Ashton tapers cause psychotic breaks?

Has Tapering ever resulted in severe mental disorders?
« on: December 05, 2019, 12:27:40 am »

[Buddie]

After freaking out during my taper, my doctor strongly recommended (ordered) me to go back up to 1mg and hold till I was ready to start tapering at my own pace. In that time, I’ve had some pretty strange mental effects. Disassociation, not feeling like I was in my body, watching events unfold around me like I’m not really there. Years ago (20+ years ago) I was diagnosed with drug induced psychosis. Since going back to 1mg, my mania has been reduced somewhat, but I find myself suffering from possible delusions and I don’t know if its something that is really happening or if I’m having a psychotic break.

Is this something people have experienced while tapering? Can tapering cause a psychotic break? Or was I already messed up and tapering just compounded my problems and brought some stuff that was just under the surface back again?

Any thoughts on this would be appreciated and before anyone can ask… No, I can’t afford to go to a psychiatrist, I can’t afford therapy, and I’ve been drinking myself into a stupor to try to get out of my head on a regular basis.

I used to do drugs to get away from anxiety and bad thoughts, coming off Klonopin has brought a lot of these old (almost forgotten) demons back and I don’t know if this is normal or if I got some serious underlying problems.

Christmas visit to psychiatrist ends in disaster

Psych mistake
« on: January 30, 2018, 01:58:23 pm »

[Buddie]

I went to see the psychiatrist just after Christmas. I have intrusive thoughts and she wanted to change my antidepressant to help this. So I had to come off 100mg Nortriptyline and she gave me six weeks to do that. My dose was made up of 4x25mg tablets per day. So I cut down to 75mg. I felt okay and was optimistic. However, ten days after I’d gone down to 75mg I felt worse than ever and my intrusive thoughts were completely out of control. Now I am barely functioning. I have talked to the psychiatrist and we agreed to go back to 100mg. I am seeing her again next Wednesday. But now I am stuck in bed and the situation is much worse. I don’t know what to do. Any ideas? Thanks.

End Psychiatry supports Scientology

Preaching the Gospel of Ashton

"Rescue Doses"
« on: November 16, 2016, 04:26:40 pm »

[Buddie]

Ok fellow buddies-we need to rename “rescue dose” something more apt…like ” fuck you up good doses”, or “immediate retardation doses”, or maybe something catchier like”zombie dose”? We cannot EVER do Benzos, or barbiturates, or even alcohol if we want to keep our FREEDOM! Please don’t think it’s OK to take “just one” because our brains CANNOT HANDLE these poisons. The longer we are FREE the easier it is to stay that way. I took one .25 mg tablet as I hadn’t slept at all for months. My Drs said I could go back on the damn things but other than that they had nothing. I was a 4 y/o in the body of a 52 y/o man thanks to taking that one ” rescue dose “. No one I know has benefited from taking rescue doses. Do anything else but please, don’t take any “rescue doses”. Same same as rusky roulette, me hearties…..

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I met a traveller from an antique land
Who said: “Two vast and trunkless legs of stone
Stand in the desert. Near them, on the sand,
Half sunk, a shattered visage lies, whose frown,
And wrinkled lip, and sneer of cold command,
Tell that its sculptor well those passions read
Which yet survive, stamped on these lifeless things,
The hand that mocked them and the heart that fed:
And on the pedestal these words appear:
‘My name is Ozymandias, king of kings:
Look on my works, ye Mighty, and despair!’
Nothing beside remains. Round the decay
Of that colossal wreck, boundless and bare
The lone and level sands stretch far away.”

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