Hearing things that are not there « on: April 07, 2018, 10:53:57 am »
Lately i’ve been hearing things / imagining things that are not there. For example:
* Phone ringing, i rush downstairs to find out that the phone had not been ringing.
* People calling my name.
* Hearing gas from the stove being turned on. I then often check the stove if it’s really on or not.
Am i becoming schizophrenic now? Or is someone just messing with me? 
Anyone else?
Full moon? Does it effect youv « on: December 02, 2017, 04:11:26 am »
Does a full moon rev anyone up? I always see people talking about this
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv « Reply #1 on: December 02, 2017, 10:40:10 am »
Not me personally, no. One of the first nights I was actually able to avoid a panic attack.
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv « Reply #2 on: December 02, 2017, 10:53:43 am »
Yes, and has always affected my sleep before this benzo nightmare.
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv « Reply #3 on: December 02, 2017, 01:34:44 pm »
Full moon is my friend as well as the universe.
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv « Reply #4 on: December 02, 2017, 02:47:37 pm »
Yes, For the past five months on the night before the full moon and the night of my blood pressure spikes and I cannot sleep. It happened again last night! Apparently tonight the full moon is suppose to be particularly strong. Not looking forward to it!
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv « Reply #5 on: December 02, 2017, 02:50:30 pm »
Yes, I have trouble sleeping with a Full Moon, worse with Benzo withdrawal but it had the same effect before I stopped using Diazepam, last night was miserable.
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No one told me this would be a life stopper.....help.. « on: February 18, 2017, 01:38:00 am »
My story is long but I will try to tell it without going to tons of detail.
At the end of August I was morbidly depressed and decided I wanted to go in-patient. I also wanted to get off the 2 mg of adivan and the 2 mgs of Klonopin I took daily. The hospital said they could detox me in a week. I was excited that and thought new medicine could help me get off this stuff. They decided just to put me on a 7 day taper of librium. You would think the pdoc there would have a clue. Why did he do this to me? Needless to say, I left the hospital 2 days later, it was then I started feeling the withdrawal take affect. it was brutal, beyond hell. I had 3 weeks of deadly anxiety in my chest. I was writhing on the floor. I took 8000 steps in house in one day. Then that subsided and I got body and muscle aches. They the worst symptoms was the myoclonic jerks, that kept me awake for days. It made me crazy i think.
First question, during that time that my body was in the most amazing state of hell. My right eye, my vision became very bad. I went to the eye doc and he said I had Kerratoconus. An eye disease where the cornea becomes unstable and causes distortions. However, this never progressed until I was 43 and under tremendous stress physically and mentally from benzo withdrawal. Now I have to live with this bad vision. I am mad and upset and afraid. I want to sue the doctors. Anyone ever experience anything like this regarding their health?
Second question: It has been about 5 months since I stopped the benzos. I grind my teeth all the time. Feel sad, and frightened. I ruminate more than I ever have. I have not worked since this all happened because I am scared I will not sleep. I just can’t explain it. Maybe you all know how I am feeling. Am I ever going to be me again? Am I ever going to be the person I was? I went to an APRN to see about different medications yesterday, and he thinks I have borderline personality. He wants to put me on Depokote. I have seen,a pdoc here for 2 years, a IOP pdoc and other therapist in my lifetime and no one ever brought that up, ever,
Can someone tell me if this is just the new me? Why do I feel more mentally ill then I ever have? I used to be confident, laugh things off. Now I am a shell of what I was. I still think dark thoughts and I feel like at 44, I am waiting to die because I feel so scared and insecure. If something happens to my wife, how will i support my 3 year old son and myself??? I am really scared about working again? WHy? Someone please help me… if you can. Thank you all… so much.
« Last Edit: February 18, 2017, 02:00:10 am by [Buddie] »
The Benzo Buddies-induced hysteria goes on for TWELVE pages… (yes, twelve pages)
Showering? « on: September 15, 2016, 06:26:41 pm »
I’ve seen many posts where folks say they fear showering or dread it. I’m one of those folks. I tense up and am afraid I’ll fall. I totally have a melt down before and during. Is there a physiological reason. Why it’s so scary? Just trying to understand maybe that will help me come to terms with the process. Thanks.
