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Benzo Buddies member: I’m leaving Benzo Buddies, Zoloft and Valium saved my life
There is hope, this will be deleted but give yourself a chance, this is goodbye « on: July 28, 2019, 10:30:21 pm »
[Buddie]
This will probably be deleted, this is my goodbye to BB, this group was indeed helpful when I was in wd, it was hell yes, but my wd did NOT started because of benzos but due to anaphylaxis from Salbutamol. I was off all meds for almost 13 months, I reinstated Valium (10 mgs) amd started on Zoloft (75 mgs) last April 5th and it has been a life saver. I am 90-95% healed. Since I was a kid I had OCD and intrusive thoughts (hram/suicidal) I had no idea it was an actual ILLNESS… when my daughter was 5 months old BEFORE VALIUM I had this “urges” of throwing her down the stairs (she’s 20 yo now and the love of my life, I did NOT wanted to kill her, it was my mental demons) that’s when I started using (and abusing) Valium (up to 200 mgs a day for 19 years) yet it saved my life, those thoughts stopped and I was able to raise her and have a normal life. Even so, OCD has always been a part of me, last March and May 2016 I had two anaphylaxis due to Salbutamol and almost died, I had horrible PTSD and stopped all meds and started tapering Valium, it was a nightmare but now looking back I’m not sure how much of it was real wd and how much it was PTSD… had horrible sxs (mental and physical) … all physical sxs went away and after almost 13 months off I was housebound again due to my harm/suicide thoughts, it was NOT wd, I had them before benzos, those thoughts are the reason I started on Valium. I was desperate and took Zoloft and reinstated Valium, I can truly say that my life changed… contrary to what most ppl say, my life on benzos is way better, some on the fb groups even say “that mental illness is a lie”!!! WTF?? NO!! it’s like there is a new mafia against Benzos where ppl rather commit suicide than admit they need a med… I really wonder how many of the ppl who committed suicide would be alive today if they had reinstated. I’m not saying that valium or any other benzo or SSRI is a “magic pill” and no, should not be taken for sleep or for pain, but brain chemical imbalance is real… if all of you guys who want to create awareness about wd also create awareness about MENTAL ILLNESSES… I’m not pro or against Benzos, I’M PRO MY OWN MENTAL AND PHYSICAL HEALTH, and if I need a pill to feel fine I will take it, it’s also self-care. I joined here more than two years ago, now I leave, I got useful advice and to me, I am a success story, I am living a life I actually enjoy, that’s all that matters to me… my final words are that I hope this is not deleted (I will not log in anymore) and I hope ppl know there is a choice, fight for your health, not against meds, do what’s best for you, I did and I don’t regret it, thank you and best wishes.
Maniacs at Benzo Buddies add tender breasts to list of 90,000,000 benzo withdrawal symptoms
Tender breasts « on: May 15, 2018, 05:29:16 am »
[Buddie]
This is directed towards the girls 
but I suppose it could happen to men too.
I have had tender breasts for some time now and wondered if I should get this checked out or if it is something that resolves spontaneously. Have been really fatigued, and hot flashes.
Best to all. 
[…]
Who comes to sites like Benzo Buddies for advice about quack science? Kooks do.
DGL Licorice Root « on: April 29, 2018, 10:51:20 pm »
[Buddie]
Hi, does anybody know if this minor amount (400mg/day) of qu has a significant impact on the metabolism of diazepam? I know it contains compounds which greatly effect the cpy3A4 and 2a19 enzymes but not sure if present in sufficient quantities. Suffered from an NSAID ulcer, was taking this off and on for 3 months and just recently stopped. My muscles feel more tight and stiff than usual. Doing a slow taper from V.
Thanks!
