Threw a tantrum like a little kid humiliated
« on: February 14, 2018, 03:59:03 am »
I don’t know why but looking back just now I realized I threw somewhat of a tantrum when I was at a facility well it was called a facility bit it was terrible. Now I feel so embarrassed I don’t know why I did that I was so pissed and scared at the time I thought they were trying to keep me there. I was just cold turkeyed just before maybe that’s had something to do with it
Re: Threw a tantrum like a little kid humiliated
« Reply #1 on: February 16, 2018, 05:34:20 am »
It would […].
I was sitting on a very crowded and cramped bus stop about 3 weeks ago and it was really hot. The bus had those air brake things, and as each bus arrived and departed the air brakes made a horrible hissing, squealing sound.
I kept enduring until I just screamed at the final bus and told it to shut the F up. Everyone looked at me. Aarrgghh.
I was so embarrassed but did apologise to those around who looked at me strangely. I never do stuff like that, it just overcame me.
I was in early WD and my apology was accepted.
It gets better.
Re: Threw a tantrum like a little kid humiliated
« Reply #2 on: February 16, 2018, 11:30:15 pm »
Vyea I just got into a big fight with my dad and I told him off he asked to help and I told him no and he kept going. And I started a fight with him and cursed him out I don’t feel to bad about it I’ve walked on eggshells a lot and it felt good to say f-u to him
« Last Edit: February 16, 2018, 11:40:26 pm by [Buddie] »
« on: February 05, 2018, 06:33:25 pm »
I am the mother of two children who was placed on Xanax over 15 years ago shortly after my daughter was born. In the course of those years I went off and on Xanax for about 5 years then my mother who was battling a long term battle with a malignant brain tumor became very sick. The Xanax led to other drugs all prescribed by my dr but I like many others needed more not realizing I was dependent. My mother passed away and other tragedies followed in my family. This past August I entered a rehab facility in another state for 5 weeks and gained my life back. I am off of Xanax and all other meds I was on for almost 6 months.
Thank you to this forum.
5 days out... superior stupidity
« on: January 19, 2018, 07:46:48 pm »
I am entering day 5, again, if you check my signature last time
I had 5 days I was running to the hospital and ended up 6 days in a psych unit.. put back on a rapid taper, 3 days, I feel the same symptoms coming on, cognitive impairement,
Confusion, brain zaps, head pressure, burning skin, twitching fingers… I am and will ride this out.. not going to the hospital again so maybe I know what to expect, the part that scares me the most are the mild hallucinations I experienced last time…
I will not dwell on it…
Just ride it out…
Re: 5 days out... superior stupidity
« Reply #1 on: January 20, 2018, 12:16:37 am »
How are you doing since being released from the psych ward? Did they help you? I was in the psych was Aug, Sept, Oct, and November. I’m pretty much like you-don’t want to go back so I’m riding it out at home. My newest crappy symptom is chest pain and racing heartbeat. I hope you feel better soon!
Chickened out at the dentist
« on: January 17, 2018, 12:00:21 am »
My back molar cracked in half. So I got a filling. Then an infection in the tooth. Took antibiotics for three weeks (caught strep at the same time this is why so long on antibiotics)
Then my tooth still hurts but I’ve read that a root canal can have negative effects on our body (not withdrawal or benzo related) do I opted for getting it taken out except my stomach has been hurting and I’ve had a hard time breathing and felt like headed that I started thinking maybe my h pylori is still there and now I have bad thoughts that I have a bleeding ulcer.
So now my thoughts are :
1. Bleeding ulcer
2. H pylori still present
3. Tooth infection causing light headbess, nerve pain, etc.
I feel like nothing I do is right
If I fix one thing
Something else goes wrong
I can’t take this
I’m so scared 😖
Physical intimacy (for women mostly) Getting it back
« on: January 16, 2018, 04:39:48 pm »
I miss having passion. Initially, I know the benzos just about killed it. Tapering (and the wd) put the nail in the coffin. I am in the later stages of menopause, that contributes. I do believe once I finish my taper, then heal from that, it will come back, perhaps just not as strong. Anyone find a way to wake up your desire while in the prices of tapering?? (not porn) Thanks!
Re: Physical intimacy (for women mostly) Getting it back
« Reply #1 on: January 17, 2018, 09:41:57 am »
I was tapering through the menopause, which was no picnic! I had a problem with dryness – which I solved by using a simple OTC lubricator.
I didn’t take any HRT – my own choice. I am now about 2 yrs post menopause and the dryness has actually improved.
Tapering is stressful, and when you’re under stress – it’s hard to feel playful and sexy – but I still appreciated the closeness of an intimate relationship with my husband. Try and have some fun outings together, or do things you both enjoy – or whatever you like to do together. Just enjoying each other’s company will help to bring the passion back.