Cult members endure shameful diarrhea episodes in order to satisfy insane Benzo Buddies tapering demands

Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« on: March 07, 2018, 10:16:10 pm »

[Buddie]

Starting on Sunday, the minute I feel any stress or anxiety diarrhea hits & im running for the bathroom. It was coupled with insomnia on Sunday night, but I was home. Today, I was at the mall, not cool.
Any suggestions? Anything I should avoid eating or should eat? I don’t have much of an appetite.

Re: Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« Reply #1 on: March 07, 2018, 11:12:18 pm »

[Buddie]

This makes me not want to be here… censor my title and move my post.

This really is my worst side effect so far & wanted some input on anything that can help alive it.

Re: Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« Reply #2 on: March 07, 2018, 11:29:00 pm »

[Buddie]

I believe that diarrhea is a common effect when you stop benzos completely, it happened to me but after a month or six weeks went away – and I have a very sensitive stomach anyway. Try eating a lot of white rice with your meals, and stay away from cake and other sweets for a while.

« Last Edit: March 08, 2018, 12:13:08 am by [Buddie] »

Re: Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« Reply #3 on: March 07, 2018, 11:39:42 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m sorry that you are going through this , but believe me you are not alone. When I am in a bad wave my colon acts up and sh-t happens:laugh: My worst moments were on a long drive from Northern C.A. to B.C. Canada. I had foolishly enjoyed Panda Express for lunch in Medford. It was a wild ride to the pit stop. What stops the crap dead in it’s tracks is over the counter immodium. I keep it for true emergencies and it seems to be O.K. as far as affecting withdrawal symptoms.

This stuff is unpleasant but like everything else it will get better.

Re: Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« Reply #4 on: March 08, 2018, 12:55:48 am »

[Buddie]

I had this too last summer and I jumped in June. I would get up 3-7 X a night to go poopy. I was losing weight because I had no appetite except for specific things and they would go right through me. My pants got baggy. I was scared.

By September/October this resolved and I got a healthy appetite back. Now I wish my pants were loose.

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Benzo Buddies doctor-bashers ridicule mentally ill member diagnosed with schizotypal disorder

Diagnosed with Schizotypal dissorder
« on: December 29, 2017, 03:39:11 am »

[Buddie]

I was diagnosed with schizotypal disorder today. That of course being my first sentence because holy crap really!!!! I am 13 months in and in shock to be honest. I almost feel relieved because finally there is a diagnosis but at the same time like what the heck. Holy crap it is nuts and what is even more nuts is that some days I am perfectly fine and great with other people, like nothing at all is wrong with me. I guess the question is what is right at this point, 13 months in. I cannot wait until this is over then I go through it and think, oh, maybe this is it?? Anyone have a similar experience.

Re: Diagnosed with Schizotypal dissorder
« Reply #1 on: December 29, 2017, 06:56:17 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on December 29, 2017, 03:39:11 am
I was diagnosed with schizotypal disorder today. That of course being my first sentence because holy crap really!!!! I am 13 months in and in shock to be honest. I almost feel relieved because finally there is a diagnosis but at the same time like what the heck. Holy crap it is nuts and what is even more nuts is that some days I am perfectly fine and great with other people, like nothing at all is wrong with me. I guess the question is what is right at this point, 13 months in. I cannot wait until this is over then I go through it and think, oh, maybe this is it?? Anyone have a similar experience.

Can you tell us what critical, empirical testing was done to confirm this “diagnosis”?

And do you believe it?

Re: Diagnosed with Schizotypal dissorder
« Reply #2 on: December 29, 2017, 09:02:17 pm »

[Buddie]

I read the wikipedia article about schizotypal disorder and I’m not convinced. This so-called disorder includes “unconventional beliefs” as a symptom, which seems very weird. At a certain point in time, psychiatrists started trying to classify everything as a disorder/disease so that other physicians would consider them as equals. The other day I read that they are trying to classify a disorder called “school refusal”. Can’t you just hate school or think the school system is crap without being considered mentally ill?!!

Re: Diagnosed with Schizotypal dissorder
« Reply #3 on: December 29, 2017, 10:46:30 pm »

[Buddie]

There are all kinds of words for all kinds of things.
Mostly they they explain nothing.
Words are not needed to steer through.

Re: Diagnosed with Schizotypal dissorder
« Reply #4 on: December 30, 2017, 04:02:49 am »

[Buddie]

Sounds like a shiney new term for Bipolar 1. I told my psych that  I am bipolar, and he didn’t believe me! So, I  had a phoney diagnosis for 15 years. These kind of things can make legal matters difficult, and can strip you of your own power. Please get a second opinion asap. Remember: a disease always needs a cure, meaning more pills. Research meds till your brain hurts. You will thank yourself in the end.  :thumbsup:

Re: Diagnosed with Schizotypal dissorder
« Reply #5 on: January 02, 2018, 01:11:38 pm »

[Buddie]

I myself have had several strange diagnoses: schizophrenia, ALS, borrelia, fibromyalgia, etc. What are you doing, it’s just so crazy! But I do not believe in these diagnoses, for my part it’s only withdrawal.

