Porn saves benzo addict’s life?

Porn ? Really need advice please
« on: August 27, 2017, 09:10:56 am »

[Buddie]

Hi enveryone.

I’m shamefull about it but i think its also a problem like another.

I was wondering if porn (like masturbating at least 2 Times a day...) can prevent the CNS from healing. Because I know that it takes energy and stimulates the CNS.

I’m in a rough period of my withdrawal at 2.5 months and i’m a afraid of quitting porn and be even more stressed and depressed, like just quitting another addiction…

I don’t know if I should stop because it hurts my CNS a lot or if I should consider quitting later… ?
My symptoms are actually: depression, anxiety, lethargy, weakness and other little things…

Thank you all
« Last Edit: August 27, 2017, 01:23:36 pm by [Buddie] »

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #1 on: August 27, 2017, 02:04:39 pm »

[Buddie]

Hey buddy,

Im willing to bet that it can be taxing on your CNS. And it definitely doesn’t help your practice for self control which can be very harmful for you and your mental health. I understand that this is something that is not easy to admit to people that you do, and asking for help in this area takes a lot of guts, so I totally commend you on this for taking the first step which is asking for helping. And remember that we all need help in one area or another. You are not the only one.

I’m a Christian, and I know that we are suppose to refrain from having religious talks on this forum, but I gotta tell you, if you give this area of weakness over to Jesus, you will be amazed at the victory you can have. I know I can’t overcome my problems by myself.

You may or may not believe, but it’s just some thought I figured I’d give you hat I know has helped me in the past, and he has changed my life.

Anyways, keep up the good fight, and we are here for ya!

Scrappy

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #2 on: August 27, 2017, 02:14:19 pm »

[Buddie]

I agree with Scrappy:)

Keep healing

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #3 on: August 27, 2017, 03:20:52 pm »

[Buddie]

You will find this strange, i’ve never been really religious, but since me beginning of post-benzo i go like every 2 weeks at church to pray and thanks God and Jesus to give me strengh.

I know that i need to quit this and this is a bad addiction, but it’s really worst since post-benzo, i really want to quit but it seems too hard for now… And my psychiatrist doesnt really help me !

So i’m asking myself if i need to quit now or later to heal better…

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #4 on: August 27, 2017, 04:18:18 pm »

[Buddie]

I don’t think the porn is necessarily going to stop healing. If you are exhausting yourself with any activity, that could not be good, cause you need to take care of yourself and give yourself the rest your body needs. This could also be your personal way of stress-relief, and maybe it’s helping? Maybe take a few days off and see.

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #5 on: August 27, 2017, 07:37:10 pm »

[Buddie]

……and risking carpal tunnel is just another worry you don’t need..

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #6 on: August 27, 2017, 08:19:49 pm »

[Buddie]

I don’t think watching porn will delay the healing, but stopping a porn addiction can cause nasty withdrawal symptoms on top of the benzo withdrawal symptoms. This will increase depression, anxiety, insomnia an fatigue. During porn withdrawal your dopamine and GABA levels will go down. During most dopaminergic drug/behaviour addiction withdrawals, the levels of corticotropin releasing factor and dynorphin increase. This will make you feel like shit, until the brain reaches homeostasis in kappa opioid and dopamine receptors. Some people even expierence porn PAWS.

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #7 on: August 27, 2017, 08:47:24 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m no expert but while withdrawing you should listen closely to your body and mind. If it seems to have adverse effects, then cut […]. Masterbation is not an addiction unless it controls you. Porn is another story. If you are addicted and go cold turkey, it could increase you symptoms. I’m not advocating anything here but there are some things to consider. Nothing to be ashamed of!
« Last Edit: August 27, 2017, 08:53:12 pm by [Buddie] »

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #8 on: August 28, 2017, 04:47:30 am »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on August 27, 2017, 02:04:39 pm
Hey buddy,

Im willing to bet that it can be taxing on your CNS. And it definitely doesn’t help your practice for self control which can be very harmful for you and your mental health. I understand that this is something that is not easy to admit to people that you do, and asking for help in this area takes a lot of guts, so I totally commend you on this for taking the first step which is asking for helping. And remember that we all need help in one area or another. You are not the only one.

I’m a Christian, and I know that we are suppose to refrain from having religious talks on this forum, but I gotta tell you, if you give this area of weakness over to Jesus, you will be amazed at the victory you can have. I know I can’t overcome my problems by myself.

You may or may not believe, but it’s just some thought I figured I’d give you hat I know has helped me in the past, and he has changed my life.

Anyways, keep up the good fight, and we are here for ya!

Scrappy

As a 25 year old woman who is engaged to the best man in the world and continued to have a rocking sex life all through withdrawal as well as look at porn a few times a month I can say it was my saving grace during the worst time in my life aka withdrawal from benzos.

[…] you are not shameful in the least bit, not sure if you are a man or a woman but watching porn is NOTHING to be ashamed of and unless it is causing you to not be able to have real relationships with people or if you feel it is an addiction in and of itself then don’t worry about it, it can help to release the major stress of benzo withdrawal and recovery, provide some temporary pleasure in your life and also just distract you.

Also highly recommend sex and connection with real people if you are up to it, withdrawal is a beast but it ends, I swear. DO NOT FEEL GUILTY OR ASHAMED OF YOUR SEXUALITY and you have zero reason to fear it will effect your CNS whether you quit or keep going with watching porn.

