Brainwashed kook fears dentist visit will only make chipped tooth worse

Chipped small piece of front tooth...getting so upset and sad about it
« on: September 14, 2021, 05:19:27 am »

[Buddie]

Hello Buddies,

I would like to hear stories and reassurance that there is no big deal and no reason to see a dentist ( cause I lost any faith in medical community ) and their intervention will make more harm than good and impose additional stress and anxiety on me with their BS fear just to make additional profit and cause more damage than there is.

Sorry if it seems lame my post but by some reason it puts so much saddness in my life – I guess aftermath of this horror experience, midlife crisis and just being robbed so much from these evil substances…

Kindly V

BENZO COMMUNITY HATRED DIRECTED AT PEOPLE WHO RECOVER

This is why healed people leave (drama)
« on: August 31, 2021, 05:19:05 pm »

[Buddie]

I was in a Facebook group trying to share my story and provide hope to people
And there was a post of tons of people (20+) badmouthing a member who wasn’t even there to defend herself
Calling her all sorts of names, for whatever reason
I stepped in – told everyone that bullying is not ok and what they were doing was 100x worse than what ever it was that she did.
And I got told to leave. Lol.
I said “I’m healed, you sure you want me to leave?”
And the response I got was “maybe you should go back on the meds if you don’t agree with us” and “I don’t want to heal if it means I’ll end up like you”
All because I tried to break up this bullying and told people it wasn’t ok to collectively badmouth someone
Reported to the admin who told me to get over it and grow up, and to scroll past if I don’t like something.
(Mind you, this was some of the worst bullying I’ve ever seen. Which is why I tried to intervene. Admin didn’t do shi* about it)
I deleted all FB benzo groups and left. Refuse to waste my breath helping anyone there
Then kinda realized this is why healed people leave. On FB anyway, like why would I stick around if people aren’t going to be respectful?
Maybe back when I was struggling I didn’t care. But now? It’s a waste of time and I have better things to do.

Just thought I’d share. Don’t treat healed people badly or they will move on
I remember being so desperate to hear success stories and have healed people come comfort me. And now I’m just laughing at how ridiculous it is for someone to try and bully a healed person. Their loss

Addict rejects doctors, family, work, therapist in favor of doctor-bashing cult

They Dont Believe Me
« on: March 31, 2021, 03:27:24 pm »

[Buddie]

Nearing completion of my 4th month. Things have just gone down hill this month with no windows. Waves to severe waves have consumed me, my family, my work, my therapist and my doctors.

I am starting to see cracks in support. People dont believe me when I say there are no drugs to fix this. Everyone wants me to take SSRI’s and/or other drugs. They see me in so much pain and dont know what to do so they go to what they know – drugs. It is frustrating. I tell them what I need when they ask – to tell me I am healing and it will get better. I am not sure they believe me when I say that is the support I need.

All of them keep asking ‘what do the ‘expert doctors’ recommend.’ They tell me not to rely on the internet or message boards. I keep telling them the doctors dont understand and that I am doing the right thing. I just need them to support me and provide reassurance that I am healing.

I am looking for concise but thorough documentation to help show them what I am going through and what I need. I tried to show them a book but it was too long. I showed them letters from others that made it through but they say it is not from an expert. Is there anything out there that is just right. That I can point to and say here – read this 4 page document. It will tell you what I am going through and more importantly what I need. That no medication or intervention will help other than time, distraction and positivity.

Please help.

Ignoring the risk of suicide, Benzo Buddies ghouls spend five pages trying to convince someone not to check into a psych ward

Checking into psych ward
« on: October 24, 2020, 05:42:46 pm »

[Buddie]

Im going to check myself into the psych ward for the 6th time since this happen.

At this point i dont care anymore. Im going to have them load me up on whatever even if it is benzos.

I am experiencing something terrifying in my head for nearly 2 years and im done. Racing and looping thoughts 24/7. No words to describe this torture. Im sick of people telling me its just severe anxiety. Im sick of just surviving to the end of the day and then having to do it all again tomorrow.

If your coming off benzos please for the the love of God dont take another drug. Going on remeron was the worst thing i could have done because i listened to stupid people on this website who were probably just mentally ill.

