Do food allergies ever go away? « on: July 18, 2018, 03:13:22 am »
Will I ever have dairy again?
Do food allergies ever go away? « on: July 18, 2018, 03:13:22 am »
Will I ever have dairy again?
cold water swimming « on: June 29, 2018, 12:01:37 pm »
Does anyone have any thoughts on swimming in the sea. Pretty cold water (ireland). Obviously it will increase my heart rate a lot. I know some people are against excessively hot water but is there any consensus on cold?
Phobic of everything? « on: April 25, 2018, 05:37:24 pm »
I seem to have become phobic of the world.
It is the touch and sound of things.
I can’t bear it.
Every time my dose wears off it gets worse.
I know when I get back to zero it will be constant again.
Does anyone else have this.
When it’s everthing how to get around it?
Lose control of legs and hands? « on: April 21, 2018, 02:33:13 pm »
This started post withdrawal so I am putting it here.
Although I have reinstated at a low dose when the dose wears off I am still losing my ability to control my legs – particularly right and right hand properly.
With leg it goes stiff but it is like my brain can’t work out how to move it properly.
Same with right hand – I can’t hold or manipulate a pen properly to write.
Does anyone else have this?
Has anyone had it go away?
Coping - I feel like calling the ambulance so I think I'll go for a walk. « on: March 30, 2018, 07:36:24 pm »
Hey Buddies! I’m an 83 year old geezer who was on 2.5 mg/day of Klonopin for 25 years as prescribed and have been off for about 22 months. I decided to wean off after realizing that the strange symptoms I had been experiencing for several years were due to tolerance withdrawal. The docs merrily prescribed this stuff without the slightest indication of the inherent risks involved. In any case, I thought it might be useful to my fellow sufferers to learn about my current circumstances given my history.
My typical day starts at about 6:30 AM after a night of fitful frequently interrupted sleep. My bed feels like a war zone. Feeling a bit dizzy and light-headed I make breakfast and sit down to read the paper. About an hour into it I begin to feel like a pall is settling over me; my brain feels leaden (physically) and my thinking becomes wooly. My whole body feels heavier and less responsive and my dizziness increases. I feel faint. An icy-hot sensation blooms over the skin of my arms and legs. With growing agitation I ask myself what the hell is going on? Do I have some horrible tumor like a carcinoid (which causes flushes) or pancreatic cancer? Do I have MS or lupus? I feel like I can hardly move, should I call the ambulance? Then, what’s left of my cerebral cortex sends a directive – Screw this! That’s no way to live! If you’re gonna go, go down swinging; get your ass in gear! (I need a bit of bravado at that point.) So I struggle to my feet, put on a jacket, unlimber my outdoor walker (My back is so bad I can no longer walk any significant distance without one. I wrecked my back running 12 miles/day in my 40s as a means of coping with job stress. I switched from running to Klonopin. Alas.) and head out. I take my driver’s license so I can be identified in case I keel over along the way. But amazingly I start to feel better almost immediately. My head clears, my spirits lift, and the leaden feeling disappears. I go as fast as I can up and down the hills in the neighborhood, covering about 2.5 miles in about 40 minutes, puffing all the way. People stare – who’s this decrepit old weirdo race-walking with his walker? But hey, when I get home I feel much better than when I started out and this exercise-induced window lasts for a few hours, after which that pall, somewhat less intense, begins to settle again. If I could only keep going flat out physically I think all my symptoms (except the skin sensations, which continue to come and go during the exercise) would be alleviated but, alas, this is impossible.
So folks, this is what one benzo sufferer’s life is like. It’s doable though not easy and at my age I don’t feel sanguine about the possibility of completely healing. The most beneficial coping strategy for me is to keep exercising as much as possible. Keep the blood flowing to all those damaged neurons! That will facilitate whatever healing is going to occur.
I don’t know if any of this will be helpful, but I hope so. Best of luck benzo-warriors!
Hell breaks loose after first meal « on: March 04, 2018, 04:02:43 pm »
It doesn’t matter what I eat although I try to just stick to healthy fats and proteins. I don’t have any sugar, carbs or anything unnatural in the mornings. The minute after I take a bite of food in the morning is when my head pressure, dizziness and blurred vision come on. The hell usually lasts all day after my first bite of food but sometimes gets better towards the evening. The only break I get is for two or three hours in the mornings.
Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal « Reply #1 on: March 04, 2018, 04:44:47 pm »
Same here. Still happening 20 months out.
Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal « Reply #2 on: March 04, 2018, 04:44:47 pm »
What symptoms do you get?
