Addict lands in ER after Benzo Buddies taper fails

Please help.... absolutely hopeless and broken
« on: July 18, 2019, 12:06:20 am »

[Buddie]

So I’ve been off Klonopin about 1 month now. I have a phobia about dying. It’s only gotten worse. Last night I felt very weak and scared and was absolutely certain I’d die in my sleep. This morning I woke up at 6, very weak and TERRIFIED. I can usually tell a panic attack is happening, but I fully thought I was dying and called 911 for the first time. I was telling my boyfriend goodbye, ffs. My vitals were fine, my urine was fine, my blood sugar was fine. They sent me home. I still feel terrible and scared out of my mind. A terror I’ve never felt. I’m obsessing about meningitis or septic shock… I don’t know why. They didn’t do blood tests which is the major reason I cannot calm down. I’m so depressed. Majorly depressed. I’m so done with this. I’m the worst I’ve ever been. I keep going into full panic screaming that I’m dying, begging my Mom to help.

This just feels so real and different. But I’m not in excruciating pain. I just feel weak, confused, really depressed, my head is heavy, and sheer terror that I’m dying and nobody will help me. 🙁 Please tell me this is withdrawal and that I can make it through this, because I’m considering giving up completely.

Kooks add breast pain to list of 90,000,000 benzo withdrawal symptoms

Women: Breast pain while K withdrawal?
« on: July 15, 2019, 10:21:09 pm »

[Buddie]

I have been on a [mostly] steady tapering plan since December 2018 – I am tapering .125mg at a time and before my most recent cut was at 1.75mg/d. I have noticed in the last 3 months(ish) that I have extreme breast pain between ovulation and start of my menstrual cycle. So for about 2 wks straight per month! I never experienced such a long time for breast soreness (besides during pregnancies)!
It has been suggested to me that my estrogen may be increased and that donating blood could help.

Anyone else deal with this? What did/do you do about it?

Thanks!!

Benzo Buddies brainwashes its members into believing eating braised beef can drive them insane

Braised beef & tomato
« on: July 13, 2019, 12:07:15 pm »

[Buddie]

We cooked a braised beef dish for dinner recently that contained tomato paste and roasted salsa. Couldn’t sleep that […] and I think it threw me off. Too much glutamate? Maybe so. Anybody else have issues like this?

Re: Braised beef & tomato
« Reply #1 on: July 13, 2019, 02:04:19 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi […], certain foods wreak havoc on our fragile systems. I hope you are sleeping a bit better now. Oregano does a number on me and it is typically in spaghetti and pizza sauces. I raise it in my garden, but no longer add it to any thing I prepare. Perhaps there was something in the salsa.
Not sure about the glutamate, but I wouldn’t be surprised.

Kooks add dry scalp to list of 90,000,000 benzo withdrawal symptoms

dry scalp
« on: July 08, 2019, 04:04:41 pm »

[Buddie]

so i had dry scalp for months when i got off klonopin, now ive got it back again for no reason i dont get it .
« Last Edit: July 08, 2019, 05:57:27 pm by [Buddie] »

Re: dry scalp
« Reply #1 on: July 08, 2019, 04:55:39 pm »

[Buddie]

I have dry everything. Constantly drinking water applying moisturizer and lip balm. My spouse asked yesterday what was on my face. I looked in the mirror and the skin was pealing off my face

Re: dry scalp
« Reply #2 on: July 08, 2019, 08:03:12 pm »

[Buddie]

Lol Jospeh your posts make me laugh. Same here though. My face literally just peels constantly. If I run my hand across it, skin just sloughs off. Non stop… 🙄

BENZO BELLY STRIKES AGAIN!

BIG Benzo BELLY
« on: June 30, 2019, 02:42:50 am »

[Buddie]

anyone have Benzo BELLY??
belly looks like I am 9NINE months pregnant
I am not fat only my stomach looks big and weird
hard to breath when I breath stomach expands like a balloon and gets tight /locks /uncomfortable / never goes away
– after eating it is worse

anyone know what causes this? treatments? cures?
how long does it last?

Toy Story 4 trailer causes panic, waves of fear at Benzo Buddies

Do Movies Make You Uncomfortable?
« on: June 23, 2019, 09:44:04 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m having a hard time even watching movies still at 15 months off. I want to go to Toy Story 4 but even the trailer and concept of the movie makes me uncomfortable. Furthermore, I have been watching Toy Story movies with my daughter and find they all make me uncomfortable. But other kids movies make me feel this way too. I don’t even want to think about dramas or horror movies.