Re: Showering? « Reply #1 on: September 15, 2016, 06:38:33 pm »
Your central nervous system is raw, and a shower is quite a sensory overload in that situation both in terms of noise and physical sensation. Plus you’re standing up naked, which isn’t anything we normally think about, but leaves people feeling quite exposed when in WD.
I find a bath can be a good and more relaxing alternative.
Re: Showering? « Reply #2 on: September 15, 2016, 06:44:26 pm »
Interesting. Thank you. I used to take baths but I’m too weak to get in and out of the tub. Thank you.
Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « on: January 23, 2016, 06:13:51 pm »
I can’t believe it…..at 10.30 nearly a fight in US. 
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #1 on: January 23, 2016, 06:30:04 pm »
Best video ever…..[…] got it from ITV London.
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #2 on: January 23, 2016, 06:41:10 pm »
Effing bastards….I can’t get over it, so angry. 
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #3 on: January 23, 2016, 07:05:33 pm »
I am very angry too. I am so pleased that ITV has unearthed it from their archives.
I wish we could have a really good up-to-date documentary on this subject.
Have sent the video to various politicians, journalists etc in Scotland.
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Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #4 on: January 23, 2016, 07:11:22 pm »
Quote from: [Buddie] on January 23, 2016, 07:05:33 pm
I am very angry too. I am so pleased that ITV has unearthed it from their archives.
I wish we could have a really good up-to-date documentary on this subject.
Have sent the video to various politicians, journalists etc in Scotland.
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Good find […]…..I’m still in shock about the golf course scene….
unbelievable, they should have called the cops.
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #5 on: January 23, 2016, 07:25:11 pm »
UNBELIEVABLE!! This being uncovered in 1988………..freaking 28 yrs ago!! What a pompous arrogant prick that chairman of Wyeth was. Typical 
This just solidifies my suspicions and hatred of Ativan. Watching the vid brought back VERY vivid reminders of the horrible acute stage my wife went through after being directly crossed over to V from Ativan………….pure and absolute HELL!!!!
Thank you […] for this
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #6 on: January 23, 2016, 07:34:40 pm »
Bunch of gangstas like I’ve always said…..at the golf course ?
Bagger off whilst you still have a chance…..thats underworld slang.
Give me a fucking break please…..I can’t believe it. 
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #7 on: January 23, 2016, 07:57:17 pm »
Unbelievable… infiuriating … depressing… this was made in 1988, so it was already known how dangerous and addictive Ativan was then, and here we are in 2016 and doctors are still prescribing it and people are still getting addicted to it. Big pharma wins, and we all lose.
Sorry about the language, but that scene made me so angry..
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #8 on: January 23, 2016, 08:02:32 pm »
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #9 on: January 23, 2016, 08:05:49 pm »
Quote from: [Buddie] on January 23, 2016, 07:57:17 pm
Unbelievable… infiuriating … depressing… this was made in 1988, so it was already known how dangerous and addictive Ativan was then, and here we are in 2016 and doctors are still prescribing it and people are still getting addicted to it. Big pharma wins, and we all lose. Watching this I wanted to be on that golf course – I’d shove that a**hole executive’s golf club up his f***ing a**. Sorry about the language, but that scene made me so angry…
Yep , overhere they are prescribing Ativan like smarties….its criminal,
what a corrupted system….its so so crazy thats why nobody believes it….
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #10 on: January 23, 2016, 08:48:57 pm »
Makes me wanna puke……….
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #11 on: January 23, 2016, 10:54:51 pm »
Quote from: [Buddie] on January 23, 2016, 07:11:22 pm
Quote from: [Buddie] on January 23, 2016, 07:05:33 pm
I am very angry too. I am so pleased that ITV has unearthed it from their archives.
I wish we could have a really good up-to-date documentary on this subject.
Have sent the video to various politicians, journalists etc in Scotland.
[…]
Good find […]…..I’m still in shock about the golf course scene….
unbelievable, they should have called the cops.
That was an amazing video. Thank you so much for posting. As someone who did a cold turkey withdrawal from a large dose of Ativan this was really troubling, and boy that golf course scene…unbelievable to say the least. Well worth watching.
