I was badly addicted to benzo's « on: April 06, 2015, 05:50:14 am »
Let me start by saying, at first I thought benzo’s were my best friend. I have always been a shy person and suffer from social anxiety and can remember times as a child where I felt alone all the time because I didn’t know how to meet new people or what to say to them. It was a crippling feeling that I hated about myself. Why couldn’t I just be normal? Why couldn’t I be outgoing?
When I first got on nerve pills I was such a happy not shy and very outgoing, fun person. It felt amazing not to feel scared to death to talk to people. I slept a lot better and even had more patience with my daughters. I even enjoyed doing my house work and I stopped worrying, which also Was a huge relief because I also am a worrier. As the months went on I started wanting to feel benzo happy all the time, so I took more than I was precribed and then I started having black outs. My daughters would find me passed out in different places around our home. Then came depression and more blackouts. Then I started stealing and I have never been a thief. Things got worse and worse and before I knew it, I had gotten two DUI’s and landed myself in the drug court program twice. It took me over five years to finally get clean off of them. They are dangerous and I thank God that I lived through the addiction and others lived through my blackouts bc I would drive high on nerve pills and wouldn’t remember anything. I woke up in jail praying I hadn’t killed anyone while high and blacked out. Ok thanks for reading my story and hope I could help at least one person wake up and get off these pills that I call The DEVIL