Ignoring the risk of suicide, Benzo Buddies ghouls spend five pages trying to convince someone not to check into a psych ward

Checking into psych ward
« on: October 24, 2020, 05:42:46 pm »

[Buddie]

Im going to check myself into the psych ward for the 6th time since this happen.

At this point i dont care anymore. Im going to have them load me up on whatever even if it is benzos.

I am experiencing something terrifying in my head for nearly 2 years and im done. Racing and looping thoughts 24/7. No words to describe this torture. Im sick of people telling me its just severe anxiety. Im sick of just surviving to the end of the day and then having to do it all again tomorrow.

If your coming off benzos please for the the love of God dont take another drug. Going on remeron was the worst thing i could have done because i listened to stupid people on this website who were probably just mentally ill.

Peace out.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #1 on: October 24, 2020, 05:51:54 pm »

[Buddie]

Do you realize that you are only making it worse? Do you want to get lifelong tardive extrapyramidal disorders from antipsychotics? You are at great risk. Read the side effects of the drugs you are about to take.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #2 on: October 24, 2020, 05:55:32 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on October 24, 2020, 05:51:54 pm
Do you realize that you are only making it worse? Do you want to get lifelong tardive extrapyramidal disorders from antipsychotics? You are at great risk. Read the side effects of the drugs you are about to take.

Yrs i am aware but like i said i dont care anymore.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #3 on: October 24, 2020, 06:05:32 pm »

[Buddie]

Psychotropic drugs can cause such physical pain that anxiety, tension and insomnia seem like nonsense. I went through this. Don’t be silly, don’t take neurotoxic poisons.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #4 on: October 24, 2020, 06:18:38 pm »

[Buddie]

I had incredible stress last year. I was ready to go to a psychiatric hospital, anywhere, to stop it. Then, I could not sleep for 4 months and no one could understand what was wrong with me. We thought it was a strong anxiety. The biggest tragedy is that neither myself nor anyone else could understand that it was caused by benzodiazepines.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #5 on: October 24, 2020, 06:21:34 pm »

[Buddie]

I was polydrugged by Reglan while in benzo tolerance/withdrawal. I had akathasia. I paced the floor like a patient at a psych ward and I survived.

It took Baylissa Frederick 3 years to get through. Read her book Recovery & Renewal.

Follow Michael Preibe of “The lovely Grind” on You Tube. He survived benzos AND antidepressant withdrawal.

It’s true. Taking other psychotropic meds while in benzo withdrawal complicates it. Reglan is for migraines and gastroparesis, but it’s also an old antipsychotic from the 60’s. I learned all of this in hindsite. So, basically I was in Ativan tolerance and got a drug that was like Haldol. Just one dose. One time.

Look up Michael Priebe. He beat both benzos & an antidepressant. He’s very positive and motivating.

So sorry to hear of your suffering. It’s so hard. Hang in there.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #6 on: October 24, 2020, 06:23:38 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on October 24, 2020, 06:05:32 pm
Psychotropic drugs can cause such physical pain that anxiety, tension and insomnia seem like nonsense. I went through this. Don’t be silly, don’t take neurotoxic poisons.

Im experiencing something way worse than just physical pain. The mental is way worse than anything you can imagine. Brain racing and looping 1000 miles an hour 24/7 for 2 years straight and counting. 100s of mental symtoms all at once. Ive reached my breaking point.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #7 on: October 24, 2020, 06:26:05 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on October 24, 2020, 06:21:34 pm
I was polydrugged by Reglan while in benzo tolerance/withdrawal. I had akathasia. I paced the floor like a patient at a psych ward and I survived.
It took Baylissa Frederick 3 years to get through. Read her book Recovery & Renewal.

Follow Michael Preibe of “The lovely Grind” on You Tube. He survived benzos AND antidepressant withdrawal.

It’s true. Taking other psychotropic meds while in benzo withdrawal complicates it. Reglan is for migraines and gastroparesis, but it’s also an old antipsychotic from the 60’s. I learned all of this in hindsite. So, basically I was in Ativan tolerance and got a drug that was like Haldol. Just one dose. One time.

Look up Michael Priebe. He beat both benzos & an antidepressant. He’s very positive and motivating.

So sorry to hear of your suffering. It’s so hard. Hang in there.