Anyone else have this?

Kook loses his shit after eating piece of steak

meat
« on: May 18, 2019, 08:03:14 pm »

[Buddie]

Uh. Im confused. I just ate a piece of steak. Nothing else. And im in a wave 5 minutes later. Does red meat cause glutamate storm or whats the deal? I bet its got antibiotics or msg in it.
« Last Edit: May 18, 2019, 08:16:11 pm by [Buddie] »

Re: meat
« Reply #1 on: May 19, 2019, 12:36:55 pm »

[Buddie]

Red meat has been a serious issue for me, too. I was diagnosed with Lyme and other parasites.

Interesting article.
https://mosaicscience.com/story/mammalian-meat-allergy-alpha-gal-allergic-lone-star-tick-bite/

Re: meat
« Reply #2 on: May 20, 2019, 08:59:25 am »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on May 19, 2019, 12:36:55 pm
Red meat has been a serious issue for me, too. I was diagnosed with Lyme and other parasites.

Interesting article.
https://mosaicscience.com/story/mammalian-meat-allergy-alpha-gal-allergic-lone-star-tick-bite/
kinda scary, these type of things.. I have a pretty bad tick history from several angles… 🙁
The pictures of meat in the adds looked slightly yummy, so I wont stress on it…
I must have heard of this here in Aust at some point, as it rang a dull bell..

Thanks…

Hey Cres, 🙂

Sorry, not very relavant I guess, but I often get dropped from some “reaction” after a “meal”… Size is a factor, from a small burger upwards… Meat is a factor, or say, deep fried…
-Stomache pain, deliberate breathing, sweats/fever, chills, tight numb/chewy burning up neck jaw and face..
I just have to lay down and it passes in a bit… -Sorry, I dont know why I get this…

Is there a pattern, or is this out of the blue..??

Addict fantasizes about murdering family after joining Benzo Buddies anti-doctor cult

Fear of Going Home
« on: May 08, 2019, 09:36:08 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m having a really hard time wanting to go home after work. I feel anger toward my family and have intrusive thoughts. I’ve had these things for so long that I’ve formed an aversion to my home. Don’t know what to do at this point. Never thought this would happen at nearly 14 months off. Does anybody have this? Does this sound like benzo withdrawal at all? I may have to quit my job and move at this point.

Re: Fear of Going Home
« Reply #1 on: May 08, 2019, 10:01:47 pm »

[Buddie]

Yeah, I think you begin to associate all this horror with your home, and family, and job, and everything around you, and you feel like getting away from it all. I used to hate being at home. I’d just get in the car and drive around the mountains for the whole day. Anything to get away. Of course, if you have a lot of anger, you might not want to go driving around. Might turn into road rage. But maybe some long walks might help.

Re: Fear of Going Home
« Reply #2 on: May 09, 2019, 12:32:14 am »

[Buddie]

You might have some other psychological issues (LOL – editor). This is not a criticism but your posts suggest it and your benzo doses were never very high. Maybe some cognitive behavioral therapy to help you deal with these negative thought patterns. Quitting your job and moving wont change a thing in my opinion. Best of luck.

Re: Fear of Going Home
« Reply #3 on: May 09, 2019, 02:05:35 am »

[Buddie]

Been seeing a therapist since July. I started seeing a second therapist in April too. Nothing has helped.

All I know is that when I quit benzos the second time I didn’t sleep for a full month and it felt like I was going into states of psychosis. I had suicidal ideation up to about a year off. That has eased off and it’s morphed into this fear of going home and fear and anger around other people, particularly my family.

Xanax addicted pothead can’t watch TV without bursting into tears

Brain Hypersensitivity and Tension/Pressure Headaches and Sensitivity to TV
« on: May 08, 2019, 11:09:21 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi everybody,

Anyone else experiencing Tension/Pressure that hits you like a wave on the top of your head where it feels like someone is pushing you down? It’s really scary, I get dizzy and can’t walk. I also am really sensitive to noises (had to turn off the clocks in my house). And I am unusually sensitive/emotional to watching TV and news, I just feel very anxious and I cry when I normally NEVER cry, so I stopped watching it.

But, I am a HUGE Game of Thrones fan and it’s been really difficult/scary for me to watch the show because I get so much anxiety and I am scared I will have a stroke in my brain because it feels so weird! I feel like I know what part of my brain is being triggered with each different emotion. Anxiety/Stress gives me crazy Tension/Pressure Headaches, the other emotions feel like my brain is being stimulated with vibrations. Or I have goosebumps/chills in my brain (best way I can describe it), it’s just really weird and scary!

