Benzo Buddies members attempt top another suicidal member from going to psych ward

My pulse is 201 off and on 3rd time since 10 pm psyche ward?
« on: November 05, 2020, 11:27:36 am »

[Buddie]

Wha do i do. I quit my last dose of effexor xr 37 mg tapered off with 20 mg tablets on october 6th. was put back on a small dose February 2020 in a psche ward for attempting S. I was also forced on risperdal which i quit in august. About 3 days ago my symptoms have gotten worse. My head started crackling and squeezing more and my brain went even more numb and squeezed like crazy, also my muscle spasms and tightness are worse, my chest is fluttering and very tight. My spine is crushing. And tonight it has happened 3 seperate times. I cant breathe well. I am wobbling and shivering back and forth like crazy. . If i go to a psych ward they will just give me drugs and benzos. But my brain is so numb ativan does not work anymore anyways. They did it to me before n november 2019 and it did not work. Help, my 3rd unbearable attack tonight. Is my brain and body failing? It feels like am dying, i am so weak. I am scared. Dont know what to do.

Re: My pulse is 201 off and on 3rd time since 10 pm psyche ward?
« Reply #1 on: November 05, 2020, 12:02:14 pm »

[Buddie]

I want to help you, John, but I don’t know how. Psychiatry has no other cure besides these drugs that led us to this state. The more we took them, the more sick we became.

Re: My pulse is 201 off and on 3rd time since 10 pm psyche ward?
« Reply #2 on: November 05, 2020, 12:09:29 pm »

[Buddie]

The worst thing is that both psychiatrists and patients themselves often do not understand that this is not a disease, but comes from their medicines.
Psychotropic drugs are scary things that they do to people. You have a drug disorder, John, caused by chronic brain damage from psychotropic drugs
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Re: My pulse is 201 off and on 3rd time since 10 pm psyche ward?
« Reply #3 on: November 05, 2020, 08:44:17 pm »

[Buddie]

Yeah, i am about done with all this. I cant take any of this anymore
2 years now and my brain is mush. Cracks, squeezes, itches, spine squeezes, dozens of other side affects. i am losing all hope. . How the heck can you stay positive with all this horrendous , indescribable horror going on with us? the positive people are the ones who get relief and see improvements. I want peace and happiness. I trusted psychiatrists. I was only 15 when i was given effexor xr. Oh, it is safe they said. I was given prozac in the 3rd grade because i kept to myself. What quacks this medical industry is.

Re: My pulse is 201 off and on 3rd time since 10 pm psyche ward?
« Reply #4 on: November 05, 2020, 09:05:24 pm »

[Buddie]

It is indeed an industry of great quackery John. I’ve had it shit in other ways. 21 months for me. It’s still a struggle. Wearing.

The only thing that in any works for me is to roll with it best I can. Acceptance is key for me now. Acceptance coupled with distraction, action, is even better. Sometimes hard for me to do.

You have been on psychotropics since early childhood it makes sense to me that you would feel the way you do. Your brain is trying to recalibrate. Give it time.

Re: My pulse is 201 off and on 3rd time since 10 pm psyche ward?
« Reply #5 on: November 05, 2020, 09:16:52 pm »

[Buddie]

Thanks […]. I am trying. Ever since ECT while going through drug withdrawal i have so much damage, it is ridiculous.

Ignoring the risk of suicide, Benzo Buddies ghouls spend five pages trying to convince someone not to check into a psych ward

Checking into psych ward
« on: October 24, 2020, 05:42:46 pm »

[Buddie]

Im going to check myself into the psych ward for the 6th time since this happen.

At this point i dont care anymore. Im going to have them load me up on whatever even if it is benzos.

I am experiencing something terrifying in my head for nearly 2 years and im done. Racing and looping thoughts 24/7. No words to describe this torture. Im sick of people telling me its just severe anxiety. Im sick of just surviving to the end of the day and then having to do it all again tomorrow.

If your coming off benzos please for the the love of God dont take another drug. Going on remeron was the worst thing i could have done because i listened to stupid people on this website who were probably just mentally ill.

Peace out.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #1 on: October 24, 2020, 05:51:54 pm »

[Buddie]

Do you realize that you are only making it worse? Do you want to get lifelong tardive extrapyramidal disorders from antipsychotics? You are at great risk. Read the side effects of the drugs you are about to take.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #2 on: October 24, 2020, 05:55:32 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on October 24, 2020, 05:51:54 pm
Do you realize that you are only making it worse? Do you want to get lifelong tardive extrapyramidal disorders from antipsychotics? You are at great risk. Read the side effects of the drugs you are about to take.