Re: Hell breaks loose after first meal « Reply #3 on: March 05, 2018, 09:34:13 am »
Exactly that made the psych diagnose me with “anxiety and panic disorder”.
Newsflash, it’s called DYSAUTONOMIA!
Thanks doc. for the misdiagnosis and putting me on this poison, and completely destroying my life.
I told every doctor about it, it didn’t matter matter what i ate, i felt sick, became extremely anxious and had to spend the whole day in bed.
NEVER blindly trust a doctor, do your own research too.
word of caution « on: March 07, 2018, 08:23:12 pm »
please do not move this post to the supplement section as I think it’s something everyone needs to see
i am going to be taking a break from BB for a little while due to lots of travel but wanted to post something – i am 9 months out now and had been doing amazing – then – in a frustrated moment with sleep – i decided to try – literally – a 1/2 capsule of GABA – i had used it years ago before z drugs, i had carefully carefully avoided all GABA impacting things until then – well – for 72 hours – i went back into acute – severe severe withdrawal – absolutely terrifying – no sleep in those 72 hours – my heart rate that had been back in the 60s went back to 100 – severe muscle pain, constant chemical induced panic – not anxiety – panic. so – for those of you who have been dabbling with GABA supplements thinking they will ease the burden of withdrawal – this experience showed me that – it is indeed true what the ashton manual says– that anything acting on GABA really isnt helping you but delaying or preventing healing…… withdrawal is horrible – and its just something you have to get through – i really believe that anything acting on GABA is going to hinder or prevent healing – so carefully research what you take – things like holy basil, ashwagandha, relora, passionflower, CBD – they all hit the GABA receptors. if you find you aren’t getting better – this may be why.
thankfully after 72 hours everything went back to normal and i learned a very valuable lesson. i suspect alcohol would have this same effect so will continue to abstain for a good long while – not worth the terror of what i went through in those 72 hours wondering if i had totally reset the clock back to zero… looking forward to my vacation in the sun and then lots of work travel – i am grateful to have reclaimed my life and will never risk my recovery again. I accept sleep will be up and down a while longer!
I dont know how to continue. « on: March 02, 2018, 02:09:14 pm »
I got down to . 110mg of k. 2 weeks aftee my last cut i got withdrawals. They have been getting worse. I woke up this morning not able to leave my bed. Bad anxiety and trembling. Had to call in sick. Updosed to .120mg. Im going to lose my job. I cant function. I dont know what to do
Benzo belly - help please! « on: March 01, 2018, 11:29:30 pm »
I’ve been weaning for a year – initial dose: 6.5mg Xanax, current dose: 0.25mg Xanax, 40mg Valium. Currently tapering at .125mg Xanax per week with a break every third week or longer breaks if I have something important coming up.
Through the decreases I’ve experienced stomach upset in many varieties and degrees, I had no idea about benzo belly but I realise I’ve been having small bouts of it.
Anyway.. my last decrease was over a week ago and about 4 days in I started getting horrible pain and bloating. I try to stay very active to distract while tapering but these symptoms are so severe I just want to crawl up and sleep forever.
I haven’t been able to continue my activities as usual – my endurance is very limited, I think the pain is draining my energy.
I’ve tried prochlorperazine (stemetil), peppermint, po chai, resting.. I’m not getting any relief and it’s not going away like it usually does after a couple of days.
I know there are a lot of threads on this and I’ve read a lot, I just don’t understand why I’m getting it so severely when my tapering is so minimal and I’ve only had it mildly (comparatively) before. I am very close to being completely off Xanax (2 more decreases), are the last couple of decreases harder than the others?
Is there ANYTHING I can do to relieve this pain or at least give myself enough energy to continue my activities? (I dance at least 9 hours a week, it keeps me sane).
Any thoughts or help would be much appreciated 🙏❤
Only thing keeping me going is rubbing my brain « on: February 21, 2018, 04:41:07 am »
I haven’t been to the doctor because I am terrified on what i’ll find out. I am being as positive as I can be but it just doesn’t make sense on how I feel. When I massage my hands deep into my brain, it feels like i’m manually triggering my neurons to work. I feel like A part of my brain just wont function unless I apply pressure to it. I can feel 100 percent like shit but once I stimulate A certain area on my head, I feel almost normal immediately. It’s so weird. My symptoms are dizzyness, nauseous, and feeling panicy. I have no anxiety at all by the way. just mental symptoms. i’m not feeing the usual symptoms from withdrawal and it worries me. I think i’m going to the doctors soon and see what’s going on with me. Wish me luck. Fill you guys in later