About to lose my Job (please help)!
« on: February 10, 2018, 08:22:08 pm »
I’m about to lose my Job due to being very unproductive, always feeling tired and fatigued, and the cognitive and the OCD issues are just topping all of that.
What can I do?
What can I take that’s not harmful to help with all of that?
I sometimes think of taking Adderall or Provigil/Nuvigil cuz I know they sure help with all the symptoms mentioned above but they’re very harmful to my fragile CNS.
Please help with any suggestions.
Re: About to lose my Job (please help)!
« Reply #1 on: February 10, 2018, 08:24:31 pm »
I feel like I wanna do NOTHING 24/7.
Psych drug free and liberated
« on: December 16, 2017, 04:33:04 am »
I stumbled upon this site in oct 2017, and it has been the best support ever. I couldnt believe that finally, i found a community who understands benzo and psych med issues, and the stories, guidance, and the forums were and contine to be inspirational and informative. In short, since 2005, i was prescribed clonazepam, and up to may 2017, my daily cocktail was: 30 mg vyvanse, 7.5 zopiclone, 100 mgs seroquel, 15-30 mg remeron, and 1.5 clonazepam. Over-medicated, yes! Over diagnosed? Yep! In May 2017, with finally the ears of two psychiatrists who listened and saw my sleep study results, i started to taper from 1. vyvanse (hellish). 2 seroquel (easy), zopiclone (a bit rough), remeron (what? That was a breeze to finally, today, sitting at 21 days clonazepam free (a ride to hell and back with the aim of reaching heaven here on earth, and can finally see it. Thanks to this website, to All you beautiful pple with such courage. Ill be posting more and sharing my
triumphs and seeking some support as im still having waves and when a small window opens, I see heaven again. Its time to live med and benzo free. And when Im better, I want to yell that outloud. We are free. We are strong. Ttys.
Healed after 12 years!
« on: April 13, 2017, 05:51:33 pm »
I’m coming up on 12 years benzo free. On may 5, 2005 I was cold turkeyed in the hospital. It was the most horrific and unforeseen event in my life and it has changed me as a human being forever. Slowly, very slowly over 1-5 benzo free years my symptoms waxed and waned until at 5 years benzo free my life was about 80% of what I was pre-benzo. Life was good but not great for a few months. The unrelenting horror, mental anguish and general displeasure for life had abated but the physical symptoms were still alive and well… just milder and I expected them to all abate as well as time marched on.
At almost 6 years benzo free the flood gates reopened again and I was cast back into what I would call acute benzo withdrawal! It was just as bad as the beginning if not worse… as a matter of fact a lot worse! All the progress I made was suddenly gone and I was left a 40 year old man with a wife and two kids, a beautiful home crying on the floor with no hope for a future. It nearly broke me as a human being and I was ready to give up.
Luckily I had tremendous support from the person I had been with my whole life…My loving wife. She knew me since high school and knew that this was not the man she married. Luckily she believed in me because I didn’t and at 6 years I didn’t think recovery was possible. I thought I had permanent brain damage from the ativan and I would never recover.
My wife got busy and contacted many people on my behalf. Una Corbett, Barry Haslam, Baylissa Frederick (Bliss), and even to professor Ashton herself! They ‘ALL’ said to my amazement ‘HE WILL RECOVER’ and ‘THIS SOMETIMES HAPPENS’. She even made an account here to talk to people on my behalf (I was too unwell to post then). I’m Mr. B by the way!
The symptoms were very hard up until 11 years benzo free and right now at almost 12 years benzo free my life is brilliant!!! I can see the light again and feel love, joy, and happiness. I’m 47 years old and have a new lease on life and you will too. Please people believe in recovery…BELIEVE!!!
It happens for ‘EVERYBODY’ given time and staying off benzos and ‘ALL’ chemical crap!
Re: Has anyone had the opportunity to meet someone else who went through this ?
« Reply #1 on: March 28, 2016, 11:24:39 pm »
I’ve made a number of friends from BB and talked to some on the phone, but have not yet met anyone in person. On my blog I sent an open invitation to my 60th birthday party in October (and hopefully a benzo free celebration too). I am hoping some BB members can make it and we can meet up in person that way.