Multiple 'demons' finally catching up with 70 yr old.............help please!!
« on: April 01, 2017, 01:15:56 am »
At 70 yrs of age, I am now finally realizing that my ‘demons’ are catching up with me and am considering taking them on [or not?].
I’ll list them in no particular order and hope that someone could advise me on how to prioritise my attack, or even IF I should address them at my age.
Benzos………….Xanax for near 30 years as prescribed by my friendly family Dr to relieve my stress from going thru a nasty divorce and insomnia. original dosage was 1mg, but over the years it has increased to 3mg and I take them religiously at 8pm, wake up a little groggy, but can function after a cup of coffee.
Alcohol………….3 to 4 drinks in the evening [every evening] no binge drinking
Tobacco…………..1 pack daily for most of my life
My physical condition……………
As expected, not too good. Many aches and pains, fatigue, respiratory issues [early COPD?], muscle weakness, night sweats, agonizing night muscle cramps, tinnitus, and more…
My mental condition…………..
Confusion, paranoia, isolation from friends and family, anxiety, depression, suppressed anger, feelings of worthlessness, occasional suicidal thoughts, ‘brain fog’ and memory loss [both common symptoms of hepC]
And to complicate my situation even more………….I just cleared the virus hep C after going thru the latest treatment and altho my blood labs reveal a normal liver I feel worse than I did before Tx. My liver had deteriorated to the point of early cirrhosis and altho ‘they’ say I am cured, I don’t feel that way at all.
So, IF I choose to slay my demons, then how should I approach this task??. In what order should I prioritise?? or all at once??
I am unable to enter into any rehab center for a total detox as I have a family who needs me, but this forum has shown me that it is possible to do it on my own. Also, I have my suspicions about the ‘rehab industry’ as I did find a few on line and got the impression that they all wanted me to sign up and the ‘sales person’ got a commission off me and/or my insurance company. Seemed like a scam to me and they all said that ‘it couldn’t be done at home or with peer to peer support like this forum.
Thanks in advance for any input, suggestions, or advise.
and am I the oldest guy on this forum??
« Last Edit: April 01, 2017, 02:22:32 am by [Buddie] »