TERROR AT TESCO

I went to TESCO today!
« on: January 02, 2018, 05:19:06 pm »

[Buddie]

In the car!! By myself!!!

I haven’t been able to go there to do any shopping at all for months and the whole ‘online shopping and getting someone to get bits and pieces in between’ has become so stressful I decided that was one of the first things I was going to try and do when I felt stronger.

Last night I had a better sleep and felt half-decent after lunch so decided to have a go.  I haven’t been able to drive on the main roads outwith the housing estate but thankfully TESCO is about 10-15 minutes away from the house but still within the estate.  However even if I get there, I can’t go in the normal way because there are traffic lights and I seem to freak out if I get ‘trapped’ anywhere like a queue or a busy roundabout or lights.  And then I figured out I could maybe park in the staff car park round the back which is reached via a side street before the main entrance to TESCO and means I don’t have to negotiate any traffic lights at all so that’s what I did today.  And then did a LOT of deep breathing in order to get out of the car and make it to the front entrance!

But make it I did.  I grabbed two filled rolls, two salads and 4 yoghurts, saw an empty checkout and tried not to hyperventilate going through it.  There was a Holland and Barrett shop in the same complex so I popped in there afterwards and got some papaya and pineapple as a snack treat then stopped at the cash machine on the way back to the car to get money out as well.  Three things I would have had to ask someone to do for me normally.

And I discovered the other good thing about the staff car park is that it’s pretty quiet so I was able to give a whoop of delight when I got back to the car without any men in white coats appearing to take me somewhere padded :laugh:

And then I took the car for a 10 minute run which involved going onto one of the main roads which did produce a mild panic attack but I was able to calm myself down once I turned off into a side street.

Now that’s a big deal for me because whenever the panic has started before when I’ve done something like that, it’s always just got worse and worse and no amount of breathing exercises or calming strategies have worked in the slightest.  As you can imagine, being the driver in a car when that happens and still having to have a 20 minute journey to get back home makes that a frightening experience and results in eventual avoidance.  So the fact that I seem to now be able to become calmer while still IN the car says to me that my brain is very definitely healing and reduces the terrible fear factor somewhat.  Well it reduces it in theory ……  ;D

Once home, I popped the shopping in the fridge and took myself off for a walk to celebrate.  Possibly being the only human being on the streets, it being a very wet and windy afternoon but you know how it is – you feel better and you just want to do some ‘normal’ stuff for a change.

I was able to go much further away from the house than I normally do although timewise my walk was only 5 minutes longer than yesterday’s but it was much more of a WALK if you know what I mean.  Yesterday I was tootling around the lanes and paths very close to my house and eking out the walk to give me a decent time – today I was properly walking on the pavements at a good pace and being ‘normal’ tired rather than ‘scared’ tired.

Which of course means I am now knackered, feel terrible and could go off to bed right this minute!! :laugh:

Still it’s nice to put a tick (for a window) in the notebook where I’m keeping track of what I take and how I feel on a daily basis instead of a cross because there’s been somewhat of an abundance of crosses lately :-\

Good start to the year eh?

Kooks howl as Professor of Nursing claims sites like Benzo Buddies are full of people with borderline personality disorder

False Charge: BB Is Full of People with BPD
« on: December 26, 2017, 10:20:24 pm »

[Buddie]

I have a psych nurse friend who is convinced that online forums, such as BB, are full of people with borderline personality disorders implying that they (the forums) should be avoided. She is a professor of nursing at a highly prestigious university’s graduate school of nursing and has a Post Masters in Psych-Mental Health Nursing. She teaches graduate and doctoral students in that same program.

She has also made statements such as, “You may need to be on psych meds the rest of your life like a diabetic needs insulin.” As we know, these are statements that those in the uninformed medical community make when they are not educated about the risks of psych meds, having drunk the Kool-Aid of Big Pharma.

Is there any information I can use to counter this claim of “forums are full of people with BPD”?

Kooks add soy sauce, sushi, olives with (or without) garlic, MSG to list of forbidden foods

Soy Sauce????
« on: December 24, 2017, 04:45:50 pm »

[Buddie]

I was reading about “kindling”. It talked about the overproduction of glutamate. Soy sauce has glutamate. I ate sushi last night with tamari & this morning had a bad episode of symptoms (weak & shaky legs, distended stomach, blurry vision). Any correlation??

Re: Soy Sauce????
« Reply #1 on: December 24, 2017, 05:29:33 pm »

[Buddie]

No clue I ate some green olives with garlic and immediately had issues be I don’t know why

Re: Soy Sauce????
« Reply #2 on: December 24, 2017, 06:30:52 pm »

[Buddie]

Tons of MSG in both Sushi at a lot of places, and soy sauce, which also contributes to glutamate.

Re: Soy Sauce????
« Reply #3 on: December 25, 2017, 04:30:53 am »

[Buddie]

MSG is a major trigger for many people during withdrawal, and soy sauce is really high in it. Yes, there is definitely a correlation between MSG and waves.

Re: Soy Sauce????
« Reply #4 on: December 25, 2017, 06:26:14 am »

[Buddie]

Absolutely! Even now, almost 10 months off, if I were to consume soy sauce, it would get real ugly, real fast.

Benzo Buddies a haven for marijuana addicts

Mary Jane and Benzo Withdrawal
« on: December 26, 2017, 04:41:52 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi I am looking for some reail information on this subject of marijuana and benzo withdrawal. Medical marijuana and marijuana in general is legal where I live. I really don’t care to hear crap from people who are rigid and uptight and grew up thinking that weed was bad. Marijuana is no worse than alcohol so anyone that feels otherwise please don’t comment. I hate the close-mindedness of that kind of crap.

Re: Mary Jane and Benzo Withdrawal
« Reply #1 on: December 26, 2017, 04:44:02 pm »

[Buddie]

And one other quick thing if anyone of us was prescribed marijuana instead of benzos we wouldn’t have this problem right now that we all have.

Re: Mary Jane and Benzo Withdrawal
« Reply #2 on: December 26, 2017, 04:47:42 pm »

[Buddie]

I was wondering this, too. I have cbd hemp oil and have read it’s great for anxiety. But I have also read that you can’t take it with antidepressants. Weed is a beneficial for lots of things! My husband swears by it and up until 4 months ago, I smoked like a chimney.

Re: Mary Jane and Benzo Withdrawal
« Reply #3 on: December 26, 2017, 04:49:24 pm »

[Buddie]

Found this for starters:

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/801982-CBD-for-anxiety-benzo-withdrawal

Re: Mary Jane and Benzo Withdrawal
« Reply #4 on: December 26, 2017, 04:55:15 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on December 26, 2017, 04:47:42 pm
I was wondering this, too. I have cbd hemp oil and have read it’s great for anxiety. But I have also read that you can’t take it with antidepressants. Weed is a beneficial for lots of things! My husband swears by it and up until 4 months ago, I smoked like a chimney.

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I’ll bet the right kind of weed obtained from a medical dispensary could really help us. I have smoked marijuana before in the past and it has been very relaxing. Personally I would rather take the edible type than ingest smoke into my lungs. I wish there was more research done on this subject because I think for open-minded people this would help a great deal.

Luckily I live in a part of the United States where medical marijuana is legal and marijuana has also just become legal.

Benzos and other psychiatric drugs are far worse than alcohol or marijuana. I think of them more like an LSD type of drug. So nobody should sit in judgment of somebody that wants to smoke a little weed if they are popping pills. I ended up on these shity pills because a doctor recommended it for me for job stress back in the 1990’s. I wish she told me to run or do yoga or to smoke weed instead. If that was the case I wouldn’t be having these problems right now.