Peace out.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #1 on: October 24, 2020, 05:51:54 pm »

[Buddie]

Do you realize that you are only making it worse? Do you want to get lifelong tardive extrapyramidal disorders from antipsychotics? You are at great risk. Read the side effects of the drugs you are about to take.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #2 on: October 24, 2020, 05:55:32 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on October 24, 2020, 05:51:54 pm
Do you realize that you are only making it worse? Do you want to get lifelong tardive extrapyramidal disorders from antipsychotics? You are at great risk. Read the side effects of the drugs you are about to take.

Yrs i am aware but like i said i dont care anymore.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #3 on: October 24, 2020, 06:05:32 pm »

[Buddie]

Psychotropic drugs can cause such physical pain that anxiety, tension and insomnia seem like nonsense. I went through this. Don’t be silly, don’t take neurotoxic poisons.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #4 on: October 24, 2020, 06:18:38 pm »

[Buddie]

I had incredible stress last year. I was ready to go to a psychiatric hospital, anywhere, to stop it. Then, I could not sleep for 4 months and no one could understand what was wrong with me. We thought it was a strong anxiety. The biggest tragedy is that neither myself nor anyone else could understand that it was caused by benzodiazepines.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #5 on: October 24, 2020, 06:21:34 pm »

[Buddie]

I was polydrugged by Reglan while in benzo tolerance/withdrawal. I had akathasia. I paced the floor like a patient at a psych ward and I survived.

It took Baylissa Frederick 3 years to get through. Read her book Recovery & Renewal.

Follow Michael Preibe of “The lovely Grind” on You Tube. He survived benzos AND antidepressant withdrawal.

It’s true. Taking other psychotropic meds while in benzo withdrawal complicates it. Reglan is for migraines and gastroparesis, but it’s also an old antipsychotic from the 60’s. I learned all of this in hindsite. So, basically I was in Ativan tolerance and got a drug that was like Haldol. Just one dose. One time.

Look up Michael Priebe. He beat both benzos & an antidepressant. He’s very positive and motivating.

So sorry to hear of your suffering. It’s so hard. Hang in there.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #6 on: October 24, 2020, 06:23:38 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on October 24, 2020, 06:05:32 pm
Psychotropic drugs can cause such physical pain that anxiety, tension and insomnia seem like nonsense. I went through this. Don’t be silly, don’t take neurotoxic poisons.

Im experiencing something way worse than just physical pain. The mental is way worse than anything you can imagine. Brain racing and looping 1000 miles an hour 24/7 for 2 years straight and counting. 100s of mental symtoms all at once. Ive reached my breaking point.

Re: Checking into psych ward
« Reply #7 on: October 24, 2020, 06:26:05 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on October 24, 2020, 06:21:34 pm
I was polydrugged by Reglan while in benzo tolerance/withdrawal. I had akathasia. I paced the floor like a patient at a psych ward and I survived.
It took Baylissa Frederick 3 years to get through. Read her book Recovery & Renewal.

Follow Michael Preibe of “The lovely Grind” on You Tube. He survived benzos AND antidepressant withdrawal.

It’s true. Taking other psychotropic meds while in benzo withdrawal complicates it. Reglan is for migraines and gastroparesis, but it’s also an old antipsychotic from the 60’s. I learned all of this in hindsite. So, basically I was in Ativan tolerance and got a drug that was like Haldol. Just one dose. One time.

Look up Michael Priebe. He beat both benzos & an antidepressant. He’s very positive and motivating.

So sorry to hear of your suffering. It’s so hard. Hang in there.

I follow everyone. They werent this bad 24/7. I cant even distract for a second. The people as bad as me are 4+ years off and still suffering. There is no point in putting yourself through something like this

Dark Thoughts

Dark thoughts and nightmares
« on: June 24, 2020, 09:04:43 pm »

[Buddie]

I have had violent thoughts on and off throughout this despicable predicament I’m in. I thought they were a thing of the past and I was afraid to even post on here that I was having them. I had a nightmare that I punched the woman my ex husband is having a baby with. I do not even know what the woman looks like. This is just disgusting…I hate myself, this is not okay!!! I want to be back to normal…this has been a very difficult week. Does anyone have violent nightmares or thoughts? I did a search and found a post but it was a long time ago…am I going insane?
« Last Edit: June 24, 2020, 09:46:04 pm by [Buddie] »

