Re: Do people here have difficulty regulating body temperature.
« Reply #3 on: October 10, 2019, 12:57:15 am »
Jack37
Yes. I struggled to keep my body temp between 95-103 in the beginning. If I went out in the cold it would start to drop below 95 very quickly like in minutes. If I turned on the heat in the car my temp would start climbing. The sky was the limit. I carried a thermometer at all times for safety. My temperature would go to dangerous extremes quickly. I once had a 106 fever from driving in a hot car. I basically had to try to be in a 73 degree room at all times.
No problems with it currently. That symptom is gone.
Hearing things that are not there
« on: April 07, 2018, 10:53:57 am »
[Buddie]
Lately i’ve been hearing things / imagining things that are not there. For example:
* Phone ringing, i rush downstairs to find out that the phone had not been ringing.
* People calling my name.
* Hearing gas from the stove being turned on. I then often check the stove if it’s really on or not.
Am i becoming schizophrenic now? Or is someone just messing with me?
Full moon? Does it effect youv
« on: December 02, 2017, 04:11:26 am »
[Buddie]
Does a full moon rev anyone up? I always see people talking about this
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv
« Reply #1 on: December 02, 2017, 10:40:10 am »
[Buddie]
Not me personally, no. One of the first nights I was actually able to avoid a panic attack.
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv
« Reply #2 on: December 02, 2017, 10:53:43 am »
[Buddie]
Yes, and has always affected my sleep before this benzo nightmare.
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv
« Reply #3 on: December 02, 2017, 01:34:44 pm »
[Buddie]
Full moon is my friend as well as the universe.
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv
« Reply #4 on: December 02, 2017, 02:47:37 pm »
[Buddie]
Yes, For the past five months on the night before the full moon and the night of my blood pressure spikes and I cannot sleep. It happened again last night! Apparently tonight the full moon is suppose to be particularly strong. Not looking forward to it!
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv
« Reply #5 on: December 02, 2017, 02:50:30 pm »
[Buddie]
Yes, I have trouble sleeping with a Full Moon, worse with Benzo withdrawal but it had the same effect before I stopped using Diazepam, last night was miserable.
About me:
My name is Danny. I created End Psychiatry. I’m also a musician. I play guitar, write, sing, scream, and rap. If you want your voice heard, please donate so I can scream it from the mountain tops.
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If you’re not familiar with psychiatry, here is my story very briefly; I was forced brain altering chemicals that take away the ability to self regulate dopamine, and inhibit the ability to experience life, happiness and dignity. I was not suicidal, I was not guilty of a crime. (Message me at End Psychiatry if you have a question). Welcome to dystopia.
No one told me this would be a life stopper.....help..
« on: February 18, 2017, 01:38:00 am »
[Buddie]
My story is long but I will try to tell it without going to tons of detail.
At the end of August I was morbidly depressed and decided I wanted to go in-patient. I also wanted to get off the 2 mg of adivan and the 2 mgs of Klonopin I took daily. The hospital said they could detox me in a week. I was excited that and thought new medicine could help me get off this stuff. They decided just to put me on a 7 day taper of librium. You would think the pdoc there would have a clue. Why did he do this to me? Needless to say, I left the hospital 2 days later, it was then I started feeling the withdrawal take affect. it was brutal, beyond hell. I had 3 weeks of deadly anxiety in my chest. I was writhing on the floor. I took 8000 steps in house in one day. Then that subsided and I got body and muscle aches. They the worst symptoms was the myoclonic jerks, that kept me awake for days. It made me crazy i think.
First question, during that time that my body was in the most amazing state of hell. My right eye, my vision became very bad. I went to the eye doc and he said I had Kerratoconus. An eye disease where the cornea becomes unstable and causes distortions. However, this never progressed until I was 43 and under tremendous stress physically and mentally from benzo withdrawal. Now I have to live with this bad vision. I am mad and upset and afraid. I want to sue the doctors. Anyone ever experience anything like this regarding their health?