I follow everyone. They werent this bad 24/7. I cant even distract for a second. The people as bad as me are 4+ years off and still suffering. There is no point in putting yourself through something like this

Bad news for Benzo Buddies: “Professor Ashton does not support or endorse any Internet support group”

https://www.benzo.org.uk/profash.htm

Benzo Buddies gives free reign to doctor-bashers

Overcoming fear/mistrust of Doctors.
« on: February 19, 2019, 10:28:13 pm »

[Buddie]

I know from all posts I’ve read that I’m very far from alone in this and do have that question. (I’m not even sure whether or not moderators will take down this thread or let it be, since I do find it a little odd that I haven’t already come across a thread like this. I do take great care composing a thread/posts that they won’t possibly distress or offend anyone.) I’m concerned some symptoms I’m having are serious, but I have these mistrust and fear issues. My experiences with doctors haven’t been highly favorable to begin with, never mind this travesty. My doctor had prescribed for over a decade and when his group practice was taken over by a larger one informed me, on phone, that the refill he was giving was the last – which, rapid detox could’ve killed me. I’d only known about tapers b/c I’d had a gut feeling that the depression I’d been feeling for 2 years @ that time was due to the ativan, so I’d already begun my research. He’d also overprescribed, which I hadn’t taken full amount, so I’ve had a reserve to do my dry cuts…

I’ve been experiencing many w/d sxs; won’t go into all the details here; anyone wanting more back-story can click on my username and look through my posts history. Since August ’18 have experienced steady weight gain (especially in truck of body) and pain in right ankle. I don’t remember twisting it; but it’s possible I did. Since end of December, everything’s much worse, & which I’ve attributed to w/d with decreasing amounts being in my system & all the poisons having to be expunged. I can’t, though, ignore how much worse the right ankle pain is (the only time I’m not in pain is when asleep, blessed relief/hard to come by), along w/both calves swelling now & the calf skin being tight & shiny. Now, I’m thinking the additional weight gain may all be water-retention (esp. as I’ve been slim whole life & so were parents).

My concern is that this may be heart-related, as my blood pressure had been borderline high & it may have been the ativan keeping it even at that level & not higher. During this same time period, a loved one had awful experiences of her closest loved ones & their ultimate demises; one of whom had much swelling w/skin weeping & an awful 2-3 months before he was finally granted the ultimate respite from a higher power, but not before doctors/hospitals tortured him further. I know how much she detests and reviles doctors now, too, from those experiences, but that she does keep her own doctor appointments. Hearing those experiences, combined with my own already existing ones during this same time period, I’m more mistrustful and fearful of the medical community than ever. I do have a call out to her (leaving out the exact specifics, b/c even w/her, I’m afraid she’ll just advise going to dr. or hospital) asking how she gets over any of her own feelings in order to visit a doctor at all. She’s actively grieving (& why I’d hated to pose this question to her at all, but did it as obliquely as possible, b/c I know she’ll be concerned about me & she’s been though enough) – so, I don’t know if/when I’ll hear from her…

Any helpful tips appreciated. (on getting over the fear/mistrust – please, not just advising “go to” dr./hospital- thank you)
« Last Edit: February 19, 2019, 11:16:41 pm by [Buddie]

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UK psychiatrist for over 20 years was an imposter
« on: November 19, 2018, 02:52:37 pm »

[Buddie]

I thought I was beyond being shocked, but this is utterly appalling. How could any doctor possibly get away with this?

https://www.newsandstar.co.uk/news/17230748.doctor-who-faked-will-of-west-cumbrian-widow-led-life-of-deception/?fbclid=IwAR1ltxJl_YktpwNptw5Qo2ZlXsCPD61k0JctQ7EHW2Wle6IaTHhDlsyuGnE

Do you need to go blind in order to join Heather Ashton’s benzo cult?

Freaking out
« on: September 25, 2018, 08:15:49 pm »

[Buddie]

The side effects have gotten a little too much for me this week because they are hitting areas that are huge triggers – my eyesight. I’m an artist and design for a living. I’ve been able to work throughout this ordeal but now things are complicated because I have visual snow. I need to go for an eye exam to rule out actual eye damage, but eye exams are a huge stressor for me. I have fainted in my last two exams, and that was WITH Klonopin. What the heck do I do now? My fear is actually enough for me to want to skip out on the appointment completely which I know is stupid but I don’t want to faint. I don’t know what to do or how to cope right now. I cried hysterically earlier. The exam isn’t until Thursday morning.

