Christmas visit to psychiatrist ends in disaster

Psych mistake
« on: January 30, 2018, 01:58:23 pm »

[Buddie]

I went to see the psychiatrist just after Christmas. I have intrusive thoughts and she wanted to change my antidepressant to help this. So I had to come off 100mg Nortriptyline and she gave me six weeks to do that. My dose was made up of 4x25mg tablets per day. So I cut down to 75mg. I felt okay and was optimistic. However, ten days after I’d gone down to 75mg I felt worse than ever and my intrusive thoughts were completely out of control. Now I am barely functioning. I have talked to the psychiatrist and we agreed to go back to 100mg. I am seeing her again next Wednesday. But now I am stuck in bed and the situation is much worse. I don’t know what to do. Any ideas? Thanks.

End Psychiatry supports Scientology

Preaching the Gospel of Ashton

"Rescue Doses"
« on: November 16, 2016, 04:26:40 pm »

[Buddie]

Ok fellow buddies-we need to rename “rescue dose” something more apt…like ” fuck you up good doses”, or “immediate retardation doses”, or maybe something catchier like”zombie dose”? We cannot EVER do Benzos, or barbiturates, or even alcohol if we want to keep our FREEDOM! Please don’t think it’s OK to take “just one” because our brains CANNOT HANDLE these poisons. The longer we are FREE the easier it is to stay that way. I took one .25 mg tablet as I hadn’t slept at all for months. My Drs said I could go back on the damn things but other than that they had nothing. I was a 4 y/o in the body of a 52 y/o man thanks to taking that one ” rescue dose “. No one I know has benefited from taking rescue doses. Do anything else but please, don’t take any “rescue doses”. Same same as rusky roulette, me hearties…..

Seen on Benzo Buddies…

“Colin is king!”

I met a traveller from an antique land
Who said: “Two vast and trunkless legs of stone
Stand in the desert. Near them, on the sand,
Half sunk, a shattered visage lies, whose frown,
And wrinkled lip, and sneer of cold command,
Tell that its sculptor well those passions read
Which yet survive, stamped on these lifeless things,
The hand that mocked them and the heart that fed:
And on the pedestal these words appear:
‘My name is Ozymandias, king of kings:
Look on my works, ye Mighty, and despair!’
Nothing beside remains. Round the decay
Of that colossal wreck, boundless and bare
The lone and level sands stretch far away.”

~ Percy Bysshe Shelley ~

Ashton worshippers make up new benzo withdrawal symptom: pain in the heels

Pain in the heels
« on: May 20, 2016, 11:20:09 am »

[Buddie]

Hi buddies,

All of the sudden I started getting pain in the heels.

Has anybody had this?

Thanks,
Shpend

Re: Pain in the heels
« Reply #1 on: May 20, 2016, 12:31:08 pm »

[Buddie]

Yes, I will get nerve pain in my heels and also in the front part of my feet. This nerve pain from wd can hit anywhere in your body, at anytime. I’ll get stabbing pains in my lower back and legs also. And if you have certain areas in your body that are more sensitive than others, this is often the place you’ll get a flare up.

Re: Pain in the heels
« Reply #2 on: May 20, 2016, 04:18:35 pm »

[Buddie]

Very interesting! For the last three weeks I have had pain in my heels too!

Regards

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Re: Pain in the heels
« Reply #3 on: May 21, 2016, 02:32:14 am »

[Buddie]

I had this ….mine felt like I had blisters on heels….but it went away…

Hugs
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Re: Pain in the heels
« Reply #4 on: May 21, 2016, 06:11:41 am »

[Buddie]

I have it in my right heel. When it first happened I thought it was plantar fasciatis, but now- having it since November (it is now May) I’m thinking it MUST be a w/d symptom. It hurts so bad!

We will heal from this!

DESCENT INTO MADNESS

Ashton’s kooks crawl toward oblivion

We Are Not The Minority
« on: May 05, 2016, 05:41:05 pm »

[Buddie]

Buddies,

We are not the minority.

