Hearing things that are not there « on: April 07, 2018, 10:53:57 am »
Lately i’ve been hearing things / imagining things that are not there. For example:
* Phone ringing, i rush downstairs to find out that the phone had not been ringing.
* People calling my name.
* Hearing gas from the stove being turned on. I then often check the stove if it’s really on or not.
Am i becoming schizophrenic now? Or is someone just messing with me? 
Anyone else?
Full moon? Does it effect youv « on: December 02, 2017, 04:11:26 am »
Does a full moon rev anyone up? I always see people talking about this
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv « Reply #1 on: December 02, 2017, 10:40:10 am »
Not me personally, no. One of the first nights I was actually able to avoid a panic attack.
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv « Reply #2 on: December 02, 2017, 10:53:43 am »
Yes, and has always affected my sleep before this benzo nightmare.
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv « Reply #3 on: December 02, 2017, 01:34:44 pm »
Full moon is my friend as well as the universe.
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv « Reply #4 on: December 02, 2017, 02:47:37 pm »
Yes, For the past five months on the night before the full moon and the night of my blood pressure spikes and I cannot sleep. It happened again last night! Apparently tonight the full moon is suppose to be particularly strong. Not looking forward to it!
Re: Full moon? Does it effect youv « Reply #5 on: December 02, 2017, 02:50:30 pm »
Yes, I have trouble sleeping with a Full Moon, worse with Benzo withdrawal but it had the same effect before I stopped using Diazepam, last night was miserable.
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No one told me this would be a life stopper.....help.. « on: February 18, 2017, 01:38:00 am »
My story is long but I will try to tell it without going to tons of detail.
At the end of August I was morbidly depressed and decided I wanted to go in-patient. I also wanted to get off the 2 mg of adivan and the 2 mgs of Klonopin I took daily. The hospital said they could detox me in a week. I was excited that and thought new medicine could help me get off this stuff. They decided just to put me on a 7 day taper of librium. You would think the pdoc there would have a clue. Why did he do this to me? Needless to say, I left the hospital 2 days later, it was then I started feeling the withdrawal take affect. it was brutal, beyond hell. I had 3 weeks of deadly anxiety in my chest. I was writhing on the floor. I took 8000 steps in house in one day. Then that subsided and I got body and muscle aches. They the worst symptoms was the myoclonic jerks, that kept me awake for days. It made me crazy i think.
First question, during that time that my body was in the most amazing state of hell. My right eye, my vision became very bad. I went to the eye doc and he said I had Kerratoconus. An eye disease where the cornea becomes unstable and causes distortions. However, this never progressed until I was 43 and under tremendous stress physically and mentally from benzo withdrawal. Now I have to live with this bad vision. I am mad and upset and afraid. I want to sue the doctors. Anyone ever experience anything like this regarding their health?
Second question: It has been about 5 months since I stopped the benzos. I grind my teeth all the time. Feel sad, and frightened. I ruminate more than I ever have. I have not worked since this all happened because I am scared I will not sleep. I just can’t explain it. Maybe you all know how I am feeling. Am I ever going to be me again? Am I ever going to be the person I was? I went to an APRN to see about different medications yesterday, and he thinks I have borderline personality. He wants to put me on Depokote. I have seen,a pdoc here for 2 years, a IOP pdoc and other therapist in my lifetime and no one ever brought that up, ever,
Can someone tell me if this is just the new me? Why do I feel more mentally ill then I ever have? I used to be confident, laugh things off. Now I am a shell of what I was. I still think dark thoughts and I feel like at 44, I am waiting to die because I feel so scared and insecure. If something happens to my wife, how will i support my 3 year old son and myself??? I am really scared about working again? WHy? Someone please help me… if you can. Thank you all… so much.
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The Benzo Buddies-induced hysteria goes on for TWELVE pages… (yes, twelve pages)
Showering? « on: September 15, 2016, 06:26:41 pm »
I’ve seen many posts where folks say they fear showering or dread it. I’m one of those folks. I tense up and am afraid I’ll fall. I totally have a melt down before and during. Is there a physiological reason. Why it’s so scary? Just trying to understand maybe that will help me come to terms with the process. Thanks.
Re: Showering? « Reply #1 on: September 15, 2016, 06:38:33 pm »
Your central nervous system is raw, and a shower is quite a sensory overload in that situation both in terms of noise and physical sensation. Plus you’re standing up naked, which isn’t anything we normally think about, but leaves people feeling quite exposed when in WD.
I find a bath can be a good and more relaxing alternative.
Re: Showering? « Reply #2 on: September 15, 2016, 06:44:26 pm »
Interesting. Thank you. I used to take baths but I’m too weak to get in and out of the tub. Thank you.
