Dumb question - Sorry ahead of time
« on: June 27, 2016, 03:29:17 am »
So i’m well into my taper. (see sig)
I’ve been taking 7.5mg Valium since June 5, after a pretty fast crossover and taper, with a 2.5mg cut. The last few days (not including today for some reason) have been wonderful. I felt ‘normal’. I was ready to cut again, ahead of schedule. Today, well, it feels like I was ran over by a Mack truck, dunked in a gas tank, lit on fire, had my brain pulled through my ears, while having vertigo, and extreme tinnitus. It seriously feels like I made a rather large cut, when I haven’t.
So i’m thinking this… Since I’m feeling like crap any damn ways, would it be dumb to make a cut now, and just ride this wave through? My thinking is ‘why suffer for nothing’. At the same time, i’m like, I WANNA UPDOSE to get normal again. This is not an option though, as I refuse to have to cover ground I’ve already endured. I feel like i’m at a cross road where I can’t figure out if I wanna try to get ‘stable’ again, or just ride this wave down. My pdoc also thinks it’s ok to cut 2.5mg every couple weeks, (she’s made an exception to allow me to hold longer than normal ) And .5mg Xanax is 5mg of Valium. I know she’s not the sharpest tool in the shed, but she’s all I got access to, so I kinda gotta go with her on this.
Basically, is it better to suffer for something, than suffer for nothing? And, also, i know a slower taper is preferred, and a 5-10% cut is always best, but IF I could convince her of that, when I do ‘jump’ is it easier to actually jump with minor sxs’s? Sorry, i’m so scatter brained today. Normally I’m fine, and have been taking the bull by it’s horns on this, but today has been rough.