We are at the very initial stage of a tsunami groundswell, out in the middle of the ocean when it appears as just a tiny ripple on the surface of the water. Look at the growing number of people in the Introductions board who register as new members of BB every single day. Look at the number of “200 guests” who constantly churn through the BB turnstile reading anonymously. These new members and guests feel like crap and they are starting to figure out what’s happening to them. We members are their beacons. Our posts are providing them with knowledge and answers about the drugs they are taking and the dangerous effects they have on their brains. We are not a minority of poor unfortunate souls who are suffering through rare withdrawal symptoms. We are a small part of the MAJORITY of people who take these drugs who have decided to get off them. THAT is one minority we are in. Luckily we found BB and we are brave and honest enough to share our experiences. THAT is another minority we are in.

These drugs catch up with everyone eventually. Sometimes it takes years to hit tolerance if your body has the enzyme to metabolize the drug. But the drugs eventually wreak havoc on everyone who takes them. Eventually everyone downregulates their GABA receptors if they take the drugs up to the point of hitting tolerance. Nobody gets a free pass once they hit tolerance and downregulate their receptors. Nobody. The rollercoaster bar descends automatically on top of our bloated bellies and we are in for the ride of a lifetime.

The rollercoaster ride, thankfully, is not forever. Eventually the car we are in comes to a full and complete stop, the security bar automatically rises, we walk slowly and carefully off the ride and stroll alongside the rest of humanity enjoying the amusement park.

We members of BB who have been at this for awhile are pulling out of this shitshow, while others are just beginning their journeys. Our posts will give them hope that they will get their lives back. I’m going to continue posting to comfort others until I’m healed. I appreciate the companionship and support I receive from my fellow rollercoaster riders every single day.

Thank you BB family,

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« Last Edit: May 05, 2016, 07:05:09 pm by [Buddie] »

Re: We Are Not The Minority
« Reply #1 on: May 05, 2016, 05:46:54 pm »

[Buddie]

I dont write here much lately but I must say this message is pure truth. Anyone who has perfomee even the most basic of searches in regards to these pills will soon learn that there are millions of people on this crap. Granted there are those who never stop taking them and then again there are people like us.

This is unfortunately, only the tip of the proverbial iceberg.

L

Re: We Are Not The Minority
« Reply #12 on: May 05, 2016, 07:28:59 pm »

[Buddie]

Yes!! So true!! And think of the countless people who try to stop taking benzos but when they have a resurgence or even a new onset of anxiety and/or depression, among other things, they don’t see the correlation. Their psychiatrists insist that it’s a worsening or even a new mental health condition and give them more drugs. People are really bad at correlating things properly. Many of us are so out of tune with our own bodies. I used to be, but not anymore. I dream of the day I am healed and can come back to comfort and encourage everyone here at BB suffering and struggling to see the light. Thanks for this post.

Re: We Are Not The Minority
« Reply #15 on: May 05, 2016, 11:28:13 pm »

[Buddie]

Leslie,

You are very sweet and a newbie to all this, so I have my arm around you.

You will be fine. It’s a process. Read about the Four Phases in the Post Withdrawal Board. As you move through the process you’ll find similarities to your own experience.

We aren’t in a minority of unfortunate people who are going through withdrawal. We are in the majority of people who took drugs that temporarily altered our brain chemistry. Our internal healing systems will bring us back to homeostasis, a nice even state of balance.

Keep reading and posting your questions and concerns and the other members will respond with comforting words of support.

Love, […]

Re: We Are Not The Minority
« Reply #16 on: May 05, 2016, 11:33:20 pm »

[Buddie]

Blue skies,

The whole greedy psyche drug money grab, at the expense of unsuspecting patients who are already hurting, is criminal. We are victims and warriors who are contributing to the growing awareness of a threat to the health and safety of mankind. This is a serious problem that needs to be fixed. By suffering publicly on this forum, I guess we are part of the solution.

