“I am typing this on my phone as I lie on my bathroom floor…”

This is ridiculous!
« on: September 01, 2019, 09:32:59 am »


“Here I am typing this on my phone as I lie on my bathroom floor, where I have found myself on numerous occasions over the past 12 months, pondering how the hell I can survive any longer.

I feel like I’ve reached the end this time, that I have no more left to give. My withdrawal has been no more or less brutal than anyone elses but my issues externally to this keep lining up and seem insurmountable at best. Perhaps it’s the benzo lies talking, perhaps not….who really knows what they’re thinking is rational or not in this situation?!

But right now everything feels too hard. Maybe this is a cry for help…knowing nothing and no-one can fix this though, essentially renders it useless. Errrrrrrmagod

I hope everyone whom finds themselves in a similar position right now finds the strength and courage to keep moving forward.
Love Peace and Taco Grease

Benzo Buddies ghouls gang up on member who suggested going to a doctor

Please people consider how you respond to others
« on: July 26, 2017, 05:27:46 pm »


Hi all,

I put some post up the other day as I was hopeful that I might find a therapist at McLean’s Hospital. However some found it a purpose to rail against doctors and everything else. I would like to ask you that if somebody is new to please take a more gentle attitude hair is how I feel today

Thank you for everybody who bashed this thread. I came on this board for help and I really thought that my post was benign.

I was attacked or I should say my post was attacked very viciously and it sent me into a conflict which really helped to worsen my withdrawal. I am already all alone people should really consider what they are saying to somebody especially if they are new to this board. I am in a headlong depression and am extremely alone I didn’t need this.


Re: Benzodiazepine Information Coalition's Website
« Reply #11 on: September 18, 2016, 01:06:13 am »


Thanks, […]! Good detective work! Did I miss it on the website? I thought perhaps there was some reason why I couldn’t find any specific names and biographies attached to this project. Why wouldn’t the names and bios be listed in the “About Us” section? Why wouldn’t they introduce themselves formally — especially if they’re asking for money? Am I missing something?
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Re: Benzodiazepine Information Coalition's Website
« Reply #12 on: September 18, 2016, 01:51:46 am »


I know Lapis, I thought the same thing. No, you didn’t miss it on the website. It’s not there. This really should be information on the website, but apparently you have to be a Facebook member to find out everything, like members names, 24 hr fundraising event, not sure what else. I’m a little disappointed by this. I don’t like Facebook. This is how I found it (in bold):

Quote from: [Buddie] on September 18, 2016, 12:46:02 am
I can’t seem to post the link, I think because it’s Facebook. I’m not a Facebook member, but if you Google “who runs the benzodiazepine information coalition”, a Facebook return comes up called, “Benzodiazepine Information Coalition – Timeline | Facebook. Click on that and the above quote comes from the comment section and you can click on “Jocelyn”. You’ll recognize her from the videos.

Cult of Shame

"Secret" Facebook Group
« on: April 12, 2016, 12:17:58 am »


Is there a “secret” benzo withdrawl group on Facebook? I see there are “closed” ones, but others can see if I become a member. Only a handful of people know about my addiction and I’d like to keep it that way. 

A cautionary tale

FaceTime support
« on: April 07, 2016, 09:36:26 pm »


With the new advent of phones would it be a thought of having some tactile support
A shoulder to cry on I know sometimes I need to talk to someone that can sympathize
And give sympathy

Re: FaceTime support
« Reply #1 on: April 07, 2016, 09:43:56 pm »


I feel the same, but that warning about giving out personal information is no joke. I am very cautious but had some awful experiences with unhinged people. One guy started calling my wife and me with death threats. Then one day he ambushed me with a gun. Luckily, my dog took him out.

Drug-seeking addict seeks cult’s help in finding new doc to supply pills

« on: February 25, 2016, 08:12:04 pm »


Anybody else struggling to get their doctor to believe them about their protracted benzo withdrawal? When I see my dr. he asks me how I’m doing but then gets irate when I tell him the truth. He insists that benzo withdrawals only last 7-14 days ( it’s been 5 months for me so far). He’s accused me of pill seeking even though I’ve never asked for medications, and has even told me “you’re better than this”. I’m so frustrated. How do you go about finding a Dr. with experience treating benzo withdrawal? I’m not looking for meds, just someone who acknowledges that I feel the way I feel.

« Reply #1 on: February 25, 2016, 08:20:14 pm »


WOW. Just wow. What’s wrong with your doctor? Arrogance? Ignorance? Lack of empathy for his suffering patients? I could go on. Is this the same doctor who gave you the benzos to start with and got you into this mess? Wasn’t HE better than that? I’m sorry you are dealing with such a doctor Katz. When I hear about doctors treating those of us struggling with benzo withdrawal in such an ignorant and callous manner, it makes my blood boil. IMO its time to find another doctor.


« Reply #2 on: February 25, 2016, 08:27:24 pm »


Yes, he’s the same Dr. that prescribed them to me 8 years ago.

« Reply #3 on: February 25, 2016, 08:28:48 pm »


HE IS AN IDIOT ! That is what is wrong with him !! You are 5 trillion times better than him. Don’t pay any attention. My dr. pretty much said same thing to me. Thank God we know better now. I would never go to him again.

« Reply #4 on: February 25, 2016, 08:29:10 pm »


‘Withdrawal’ means removal of the drug, so he’s seeing this as having been accomplished already. You’re left with the process of recovering from the temporary damage the benzo has done…the healing or recovery process, which is very symptomatic for those of us who find ourselves here searching for answers. Docs get caught up in semantics and lack of information on the length of time it takes for the GABA receptors to heal. And that’s how they let us down as patients, by not validating this.