Second question: It has been about 5 months since I stopped the benzos. I grind my teeth all the time. Feel sad, and frightened. I ruminate more than I ever have. I have not worked since this all happened because I am scared I will not sleep. I just can’t explain it. Maybe you all know how I am feeling. Am I ever going to be me again? Am I ever going to be the person I was? I went to an APRN to see about different medications yesterday, and he thinks I have borderline personality. He wants to put me on Depokote. I have seen,a pdoc here for 2 years, a IOP pdoc and other therapist in my lifetime and no one ever brought that up, ever,
Can someone tell me if this is just the new me? Why do I feel more mentally ill then I ever have? I used to be confident, laugh things off. Now I am a shell of what I was. I still think dark thoughts and I feel like at 44, I am waiting to die because I feel so scared and insecure. If something happens to my wife, how will i support my 3 year old son and myself??? I am really scared about working again? WHy? Someone please help me… if you can. Thank you all… so much.
« Last Edit: February 18, 2017, 02:00:10 am by [Buddie] »
The Benzo Buddies-induced hysteria goes on for TWELVE pages… (yes, twelve pages)
Showering?
« on: September 15, 2016, 06:26:41 pm »
[Buddie]
I’ve seen many posts where folks say they fear showering or dread it. I’m one of those folks. I tense up and am afraid I’ll fall. I totally have a melt down before and during. Is there a physiological reason. Why it’s so scary? Just trying to understand maybe that will help me come to terms with the process. Thanks.
Re: Showering?
« Reply #1 on: September 15, 2016, 06:38:33 pm »
[Buddie]
Your central nervous system is raw, and a shower is quite a sensory overload in that situation both in terms of noise and physical sensation. Plus you’re standing up naked, which isn’t anything we normally think about, but leaves people feeling quite exposed when in WD.
I find a bath can be a good and more relaxing alternative.
Re: Showering?
« Reply #2 on: September 15, 2016, 06:44:26 pm »
[Buddie]
Interesting. Thank you. I used to take baths but I’m too weak to get in and out of the tub. Thank you.
When all the so called “mentally ill”, minorities, free-thinkers and dissenters were being round up and chemically or electrically lobotomised, you chose the side of the oppressor because the word vagina or an image percieved to be sexual by you, upset you more than physical abuse. That will be difficult to explain to your grankids. What gives? Are you afraid of VAGINAS? Do you find VAGINAS more offensive than INSTITUTIONALIZED & MEDICALIZED TORTURE? Vagina…. Torture…. I know my answer, and it makes me feel like a feminist, comparatively. 1,247 reached with a tenth of the usual response. If it were not for those who are clearly repressed, oppressed, and or sexist (towards males or females), this post may have gone viral.
“It’s easy, simply don’t be a thoughtless Nazi fuck-wit, and don’t publicly advocate pseudo-sciences that are forced upon people in acts of torture. Pro-oppression people; say what you want about me and my ‘savagery’, if there’s a hell, you’re priority, you statist cowards.”
“If this is true (Chemtrails are) maybe it’s the lithium that’s making people propagate illogical nonsense like ‘mental illness’ and ‘bipolar disorder’.”
“I wish people would think before they opened there mouths publicly.”
This just solidifies my suspicions and hatred of Ativan. Watching the vid brought back VERY vivid reminders of the horrible acute stage my wife went through after being directly crossed over to V from Ativan………….pure and absolute HELL!!!!
Thank you […] for this
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #6 on: January 23, 2016, 07:34:40 pm »
Give me a fucking break please…..I can’t believe it.
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #7 on: January 23, 2016, 07:57:17 pm »
[Buddie]
Unbelievable… infiuriating … depressing… this was made in 1988, so it was already known how dangerous and addictive Ativan was then, and here we are in 2016 and doctors are still prescribing it and people are still getting addicted to it. Big pharma wins, and we all lose.
Watching this I wanted to be on that golf course – I’d shove that a**hole executive’s golf club up his f***ing a**.
Sorry about the language, but that scene made me so angry..
