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Benzo Buddies member Pyoung: “I fell in love with Xanax”

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“Started taking xanax in the year 2007 for recreational purposes. I fell in love with it and got it every chance i could get. I got a steady supply and Took xanax/klonopin for around a year maybe more (not to sure). I got up to 6 mgs at most except when I was drinking I would do more. I stopped a couple times cold turkey because my supply ran out .. I finished a 30 day taper October 26 2011, And then relapsed in March 2012 on one bottle of Ativan 16 .5 mg pills and now have been benzo free since. Have been off Valerian and kava since sept 26 2012 still having withdraws”

Still having Physical symptoms 30 months out
« on: September 23, 2014, 12:52:12 am »


Is any one else experiencing this??? … I still get heart symptoms.. (yes ive had it checked out) but my heart will get tight / sore and Ill feel numb in my left chest area.. I will also get some sensation in my left arm. I also feel low energy ,my libido is low and I have trouble breathing… Help!! I’m over this

Re: Still having Physical symptoms 30 months out
« Reply #1 on: September 23, 2014, 10:54:46 am »


I still have it 38 month out. Heart stuff like yours plus back pain, leg pain, tide back of my head, fatigue. It is not 24/7 like before, but daily at AM’s.


Re: Still having Physical symptoms 30 months out
« Reply #2 on: September 24, 2014, 01:53:14 am »


Quote from: kisel on September 23, 2014, 10:54:46 am
I still have it 38 month out. Heart stuff like yours plus back pain, leg pain, tide back of my head, fatigue. It is not 24/7 like before, but daily at AM’s.


I’m sorry to hear that Kisel. I hope you will continue to heal. Thanks for sharing it is nice t know I am not alone.

Liz Taylor wannabe mplsgrl caught between 2 worlds: Benzo Buddies and sanity

Between Two Worlds Now .. a little lost
« on: September 27, 2014, 06:40:06 pm »


I’ve been signing on everyday for the last week thinking about posting this. I have hesitated, in part, because I didn’t even know where to post it. Perhaps this isn’t even a topic to discuss here, I really don’t know.

Yes, I have posted my success story. I have been off from my cold turkey w/d nearly 3-1/2 years. I work a stressful full time job, and I’m lucky to have it. My worse symptoms have mostly been resolved; I have some lingering issues but none that cause me mental anguish.

The issue is that being on Valium/diazepam for so long really took a toll on my life long before I got off of it. Over the years I pretty much destroyed my own life, severing ties with friends and family alike as my mind and body kept bending and contorting to the effects of V. Going through w/d tore away any remains of my former life that I had. I lost everything and was forced to begin life anew.

Now I find that I don’t belong in either the “normal” world or this BB world, and I am more than a little lost. Because my whole experience with V, before and after w/d, has informed such a huge portion of my life it is more than just an anecdote – it is now who I am. Simply put, this means I can’t share a large portion of who I am with “real people”, and now I find myself irrelevant to my good fellow BB’s because I am mo longer truly in touch with the w/d (personal) process.

When “normal” people meet, they discuss their lives – it’s what humans do. I find that my only contributions to the conversation have to be well more than 10 years old, because post 9/11 my life was so deeply impacted by my mind altering use of V.

Okay, why am I posting here at all? I don’t know really. Where else can I say this? Nowhere. I feel like a person without a country.

I understand if no one has anything to say – I think it helped just to have these thoughts expressed “out loud.”

Thank you.


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The Dark Net
« on: September 27, 2014, 09:04:40 am »


Hi all,

This really doesn’t feel right but here goes. This might even get deleted by one of the moderators……

I see many folks here struggling with getting their Dr. to prescribe the necessary meds to do a long slow taper.

I am just writing this post to those who really want to get off benzos and cannot secure the cooperation of a doctor to prescribe the necessary drugs to do an informed long slow taper.

I encountered this problem and was able to buy what I needed (Valium) to taper off Klonopin on The Dark Net. The Dark Net allows you to buy whatever you need online using BitCoin.

Most doctors have no clue that benzos must be tapered very slowly. I became frustrated and just ordered what I needed online – the Valium was delivered within 5 days to my front door. I am not an advocate of buying drugs online but out of sheer desperation I have resorted to this method to ensure a long slow taper.

.25 KLONOPIN – Once a day before bed

Working with a psychopharmacologist to taper – If his plan does not work I plan to purchase Valium on the Dark Net and do a slow taper according to the principals outlined here on BB. Most likely a milk titration – So far getting down to .25 K in the PM before bed has not been too much of an issue.

This is a great forum – I bet this place has saved many lives.

Thanks to whomever put this together.

Taper Progress

September 25, 2014 .25 K in the PM before bed
September 26, 2014 .25 K in the PM before bed
September 27, 2014


30,000 mcg of Biotin a day? Sure, if you want to overdose.

A biotin overdose is rare but is possible if someone takes high doses of the vitamin over a prolonged period of time. Possible signs of a biotin overdose include slower release of insulin, skin rash, lower vitamin C and vitamin B6 levels, and higher blood sugar levels. Biotin, which is vitamin B7, also called vitamin H, is water soluble, meaning the body excretes what it doesn’t use through urine.

The recommended daily intake of biotin for adults is 20-30 mcg per day. 

A helpful tip for people who deal with numbness in body and especially mouth
« on: September 26, 2014, 01:57:30 pm »


Hi friends:)

Thought I’d share a helpful tip. A few years ago I was having such bad numbness of my skin and mouth that I literally could not feel my legs as I walked. A nutritionist told me that long-term benzo use severely depletes the body of biotin. I started taking 30,000 mcg a day (yep, that’s a lot) and about 80% of the numbness left. It has continued to help me for several years. It made my journey a million times easier, so I thought I would share. I buy the Rite Aid brand (it is powdered biotin in cellulose capsules), and it is about $13 a bottle, which lasts me about 3 weeks. So worth it for such relief! Liquid capsules of biotin do not work nearly as well for me. The Rite Aid brand I get includes 120, 5,000 mcg capsules, and I take 6 per day. Biotin is water soluble, so you will just pee out what you don’t need. I personally did not get relief from the numbness until I got up the 30,000 mcg dose.

Anyway, hope everyone is doing well, and I pray this tip helps someone feel better!