Dr. Jenn retires after being disabled by a wave: “I don’t want to be a leader… no more coaching ever!”

Re: We are losing soldiers in the fight. Jennifer Leigh and Recovery Road
« Reply #5 on: August 15, 2017, 06:01:47 pm »

[Buddie]

Hey everyone. Colin or mods may pull this as I’m breaking anonymity here. I’m jennifer. My site will be taken down in six months. I’m
Retired from coaching. My set back is severe. After a very lengthy time of feeling healed I’m
Back in the snake pit. I will not risk my health ever again so I must stop working with benzo clients. The stress, as you can imagine, is too great. Baylissa’s site Baylissa dot com, is still up. I talk her her every morning. She’s still helping benzo people. She’s not leaving the community. I wish I was more well and could help. But I’m not and I can’t. It was an honor and a priveledge helping so many of you. Even though I’m in a set back I continue to believe that we do heal. Some take longer. But the outcome is recovery. Hold on. Don’t give up. Be good to yourselves.

Re: We are losing soldiers in the fight. Jennifer Leigh and Recovery Road
« Reply #6 on: August 15, 2017, 06:41:54 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on August 15, 2017, 06:01:47 pm
Hey everyone. Colin or mods may pull this as I’m breaking anonymity here. I’m jennifer. My site will be taken down in six months. I’m
Retired from coaching. My set back is severe. After a very lengthy time of feeling healed I’m
Back in the snake pit. I will not risk my health ever again so I must stop working with benzo clients. The stress, as you can imagine, is too great. Baylissa’s site Baylissa dot com, is still up. I talk her her every morning. She’s still helping benzo people. She’s not leaving the community. I wish I was more well and could help. But I’m not and I can’t. It was an honor and a priveledge helping so many of you. Even though I’m in a set back I continue to believe that we do heal. Some take longer. But the outcome is recovery. Hold on. Don’t give up. Be good to yourselves.

jen,

i will pray for you. i will pray harder than i have for anyone yet. this can’t go on for long. god has to stop this and restore you your life.

Re: We are losing soldiers in the fight. Jennifer Leigh and Recovery Road
« Reply #7 on: August 15, 2017, 07:16:18 pm »

[Buddie]

Thank you. That’s very kind of you. I’m praying too, for all
Of us. Hopefully In another few weeks or months I’ll be back on my feet. Out in my garden. I’m working on a novel to distract me. Friends are cooking for me and taking care of me. God walked me through this once before. No reason to believe God will stop and let me walk the way to complete healing on my own.

Please know that we heal. If I didn’t believe this I wouldn’t have done the work I did all these years. I’ve seen clients get well. And I saw my own healing. I went from deranged after my cold turkey to functional. I even taught a class at Stanford. Had a bad wave from doing to much, then recovered from that. The last six months before this setback were the best in many many years. But, I guess I did too much. I’ve probably got a much more fragile CNS than most due to my years of trauma before Benzo’s. I over estimated my capacity for listening to others pain and suffering. It finally took its toll on me, along with The physical extertion I put myself under. You can avoid a setback if you take care of yourself. If you are an over achiever like myself, you’ll want to really watch yourself and slow down.

When I crawl out of this setback I’m dedicated to taking life easy. I don’t want to be a leader. I don’t want to be responsible for people’s lives in any way shape or form. No more coaching ever. I just want to write. Grow flowers. Be among friends and family. Hold my grandchildren. And appreciate every sunrise I’m given. This is my wild one and precious life, no matter how shattered it feels at the moment. It is mine.

Mad in America: Naked female driver leads cops on chase through two Michigan counties

SAGINAW, MI — Nearly 700 miles from home and stark naked, a 48-year-old Georgia woman led state troopers on a two-county chase at speeds of more than 100 mph Saturday morning.

The chase, which lasted around 15 minutes but covered more than 25 miles of Interstate 75, ended with the woman uninjured and taken to a hospital for evaluation, said Michigan State Police Lt. David Kaiser.

“We’re not sure if this is a drug-related incident or a medical condition,” Kaiser said.

The chase began shortly after 11 a.m. Saturday, Jan. 14, on southbound I-75 near Buena Vista Township when a vehicle passed a trooper at speeds of more than 100 mph, Kaiser said.

The woman disregarded police attempts to signal her over and continued at high speeds until she reached the Vienna Road exit near Clio, Kaiser said.

She headed eastbound on the road, saw multiple police vehicles waiting there and then attempted to head back onto I-75, northbound this time, he said.

