Do you need to go blind in order to join Heather Ashton’s benzo cult?

Freaking out
« on: September 25, 2018, 08:15:49 pm »

[Buddie]

The side effects have gotten a little too much for me this week because they are hitting areas that are huge triggers – my eyesight. I’m an artist and design for a living. I’ve been able to work throughout this ordeal but now things are complicated because I have visual snow. I need to go for an eye exam to rule out actual eye damage, but eye exams are a huge stressor for me. I have fainted in my last two exams, and that was WITH Klonopin. What the heck do I do now? My fear is actually enough for me to want to skip out on the appointment completely which I know is stupid but I don’t want to faint. I don’t know what to do or how to cope right now. I cried hysterically earlier. The exam isn’t until Thursday morning.

Re: Freaking out
« Reply #1 on: September 26, 2018, 10:22:35 pm »

[Buddie]

I cancelled my appointment. I can’t do it :(

Benzo Buddies cult members argue over whether or not to get a flu shot

Flu Shot
« on: September 25, 2018, 04:51:08 am »

[Buddie]

Do any of you get the seasonal flu shot? If so does it cause you any problems?

My body is so weak and battered, it feels as if flu would end me right now, so maybe getting the shot will help prevent me getting really sick this winter, from one flu strain anyway. The shot only protects you against one strain of the virus, and if the virus decides to mutate half way through the flu season, the vaccine is rendered useless. Is it worth the bother and potential risk of an uptick?.

Thanks.

Re: Flu Shot
« Reply #1 on: September 25, 2018, 09:42:17 am »

[Buddie]

I get them. Totally worth it.

Re: Flu Shot
« Reply #2 on: September 25, 2018, 04:39:44 pm »

[Buddie]

I have gotten a flu shot for years with no negative side effects. I think it worth whatever risk there might be.

Re: Flu Shot
« Reply #3 on: September 25, 2018, 04:53:05 pm »

[Buddie]

NO never! I hate any vaccines but the flu shot has mercury in it. It doesn’t prevent the flu only helps the intensity. And 1/2 the time it’s not effective towards the strain going around that year. I have influenza A in January fresh off Benzos and I was fine. Just eat well, and take care of your body.

Moran works brainwashed kooks into frenzy over whether or not cooking with alcohol is safe

Cooking with alcohol?
« on: August 21, 2018, 11:11:14 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi, I'm 18 months off. Wanna know if its safe to cook with alcohol, I don't want a set back.

Re: Cooking with alcohol?
« Reply #1 on: August 21, 2018, 11:32:34 pm »

[Buddie]

If it’s heated yes…..

Re: Cooking with alcohol?
« Reply #2 on: August 22, 2018, 01:03:09 am »

[Buddie]

I cook with alchohol and have not had any problems. I don’t use a lot but if the recipe calls for it then I go ahead and use half of what it calls for. I don’t do it very often though. I haven’t noticed it making me worse.

Re: Cooking with alcohol?
« Reply #3 on: August 22, 2018, 03:00:11 am »

[Buddie]

I had soup with alcohol and it gave me a wave for several terrible months. It’s a myth that it cooks out. Google it… studies have been done!

Re: Cooking with alcohol?
« Reply #4 on: August 22, 2018, 05:09:05 am »

[Buddie]

I have not had any issues with food cooked in alcohol. I am 21 months off, but have had things cooked in alcohol a few time and never had an issue.

Re: Cooking with alcohol?
« Reply #5 on: August 23, 2018, 01:20:43 am »

[Buddie]

I’m 18 months and I wouldn’t have a drop of alcohol if my life depended on it. It always pisses me off how crazy people are that they would be willing to risk pure hell over some damm alcohol! How is it worth it?

I would have healed over a year ago had I known the kind of hell alcohol puts us into with this illness.

Mother terrified of post-Ashton taper son

OK, I know I'm always asking questions, but...Hospital?
« on: December 16, 2017, 03:58:14 pm »

[Buddie]

Have any of you had your sx. of obsessive thoughts and psychotic thinking become so bad that you had to be hospitalized? Like making threats and becoming combative? My son has been like that lately. It’s not like him at ALL, he is very tall, and teachers, relatives, and friends have always called him the ‘gentle giant’. He’ll be fine (albeit dressed and anxious and hurting), and then just fall apart.

I could really use some input on this. He was fine before benzos and during benzos. So we (and our family doctor–yes we finally found one that had personal experience with protracted benzo withdrawal iin a young woman he treated)are all-but-certain it is the w/d.

White-knuckle, chest-thumping fear of flying without benzos

Flying tommorow and horrified
« on: December 13, 2017, 05:36:45 am »

[Buddie]

Hey friends, I’m really scared here. Taking my first flight tommorow since quitting benzos. I am horrified of not being able to do anything about an anxiety attack midair. I had my doctor call in a one time xanax refill but my wife is ashamed of me for doing so and is advising me not to even bring them because I will have a huge flare up of anxiety when they wear off. Been benzo free 16 months. Any words of advice on flying without benzos? Should I bring them in secret just to have? Please help!

Addict turns benzo taper into lifelong career

Feel like I completely screwed myself and now feel hopeless
« on: November 20, 2017, 10:07:02 pm »

[Buddie]

I can’t help but feel like my failed Valium crossover and then all of the one off updoses that I very stupidly took to help me sleep have completely screwed me up. I’ve never felt so physically sick or mentally off. It’s unbearable I’m bed ridden and absolutely overwhelmed with terror and irrational thoughts 24/7. I don’t know what to do anymore I think I kindled myself so badly. I just wanted relief. This is my history:

Last year I did a daily liquid microtaper from February until November. I would liquefy one of my .5 mg tablets in 100 mL’s of milk and take our 1.2 mL’s a day until it was gone. So I got down to 1.5 mg’s around November of last year when I was slammed with symptoms/side effects and after seeking advice I decided to updose to 2 and then ultimately reinstate back at 2.5. This did not stabilize me at all and I wish more than anything I had just held at 1.5. In May of this year I had a failed Valium crossover. I then went back to 2.5 and tried a dry cut going extremely slow and only got from 2.5 to 2.375 cutting at a little less than 5% but I felt so terrible that I again went back to 2.5 and actually tried going to 3 mg’s for six days to see if I could get relief and did not so I then went back to 2.5 which is where I am now and have been for a few months with occasional 5 mg Valium updoses mixed in.