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #8 on: January 23, 2016, 08:02:32 pm »
[Buddie]
I think we would all like to do that but I expect he’s dead now!!!!
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #9 on: January 23, 2016, 08:05:49 pm »
[Buddie]
Quote from: [Buddie] on January 23, 2016, 07:57:17 pm Unbelievable… infiuriating … depressing… this was made in 1988, so it was already known how dangerous and addictive Ativan was then, and here we are in 2016 and doctors are still prescribing it and people are still getting addicted to it. Big pharma wins, and we all lose. Watching this I wanted to be on that golf course – I’d shove that a**hole executive’s golf club up his f***ing a**. Sorry about the language, but that scene made me so angry…
Yep , overhere they are prescribing Ativan like smarties….its criminal,
what a corrupted system….its so so crazy thats why nobody believes it….
Wish I was on that golf course with […]….no on second thoughts rather with Mr. Glock…..
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #10 on: January 23, 2016, 08:48:57 pm »
[Buddie]
Makes me wanna puke……….
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #11 on: January 23, 2016, 10:54:51 pm »
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #12 on: January 24, 2016, 04:14:29 am »
[Buddie]
28 YEARS LATER AND NO CHANGE WHATSOEVER – EVEN MORE PRESCRIPTIONS FOR ATIVAN ISSUED.
There is no justice when it comes to these very harmful drugs. Really sad, such a travesty.
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #13 on: January 24, 2016, 05:06:28 am »
[Buddie]
Unbelievable…but then again, it is all about money isn’t it.
It was far more important at the time, that he finish his golf game, then get right quick to cocktail hour in his mansion, than to honestly address the issues of hurting people, taking his toxic drug!
There really are no words for how sick it all is. A few months back, there was no way I could have even watched this, because I was Ava. I cried just watching this old vid, because I knew that pain, I knew that anxiety and fear that made you feel you would lose your mind at any moment. It’s a flat out miracle that I got off that shit and survived that CT, just like many of you have and your all amazing!
That wd was inhumane and I thank God everyday for pulling me thru that terror. I am ashamed that mankind is willing to put money above human lives…its horrific.
Unbelievable to me that I am a year free now. Its like the first year is survival and realizing as you come out of it more and more, you survived, didn’t die and your brain and body are going to be ok once again. The second year, then becomes rebuilding your life. I’m still coping with, what THE HELL was that I just endured for the last year!
I had the opportunity today to share my story with some very close business associates and they all were either crying, or in total shock over such things going on. I feel somehow, someway, I will do what I can and when I can, to spread the news of this poison.
Ativan=Hell
Thank you or sharing this video, it validated me and also made me very angry and wanting to continue making a difference somehow with the knowledge I now have after this experience. My life will surely never be the same.
magic
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #14 on: January 24, 2016, 05:31:40 pm »
[Buddie]
I feel that you’re right, […]. There’s more and more talk about putting limits on sugary foods, more interest in the environment and climate change, more avenues for change in terms of health and well-being overall. The fact that just recently the NFL has finally, finally gotten a clue about concussions is good news (and the NFL has been in existence since the 1920s!). No more cigarette ads on TV. One day soon I hope to see drug commercials banned as well.
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #15 on: January 24, 2016, 06:05:44 pm »
[Buddie]
They cold turkeys her for two weeks n then sent her home to suffer there. Disgusting
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #16 on: January 24, 2016, 06:47:08 pm »
[Buddie]
I am in tears…
I cannot believe this. Absolutely criminal and inhumane.
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #17 on: January 25, 2016, 12:40:05 am »
[Buddie]
I feel so horrible for this lady. I’ve never taken Ativan and so glad I haven’t. I know all benzos are terrible but I’ve always thought Ativan was the worst. One can become addicted to it faster than other benzos.
Put that company’s president out of his misery.
Some people are born w/o a conscious. He is one of them. And that golf course scene?
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Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #18 on: January 25, 2016, 01:32:42 am »
[Buddie]
I wonder if she ever managed to withdraw. Don’t suppose we will ever know now.