At the northbound I-75 on-ramp, a state trooper initiated a tactical driving maneuver, spinning the vehicle out and sending it into a light pole, then a ditch, enabling police to prevent the vehicle from driving off, Kaiser said.

Officers reported the woman was naked and not making sense when they apprehended her.

The woman, police officers and other drivers on the road were not injured, Kaiser said. Although there were near misses by the woman as she wove in and out of traffic at high speeds, Kaiser said she did not hit any vehicles.

At this time, police do not know the woman’s connection to the area. The incident remains under investigation.

Benzo Buddies approved taper destroys family

Tapered too soon?
« on: August 07, 2016, 01:34:14 pm »

[Buddie]

So earlier this summer I had posted a bunch about my wife and tapering a little too fast and eventually crashing which led on for weeks. Well, at the end of of all we wound back at her original dose of 2 mg a day of clonazepam. She stabilised, and pride wounded, we went on with life and started talking about tapering again when we thought things were OK enough. A few weeks back she transitioned to milk based titration but held her dose and then slowly we started to taper. Whopping thee days worth taking her from 2 mg to 1.97 and she seems to be OK but then some major life stressors came into play and before we knew it she had completely spiraled out of control. Did we start tapering too soon? Was she just not really stable enough to begin with and extra susceptible to stress and panic? It is so hard to tell but now she is walled up in the bedroom, fetal position, crawling out if her skin. I’m planning to call her doctor on Monday and am resigned he may bump up her dose, at which point we just hold for a while before thinking about titrating again.

I am beside myself. I am statring a new job next week and I know I can’t be so lax with my schedule as to try and be available for my wife when she is like this. Our daughter starts kindergarten right after that and I will have my hands full just taking care of the family. Its nuts, just nuts. Sorry to vent a little.

Wife joins pro-Scientology cult, stops having sex with husband – divorce looms

Angry Spouses
« on: March 19, 2016, 06:41:25 pm »

[Buddie]

So my spouse gets really frustrated with me….I would be too if I were him. I only make dinner 3 -4 days a week. I also have a low libido. I’m not the usual happy-go-lucky gal that I used to be before benzos. I just don’t feel well and this interferes with everything. All the energy that I have goes towards my job as a teacher. It takes everything in me to get through the day.

I keep telling him that I’m getting better. Unfortunately, he keeps getting frustrated. I don’t know what to do. Any recommendations? 

Kook eats Valerian Root, chugs coffee, watches “Nurse Jackie” and starts to shake all over while eating a $5.00 chicken sandwich

Time for a rant
« on: January 05, 2016, 09:09:23 am »

[Buddie]

So, the other day, Sunday my ears were still ringing so horrific that I decided to check out after the football game was over.
I decided to give things one last shot. I went to CVS and got a bottle of Valerian Root. It says not to take it if you are taking Xanax. I guess they don’t have severe tinnitus. It took about one day and the ringing became quite tolerable. The only problem was that then my brain didn’t know what to do with itself.
The Valerian Root gives me cravings and insomnia. But at least I’m not out in the garage with the car running.
So, I went out about 1:00AM this morning to get a cup of coffee for the cravings and started to watch a show called “Nurse Jackie.” It’s a Showtime production. Jesus. Every episode starts off showing her sniffing a line of Percocet and pulling off her wedding ring so she can cheat on her husband. And she also empty’s out packs of sweetnlow and fills them with crushed Percocet and brings them to the hospital where she works and dumps some in her coffee throughout the day. And at times during the show it pans into the bathroom showing her doing another line of Percocet. The show attempts to have her come off as cool, knowing it all with snappy answers and sarcastic comebacks. I actually found it offensive. Netflix has one – Californication. That glorifies drugs and alcohol abuse. Then you have – House MD. He’s cool because he’s addicted to Vicodin. You have TV producers making a ton of money glorifying addictions. I’m sitting here, it’s 4:00AM and I’m shaking all over eating a $5.00 chicken sandwich I purchased at a 24 hour gas station. How cool is that?
Then, my youngest daughter tells me that her husband is addicted to cocaine and left her for another woman. When I told her about my horrific tinnitus from trying to taper off Xanax she tells me that she is on a benzo “as needed.” I guess the apple doesn’t fall too far from the tree after all. I advised her TWICE to be careful and that that kind of medication can sneak up on you. And that she didn’t want to end up like me.
Valerian Root is supposed to make you drowsy. Drowsy is good. I like drowsy. Instead it makes me feel like I’m bouncing off the walls. I was hoping for drowsy.
That’s the end of my rant.
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