This butterfly wants to fly (get shit-faced)

This butterfly wants to fly now ....so stressed
« on: May 27, 2019, 07:23:17 pm »

[Buddie]

Recently I have been under A LOT of stress everything has just piled up and I been having chest pains it then gives me more anxiety and adds more stress and worry. The pains feel like a pinch right where my heart is.

Then recently past few days I have been feeling kind of numb no motivation not much energy just want to be on the couch the whole day.

When is it safe to have a drink I’m 8 months off and I have had a drink just on certain occasions.

Can anyone relate? How do you deal with stress?

Random cult comments from Facebook

Neomycin Polymyxin B ear drops have destroyed my life

I ate a ton of junk food in December and my symptoms got much worse
Today the kitchen is cleaned of junk food and I’m eating clean again

I have not left this house in over two years now
One try around the block that was it

My brain is burning me like hot chili pepper like fire

Keep fighting warrior

Make sure there is NO ADDED FLUORIDE
Most psychiatric drugs contain high amounts of fluoride
This calcifies the pineal gland and impairs cognitive functioning

Kooks add crazy sweating when laughing to list of 90,000,000 benzo withdrawal symptoms

Here's a new one! Crazy sweating when laughing! Taper Side effect?
« on: March 23, 2019, 08:58:41 pm »

[Buddie]

Let’s face it, we’re all hyper aware of every physical symptom throughout this tapering process but my new one? Crazy sweating when I laugh really hard (which isn’t often these days). I never noticed this before as I’m not one to perspire a ton. But lately, it’s kind of freaking me out that after a really hard laugh, I find that I’m sweating like crazy. Any thoughts?

Crippled by Ashton dogma, Benzo Buddies members unable to watch movies

Infinity war
« on: July 05, 2018, 07:38:52 pm »

[Buddie]

Not sure if this is the relevant place to post this but a few nights ago I tried watching the new Avengers film. I hate missing out on the new releases due to withdrawal and not being able to go to the cinema. Anyways big mistake, wayyyyyyy overstimulating.

Anyways the end was horrific.

Something about that imagery stuck with me. I’ve been in a crippling depression, depersonalised state for ages now and sometimes it really feels like my body is just disintegrating from the inside. I think in my currently altered state it is hard to escape the negative feelings, so strangely I’m finding parralels in my current situation with the end of a superhero movie. Strange

Anti-psychiatry maniacs at Benzo Buddies play doctor, tell crazy woman to take magnesium tablet, forget fact she can’t feel her head or arms

Feeling insane
« on: December 10, 2017, 06:07:59 pm »

[Buddie]

Hey guys

Just need some help. Just feeling nuts. Like I can barely write this message. I feel zero connection with myself or reality. My intrusive thoughts of regret, fear and self loathing won’t stop!!! I can’t look in the mirror because it triggers obsessive thoughts about appearance and aging.

The physical stuff is bad enough, but this mental stuff will not stop!!!!

Starting to think this is NOT withdraw!!

Thanks in advance.
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Re: Feeling insane
« Reply #1 on: December 10, 2017, 06:23:36 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m thinking this is not withdrawal either. I dont feel my arms and head, I feel extremely weak. I cant do anything, i’m Just afraid of dying.

Take care […], i’m here if you wanna talk about withdrawal or anything else if you’re borred

Re: Feeling insane
« Reply #2 on: December 10, 2017, 06:29:37 pm »

[Buddie]

Try a tablet of magnesium, 250 mg. It will make you drowsy and take the edge off. It works on the GABA, which is what is going on in your brain. The magnesium won’t hurt you at that dosage, and it will help you relax.

Best wishes. I’m not a doctor, but just one-quarter of a tablet works for me

Re: Feeling insane
« Reply #3 on: December 10, 2017, 07:59:43 pm »

[Buddie]

[…],
Thanks and sorry you’re suffering. I know it’s probably withdraw. It’s just SO strange.

Julianna,
I have not tried magnesium, but may give it a try.

Praying for healing or windows for all of us!! 🙂

Re: Feeling insane
« Reply #4 on: December 10, 2017, 09:57:26 pm »

[Buddie]

I know what you mean […]. I look in the mirror and have lost most of my hair and my skin is so dry and oily all th time. I’m hurting with strange anxiety in my chest and intense pain. It’s such a shit show of emotions and then often no emotions. I really have my doubts this is withdrawl as well today. Hurting all around

BENZO RAGE

Re: 18 - 30 Month Plus Group
« Reply #7315 on: December 07, 2017, 11:19:21 pm »

[Buddie]

[…] and […],

I’ve never experienced pain like I did when my new mattress was “off-gassing.” Farts I can handle. Farts 💨 that blow me into the next room can only come from Satan’s butthole. This pain from hell made me absolutely immobile screaming in bed unable to move a millimeter. On another thread I started, a couple of a$$holes chimed in saying how just picking up a golf ball is hard to do when you get old. Gee, thanks Yoda for being so understanding and compassionate.

You know where I’d like to shove his golf ball.

Well, I clearly understand the WITHDRAWAL pain you are all feeling. It is not of this world. It is flying screeching monkey pain. No wonder most people never come off these pills. At least they’re half zombified in pain, unlike us who are fully aware of every nook and cranny that’s being zapped and stabbed and stretched and yanked as we are disemboweled. Oh yes, I know how you feel.

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Ashton devotees add sweating to list of 90,000,000 benzo withdrawal symptoms

The sweats
« on: December 06, 2017, 05:46:20 am »

[Buddie]

Does anybody else get terrible sweats while tapering?.. I’ve had them really badly to the point where I’m dripping and have to put a towel on my bed.

Anyone out there in the same boat?.. summer has started here so the heat doesn’t help..

Thanks

Re: The sweats
« Reply #1 on: December 06, 2017, 01:17:41 pm »

[Buddie]

Yes, the sweats. Have had this problem for a long time.
Mostly during the nights when I try to sleep.

Wake up in a pool of sweat every night. We have the window open even if it’s winter here in Sweden.
I’m sweating like crazy. It’s a problem since I really need the sleep I can get. As so many of us here do.
I hope it will go away for us. Enough with sxs as it is.

Re: The sweats
« Reply #2 on: December 06, 2017, 08:48:58 pm »

[Buddie]

When I first started cutting down I got the sweats at night. It was ridiculous… I would wake up and my hair would be soak along with my PJs. I’ve never done that. Always been a cold nature person. So far I haven’t had them anymore.

Re: The sweats
« Reply #3 on: December 07, 2017, 09:04:53 pm »

[Buddie]

Last night I had really bad sweats! Woke up in the middle of the night and my t-shirt was soaking wet. Had to change my t-shirt and finally fell back asleep. Luckily for the rest of the night, no sweating! Weird!!