PS. Do you […] and don’t let anybody make you feel bad for how you choose to express your sexuality.

Cult tells addict she has brain damaged, keep tapering

Dangerous symptoms after fast valium taper? Can I die?
« on: April 09, 2017, 03:19:53 am »

[Buddie]

I take Klonopin and Valium. I went off 5mg of Valium in 16 days after being on it for one year.
The first week, I felt fine and I was happy to be down one benzo. I was sure I could stay off it and would never need it again.
After about a week and a half, I began to feel very weak arms and nervous system problems. My arms were getting weaker and developing more pain by the day. Then I felt my body go into a spasmodic state, throughout one day, and it was breaking down (legs shaking, trouble breathing/swallowing) so I drove home from work like a mad woman to run and get some valium. I took 5mg and all of the nervous system issues ceased….

I have now reinstated on valium for the past three days and am getting more severe symptoms from going back on it — weak legs, arms, the feeling of about to pass out, numbness, tingling, electrocution feelings, thinking I need to call 911. It’s as if my body is telling me it doesn’t want it. I am so confused.

I am trying to drop off the valium again tonight because I think I shocked my body by both going off it and going back on it. I am not quite sure what to do, if these withdrawal symptoms and reinstatement symptoms are serious….After having messed with my valium, I have felt on the border of going into seizures, convulsions, or whatever one might call a central nervous system breakdown.

Big question: SHOULD I JUST STAY OFF THE VALIUM AT THIS POINT? What would happen if I just let my nervous system continue to breakdown and took no rescue dose?
« Last Edit: April 09, 2017, 04:23:26 am by [Buddie] »

Re: Dangerous symptoms after fast valium taper?
« Reply #1 on: April 09, 2017, 03:31:46 am »

[Buddie]

You have damaged your brain with the valium and your CNS is in revolt and breakdown all at the same time. Tapper again slowly it may take 6 months to a year. So that you can heal. All of those symptoms are classic w/d. Do not freak out it may take a year for you to heal.

Kooky Monday: Cult member claims thirteen doses of Klonopin, spread over a month and a half, caused head to jerk about like Linda Blair in the Exorcist

Will my head jerks and twitches eventually go away?
« on: January 18, 2016, 07:43:34 am »

[Buddie]

I’m 27 days benzo free hallelujah! I was taking a 0.5 mg dose of clonozepam every 2-3 days for a month and a half in all I think I only dosed like 13 times in a month and a half.Im still having head jerks and muscle twitches/spasms.Do these go away and is the head jerking a common side affect?Because when I start having my moments of doubt I’ll be thinking it’s anything from MS to CNS damage even though this didn’t start happening until day 7 off clonozepam. Just really frightened about the head jerks will they eventually go away and is it most likely the side affects of not having the clonozepam in my system?

SAUCYMOUSE LOOKS FOR CHEESE, FINDS MIND CONTROL CULT

if only i'd known!
« on: April 21, 2015, 03:08:48 am »

saucymouse

this site’s a small haven.

a part of me doubts that what i’m going through is benzo withdrawal, as i was only ever taking between 1mg and 2mg of xanax or klonopin once a week to help me sleep, but i had kept up that habit for about 8 months, and after reading about other people’s experiences with withdrawal, i came to realize my symptoms fit the bill pretty well. something just snapped overnight about two months ago, and i haven’t been the same person since. it’s been a nightmare, really, and i have yet to find a medical professional i trust to help me out.

i took an 1/8th of a milligram of clonazapem about two weeks ago and haven’t had any since. things are definitely improved from this time last month, but i am absolutely still not myself. incredibly scatterbrained, terrible memory and focus, bizarre anxieties about nearly everything, alice in wonderland syndrome, tinnitus, songs stuck in my head ALL DAY LONG. i had two panic attacks last month and i’m just waiting waiting waiting for a third one to happen. it’s awfully nerve wracking.

it took me a month to get an appointment with a sliding-scale psychotherapist, and i finally had that meeting last week. it was an introductory/placement kind of thing, but i hope to start therapy with somebody in the coming days.

today i saw a psychiatrist that charged me 150 dollars and after about 45 minutes wrote me a prescription for wellbutrin. i was so upset about the whole situation because the guy just didn’t seem as invested as i’d wanted him to be. he didn’t say that the benzos were outright responsible for what i’m going through either, but said they probably had something to do with it. and if it isn’t the benzos, then something else is wrong with me and i have NO idea what it is and that makes me INCREDIBLY panicked.

i’ve been coming to this website to see if other people had a similar experience taking as little as i had, and so far i think i’ve found a few stories that might be on par.

and i have no idea what to do with this wellbutrin prescription. i read one sentence somewhere that said caution should be taken when using wellbutrin for benzo withdrawal, but there was no elaboration.

but anyway, i’m still looking for some answers i suppose. has this created a long term anxiety issue for me? is a prescription for an antidepressant really something i need? i’ve had lifelong low level anxieties, but i just don’t know what’s ‘normal’ for me or other people and what isn’t. the idea of being on a medication longterm is frightening; i want to be able to rely on only myself to get by. but i’m not sure if that’s the way to do it, and i don’t even feel i can trust the doctor who wrote me the prescription to really understand my feelings.

c’est la vie.

ah and i was also hoping to be able to use the search function. interested in other experiences with wellbutrin. and also alcohol and hangovers. my hangovers are WEIRD and leave me very mentally absent and confused which never used to happen.