Another former Benzo Buddies member warns public to stay away from fear-driven cult site, listen to your doctor

I will say this. I got caught in the benzo world. My doctor 4 years ago prescribed Ativan for me daily. I didnt know what it was cause well, I didn’t. After a while it quit working and he upped the dose and I soon found myself “needing” more. After my doctor retired I found a new doctor who was shocked by the amount of Ativan I was on a day. When I explained how I felt he said quit frankly “you are addicted.” I thought I could quit just taking them. I overestimated that you couldn’t. So with my doctor’s help, I got clean. It took 9 months.

I stumbled across Benzo Buddies after googling “benzo online support groups.” OMG. Well, at first they are loving and supportive when you are a newbie. Then all hell breaks loose. That site is fear-driven. I would spend multiple hours a day (at the time I was a stay at home mom and helping care for my aging parents). I would support and post my own journey. Everything that happened i would attribute to withdrawal and I’m sorry to say I was one of the Kooks. One day, about 7 months into my doctor guided “healing” I broke down because I was having a bad day and I said I needed a break from my child. The responses I got were horrendous. One person even commented that I should do like them and put my child up for adoption cause I couldn’t heal and be a mother. It’s impossible.

That day I realized that the amount of time and kookiness on that site was not actually helping my mental state. My fascination was my downfall. So, I sat down, blocked the website from every device I could, and started making banana bread. I made some sort of bread everyday for the remainder of my “coming clean.”

It’s been almost 3 years now since I came off Ativan. Had I not listened to my doctor and had not used judgement to walk away from those idiots… I’d still be on them in fear.

F*ck sake. It might have bern easier if I just started baking as a distraction. I know my previous doctor meant no harm putting me on them. Probably should have paid attention more. But what counts today is that I’m “clean.” The only thing during that time is that I developed tinnitus that doesnt go away. But I’m all good! Stay away from Benzo Buddies. Listen to your doctor. And in like any situation, if you aren’t satisfied or unsure, get a second opinion. Don’t be me and get trapped in that “support group.”

Jordan Peterson: “antidepressants can be absolutely miraculous”

Withdrawal worse than COVID-19?

Withdrawal in the time of Corona
« on: March 17, 2020, 12:47:46 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi,

So I had my last dose of valium 7 weeks ago. Cold turkey-ed. Without realising any of the effects or hazards and not knowing the hell I was about to enter into. I realise now I was in tolerance withdrawal for about a month before I jumped off the train wreck that valium was and is.

I had 8 weeks off work. I run my own business. Yesterday I went back to work. Now I can comprehend how stressful my business is. Coupled with many clients being demanding – there is stress at every corner. Stress is bad bad bad for withdrawal I have learnt – the hard way. I must learn mindful mediation, have to learn to deal with stress differently. Today I almost had a volcanic melt down when I was trying to fill out an insurance form. I don’t feel like myself. I miss the person I used to be before I slammed my body into the concrete wall that is Valium. I know there is no magic formula to make withdrawal go any faster – I learnt that the hard way. No supplements. Last week I had days mostly filled with windows – some waves. This week so far I have had days mostly filled with waves – with a few creaks of windows. I crave the windows. I loathe the waves. My appetite came back – I could only eat about 10 things but it was amazing – this week I have to force myself to eat. I was sleeping like a log last week – this week I’m fending off the madness of insomnia.

And then there is Corona craziness, Benzo withdrawal in the time of Corona virus hysteria is not the way forward at all. Supermarket shelves are empty, many people are in a panic. Try benzo withdrawal I want to mutter at them – then you’ll know what panic actually feels like to the core of your very being. I couldn’t have picked a worse time to withdraw from ghastly valium. I will never, ever touch another benzo again. I plead/bargain/beg with god for this withdrawal to be over. I promise to the universe or god or who ever is listening to my silent prayers that I will do anything, anything just to feel like myself again – for longer than a window – for good.

Any soothing words would be greatly appreciated. I”m having one of those moments where I”m losing hope that I will ever feel like I permanently reside in my own body again. At the moment – for most of today – I feel like I reside on the outside – looking in.

Thank you so much.