I’m scared to see my friends because I don’t know what emotion will be triggered with what they talk about or ask me, and how my brain is going to react to it! Has anyone else experienced this? If so, how long does it last? And do you have any coping tips or know of an OTC or herbal remedy? HELP!

I’m scared that this is permanent. I have been abusing Xanax for 13 years and started smoking marijuana, heavily for the past 2 years. I have a very high tolerance. The past 4 months I was pretty much smoking marijuana ALL DAY and night since I had really bad insomnia and was taking anywhere from 2 1/2-4 mgs of Xanax. About a month and a half ago I quit marijuana and smoking cigarettes, cold turkey. And decided to start tapering off Xanax by.25mg each week, but I started at 2mgs. And I think I reduced it too quickly and also the withdrawal from marijuana, I feel has magnified my withdrawal symptoms.

I feel like I’m going crazy and turning into a major hermit out of fear. Can anyone help, please? 🙏

Benzo Buddies: Doctors are killing us

Benzos are only one tentacle of the beast
« on: April 19, 2019, 01:24:28 am »

[Buddie]

I have known for years that conventional diet “wisdom” is mostly nonsense but recently I have been been doing a lot of research on the keto diet and come to find out there are some doctors out there who are waking up to the fact that their med school education is at best inadequate and worst case it can have serious negative consequences (including death) to patient’s health.

I have listened to a few podcasts with Dr. Ken Berry He lays out the case for how conventional dietary advice that is sanctioned by many (most?) western governments and the medical establishment is effectively killing people. It’s scary how wrong they are about a fundamental health issue but it just goes to show that benzos are only the tip of the iceberg. If they are making us fat and unhealthy with bogus dietary advice and pushing drug after drug on us to mask the symptoms, what else is there that we need to be paying attention to?

We simply cannot take anything for granted, especially when it comes to our health and well being.

Here is a dicussion between Dr. Berry and a PA who is also clued in about the diet thing. Some very interesting information about how doctors are constrained by “common practice” making it very difficult to provide patients with information and treatment that goes against the orthodoxy. Very relevant to the benzo discussion.

Benzo Buddies terrifies members into believing they have a disease that doesn’t exist

How Long can the Benzo Flu Last? Years?
« on: April 13, 2019, 02:56:16 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi everyone. I jumped two months ago from diazepam after a long withdrawal taper while in tolerance. I have had every symptom possible. The two symptoms that have never let up while in tolerance or through the taper and after jumping are benzo-flu symptoms and muscle pain throughout my abdominal region which an ultrasound showed nothing.

I’ve been mostly house bound for 3 years fighting this. The benzo-flu use to be 3-4 days a week but since jumping it is 24/7 with no breaks. Nothing helps this and my head feels like it will explode. Just achy, hot, nauseous and anxious. I just want to know that there is an end to this and that I am not the only one.

Has anyone else struggled this long with benzo-flu symptoms? I haven’t read of anyone having it like this. It seems they may have it for a few days one month here and there. This is constant for me. Anyone?

Re: How Long can the Benzo Flu Last? Years?
« Reply #1 on: April 13, 2019, 04:17:11 pm »

[Buddie]

Yep. Its constant for me.

Re: How Long can the Benzo Flu Last? Years?
« Reply #2 on: April 13, 2019, 04:25:23 pm »

[Buddie]

[…], so sorry for you too. How long has this been going on for you? It is really taking a toll on me.

Re: How Long can the Benzo Flu Last? Years?
« Reply #3 on: April 13, 2019, 04:33:49 pm »

[Buddie]

NO your not the only one. I had it on and off during all of my long taper, just continually getting worse and more frequent
until it was 24/7 at about 3 months after jumping. It’s very discouraging & scary when it just keeps getting worse even after stopping the drug.
But after 3 months it reversed and very gradually started getting better until that particular group of symptoms is all but gone now.
My mind is just completely boggled at what I’ve been through and how sick I’ve been the past couple years.
So hopefully yours will start getting better now real soon. At 2 months your very early.

Re: How Long can the Benzo Flu Last? Years?
« Reply #4 on: April 13, 2019, 04:39:34 pm »

[Buddie]

[…], thank you so much for replying and I hate that you went through that. I am just crying now out of some relief. I really was thinking that I was alone. Like you, it was bad before but since jumping it never lets up. I’ve suffered through this for 3 years. It is unbelievable the torture. I hope your health just continually gets better by leaps and bounds.