Re: Freaking out
« Reply #1 on: September 26, 2018, 10:22:35 pm »

[Buddie]

I cancelled my appointment. I can’t do it :(

Benzo Buddies orders terrified addict to ignore doctor, reject psychiatric medication

Hello, My Story
« on: August 17, 2018, 01:25:54 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi. I’m in a bad situation because I decided to smoke weed with friends about three months ago and only one hit threw me into a mood frenzy. I was an insomniac for a week after, non stop crying, paranoid, and panic attacks. So I managed to get 1mg Xanax from a friend which I used for about 14 days at night for sleep to reset my sleep. The last four days, I cut it to .5mg and then .25mg. I then stopped because I felt fine. However, I have been having up and down mood swings, palpitations that make me fear a heart attack, restlessness, shaking, paranoia, and what feels like chronic fatigue. I fear for my life like the weed may have cause tachycardia or mitral valve prolapse. Is this just from my underlying anxiety or the CT from the xanax? I got a shaky episode the other night and had to use one to stop the tremors and feel it was a bad idea. I see a psychiatrist Monday and I am terrified because I can’t tell the doctor about the weed or the xanax because the medicine was not prescribed to me and I could get in trouble. What do I do? I fear my life may never be the same again. I am weak and tremoring as I write this. What if I’m developing mental illness? The only option is for the psych to prescribe me benzos or ssris. I don’t want either.

Re: Hello, My Story
« Reply #1 on: August 17, 2018, 01:37:37 pm »

[Buddie]

Hello […],

Welcome to Benzo Buddies! I’m sorry you had such a severe effect from marijuana. Some strains can in fact increase anxiety, it appears you might have experienced this. Additionally, there might have been other substances in the marijuana that cause your reaction.

You took xanax for about two weeks. The recommended length of time for taking benzos is a maximum of two to three weeks, so you are right in that time frame. You are most likely feeling the effects from stopping xanax. There is likely to be withdrawal effects of some kind after two weeks of use. I do believe that these symptoms should ease up though, it may take a little while though.

If it were me, I would explain to the doctor what started your issues. If you don’t explain the cause, it is likely that the doctor will diagnose you with an anxiety disorder. If you didn’t have issues like this before using marijuana, then the effects you felt were due to the weed.

Your central nervous system took a hit with the marijuana and xanax. It may take a little while for things to settle, but they will. Try to distract from what you feel so that the fear doesn’t cause more issues.

I’ll give you a link to the Ashton Manual. It is an excellent resource about benzos and how to withdraw. It was written by Dr. Heather Ashton, an expert in the field. The manual does discuss tapering in detail but IMO, I would not suggest this for you. If it were me, I’d stay away from benzos and allow my body to recover.

I’ll also give you a link to the Post Withdrawal Recovery Board where you can post and receive feedback from members.

Your life will be the same, once your system recovers. I know this can be frightening, I felt the same way when I was directed to stop ativan for a medical test. I’m glad you’ve joined, you’ll find a lot of good information and support here. It’s going to be OK.

The Ashton Manual

Post-withdrawal Recovery Support

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Re: Hello, My Story
« Reply #2 on: August 17, 2018, 02:13:00 pm »

[Buddie]

Thanks. If my psych has to give me something, what would be the best route as I am terrified of those withdrawals as well?

Re: Hello, My Story
« Reply #3 on: August 17, 2018, 06:29:15 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on August 17, 2018, 02:13:00 pm
Thanks. If my psych has to give me something, what would be the best route as I am terrified of those withdrawals as well?

You don’t have to take any medication if offered. It is your body and you can make the decision as to what to put in it. I didn’t even know what a benzo was when I was prescribed it. I had no idea about it’s potential for dependency or withdrawal. I learned a big lesson; be proactive about what I take and question everything.

It’s been my experience that ‘some’ doctors want to medicate everything when there are other alternatives.

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Re: Hello, My Story
« Reply #4 on: August 17, 2018, 07:04:06 pm »

[Buddie]

Yeah. I also forgot to mention that three days before the weed incident, I CT’d beer completely and for the past year I was drinking three to four to five a day. Could that have something to do with what I am going through maybe?