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #12 on: January 24, 2016, 04:14:29 am »
28 YEARS LATER AND NO CHANGE WHATSOEVER – EVEN MORE PRESCRIPTIONS FOR ATIVAN ISSUED.
There is no justice when it comes to these very harmful drugs. Really sad, such a travesty.
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #13 on: January 24, 2016, 05:06:28 am »
Unbelievable…but then again, it is all about money isn’t it.
It was far more important at the time, that he finish his golf game, then get right quick to cocktail hour in his mansion, than to honestly address the issues of hurting people, taking his toxic drug!
There really are no words for how sick it all is. 
A few months back, there was no way I could have even watched this, because I was Ava. I cried just watching this old vid, because I knew that pain, I knew that anxiety and fear that made you feel you would lose your mind at any moment. It’s a flat out miracle that I got off that shit and survived that CT, just like many of you have and your all amazing!
That wd was inhumane and I thank God everyday for pulling me thru that terror. I am ashamed that mankind is willing to put money above human lives…its horrific.
Unbelievable to me that I am a year free now. Its like the first year is survival and realizing as you come out of it more and more, you survived, didn’t die and your brain and body are going to be ok once again. The second year, then becomes rebuilding your life. I’m still coping with, what THE HELL was that I just endured for the last year!
I had the opportunity today to share my story with some very close business associates and they all were either crying, or in total shock over such things going on. I feel somehow, someway, I will do what I can and when I can, to spread the news of this poison.
Ativan=Hell
Thank you or sharing this video, it validated me and also made me very angry and wanting to continue making a difference somehow with the knowledge I now have after this experience. My life will surely never be the same.
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Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #14 on: January 24, 2016, 05:31:40 pm »
I feel that you’re right, […]. There’s more and more talk about putting limits on sugary foods, more interest in the environment and climate change, more avenues for change in terms of health and well-being overall. The fact that just recently the NFL has finally, finally gotten a clue about concussions is good news (and the NFL has been in existence since the 1920s!). No more cigarette ads on TV. One day soon I hope to see drug commercials banned as well.
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #15 on: January 24, 2016, 06:05:44 pm »
They cold turkeys her for two weeks n then sent her home to suffer there. Disgusting
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #16 on: January 24, 2016, 06:47:08 pm »
I am in tears…
I cannot believe this. Absolutely criminal and inhumane.
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #17 on: January 25, 2016, 12:40:05 am »
I feel so horrible for this lady. I’ve never taken Ativan and so glad I haven’t. I know all benzos are terrible but I’ve always thought Ativan was the worst. One can become addicted to it faster than other benzos.
Some people are born w/o a conscious. He is one of them. And that golf course scene?
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Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #18 on: January 25, 2016, 01:32:42 am »
I wonder if she ever managed to withdraw. Don’t suppose we will ever know now.
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Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #19 on: January 25, 2016, 05:43:44 am »
Remember this video was made in 1988 before anyone knew how to properly get off benzos. Dr Ashton’s groundbreaking work came later. Watching this video made me appreciate the incredible value of Ashton’s brilliant and wonderful work. We now know about tapering. In 1988 they had no clue.
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #20 on: January 25, 2016, 05:54:45 am »
Quote from: [Buddie] on January 25, 2016, 05:43:44 am
Remember this video was made in 1988 before anyone knew how to properly get off benzos. Dr Ashton’s groundbreaking work came later. Watching this video made me appreciate the incredible value of Ashton’s brilliant and wonderful work. We now know about tapering. In 1988 they had no clue.
Unbelievable isn’t it ? Now I realize what an effort it must have been for
Ashton to complete her manual, bless the old Lady.
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable ! « Reply #21 on: January 25, 2016, 02:58:58 pm »
Quote from: [Buddie] on January 25, 2016, 01:32:42 am
I wonder if she ever managed to withdraw. Don’t suppose we will ever know now.
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Yes, I wondered this as well. Is she still alive? Did she successfully get off this crap?
Who is she, and her age. I’ll assume she would be in her 80’s now if still alive. Poor woman
