Benzo Buddies members filled with hatred toward the medical profession

Pharmacist reaction
« on: June 05, 2017, 07:07:04 pm »

[Buddie]

Yesterday, I was picking my my Valium rx at my same old chain grocery store pharmacy and a new pharmacist was working. The pharmacy technician was ringing me up and the pharmacist came over and said, “You actually take these all at once?” (10mg pills and 2 mg pills, totaling up to 13mg a day).
I said, “No, I split it up into 3 doses through the day”. She looked at me like I was crazy. I told her “I’m tapering down and if you look at my history, I actually started at 20mg about 2 months ago. I’m under the supervision of a doctor and trying to get off this medicine.” The rx is even written out, “To be taken in 3 doses through the day”.
She said, “Aren’t you just super drowsy all the time, how are you walking around?” I was so befuddled.
I just smiled and said, “I’m doing fine, thank you for asking.” Signed for my rx and left. The nerve! This was the actual PHARMACIST!

What I wanted to say, “Lady, my body is begging for more of this damn medicine, I’m FAR from drowsy or even tired. Actually, I feel like I could climb a wall or jump out of my skin.” Oh well. She’s not my judge, she’s not my dr. I’m sure they see people on much higher doses of valium than 13 mg a day! I am not almost 40 years old, it shouldn’t be a shocker to see a grown woman getting a rx filled monthly, with monthly visits to the same dr, lowering doses!

Anyone else ever encountered a judgey pharmacist?

Who the hell is Don Killian?

Don Killian
« on: November 15, 2016, 02:42:52 pm »

[Buddie]

Don Killian has said he is not doing anymore videos and I’m personally gutted. his words of inspiration, hope and encouragement have kept me going. He supports out of the goodness of his own heart and researches endlessly. Because of some controversy and bad mouthing of Don, which I find disgusting, particularly as it’s from people he has helped get through this, he is wrapping up. Please, if you have had contact with Don or benefited from his videos and writings………. please let him know and encourage him to stay. WE NEED ALL THE HELP WE CAN GET. I don’t understand how this can happen.

Benzo Buddies ghouls gang up on addict who relapsed

The abuse goes on for ELEVEN pages! They later accused poor Timmy of being a troll and a hacker. That’s the kind of support an addict gets at Benzo Buddies – no support at all. 🙁

It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« on: September 13, 2016, 05:32:05 pm »

[Buddie]

I couldn’t handle the intense pain last night of my depression it was so excruciating that i swallowed 3 mg of klonipin. I know people in here have tried to help me but i can tell you today that i give up. I cannot handle this intense withdtawal and i think it’s from kindling. If i can be a poster boy of what not to do, please learn from me.
Slowly taper and no rescue doses. I have the most severe depression thst i dont even think it helped. I just made another huge mistake and in sure it’s one il never recover from. I’m so sorry benzo buddies and in ashamed that im such a failure. I guess i couldn’t pull up my big boy pants. I’m leaving the site now and i don’t know what to do from here, but i obviously can’t handle this wirhdrawal. It’s way too much depression and chest pain. I’m out of answers and unfortunately you don’t get 2nd chances in life.

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #1 on: September 13, 2016, 05:41:56 pm »

[Buddie]

<<yawn>>>

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #2 on: September 13, 2016, 05:48:20 pm »

[Buddie]

So you either did not run out of all of them the other day, or you drove to the pharmacy in excruciating pain last night to get more. My feeling is you had them.You know I don’t really know what to say. Past experience for you has proved that reinstatements and rescue doses have done more harm than good for you. You have greatly regretted each time you have done so. Do you expect if to me different this time around. Your right, kindling has probably caused your withdrawal to be worse. I don’t know what your future plans are for Klonopin, but reaching tolerance quickly would not be out of the question for someone who has kindled. Is you plan to just keeping up your dose over time time you reach tolerance? I don’t know timmy. I think you should have tried to hang on a bit longer.

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #3 on: September 13, 2016, 05:53:44 pm »

[Buddie]

Good grief, Timmy. I think you need to step back from all this and ask yourself some tough questions as there is obviously a lot more going on here than just withdrawing from benzos.

It’s been suggested, many times, that you have a plan in place for the time when w/d becomes too overwhelming for you. Have you done that? Simply posting on this forum after you’ve reinstated/changed meds/added new meds/reduce dosed does NOT constitute a plan.

Furthermore, you are both right and wrong in regards to not getting second chances in life. We actually don’t just get second chances….we get third, fourth, fifth, etc. The key to this however, is the ability to adapt, or change or accept your circumstances….something that you are indeed struggling with.

You’ve been on this forum long enough to know that benzos cause depression, so the fact that you continue to take them FOR depression is bewildering. Of course it didn’t help.

If you’re depressed, it would likely be in your best interest to start some intensive therapy, continue your long walks, get some sunshine and eat properly.

Re: It's over for me. ...........i did it again
« Reply #4 on: September 13, 2016, 05:58:12 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on September 13, 2016, 05:53:44 pm
Good grief, Timmy. I think you need to step back from all this and ask yourself some tough questions as there is obviously a lot more going on here than just withdrawing from benzos.

It’s been suggested, many times, that you have a plan in place for the time when w/d becomes too overwhelming for you. Have you done that? Simply posting on this forum after you’ve reinstated/changed meds/added new meds/reduce dosed does NOT constitute a plan.

Furthermore, you are both right and wrong in regards to not getting second chances in life. We actually don’t just get second chances….we get third, fourth, fifth, etc. The key to this however, is the ability to adapt, or change or accept your circumstances….something that you are indeed struggling with.

You’ve been on this forum long enough to know that benzos cause depression, so the fact that you continue to take them FOR depression is bewildering. Of course it didn’t help.

