Father goes on bender as horrific cult abuse story of parents doing drugs in front of kids surfaces

Reintroduce myself after two years
« on: February 24, 2019, 01:48:49 pm »

[Buddie]

First of all I’m sorry for the run on sentence….I wasn’t completely sure where to post this but I need some kind of answers, I struggled for months after a cold turkey wd but eventually the sky opened and I was fine and back to my normal self besides benzos I would have an occasional drink but I was never a hard drinker and I started smoking marijuana regularly again, last week we had a run in with cps and I had to quit smoking bc my wife’s therapist told them we smoked in front of our children which wasn’t true we smoked in the garage whenever our son was awake anyway I turned to liquor for that week of not smoking I probably drank a bottle of crown a few beers and a bottle of wine or two then during the weekend I went to a ski resort with the guys from work and I drank HARD harder than ever I remember ordering a whole bottle of wine at one of the dinners needless to say I haven’t been feeling great and the symptoms are mimicking my ct withdraw slightly less in every way but I’m still in agony in and out of the dr and hospital most of this week just for them to say blood work and ekg are fine just high bp is the only thing they can see which leads me to my question did this onset some alcohol/ protracted benzo withdrawals or am I dying?? I’m so scared and feel like poo

Benzo Buddies forces abused member to choose between cult and family

Family Is Fed Up!!!!
« on: August 19, 2018, 09:16:29 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m the caregiver for my elderly parents. Today they said they’ve had enough of my debilitating symptoms and that I’m choosing to be this way. That I need to see a psychiatrist because they can’t take it anymore. It’s been 2 yrs. and NOTHING is better. Which is true. I don’t know what to do. This is destroying my family. I have no siblings. I tried to explain.

F4m

Re: Family Is Fed Up!!!!
« Reply #1 on: August 19, 2018, 09:50:00 pm »

[Buddie]

I can so relate!

Re: Family Is Fed Up!!!!
« Reply #2 on: August 19, 2018, 09:54:26 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m devastated. It’s my own fault for taking the medication no one forced me.

F4M

Re: Family Is Fed Up!!!!
« Reply #3 on: August 19, 2018, 10:10:20 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on August 19, 2018, 09:54:26 pm
I’m devastated. It’s my own fault for taking the medication no one forced me.

F4M

You didn’t know… None of us knew.

Re: Family Is Fed Up!!!!
« Reply #4 on: August 19, 2018, 10:34:30 pm »

[Buddie]

Now, I have to pay the price. It’s been a nightmare and it keeps getting worse. I’m losing everyone I love. I either have to go back on or lose my life. It’s that real.

F4m

Re: Family Is Fed Up!!!!
« Reply #5 on: August 19, 2018, 10:34:56 pm »

[Buddie]

Your parents are fed up? Doesn’t sound like they appreciate what you are trying to do. Can you let them go find their own help? I am sorry but your priority needs to be YOU right now and they could be preventing you from healing. Bye Bye Mom and Dad! That is what I would do. Sorry.

Cult members endure shameful diarrhea episodes in order to satisfy insane Benzo Buddies tapering demands

Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« on: March 07, 2018, 10:16:10 pm »

[Buddie]

Starting on Sunday, the minute I feel any stress or anxiety diarrhea hits & im running for the bathroom. It was coupled with insomnia on Sunday night, but I was home. Today, I was at the mall, not cool.
Any suggestions? Anything I should avoid eating or should eat? I don’t have much of an appetite.

Re: Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« Reply #1 on: March 07, 2018, 11:12:18 pm »

[Buddie]

This makes me not want to be here… censor my title and move my post.

This really is my worst side effect so far & wanted some input on anything that can help alive it.

Re: Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« Reply #2 on: March 07, 2018, 11:29:00 pm »

[Buddie]

I believe that diarrhea is a common effect when you stop benzos completely, it happened to me but after a month or six weeks went away – and I have a very sensitive stomach anyway. Try eating a lot of white rice with your meals, and stay away from cake and other sweets for a while.

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Re: Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« Reply #3 on: March 07, 2018, 11:39:42 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m sorry that you are going through this , but believe me you are not alone. When I am in a bad wave my colon acts up and sh-t happens:laugh: My worst moments were on a long drive from Northern C.A. to B.C. Canada. I had foolishly enjoyed Panda Express for lunch in Medford. It was a wild ride to the pit stop. What stops the crap dead in it’s tracks is over the counter immodium. I keep it for true emergencies and it seems to be O.K. as far as affecting withdrawal symptoms.

This stuff is unpleasant but like everything else it will get better.

Re: Almost (had a bathroom accident)
« Reply #4 on: March 08, 2018, 12:55:48 am »

[Buddie]

I had this too last summer and I jumped in June. I would get up 3-7 X a night to go poopy. I was losing weight because I had no appetite except for specific things and they would go right through me. My pants got baggy. I was scared.