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Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #19 on: January 25, 2016, 05:43:44 am »
[Buddie]
Remember this video was made in 1988 before anyone knew how to properly get off benzos. Dr Ashton’s groundbreaking work came later. Watching this video made me appreciate the incredible value of Ashton’s brilliant and wonderful work. We now know about tapering. In 1988 they had no clue.
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #20 on: January 25, 2016, 05:54:45 am »
[Buddie]
Quote from: [Buddie] on January 25, 2016, 05:43:44 am Remember this video was made in 1988 before anyone knew how to properly get off benzos. Dr Ashton’s groundbreaking work came later. Watching this video made me appreciate the incredible value of Ashton’s brilliant and wonderful work. We now know about tapering. In 1988 they had no clue.
Unbelievable isn’t it ? Now I realize what an effort it must have been for
Ashton to complete her manual, bless the old Lady.
Re: Watch this video about Ativan....unbelievable !
« Reply #21 on: January 25, 2016, 02:58:58 pm »
Yes, I wondered this as well. Is she still alive? Did she successfully get off this crap?
Who is she, and her age. I’ll assume she would be in her 80’s now if still alive. Poor woman
Please! Does anyone else have this? I feel like I’m being electricuted and burned ALIVE! It won’t let up… I feel the burning sizzling electricity radiating off my body. It goes feom this to extreme fiberglass itching. I LITERALLY feel like I’m being burnt alive by an electeuc fence. It hurts so badly! !!!! My brain buzzes abd sizzles.. I’m losing my will to live! I’m so ill! I’ve seen 50 drs..went to the hospital over 40 times… please don’t tell me to seek help!
I have been diagnosed with clinical depression or uni polar depression as some call it. It started after I I was on benzos for about a yr. It got much worse when I had a tramatic event, and again even worse whwn I started to try to come off the benzos.
Im just so scared my depression will never lift. My friend quit benzos over 5 yrs ago and he hes a mess. What he sicribes to me sounds like bi polar. His moods are every where. And he refuses to take a mood stabalizer which I think is insane.
I just dont want some sperate underlining condition to ruin my recovery.
Re: Scared of my depression
« Reply #1 on: December 27, 2012, 11:12:44 pm »
Your depression is temporary physical damage, causing depressive symptoms.
External stressors will make it worse.
Your depression will lift, as soon as you heal from the benzos.
Many people are reporting feeling better doing daily cuts.
I am coping better on daily cuts.
I don’t think your friend is insane because he does not choose to take a mood stabilizer, because psych meds can make things worse for a lot of people. He may want to pursue non drug treatment for his moods though.
If they are caused by benzos however, they will not respond to treatment in the normal way, due to the fact that they are caused by temporary physical damage.
It is common in wd to worry about never getting better, but we do heal.
All we need to do is to taper down as smoothly as possible.
Re: Scared of my depression
« Reply #2 on: December 27, 2012, 11:58:57 pm »
I hope my depression will lift. I know ashton talks about the use of anti depressents if the depression is sever.
I know my friends not crazy but its frusterating to see him still suffer. I just want him to get well b/c he hasnt touched a drug in 5 yrs and is doing horribly. Whats most frusterating is that he wont try anything. I have anoth friend who is bi polar and she takes a mood stavalizer and is doing amazing. Before the drug she wasnt functioning at all.
Re: Scared of my depression
« Reply #3 on: Yesterday at 04:06:00 am »
I haven’t had any depression, not once since I’ve been off benzo’s and all other psych drugs. My doctors labeled me as everything from S.A.D. to depressive, to bipolar, to GAD, etc etc etc. All along it was the drugs themselves that caused most of my problems. The other thing that caused my problems was being misdiagnosed when all along I had Celiac disease and no one knew what it was until now. If only I had been eating a gluten free diet and taking good care of myself I would never have had to suffer such horrible withdrawals.
Also, my sister was diagnosed with bipolar disorder this summer. She is now 100% better and guess what……she isn’t taking any psych drugs of any kind!!! Amazing, her bipolar episode was actually triggered by Trazodone and Abilify. I was the one who suggested she allow herself to be off the drugs for a few months and see how she does. She’s so much better now. Just proves to me that the drugs themselves cause/create more problems than they could ever solve. This is my experience and my observation.