Yrs i am aware but like i said i dont care anymore.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #3 on: October 24, 2020, 06:05:32 pm »

[Buddie]

Psychotropic drugs can cause such physical pain that anxiety, tension and insomnia seem like nonsense. I went through this. Don’t be silly, don’t take neurotoxic poisons.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #4 on: October 24, 2020, 06:18:38 pm »

[Buddie]

I had incredible stress last year. I was ready to go to a psychiatric hospital, anywhere, to stop it. Then, I could not sleep for 4 months and no one could understand what was wrong with me. We thought it was a strong anxiety. The biggest tragedy is that neither myself nor anyone else could understand that it was caused by benzodiazepines.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #5 on: October 24, 2020, 06:21:34 pm »

[Buddie]

I was polydrugged by Reglan while in benzo tolerance/withdrawal. I had akathasia. I paced the floor like a patient at a psych ward and I survived.

It took Baylissa Frederick 3 years to get through. Read her book Recovery & Renewal.

Follow Michael Preibe of “The lovely Grind” on You Tube. He survived benzos AND antidepressant withdrawal.

It’s true. Taking other psychotropic meds while in benzo withdrawal complicates it. Reglan is for migraines and gastroparesis, but it’s also an old antipsychotic from the 60’s. I learned all of this in hindsite. So, basically I was in Ativan tolerance and got a drug that was like Haldol. Just one dose. One time.

Look up Michael Priebe. He beat both benzos & an antidepressant. He’s very positive and motivating.

So sorry to hear of your suffering. It’s so hard. Hang in there.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #6 on: October 24, 2020, 06:23:38 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on October 24, 2020, 06:05:32 pm
Psychotropic drugs can cause such physical pain that anxiety, tension and insomnia seem like nonsense. I went through this. Don’t be silly, don’t take neurotoxic poisons.

Im experiencing something way worse than just physical pain. The mental is way worse than anything you can imagine. Brain racing and looping 1000 miles an hour 24/7 for 2 years straight and counting. 100s of mental symtoms all at once. Ive reached my breaking point.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #7 on: October 24, 2020, 06:26:05 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on October 24, 2020, 06:21:34 pm
I was polydrugged by Reglan while in benzo tolerance/withdrawal. I had akathasia. I paced the floor like a patient at a psych ward and I survived.
It took Baylissa Frederick 3 years to get through. Read her book Recovery & Renewal.

Follow Michael Preibe of “The lovely Grind” on You Tube. He survived benzos AND antidepressant withdrawal.

It’s true. Taking other psychotropic meds while in benzo withdrawal complicates it. Reglan is for migraines and gastroparesis, but it’s also an old antipsychotic from the 60’s. I learned all of this in hindsite. So, basically I was in Ativan tolerance and got a drug that was like Haldol. Just one dose. One time.

Look up Michael Priebe. He beat both benzos & an antidepressant. He’s very positive and motivating.

So sorry to hear of your suffering. It’s so hard. Hang in there.

I follow everyone. They werent this bad 24/7. I cant even distract for a second. The people as bad as me are 4+ years off and still suffering. There is no point in putting yourself through something like this

Another former Benzo Buddies member warns public to stay away from fear-driven cult site, listen to your doctor

I will say this. I got caught in the benzo world. My doctor 4 years ago prescribed Ativan for me daily. I didnt know what it was cause well, I didn’t. After a while it quit working and he upped the dose and I soon found myself “needing” more. After my doctor retired I found a new doctor who was shocked by the amount of Ativan I was on a day. When I explained how I felt he said quit frankly “you are addicted.” I thought I could quit just taking them. I overestimated that you couldn’t. So with my doctor’s help, I got clean. It took 9 months.

I stumbled across Benzo Buddies after googling “benzo online support groups.” OMG. Well, at first they are loving and supportive when you are a newbie. Then all hell breaks loose. That site is fear-driven. I would spend multiple hours a day (at the time I was a stay at home mom and helping care for my aging parents). I would support and post my own journey. Everything that happened i would attribute to withdrawal and I’m sorry to say I was one of the Kooks. One day, about 7 months into my doctor guided “healing” I broke down because I was having a bad day and I said I needed a break from my child. The responses I got were horrendous. One person even commented that I should do like them and put my child up for adoption cause I couldn’t heal and be a mother. It’s impossible.

That day I realized that the amount of time and kookiness on that site was not actually helping my mental state. My fascination was my downfall. So, I sat down, blocked the website from every device I could, and started making banana bread. I made some sort of bread everyday for the remainder of my “coming clean.”

It’s been almost 3 years now since I came off Ativan. Had I not listened to my doctor and had not used judgement to walk away from those idiots… I’d still be on them in fear.

F*ck sake. It might have bern easier if I just started baking as a distraction. I know my previous doctor meant no harm putting me on them. Probably should have paid attention more. But what counts today is that I’m “clean.” The only thing during that time is that I developed tinnitus that doesnt go away. But I’m all good! Stay away from Benzo Buddies. Listen to your doctor. And in like any situation, if you aren’t satisfied or unsure, get a second opinion. Don’t be me and get trapped in that “support group.”

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Benzo Buddies angry at Jordan Peterson for getting better

Re: Jordan Peterson is in rehab for Clonazepam
« Reply #186 on: October 02, 2019, 09:13:55 pm »

[Buddie]

She said something like: Daddy is fine. He was having an allergic reaction to a medication. They removed the medication and now he is OK.