Brainwashed cult member grovels in shame after taking forbidden medication

Need help. I reinstated 2 weeks ago after 6 mos free
« on: November 18, 2017, 06:53:05 pm »

[Buddie]

I know I screwed up. I was on Ativan for 23 years. I didn’t taper correctly for over a year and was always sick. I jumped may 2017. I have been extremely ill ever since. In October 2017 I was getting much worse. I’ve lost 25 lbs, constant nausea vomiting anxiety and no sleep. Internal tremors were nonstop. I went back to the dr and he immediately put me back on Ativan. It’s been 2 weeks. It’s not helping much unless I take at least 3 mg daily. He doesn’t seem to care and I don’t know where to turn. I want to stop taking it and do a proper taper. I don’t know where to turn. Any advice would be appreciated. I am also on 900 mg of neurotin for past 2 years for fibromyalgia

FDA MedWatch Program campaign failing, only 277 kooks fill out complaints to date

“277 reports may not be enough!” – panicked Benzo Buddies member

Benzo Buddies claims to have 33,085 members yet can’t rouse a paltry 1% of them to fill out a complaint to the FDA. The tiny, secret Facebook groups have perhaps 2000 members combined (most join multiple groups in order amplify the self-pity they can wallow in everyday as they talk about how bottled water can send them into a wave) but despite hounding by zealots can’t get more than a handful of their members to do this.

Trouble at BALA?

The word on the street is that an admin – a very special admin – has been booted from the tiny private club for being negative, bordering on abusive, toward fellow addicts.

I wonder if this palace coup has to do with accusations of Benzodiazepine Information Coalition addict shaming by Benzo Buddies members?

Mad in America promoting LSD?

“There is no denying that psychedelic medicines offer potential for healing beyond the reaches of talk therapy. But their tremendous healing potential carries with it equal capacity for abuse. Beyond my own experiences, history supports this view — whether it be the LSD trials of the CIA, Ewan Cameron’s thought control experiments, or the current spate of sexual abuse and iatrogenic harms pertaining to ayahuasca and other realms of psychedelic tourism. The intimacy of my first-hand involvement in the Phase II clinical trial for MDMA-assisted psychotherapy for treatment-resistant PTSD weighs heavily against my desire to challenge every facet of this approach.”

https://www.madinamerica.com/2016/10/psychedelic-series-1-mountain/

CULT OF SHAME

Re: Benzodiazepine Information Coalition's Website
« Reply #11 on: September 18, 2016, 01:06:13 am »

[Buddie]

Thanks, […]! Good detective work! Did I miss it on the website? I thought perhaps there was some reason why I couldn’t find any specific names and biographies attached to this project. Why wouldn’t the names and bios be listed in the “About Us” section? Why wouldn’t they introduce themselves formally — especially if they’re asking for money? Am I missing something?
« Last Edit: September 18, 2016, 01:27:29 am by [Buddie] »

Re: Benzodiazepine Information Coalition's Website
« Reply #12 on: September 18, 2016, 01:51:46 am »

[Buddie]

I know Lapis, I thought the same thing. No, you didn’t miss it on the website. It’s not there. This really should be information on the website, but apparently you have to be a Facebook member to find out everything, like members names, 24 hr fundraising event, not sure what else. I’m a little disappointed by this. I don’t like Facebook. This is how I found it (in bold):

Quote from: [Buddie] on September 18, 2016, 12:46:02 am
I can’t seem to post the link, I think because it’s Facebook. I’m not a Facebook member, but if you Google “who runs the benzodiazepine information coalition”, a Facebook return comes up called, “Benzodiazepine Information Coalition – Timeline | Facebook. Click on that and the above quote comes from the comment section and you can click on “Jocelyn”. You’ll recognize her from the videos.

CULT OF MADNESS, CULT OF SHAME

There is still a stigma
« on: June 11, 2016, 04:51:07 pm »

[Buddie]

You can tell people you have diabetes or another condition and there is no shame or stigma. I never tell anyone but close family that I have anxiety disorder and depression. My anxiety problems before I got hooked on Ativan and had a bad withdrawal 9 years ago were nothing compared to the way I am now. I went through hell, and I’m trying a substitution taper now. I’m going to get through this and get better to enjoy my retirement and the years I have let after 64. People do not understand, and it’s private struggle. Support groups like this is where we can freely share. Maybe someday people will not look down at those with anxiety, depression, or even more serious psych disorders and realize that this I not a sign of personal weakness or something to be ashamed about. Nutcase, loony, “just a neurotic” might be a thing of the past. So much of it is a medical or genetic condition or chemical imbalance, and science is learning more about this daily.

Re: There is still a stigma
« Reply #1 on: June 11, 2016, 11:59:32 pm »

[Buddie]

You are right there is a stigma and I have noticed it. When I got out of rehab in November I was not aware it was withdrawal since they told me to give it 2-3 weeks and everything would be fine. So I did not know what is wrong and by Christmas I thought I had to have a medical issue. So I saw every doctor in the free world have tests run and xrays from the head down and nothing was wrong. The doctors all told me also that it could no longer be related to anything abt withdrawal because the drugs where out of my system totally. I finally discovered sometime in Jan what was really happening. I found a psychiatrist who is an addiction specialist and he told me what was really wrong. I was so happy I found a doc to diagnose and tell me what was wrong and tell me I had a long way to go to get better.

I’m sorry I have a way of taking other ppls posts and making them about me. Anyway so when I got the diagnosis I started telling people around me what was wrong and I noticed that ppl did not like discussing it. It always made things kind of uncomfortable. I told my psych and he said it is a normal reaction that whenever you tell them something related to mental health they want to change the subject and not discuss it. As a result unless someone specifically asks me I just don’t bring it up. Sometimes family members bring it up to tell me “you are just depressed” or “that could not be your problem” so that always sucks and I just steer clear of them now.

Maybe someday it will be easier to discuss it but for now I keep it to myself.

Re: There is still a stigma
« Reply #2 on: June 12, 2016, 04:02:29 am »

[Buddie]

I’m glad ppl. know I have brain damage now or have had a stroke and it’s not all in my head. A person who stutters and can hardly talk or function isn’t just suffering from anxiety and depression.