of times a week.

But everyone is different. How alcohol will affect us is a crap shoot imo. I would definitely wait awhile before trying beer again. And then maybe a small glass.

Hope your sleep improves.

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Re: Alcohol setback
« Reply #9 on: July 21, 2019, 10:37:53 am »

[Buddie]

4 months after finishing a long benzo taper, I slammed 5.5 beers within a two hour period or less. I had to pour out the rest of the 6th beer after realizing that I messed myself up. I was back in acute for several weeks but recovered after a solid month or so. It’s been 18 months since I touched alcohol. I’ve messed with small quantities from tinctures though without any ill effects. I suspect I can have a few drinks if I wanted to now but I just wrapped up tapering some other stuff. I’m thinking by the new year I can drink in moderation hopefully, assuming things work out for me. If I’m ever in a situation where I’m stuck with a bunch of people drinking and I can’t, snorting ketamine helps me get through it, and I don’t feel like I’m missing out so much. Alcohol should be consumed in moderation anyways. I can never go back to binge drinking anyways, which may lead back to benzos. I distinctly recall starting to take benzos to cope with hangovers in the beginning.

Re: Alcohol setback
« Reply #10 on: July 21, 2019, 10:53:20 am »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on July 21, 2019, 10:37:53 am
4 months after finishing a long benzo taper, I slammed 5.5 beers within a two hour period or less. I had to pour out the rest of the 6th beer after realizing that I messed myself up. I was back in acute for several weeks but recovered after a solid month or so. It’s been 18 months since I touched alcohol. I’ve messed with small quantities from tinctures though without any ill effects. I suspect I can have a few drinks if I wanted to now but I just wrapped up tapering some other stuff. I’m thinking by the new year I can drink in moderation hopefully, assuming things work out for me. If I’m ever in a situation where I’m stuck with a bunch of people drinking and I can’t, snorting ketamine helps me get through it, and I don’t feel like I’m missing out so much. Alcohol should be consumed in moderation anyways. I can never go back to binge drinking anyways, which may lead back to benzos. I distinctly recall starting to take benzos to cope with hangovers in the beginning.

I think you should stop snorting Ketamine.

BENZO BELLY STRIKES AGAIN!

BIG Benzo BELLY
« on: June 30, 2019, 02:42:50 am »

[Buddie]

anyone have Benzo BELLY??
belly looks like I am 9NINE months pregnant
I am not fat only my stomach looks big and weird
hard to breath when I breath stomach expands like a balloon and gets tight /locks /uncomfortable / never goes away
– after eating it is worse

anyone know what causes this? treatments? cures?
how long does it last?

Toy Story 4 trailer causes panic, waves of fear at Benzo Buddies

Do Movies Make You Uncomfortable?
« on: June 23, 2019, 09:44:04 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m having a hard time even watching movies still at 15 months off. I want to go to Toy Story 4 but even the trailer and concept of the movie makes me uncomfortable. Furthermore, I have been watching Toy Story movies with my daughter and find they all make me uncomfortable. But other kids movies make me feel this way too. I don’t even want to think about dramas or horror movies.

Anyone else have this?

Addict tries cryotherapy for benzo withdrawal symptoms after CBD oil fails

cryotherapy
« on: June 12, 2019, 08:14:55 am »

[Buddie]

hi guys, currently starting up the second half of my taper again now that college is done with, i can focus more on getting through this instead of worrying about deadlines.

so i was introduced to a cryospa near my home by a friend, and initially wanted to go to check on their CBD oil they had for sale. i’ve been using CBD to help with the rebound anxiety and insomnia, though it doesn’t fix everything, it helps. i ended up trying a 3 minute cryotherapy session for free, the woman there was sweet and her daughter was actually understanding of my brain injury and also my withdrawals. i did a lot of research and looked at some good studies done on anxiety/depression and cryo, withdrawals and cryo, etc. it was a small, family owned place and thus i ended up coming back and trying it again last week, then purchasing a month pass for treatments for around 200 bucks. usually medical cryotherapy costs, bare minimum, 60 bucks per session so i think it was a good deal.

this whole week i’ve been back into my taper head on, getting horrid migraines every day, cold sweats, severe depression and ideation, that infamous klonopin chest pressure, panic attacks, awful nausea/vomiting and so on. i’ve almost felt like i had the flu and was about to pass out at points. :'( i go in for one 3 minute session as much as i can, i’ve gone about six sessions now and i can honestly say i feel like it’s easing a lot of my symptoms’ intensity. i’m kind of a wuss, and even i was able to do the sessions, it’s not really that bad compared to sitting with my withdrawals every day. i think taking a cold shower is more uncomfortable somehow. it also gets easier every time.

when i go in, i do the full body treatment up to my neck, and it helps neutralize my feverish/cold sweat episodes for the rest of the day, makes me feel less tired, sometimes even less nauseated. with my brain injury, i’m on bedrest anyways, so i need the good circulation i get from cold shock. it helps the achy feeling in my body, and REALLY helps my back pain. i feel like i can finally sleep after i go, because my muscles just relax and my swelling and pain goes down throughout everywhere. it’s a little early to tell but i think it’s even helping clear my brain fog and dp/dr a bit, i feel ‘clearer’ for an hour or so. i get an endorphin rush afterwards, as well as norepinephrine, which i’m sure helps in other aspects, and in general it just makes me feel relaxed and not so wound up and sick.

i haven’t seen a lot of people talk about this kind of therapy for withdrawals but i’ve been told it can help with them and personally, i look forward to going in every chance i get when i feel absolutely horrible. i always feel somewhat better if not a lot better after. if you can find a local place, it can be pretty affordable compared to other medical therapies and i would recommend it (which i don’t say much, i’m a huge skeptic on this stuff). i will post another thread if i see any major new improvements after my 15th session (which is when the promising study done on anxiety and depression ends).

thanks and my thoughts are will all you guys 🙂

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Benzo Buddies forces members to debase themselves expressing gratitude for site

Positive Post: I am grateful for BB because . . . Are you too? If so, why?
« on: May 16, 2019, 03:04:59 pm »

[Buddie]

I am grateful for BenzoBuddies for so many reasons. Here are a few:

1. I have learned things about benzo tapering on BB that no doctor ever told me.
2. BB has helped me understand the Ashton Protocol better.
3. I learned the benefit of Daily Micro Tapering as opposed to cut and hold, which never worked for me.
4. Jim Hawk’s Benzo Tapering Application (at www.benzo.alwaysdata.net) has proved invaluable to me. Once I selected my taper rate (5%) and the Attenuated Phase, I simply printed out my 14 month tapering schedule. This made my life so much easier!
5. I have made Buddies through PM and we encourage each other. I am no longer alone!
6. I found Support Groups specific to me like the Daily Microtapering Support Group and the Under .125 Kolonopin Support Group. I even joined the Faith Based Support Group!
7. I read “What is happening in your brain” by Parker. I am therefore no longer afraid of my waves.
8. I now understand how to dry cut and to water titrate.

And so much more!

Are you also grateful for BenzoBuddies?

If so, why?