Re: Scared of my depression
« Reply #4 on: Yesterday at 06:42:18 am »
Its just so very confusing. I mean you guys got better being off drugs. But how come my friends never did. Things just seemed to get worse. Like I said it wasn’t until my one friend was put on a mood stablalizer did she recover.
And my other friend has been med free for 5 years and he is just getting worse and worse.
Its hard to say “no one should ever take drugs” just as it hard to say “everyone should take drugs”.
Like when do you say medication may help?
I know for myself, I have to be a mood stabalizer or my depression becomes extremely disabling
Isn’t really confusing? or is it just me?
Re: Scared of my depression
« Reply #5 on: Yesterday at 11:51:37 am »
I hope my depression will lift. I know ashton talks about the use of anti depressents if the depression is sever.
I know my friends not crazy but its frusterating to see him still suffer. I just want him to get well b/c he hasnt touched a drug in 5 yrs and is doing horribly. Whats most frusterating is that he wont try anything. I have anoth friend who is bi polar and she takes a mood stavalizer and is doing amazing. Before the drug she wasnt functioning at all.
Hi Metheral
Ashton nowadays is against ad’s. Her manual was done in 1982. It is now found that AD’s can cause more harm.
Ultimately its up to you though.
They have to be tapered too, sometimes with difficult results.
I assure you that you will recover.
You can not know what your friend has done in the last five years. If he used alcohol or whatever, so I would not compare myself with your friend.
Re: Scared of my depression
« Reply #6 on: Yesterday at 02:43:31 pm »
Quote from: Metheral66 on Yesterday at 06:42:18 am Its just so very confusing. I mean you guys got better being off drugs. But how come my friends never did. Things just seemed to get worse. Like I said it wasn’t until my one friend was put on a mood stablalizer did she recover.
And my other friend has been med free for 5 years and he is just getting worse and worse.
Perhaps your friend has something else wrong that has nothing at all to do with medications. I for instance suffered from depression because I had Celiac disease that was undiagnosed. When I eat gluten it causes severe depression and anxiety in me. They called it a mental disorder when in fact it was an autoimmune disease. Since I adhere to the correct diet, I am healthy. If I didn’t I would be curled up in a ball somewhere crying everyday.
All I’m saying is there could be factors that we simply do not understand and the doctors may not have dug deep enough to get to the root cause. If my doctors had stopped long enough to stop giving me drugs and looked at all of my symptoms, I believe they would have found my autoimmune disease long ago and I could have been healthy and happy without any drugs of any kind. But that’s not how our western medicine operates. The first thing they do is prescibe you something without thought to what kind of backlash it’s going to take on your health and your life.
All I can say is that you’ll never know just how healthy you can be until you’ve remained off drugs for a period of time and I don’t mean a month or two. You’ve got to really give it a chance. Lifestyle I have found is more important than anything else. If you take good care of your health your mind will be happier. It’s that simple. But somewhere along the line in our western culture we’ve lost sight of that altogether.
M, it used to be confusing to me too, now it’s clear as day. I had to go through all that you are going through before I figured this out for myself. Don’t worry, you’ll get there and find your answers.
A few months back, there was no way I could have even watched this, because I was Ava. I cried just watching this old vid, because I knew that pain, I knew that anxiety and fear that made you feel you would lose your mind at any moment. It’s a flat out miracle that I got off that shit and survived that CT, just like many of you have and your all amazing!
I feel like I’m being electricuted and burned ALIVE! It won’t let up… I feel the burning sizzling electricity radiating off my body. It goes feom this to extreme fiberglass itching. I LITERALLY feel like I’m being burnt alive by an electeuc fence. It hurts so badly! !!!! My brain buzzes abd sizzles.. I’m losing my will to live! I’m so ill! I’ve seen 50 drs..went to the hospital over 40 times… please don’t tell me to seek help!