Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support
« on: August 22, 2018, 02:50:12 pm »
[Buddie]
Heading 18 months next week, but the burning nerves and chemical energy are absolutely horrible.
I am losing my mind and would like to smash everything in my room, because of the pain and anxiety.
I hope someone can give me some positive words today. I am fucking done after so long.
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Re: Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support
« Reply #1 on: August 22, 2018, 04:38:58 pm »
[Buddie]
I know exactly how you feel. I’m there to. It sucks watching everyone living so happy and normal and here we are in god awful agony. Then the assholes who prescribed us these poisons say we’re not in withdrawal because it has cleared our system. It ain’t fair. Just hold on tight. It’s all we can do. I’m nearly 26 months and don’t know how much longer I can do this. I guess just keep pushing.
Re: Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support
« Reply #2 on: August 22, 2018, 04:56:00 pm »
[Buddie]
Quote from: [Buddie] on August 22, 2018, 04:38:58 pm
I know exactly how you feel. I’m there to. It sucks watching everyone living so happy and normal and here we are in god awful agony. Then the assholes who prescribed us these poisons say we’re not in withdrawal because it has cleared our system. It ain’t fair. Just hold on tight. It’s all we can do. I’m nearly 26 months and don’t know how much longer I can do this. I guess just keep pushing.
Really not only them, but family and friends think we are crazy and put a label on our head.
“We are you lying on the couch the whole day”, “why are you not working” etc.
I remember the words from my doctor who said this medication will help you with your sleep issues (1,5 year back). Yeah right it has destroyed everything. As far as I know from you, you are also struggling really bad isn’t?
Re: Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support
« Reply #3 on: August 22, 2018, 05:10:20 pm »
[Buddie]
Struggling really bad. I’ve lost friends cuz they don’t understand. Coworkers won’t even stop to talk anymore. The statement that really pisses me off from people that don’t understand is “SNAP OUT OF IT” it can’t be that bad. Went to see a new doctor and when I explained what I was going through I got the same puzzled look and he wanted to refer me to a phych pill pusher. I told him the damage is done and I need to be left alone to heal. He strongly disagreed and offered a script for Paxil and Xanax. I got up and left. There’s my pissed off vent for the day. Let’s just keep pushing and eventually we will be writing our success stories. Hang on buddy!!!!
Re: Another day full of torture, at the end of my rope and looking for support
« Reply #4 on: August 22, 2018, 05:15:41 pm »
[Buddie]
I’m in there with you guys. I’m having a bad run on and off. Hope, I felt what you described wanting to scream or break things, it happened yesterday and I went what the hell was that I’m a pretty fun lovin guy. It may be the length of time given up to healing and not seeing a straight line improvement. No choice, move forward, stay clean.