Re: DGL Licorice Root « Reply #1 on: April 29, 2018, 11:09:22 pm »
[Buddie]
I mean CPY2C19
Benzo Buddies brainwashes member into believing he can massage his brain, triggering neurons
Only thing keeping me going is rubbing my brain « on: February 21, 2018, 04:41:07 am »
[Buddie]
I haven’t been to the doctor because I am terrified on what i’ll find out. I am being as positive as I can be but it just doesn’t make sense on how I feel. When I massage my hands deep into my brain, it feels like i’m manually triggering my neurons to work. I feel like A part of my brain just wont function unless I apply pressure to it. I can feel 100 percent like shit but once I stimulate A certain area on my head, I feel almost normal immediately. It’s so weird. My symptoms are dizzyness, nauseous, and feeling panicy. I have no anxiety at all by the way. just mental symptoms. i’m not feeing the usual symptoms from withdrawal and it worries me. I think i’m going to the doctors soon and see what’s going on with me. Wish me luck. Fill you guys in later
One day we will read of a Benzo Buddies member committing a mass shooting
Threw a tantrum like a little kid humiliated « on: February 14, 2018, 03:59:03 am »
[Buddie]
I don’t know why but looking back just now I realized I threw somewhat of a tantrum when I was at a facility well it was called a facility bit it was terrible. Now I feel so embarrassed I don’t know why I did that I was so pissed and scared at the time I thought they were trying to keep me there. I was just cold turkeyed just before maybe that’s had something to do with it
Re: Threw a tantrum like a little kid humiliated « Reply #1 on: February 16, 2018, 05:34:20 am »
[Buddie]
It would […]. 
I was sitting on a very crowded and cramped bus stop about 3 weeks ago and it was really hot. The bus had those air brake things, and as each bus arrived and departed the air brakes made a horrible hissing, squealing sound.
I kept enduring until I just screamed at the final bus and told it to shut the F up. Everyone looked at me. Aarrgghh.
I was so embarrassed but did apologise to those around who looked at me strangely. I never do stuff like that, it just overcame me.
I was in early WD and my apology was accepted.
It gets better.
Dee
Re: Threw a tantrum like a little kid humiliated « Reply #2 on: February 16, 2018, 11:30:15 pm »
[Buddie]
Vyea I just got into a big fight with my dad and I told him off he asked to help and I told him no and he kept going. And I started a fight with him and cursed him out I don’t feel to bad about it I’ve walked on eggshells a lot and it felt good to say f-u to him
« Last Edit: February 16, 2018, 11:40:26 pm by [Buddie] »
Kooks add bad breath to list of 90,000,000 benzo withdrawal symptoms
Very bad breath? « on: February 13, 2018, 03:20:51 pm »
[Buddie]
I suddenly have really horrible breath.
Does anyone else have this?
It smells like I’m rotting.
Re: Very bad breath? « Reply #1 on: February 13, 2018, 07:18:16 pm »
[Buddie]
Yes I had that for quite a few months. Like a metal smell…
It went away 
Benzo Buddies members give up sex to devote years-long tapers to cult guru
Does orgasm make your symptoms worse? « on: February 12, 2018, 12:05:30 am »
[Buddie]
Does orgasms make your symptoms worse? I feel like my anxiety, fatigue, depersonalization, everything gets worse after orgasm and doesn’t get better until about a week of abstinence…
Re: Does orgasm make your symptoms worse? « Reply #1 on: February 12, 2018, 01:27:07 am »
[Buddie]
My head starts hurting and I feel more pressure in it
It scares me
😒 can’t even enjoy sex
Re: Does orgasm make your symptoms worse? « Reply #2 on: February 12, 2018, 01:41:21 am »
[Buddie]
Yes, I think this happens to me. If I feel good before, and […] for a few hours after having one, but a few hours later I feel horrid. I guess it takes a lot of our energy, or maybe the pleasure center in our brain is tapped too much. Fortunately, this symptom resolves itself for me after a while. Thanks for letting me know I’m not the only one.
Re: Does orgasm make your symptoms worse? « Reply #3 on: February 12, 2018, 01:43:10 am »
[Buddie]
It may be linked to hormones. I’ve read a number of posts that indicate pregnancy and menstrual cycles are particularly difficult due to hormonal issues.
Re: Does orgasm make your symptoms worse? « Reply #4 on: February 12, 2018, 01:50:45 am »
[Buddie]
Quote from: [Buddie] on February 12, 2018, 01:43:10 am
It may be linked to hormones. I’ve read a number of posts that indicate pregnancy and menstrual cycles are particularly difficult due to hormonal issues.
Of course, as a guy. this doesn’t apply to me, but very recently I discontinued Melatonin, a hormone which I used as a sleep aid for 18 months, and from what I understand the US (where I am) is the only country that allows it to be sold OTC. Perhaps going off of it contributed to my post-O slump and other problems
Re: Does orgasm make your symptoms worse? « Reply #5 on: February 12, 2018, 04:45:36 am »
[Buddie]
Orgasms don’t seem to bother me but I definitely notice feeling way worse during my period, so I can believe that hormones are involved.
