Benzo Buddies cult orders member NOT to attend grandmother’s funeral

Advice of rescue pill do or dont.
« on: December 27, 2017, 10:16:54 am »

[Buddie]

Does a 5 mg of Valium destroy my w/d ? I am benzo free since 1 of October 2017. I am going to a funeral and I have a hard w/d.
Is zoplicone as bad as benzo? I need to sleep the night before the funeral.
If i take one of them will I be back to zero and has to do all crap again

Re: Advice of rescue pill do or dont.
« Reply #1 on: December 27, 2017, 12:51:08 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on December 27, 2017, 10:16:54 am
Does a 5 mg of Valium destroy my w/d ? I am benzo free since 1 of October 2017. I am going to a funeral and I have a hard w/d.
Is zoplicone as bad as benzo? I need to sleep the night before the funeral.
If i take one of them will I be back to zero and has to do all crap again

Please don’t reinstate. You have three months of very hard work – the worst period –
behind you now. Taking any risk with that is definitely not something to take lightly and it is most certainly not in your best interests.

You do not have to go to any event, funeral or otherwise; put your recovery first. Not only are you ‘entitled’ to put yourself first, it is imperative that you do so, for your own benefit and the benefit of others who are dear to you.

In time, there will be plenty of opportunity to ‘make up for’ your absences and inabilities of this current period, when your mind is clear, your abilities and capabilites have returned and external activities have become an easy, ordinary thing to do, once again.

I had to miss my son’s wedding for similar reasons and (at the time) suffer the ignominy of my own embarrassment which resulted from that, along with those ‘confirming’ feelings of utter helplessness that also arose from it. (That’s not to mention my second-guessing the uninformed assessments of others and “what they must have thought of me”…) However, my abilities and circumstances now are very different and I am the living proof to others, to myself and now, hopefully, you, that very careful management of your condition has to be your first priority and that no one else can do it for you.

Re: Advice of rescue pill do or dont.
« Reply #2 on: December 27, 2017, 01:17:17 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on December 27, 2017, 12:51:08 pm
Quote from: [Buddie] on December 27, 2017, 10:16:54 am
Does a 5 mg of Valium destroy my w/d ? I am benzo free since 1 of October 2017. I am going to a funeral and I have a hard w/d.
Is zoplicone as bad as benzo? I need to sleep the night before the funeral.
If i take one of them will I be back to zero and has to do all crap again

Please don’t reinstate. You have three months of very hard work – the worst period –
behind you now. Taking any risk with that is definitely not something to take lightly and it is most certainly not in your best interests.

You do not have to go to any event, funeral or otherwise; put your recovery first. Not only are you ‘entitled’ to put yourself first, it is imperative that you do so, for your own benefit and the benefit of others who are dear to you.

In time, there will be plenty of opportunity to ‘make up for’ your absences and inabilities of this current period, when your mind is clear, your abilities and capabilites have returned and external activities have become an easy, ordinary thing to do, once again.

I had to miss my son’s wedding for similar reasons and (at the time) suffer the ignominy of my own embarrassment which resulted from that, along with those ‘confirming’ feelings of utter helplessness that also arose from it. (That’s not to mention my second-guessing the uninformed assessments of others and “what they must have thought of me”…) However, my abilities and circumstances now are very different and I am the living proof to others, to myself and now, hopefully, you, that very careful management of your condition has to be your first priority and that no one else can do it for you.


Yes, you are so right.. It is my grand mothers funeral. It makes me so sad. Feels like I am in a mental prision.
I was taking a glass of Baileys last weekend and I start to feel anxiety after that….So no more alcihol

Benzo Buddies members filled with hatred toward the medical profession

Pharmacist reaction
« on: June 05, 2017, 07:07:04 pm »

[Buddie]

Yesterday, I was picking my my Valium rx at my same old chain grocery store pharmacy and a new pharmacist was working. The pharmacy technician was ringing me up and the pharmacist came over and said, “You actually take these all at once?” (10mg pills and 2 mg pills, totaling up to 13mg a day).
I said, “No, I split it up into 3 doses through the day”. She looked at me like I was crazy. I told her “I’m tapering down and if you look at my history, I actually started at 20mg about 2 months ago. I’m under the supervision of a doctor and trying to get off this medicine.” The rx is even written out, “To be taken in 3 doses through the day”.
She said, “Aren’t you just super drowsy all the time, how are you walking around?” I was so befuddled.
I just smiled and said, “I’m doing fine, thank you for asking.” Signed for my rx and left. The nerve! This was the actual PHARMACIST!