Benzo-wise doctors are few and far between, most of us must go this on our own. It’s a shame that most of our doctors aren’t better educated about what benzodiazepines can do over time.

« Reply #5 on: February 25, 2016, 09:37:57 pm »


I had read somewhere that it was called “PAWS”, for Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome. Which most if not all Drs. who prescribe these meds have no real knowledge of the harm these meds cause. I too searched for some Dr. to help me and only got frustration from the ones I turned to. I tried Drs. and drug clinics and didn’t find much support. I just wanted someone to “listen” and be compassionate and encouraging and the only place that I have found the support I needed was here at BB. Sharing back and forth really helps, keep doin it. Keep reaching out. Thanks to everyone who has helped me.

Benzo Buddies member asks cult to brainwash parents

I need someone to talk to my parents about benzo wd..
« on: February 24, 2016, 02:14:09 pm »


Idk if its a good idea for maybe a moderator from this site to email my mom, ive been so out of alternatives that i need some help at least on getting my parents back to support me..

My crazy pdoc says i could never have wd from 2 weeks 5 mg ct ativan, even though i had been in protracted wd of klonopin before (i was once on chemical dependency, he should know chemical dependency is for life)

Now he says i have a personality disorder thats hysteria, and that all sxs im feeling (phyisical and mental) are psychological and being made by me. He says only therapy can treat me.

I needed someone with age, with good sources, who could rationally email my father or mother and explain to them that benzo wd exists, that im suffering, and that im not hysterical just bc some doc who got me addicted to benzos says i am when he cant deal with what hes done.

Thank you guys in advance, i really think this might work a lot for me..

Re: I need someone to talk to my parents about benzo wd..
« Reply #1 on: February 24, 2016, 03:37:45 pm »


Sorry you aren’t getting support from your family. Must be very frustrating and saddening. I cannot give much advice other than to show your parents everything on this site— the protracted members talk a lot about thier ongoing symptoms so that would be a good start. Have they ever looked at any of the online resources like the ashton manual? Pick out a few success stored written by bb members who suffered for a long time. I was never a sad or depressed person before benzos. I’ve been off of them for nearly 6 months and they still continue to ruin my life. It’s torment and the public, especially our family members, need to know this! You can also join beating benzos on Facebook if you need additional support. There has been many articles written by survivors that aim to educate families affected by benzo withdrawals.

Re: I need someone to talk to my parents about benzo wd..
« Reply #2 on: February 24, 2016, 03:43:36 pm »


Have your parents read this from an addiction doctor in Toronto. Your Brazilian psych should have his license revoked.


Re: I need someone to talk to my parents about benzo wd..
« Reply #3 on: February 24, 2016, 04:07:28 pm »


You kindled on the atvain ! Because u all ready had prorated withdrawal and then reinstated that’s why u feel worse . Your brain is like an elephants it remembers the bad pathways from before .
I did the same with only 1 week of zopiclone.

Re: I need someone to talk to my parents about benzo wd..
« Reply #4 on: February 24, 2016, 04:34:34 pm »


What does the therapy entail? I would be inclined to go with it so long as I didn’t have to take any drugs. Make that part of the agreement. At some point you might have to stop swimming against the current. Just bide your time in therapy.

Put the ball back in their court.

At the same time, unless you have life threatening symptoms, I wouldn’t be badgering your physician too much anymore. If you do what most of us do, you’ll go to the doctor and get tested for an ailment. Then you’ll be told the test come back fine. Sometimes they may say, hey you should take xyz medication for this symptom. A classic example of this is beta blockers for tachycardia that some of us get. That might be in your best interest to follow the physicians advice there.

Just stress that if they think therapy is fine, then a good therapist should be able to do this without psych drugs if the patient doesn’t want drugs.

Re: I need someone to talk to my parents about benzo wd..
« Reply #5 on: February 24, 2016, 05:51:55 pm »


I know you are desperate for some help […], but draw upon your own reserves and take the advice of those who posted. We wish for everyone to remain anonymous here on the forum and not share person information such as email addresses.

Try to get your parents to read, there is so much they can learn just by reading.


Author studying cult for new exposé?

Re: How Attempts to Distance from the Term Addiction Can Result in Harm
« Reply #40 on: January 16, 2016, 01:31:58 am »


You know I think everyone needs to keep these three points in mind before they engage with […] any further:

1. She has repeatedly stated she is well.
2. She has repeatedly stated she joined this forum because she believed that healed people were few and far between and she therefore had something to offer.
2. She has repeatedly stated she is writing a book on this very topic.

Therefore, the following conclusions can only be arrived at:

Everything she does and says on this forum is for the purposes of her book. She has made it abundantly clear that she doesn’t care what anyone else’s personal experiences are as long as they don’t align with her thoughts, beliefs and experiences. We are all just a means to an end.

People who are well get on with their lives, they don’t join a forum AFTER they are well. This forum’s primary purpose is for support getting off. Yes a whole lot of other things too.

She is by no means an expert and the advice she is so freely dolling out is not only toxic to me but toxic to everyone else. When she asks questions about you, she isn’t doing it to help you, she is doing it for her book. Opening yourself up to this will prove to be very damaging when you don’t know it’s her motive. She doesn’t care about you that is clear.

So please everyone for your sake stop engaging with her and her nonsense!!

PS – based on everything she has divulged, I question whether or not she ever had a problem with Benzo’s or Opiates to begin with.
« Last Edit: January 16, 2016, 01:37:31 am by [Buddie] »