Re: Does orgasm make your symptoms worse? « Reply #6 on: February 12, 2018, 07:44:31 am »
[Buddie]
Quote from: [Buddie] on February 12, 2018, 01:50:45 am
Quote from: [Buddie] on February 12, 2018, 01:43:10 am
It may be linked to hormones. I’ve read a number of posts that indicate pregnancy and menstrual cycles are particularly difficult due to hormonal issues.
Of course, as a guy. this doesn’t apply to me
Actually, us guys have hormones as well — they are just different ones. Testosterone is a hormone. And there is in fact a big hormonal change in the brain after orgasm in males. My impression is that the orgasm also has an affect on the central nervous system, and since said nervous system is irritated… It would make sense that there would be symptoms. In my first bad experience with quitting benzos years ago, I would always feel like crap after an orgasm. Never knew why! Now I do…
Re: Does orgasm make your symptoms worse? « Reply #7 on: February 12, 2018, 02:02:44 pm »
[Buddie]
sex. i cant even imagine, i can barely make it outside through this much less meet a woman! 
ugh benzo withdrawal
ugh benzo withdrawal
Ashton taper causes brainwashed addict to lose job
About to lose my Job (please help)! « on: February 10, 2018, 08:22:08 pm »
[Buddie]
I’m about to lose my Job due to being very unproductive, always feeling tired and fatigued, and the cognitive and the OCD issues are just topping all of that.
What can I do?
What can I take that’s not harmful to help with all of that?
I sometimes think of taking Adderall or Provigil/Nuvigil cuz I know they sure help with all the symptoms mentioned above but they’re very harmful to my fragile CNS.
Please help with any suggestions.
Re: About to lose my Job (please help)! « Reply #1 on: February 10, 2018, 08:24:31 pm »
[Buddie]
I feel like I wanna do NOTHING 24/7.
Benzo Buddies kook: “Everytime I push on my head it triggers shocks in my brains”
Is my brain swollen? « on: February 01, 2018, 07:56:08 am »
[Buddie]
When I rub down on my head it creates shocks in my brain. Feeling like something is wrong. Has anyone experienced this? Everytime I push on my head it triggers shocks in my brains. Zaps. Like my brain is swollen and I can touch it from the outside.
Re: Is my brain swollen? « Reply #1 on: February 01, 2018, 08:42:58 am »
[Buddie]
I haven’t experienced rubbing my head and getting zaps but brain zaps are very common in SSRI withdrawals and benzo too. I did have sore spots on my scalp for about a week and it was related to muscle tension.
Re: Is my brain swollen? « Reply #2 on: February 01, 2018, 02:58:27 pm »
[Buddie]
I had the same inconvenience during the emergency phase. I could “feel the brain”, and it felt like very big and heavy. As I touched my head, I got the feeling it was still moving forward. But it went over after a couple of months.
82-year-old Benzo Buddies member needs walker after abusive taper, admits he’ll never recover
Re: Over 60 help and support. « Reply #204 on: January 26, 2018, 04:15:39 am »
[Buddie]
Hey fellow prunes! (I can say that because, at 82, I bet I’m the pruniest.) I was on 2.5 mg of clonazepam/day, as prescribed, for 25 years (Why didn’t I question this?!). I’ve been off for 20 months and continue to experience head pressure, dizziness, light headedness, non-specific agitation, flu-like malaise, insomnia, cog fog, and I forget what else. The symptoms wax an wane throughout the day. I also have serious back problems which were precipitated by all the running I did (12 miles/day during my 40s), so I need a walker to travel more than 100 yards. So, folks, I feel your pain, and then some. I do my best to retain the modicum of physical fitness I have left by traversing my basement stairs (17 steps) 120 times every morning. It works up a good sweat and gets my heart rate up. Then I do 100 pushups. I’m not saying this to try to impress you but rather to suggest that as much physical activity as you can stand is an important means of fighting the benzo-beast. Often, during my stair exercise, I feel that I can’t go on but so far I’ve always made it through and I really think it’s helping me cope. When I consider the overall withdrawal trajectory I think the symptoms are gradually diminishing, although I still have a long way to go and at my age I’ll probably not achieve full recovery. In any case, I’m not giving up, and neither are you youngsters. Right? Right!
A half-hour walk with a dog qualifies as success for the cult-disabled misfits at Benzo Buddies
Re: ONE productive thing you did today « Reply #273 on: January 22, 2018, 09:19:36 am »
[Buddie]
Went ouside and walked half an hour with the dog.