What I wanted to say, “Lady, my body is begging for more of this damn medicine, I’m FAR from drowsy or even tired. Actually, I feel like I could climb a wall or jump out of my skin.” Oh well. She’s not my judge, she’s not my dr. I’m sure they see people on much higher doses of valium than 13 mg a day! I am not almost 40 years old, it shouldn’t be a shocker to see a grown woman getting a rx filled monthly, with monthly visits to the same dr, lowering doses!

Anyone else ever encountered a judgey pharmacist?

Benzo Buddies ghouls gang up on addict who relapsed

The abuse goes on for ELEVEN pages! They later accused poor Timmy of being a troll and a hacker. That’s the kind of support an addict gets at Benzo Buddies – no support at all. 🙁

It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« on: September 13, 2016, 05:32:05 pm »

[Buddie]

I couldn’t handle the intense pain last night of my depression it was so excruciating that i swallowed 3 mg of klonipin. I know people in here have tried to help me but i can tell you today that i give up. I cannot handle this intense withdtawal and i think it’s from kindling. If i can be a poster boy of what not to do, please learn from me.
Slowly taper and no rescue doses. I have the most severe depression thst i dont even think it helped. I just made another huge mistake and in sure it’s one il never recover from. I’m so sorry benzo buddies and in ashamed that im such a failure. I guess i couldn’t pull up my big boy pants. I’m leaving the site now and i don’t know what to do from here, but i obviously can’t handle this wirhdrawal. It’s way too much depression and chest pain. I’m out of answers and unfortunately you don’t get 2nd chances in life.

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #1 on: September 13, 2016, 05:41:56 pm »

[Buddie]

<<yawn>>>

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #2 on: September 13, 2016, 05:48:20 pm »

[Buddie]

So you either did not run out of all of them the other day, or you drove to the pharmacy in excruciating pain last night to get more. My feeling is you had them.You know I don’t really know what to say. Past experience for you has proved that reinstatements and rescue doses have done more harm than good for you. You have greatly regretted each time you have done so. Do you expect if to me different this time around. Your right, kindling has probably caused your withdrawal to be worse. I don’t know what your future plans are for Klonopin, but reaching tolerance quickly would not be out of the question for someone who has kindled. Is you plan to just keeping up your dose over time time you reach tolerance? I don’t know timmy. I think you should have tried to hang on a bit longer.

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #3 on: September 13, 2016, 05:53:44 pm »

[Buddie]

Good grief, Timmy. I think you need to step back from all this and ask yourself some tough questions as there is obviously a lot more going on here than just withdrawing from benzos.

It’s been suggested, many times, that you have a plan in place for the time when w/d becomes too overwhelming for you. Have you done that? Simply posting on this forum after you’ve reinstated/changed meds/added new meds/reduce dosed does NOT constitute a plan.

Furthermore, you are both right and wrong in regards to not getting second chances in life. We actually don’t just get second chances….we get third, fourth, fifth, etc. The key to this however, is the ability to adapt, or change or accept your circumstances….something that you are indeed struggling with.

You’ve been on this forum long enough to know that benzos cause depression, so the fact that you continue to take them FOR depression is bewildering. Of course it didn’t help.

If you’re depressed, it would likely be in your best interest to start some intensive therapy, continue your long walks, get some sunshine and eat properly.

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #4 on: September 13, 2016, 05:58:12 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on September 13, 2016, 05:53:44 pm
Good grief, Timmy. I think you need to step back from all this and ask yourself some tough questions as there is obviously a lot more going on here than just withdrawing from benzos.

It’s been suggested, many times, that you have a plan in place for the time when w/d becomes too overwhelming for you. Have you done that? Simply posting on this forum after you’ve reinstated/changed meds/added new meds/reduce dosed does NOT constitute a plan.

Furthermore, you are both right and wrong in regards to not getting second chances in life. We actually don’t just get second chances….we get third, fourth, fifth, etc. The key to this however, is the ability to adapt, or change or accept your circumstances….something that you are indeed struggling with.