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Re: We Are Not The Minority
« Reply #17 on: May 05, 2016, 11:44:14 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on May 05, 2016, 05:41:05 pm
Buddies,

We are not the minority.

We are at the very initial stage of a tsunami groundswell, out in the middle of the ocean when it appears as just a tiny ripple on the surface of the water. Look at the growing number of people in the Introductions board who register as new members of BB every single day. Look at the number of “200 guests” who constantly churn through the BB turnstile reading anonymously. These new members and guests feel like crap and they are starting to figure out what’s happening to them. We members are their beacons. Our posts are providing them with knowledge and answers about the drugs they are taking and the dangerous effects they have on their brains. We are not a minority of poor unfortunate souls who are suffering through rare withdrawal symptoms. We are a small part of the MAJORITY of people who take these drugs who have decided to get off them. THAT is one minority we are in. Luckily we found BB and we are brave and honest enough to share our experiences. THAT is another minority we are in.

These drugs catch up with everyone eventually. Sometimes it takes years to hit tolerance if your body has the enzyme to metabolize the drug. But the drugs eventually wreak havoc on everyone who takes them. Eventually everyone downregulates their GABA receptors if they take the drugs up to the point of hitting tolerance. Nobody gets a free pass once they hit tolerance and downregulate their receptors. Nobody. The rollercoaster bar descends automatically on top of our bloated bellies and we are in for the ride of a lifetime.

The rollercoaster ride, thankfully, is not forever. Eventually the car we are in comes to a full and complete stop, the security bar automatically rises, we walk slowly and carefully off the ride and stroll alongside the rest of humanity enjoying the amusement park.

We members of BB who have been at this for awhile are pulling out of this shitshow, while others are just beginning their journeys. Our posts will give them hope that they will get their lives back. I’m going to continue posting to comfort others until I’m healed. I appreciate the companionship and support I receive from my fellow rollercoaster riders every single day.

Thank you BB family,

[…]

In my first taper, I thought that everyone went through hell when coming off benzos.
I read, this, and now defunct forums avidly and feared I would get every symptmom going as I’d been on valium 8yrs, took street benzos, stoppped c/t for five weeks and felt like the odds were against me.

I got two of the symptoms, anxiety and depression.

I got to 0mg with no PAWS

I frightened myself terribly by reading about the sx everyone on here was suffering.

No doubt there are loads of people registering here, realising why they feel like sh1t, and guests who lurk but dont register etc.
That could be down to the recent years influx of new research benzos or bathtub benzos as some call them.
They are legal in many countries, they are in mine, but are being banned.
Many recreational drug users may have been using them, not realising they are just like benzos as theyve never had cause to, but suffering wds on stopping usage, if supply, stock runs out or they run out of money and don’t buy them in the same way they wouldn’t buy thier other drugs when they have no money.

I realised that there are a hell of a lot of people who don’t suffer anywhere near what the poor people on these boards suffer.
I’m not saying the majority get away scott free, but the people who have no bother, or not enough bother to make a post about, just don’t post.
Some people go on and off them a few times before it finally hits them, as the more habits you have to detox from the worse the wds get and if you get none the first, second, or third time around, you might get hit the fourth time, and so on.

I could hav saved myself a lot of worry by reading about people’s symptoms instead of looking at the wider perspective and considering the whole of the population of people who have stopped benzo use or only taken weeks/months to taper, as well as the poor people who get hit with sx.
I’d have been reassured back then, if I knew that not all people suffer like the poor people have on these boards.
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Impossible to separate anti-psychiatry circus from Scientology cult

“Drug users who are trying to kick their habit are perfect prey for cults like Scientology.” – Arun Arora, Director of Communications for the Diocese of Birmingham, March 2003

That’s where they lose. That’s where they’ll always lose. And, they know it. In fact, they’re terrified of it.