If you’re depressed, it would likely be in your best interest to start some intensive therapy, continue your long walks, get some sunshine and eat properly.

The mental pain and anguish last night was just too much. I literally felt like my life was on the line. Worse is a friend gave them to me and now im totally out. This is really goung to kill me. I know il get flamed but the mental torture from kindling is so bad i had zero choice in my mind. I’m throwing in the towel. I am not capable of this obviously.

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Doctor-bashing World Benzodiazepine Awareness Day kooks make videos (for each other)

World Benzodiazepine Awareness day videos
« on: June 23, 2016, 03:48:51 am »

[Buddie]

This is the first video that someone posted in another thread:
https://youtu.be/2X6ZFmo3VBY
This is the second one. I am in it:
https://youtu.be/y1FrgpK7qUI
Here is a video on how you can participate:
https://youtu.be/0KnHYY7JKvk
A video made by a woman who lost her husband to bz WD:
https://youtu.be/PwJwti0vCog
This a video from Baylissa Frederick. Her website is recovery road and she wrote the book Recovery and Renewal:
https://youtu.be/CVuP8dHBAdY

They have decided to probably do a third video. You can go to the world benzodiazepine awareness Facebook page or website for more info if you want to make one. I also am happy to give info. They are also reintroducing the benzo bill in January in MA. I was too sick to attend the hearing last time, but I wrote a letter. Letters of support and stories are welcome from all states. I know change is happening and I hope others can get involved in whatever way you are capable.

Doctor-bashers turn on each other less than a month away from W-BAD – World Benzo Awareness Day

“We HAVE to stick together. We cannot NOT support any initiative that has even the remotest possibility of eliciting positive change. Please put any personal differences aside. Unless a proposed activity is illegal or unethical, please support it.” – Bliss Johns

“Preach!!! We are on the bleeding edges of a history making grass roots effort. We cannot afford division.” – Heather Solimine

“Also at issue here is how often I observe the benzo community turning on its own, hurting both well-meaning individuals and the larger benzo effort. Once judgment is declared, the conversation can turn so, so vicious. I think of Baylissa Frederick and Jennifer Austin Leigh, who have both given so much of themselves over the years to help people get through their hellish benzo journeys. They are positive, healing voices; both are highly knowledgable about patterns and methods involved in each person’s unique benzo journey and recovery. They both offer one of the few legitimate services for benzo discontinuation counseling and coping skills available. Yes, they do charge fees; but the costs are barely enough to sustain them. They do their work from a sense of purpose and need, with zero intent to exploit a vulnerable community. Yet over and over they are judged and attacked. And they always forgive and return because they are wonderful, deeply committed people who represent what is best about the community. But I worry; what if the day comes when one or both of them throw up their hands and say, Enough! ? Let’s protect our protectors. Let’s honor our warriors. All of them, which means all of you too —all who have or are experiencing benzo hell.” – Holly Hardman

http://www.asprescribedfilm.com/blog–notes/change-through-unity
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CULT ABUSES THE MENTALLY ILL

The anti-psychiatry cult organizes themselves to attack patients, often mentally ill, who’s only crime is taking their doctor prescribed medication. The brainwashed zealots see themselves as saviors on a crusade to save people from Big Pharma’s evil medications. They don’t care who they hurt on their mission to destroy psychiatry. To these miserable wretches, the millions of people helped by medication can all go to hell. Promotion of cult ideology is bad enough, and to be honest, no one but other cult members sees it or cares, but the harassment of the sick is not going to be tolerated.

Anti-psychiatry ‘movement’ threatens hunt down doctors and put them out of action

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A Benzo Buddies Christmas

Christmas Carols for Buddies

Micro-Tapering — The Twelve Years of Tapering
On my first year of tapering my one true guru Ashton sent to me
A giant boatload of diazepam
On my second year of tapering my one true guru Ashton sent to me
two trips to the nuthouse
and a giant boatload of diazepam
On my third year of tapering my one true guru Ashton sent to me
three electroshock treatments
two trips to the nuthouse
and a giant boatload of diazepam …

Borderline Personality Disorder — Thoughts of Roasting on an Open Fire

Manic — Deck the Halls and Walls and House and Lawn and Streets and Stores and Office and Town and Cars and Buses and Trucks and Trees and …
Agoraphobia — I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day But Wouldn’t Leave My House

Social Anxiety Disorder — Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas While I Sit Here and Hyperventilate

Schizophrenia — Do You Hear What I Hear, the Voices, the Voices?

Oppositional Defiant Disorder — Santa Claus is Coming to Town
You better not cry – Oh yes I will
You better not shout – I can if I want to
You better not pout – Can if I want to
I’m telling you why – Not listening
Santa Claus is coming to town – No he’s not!!
Multiple Personality Disorder — We Three Kings Disoriented Are

Dementia — I Think I’ll Be Home for Christmas

Bad Wave — Walking In a Winter Wonderland Miles from My House in My Slippers and Robe
Involuntary Psychiatric Hold — Over the River Aand Through the Woods To The Funny House We Go

Paranoia — Santa Claus is Coming to Town to Get Me

Personality Disorder — You Better Watch Out, I’m Gonna Cry, I’m Gonna Pout, Maybe I’ll Tell You Why

Narcissistic — Hark the Herald Angels Sing About Me

Attention Deficit Disorder — Silent Night, Holy
OOOOOOOOh look at the Froggy
Can I have chocolate
Why is France so far away?
Doctor Hate — I Saw Mommy Kissing Dr. Santa Claus So I Burned Down the House

Amnesia — I Don’t Remember If I’ll be Home for Christmas

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder — Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells …

5150 — Away in A Psych Ward