You’ve been on this forum long enough to know that benzos cause depression, so the fact that you continue to take them FOR depression is bewildering. Of course it didn’t help.

If you’re depressed, it would likely be in your best interest to start some intensive therapy, continue your long walks, get some sunshine and eat properly.

The mental pain and anguish last night was just too much. I literally felt like my life was on the line. Worse is a friend gave them to me and now im totally out. This is really goung to kill me. I know il get flamed but the mental torture from kindling is so bad i had zero choice in my mind. I’m throwing in the towel. I am not capable of this obviously.

edit: fixed quotes
« Last Edit: September 13, 2016, 06:36:45 pm by [Buddie] »

Mentally ill Benzo Buddies member feels like hurting strangers

Comments by JB:
There you go.. perfect example. And this guy has lethal weapons, training, AND is indiscriminate in who he unleashed his temper on?
He’s refusing to take their ‘poison’, yet he’s becoming a real danger to others by NOT taking it?
Let’s see how many buddies do the sane thing and advise him to keep taking the med that’s keeping others safe while he gets help!
If thinks the VA docs don’t know what they’re doing, but to me they seem to know he’s dangerous and are medicating him accordingly!!
God help the people around him because he’s heading towards killing someone once the forum convince him he’s doing the right thing!!

Full of rage and anger while tapering off of Clonazepam
« on: May 25, 2016, 04:41:24 am »

[Buddie]

Have been so full of rage and anger while tapering off of Clonazepam after 23 years of taking it. I yell at coworkers and loved ones. I hate the way I feel. Got to love the VA. Don’t talk to them. Just medicate them. They probably will be happy I will save them money while getting off meds. Hell 22 Veterans kill themselves every day. I’m nothing but a number to them. I got more information from benzo buddies about how to get off this poison than all those useless people making six figures working for the VA have given me.

Re: Full of rage and anger while tapering off of Clonazepam
« Reply #1 on: May 25, 2016, 04:54:11 am »

[Buddie]

Hey- I just wanted to say the VA put me in this situation too and I am also a veteran if you need someone to talk to. They know very little about withdrawal effects so I’ve found it best to talk to people on this board more than what I tell my doctor. They would just try to prescribe me more crap and I am done with taking anything they are giving!

Re: Full of rage and anger while tapering off of Clonazepam
« Reply #2 on: May 25, 2016, 05:14:13 am »

[Buddie]

Hey. Thanks for answering. Yea I have gotten more information about my meds and how they effected my brain and what to expect during my taper and how to taper. Then the VA docs. They are useless drug pushers. Their poison steals your soul. I do not want shit to do with them. Once I’m free from their drugs I’m going off the grid. I don’t want to be around people anymore. Is it normal to be so angry during a taper? I feel like getting to fights with total strangers. It’s weird. I’m afraid to pack a piece and blade like I used to every day. I don’t trust myself. Like I’m a powder keg. I hate feeling like this. I just start cussing people out. Like I can’t control it.

Re: Full of rage and anger while tapering off of Clonazepam
« Reply #3 on: May 25, 2016, 06:26:13 am »

[Buddie]

I’m so sorry you had to go through all this and still do. Thank you for serving… I am so sorry to hear you have been so I’ll treated. I would feel so angry too. This is all too insane. Good for you getting off of this. I can’t even imagine 23 years. I’m sick that greed has caused you all this pain. I want not to complain ever again. I can’t even begin to imagine how betrayed you must feel. I am deeply sorry you have had to go through all this. I pray the anger subsides and you are gifted a peace that surpasses all understanding.

TRAP psycho laments destruction of his freak show

The TRAP Killer ?
Enough Is Enough

Forgive me, but I think I have just experienced something VERY unpleasant. Perhaps THIS creature is the person or company responsible for the effort to close TRAP….

http://www.cesspoolofmadness.com/

I am appalled.

This offensive site has “WordPress” as its operating system.

I think it may be a case of referring this hate filled diatribe to WordPress for them to adjudicate whether the material and content therein violates their own policies.

Then having the appropriate jurisdictional solicitor/attorney issue the relevant “Cease & Desist” notice pending legal action against the miscreant.

As a former police officer, I know that there ARE laws against this sort of thing.

If this is the sort of vile hate that the TRAP mods have had to put up with, little wonder there is a concensus to close the TRAP Forum.

Regards,

Calum.