Kook takes months to work up nerve to post at online Jonestown

My first post on this website after registering some months ago
« on: October 15, 2018, 12:35:13 pm »

[Buddie]

Dear All,

Finally I decided to write my introduction.

I did a cold turkey on June 21st 2018. I vividly remember that day.
Since then I’ve never touched benzos and throw away everything.

The reason for me going CT (which I absolutely discourage) is because, before quitting, I didn’t know what was making me feel the way I felt. Dr/dp, Insomnia, anxiety, almost run into panic attacks, chest pain, fatigue, headache, brain fog, depression, lethargy, and many more..
As soon as I realized that it was because of the benzo I was taking, I quit immediately.

Little did I know, that you should taper.

The benzo I was taking is called Lormatazepam (Minias – Italian brand). I was taking 7 drops (ca. 0.85mg) intermittently. I started to take them once a week, or once every 2 weeks – when I really couldn’t sleep. After 5 months at this pace, I started taking them almost all nights. In what were not even 2 weeks, I reached tolerance.

The 21st of October it will be exactly 4 months that I am benzo free. Even though I am not having all the symptoms that I was having the first 2 months, the struggle is still a lot.
I fell in severe depression, and my headache doesn’t want to leave me! Not even for a second. I still had dr/dp episodes, but not so strong as the first month. Sleep is coming and going in waves. I can see the improvements, but it feels like the road is still sooo long.

Wish me good luck!
Thanks for reading!

D.

Benzo Buddies has a group for people that are dizzy (it is 478 pages long and counting)

They call it “The Dizziness Group: For those who are floating, boating, falling or flying” and here are a few of their symptoms:

  • Dizziness
  • Disequilibrium
  • Floaty boat/floating/boatiness/boaty
  • Vertigo
  • Falling
  • Flying
  • Wobbling
  • Undulating
  • Bobbing
  • Rocking
  • Swaying
  • Wooshy
  • Fishbowl head
  • Magic carpet ride
  • Banging into walls
  • Pushed and pulled
  • Force field
  • Magnetic force
  • Moving floors/tilting floors
  • Resisting the current
  • Up and down elevators
  • Pulsating to the rhythm of the heartbeat