IMHO, I question that explanation. Who, besides a devoted cult follower would believe that?

Re: Jordan Peterson is in rehab for Clonazepam
« Reply #187 on: October 02, 2019, 09:23:52 pm »

[Buddie]

I watched his daughter on youtube. She stated they were putting him on a shorter acting benzo to help withdraw him. Funny how I was told over and over to do just the opposite. Hmm…not sure that’s the right way to go. The medical and detox community are really clueless about these drugs. Seems they think 28 days and get the drug out of a person system fixes this. If it did, this message board would not exist. Wait till he finds out that getting the drug out of your system with a rapid taper can cause more damage and then the real horror is just beginning. Unless he has logged into a message board like this he really has no idea what he is in for. Maybe he’ll be one of the lucky one, but from all my reading and on these boards, if it starts out bad trying to stop it only gets worse. If the rehab f-cks this up with him, which there is very good chance that could happen considering this is benzos not alcohol or opioids, a lot of attention will come down on this problem.

Re: Jordan Peterson is in rehab for Clonazepam
« Reply #188 on: October 02, 2019, 09:27:58 pm »

[Buddie]

I think it’s a lie. I came to this conclusion based on her delivery. It is inconsistent with the TMI way she normally speaks. She tells you he was on klonopin, tells you where every bone and joint replacement in her body is. She told us in detail exactly what happened to her mother including what was leaking and into where. . And now he had a mysterious reaction to a “medication” that she didn’t mention the name of. That is why I think she is lying.

Re: Jordan Peterson is in rehab for Clonazepam
« Reply #189 on: October 02, 2019, 09:37:28 pm »

[Buddie]

One minute you’re illegally leaking the first real televised expose on benzo damage, the next you’ve just had a bad reaction and are fine. Just your average survivor story.

Maybe you leave the hospital but it takes you a while to slow taper off your allergic reaction.

I had a lot of sympathy for this family, but they clearly don’t understand how important this shit is and how they are jerking around with people’s understanding of how damaging these drugs can be.

I will say this again, it pisses me off that no high profile person who has been through this has ever made any real effort to educate the public in any sustained way. Stupid EMINEM wrote like three albums on the theme of addiction and recovery (and relapse) and you’d need a decoder ring and a special Ashton edition of the urban dictionary to understand what drugs he’s talking about.

I read about this stuff all the time. People’s spouses die from benzo “overdose.” Next thing they’re cutting a comedy album. People whose entire careers are based on telling the ‘truth,’ and being confessional about their pain.

It is unfathomable to me.

Benzo Buddies member attacks Lisa Ling for not mentioning Ashton’s death

Re: This Is Life With Lisa Ling
« Reply #50 on: September 30, 2019, 12:45:24 am »

[Buddie]

CNN still hasn’t reported Heather Ashton’s death, two weeks after it happened. None of the media have reported it. You’d think Lisa Ling might have posted something about it, but I can’t find anything at all. Well, I guess that’s life with Lisa Ling.

Re: This Is Life With Lisa Ling
« Reply #53 on: September 30, 2019, 01:02:46 am »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on September 30, 2019, 12:45:24 am
CNN still hasn’t reported Heather Ashton’s death, two weeks after it happened. None of the media have reported it. You’d think Lisa Ling might have posted something about it, but I can’t find anything at all. Well, I guess that’s life with Lisa Ling.

lol

Re: This Is Life With Lisa Ling
« Reply #54 on: September 30, 2019, 01:04:23 am »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on September 30, 2019, 12:45:24 am
CNN still hasn’t reported Heather Ashton’s death, two weeks after it happened. None of the media have reported it. You’d think Lisa Ling might have posted something about it, but I can’t find anything at all. Well, I guess that’s life with Lisa Ling.

I’m not sure why they would report it. She’s only important to us, a tiny population. Why don’t you contact Lisa Ling and see what she says?

Re: This Is Life With Lisa Ling
« Reply #55 on: September 30, 2019, 01:15:29 am »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on September 30, 2019, 01:04:23 am
Quote from: [Buddie] on September 30, 2019, 12:45:24 am
CNN still hasn’t reported Heather Ashton’s death, two weeks after it happened. None of the media have reported it. You’d think Lisa Ling might have posted something about it, but I can’t find anything at all. Well, I guess that’s life with Lisa Ling.

I’m not sure why they would report it. She’s only important to us, a tiny population. Why don’t you contact Lisa Ling and see what she says?

If Heather Ashton is only important to us, a tiny population, then why is CNN planning to broadcast a Lisa Ling report about the benzo problem on October 6? Surely the issue must be important to more than just our tiny population. Besides which, CNN has had two weeks to work up a story on Ashton’s death that they could have been using to promote the Lisa Ling show on October 6. I think they’re simply unaware that Ashton has died. I suppose I could contact Lisa Ling or someone else at CNN and tell them, but why would I want to do their job for them?