By September/October this resolved and I got a healthy appetite back. Now I wish my pants were loose.

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Benzo Buddies doctor-bashers ridicule mentally ill member diagnosed with schizotypal disorder

Diagnosed with Schizotypal dissorder
« on: December 29, 2017, 03:39:11 am »

[Buddie]

I was diagnosed with schizotypal disorder today. That of course being my first sentence because holy crap really!!!! I am 13 months in and in shock to be honest. I almost feel relieved because finally there is a diagnosis but at the same time like what the heck. Holy crap it is nuts and what is even more nuts is that some days I am perfectly fine and great with other people, like nothing at all is wrong with me. I guess the question is what is right at this point, 13 months in. I cannot wait until this is over then I go through it and think, oh, maybe this is it?? Anyone have a similar experience.

Re: Diagnosed with Schizotypal dissorder
« Reply #1 on: December 29, 2017, 06:56:17 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on December 29, 2017, 03:39:11 am
I was diagnosed with schizotypal disorder today. That of course being my first sentence because holy crap really!!!! I am 13 months in and in shock to be honest. I almost feel relieved because finally there is a diagnosis but at the same time like what the heck. Holy crap it is nuts and what is even more nuts is that some days I am perfectly fine and great with other people, like nothing at all is wrong with me. I guess the question is what is right at this point, 13 months in. I cannot wait until this is over then I go through it and think, oh, maybe this is it?? Anyone have a similar experience.

Can you tell us what critical, empirical testing was done to confirm this “diagnosis”?

And do you believe it?

Re: Diagnosed with Schizotypal dissorder
« Reply #2 on: December 29, 2017, 09:02:17 pm »

[Buddie]

I read the wikipedia article about schizotypal disorder and I’m not convinced. This so-called disorder includes “unconventional beliefs” as a symptom, which seems very weird. At a certain point in time, psychiatrists started trying to classify everything as a disorder/disease so that other physicians would consider them as equals. The other day I read that they are trying to classify a disorder called “school refusal”. Can’t you just hate school or think the school system is crap without being considered mentally ill?!!

Re: Diagnosed with Schizotypal dissorder
« Reply #3 on: December 29, 2017, 10:46:30 pm »

[Buddie]

There are all kinds of words for all kinds of things.
Mostly they they explain nothing.
Words are not needed to steer through.

Re: Diagnosed with Schizotypal dissorder
« Reply #4 on: December 30, 2017, 04:02:49 am »

[Buddie]

Sounds like a shiney new term for Bipolar 1. I told my psych that  I am bipolar, and he didn’t believe me! So, I  had a phoney diagnosis for 15 years. These kind of things can make legal matters difficult, and can strip you of your own power. Please get a second opinion asap. Remember: a disease always needs a cure, meaning more pills. Research meds till your brain hurts. You will thank yourself in the end.  :thumbsup:

Re: Diagnosed with Schizotypal dissorder
« Reply #5 on: January 02, 2018, 01:11:38 pm »

[Buddie]

I myself have had several strange diagnoses: schizophrenia, ALS, borrelia, fibromyalgia, etc. What are you doing, it’s just so crazy! But I do not believe in these diagnoses, for my part it’s only withdrawal.

Brainwashed cult member grovels in shame after taking forbidden medication

Need help. I reinstated 2 weeks ago after 6 mos free
« on: November 18, 2017, 06:53:05 pm »

[Buddie]

I know I screwed up. I was on Ativan for 23 years. I didn’t taper correctly for over a year and was always sick. I jumped may 2017. I have been extremely ill ever since. In October 2017 I was getting much worse. I’ve lost 25 lbs, constant nausea vomiting anxiety and no sleep. Internal tremors were nonstop. I went back to the dr and he immediately put me back on Ativan. It’s been 2 weeks. It’s not helping much unless I take at least 3 mg daily. He doesn’t seem to care and I don’t know where to turn. I want to stop taking it and do a proper taper. I don’t know where to turn. Any advice would be appreciated. I am also on 900 mg of neurotin for past 2 years for fibromyalgia

FDA MedWatch Program campaign failing, only 277 kooks fill out complaints to date

“277 reports may not be enough!” – panicked Benzo Buddies member

Benzo Buddies claims to have 33,085 members yet can’t rouse a paltry 1% of them to fill out a complaint to the FDA. The tiny, secret Facebook groups have perhaps 2000 members combined (most join multiple groups in order amplify the self-pity they can wallow in everyday as they talk about how bottled water can send them into a wave) but despite hounding by zealots can’t get more than a handful of their members to do this.

Trouble at BALA?

The word on the street is that an admin – a very special admin – has been booted from the tiny private club for being negative, bordering on abusive, toward fellow addicts.

I wonder if this palace coup has to do with accusations of Benzodiazepine Information Coalition addict shaming by Benzo Buddies members?