Porn saves benzo addict’s life?

Porn ? Really need advice please
« on: August 27, 2017, 09:10:56 am »

[Buddie]

Hi enveryone.

I’m shamefull about it but i think its also a problem like another.

I was wondering if porn (like masturbating at least 2 Times a day...) can prevent the CNS from healing. Because I know that it takes energy and stimulates the CNS.

I’m in a rough period of my withdrawal at 2.5 months and i’m a afraid of quitting porn and be even more stressed and depressed, like just quitting another addiction…

I don’t know if I should stop because it hurts my CNS a lot or if I should consider quitting later… ?
My symptoms are actually: depression, anxiety, lethargy, weakness and other little things…

Thank you all
« Last Edit: August 27, 2017, 01:23:36 pm by [Buddie] »

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #1 on: August 27, 2017, 02:04:39 pm »

[Buddie]

Hey buddy,

Im willing to bet that it can be taxing on your CNS. And it definitely doesn’t help your practice for self control which can be very harmful for you and your mental health. I understand that this is something that is not easy to admit to people that you do, and asking for help in this area takes a lot of guts, so I totally commend you on this for taking the first step which is asking for helping. And remember that we all need help in one area or another. You are not the only one.

I’m a Christian, and I know that we are suppose to refrain from having religious talks on this forum, but I gotta tell you, if you give this area of weakness over to Jesus, you will be amazed at the victory you can have. I know I can’t overcome my problems by myself.

You may or may not believe, but it’s just some thought I figured I’d give you hat I know has helped me in the past, and he has changed my life.

Anyways, keep up the good fight, and we are here for ya!

Scrappy

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #2 on: August 27, 2017, 02:14:19 pm »

[Buddie]

I agree with Scrappy:)

Keep healing

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #3 on: August 27, 2017, 03:20:52 pm »

[Buddie]

You will find this strange, i’ve never been really religious, but since me beginning of post-benzo i go like every 2 weeks at church to pray and thanks God and Jesus to give me strengh.

I know that i need to quit this and this is a bad addiction, but it’s really worst since post-benzo, i really want to quit but it seems too hard for now… And my psychiatrist doesnt really help me !

So i’m asking myself if i need to quit now or later to heal better…

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #4 on: August 27, 2017, 04:18:18 pm »

[Buddie]

I don’t think the porn is necessarily going to stop healing. If you are exhausting yourself with any activity, that could not be good, cause you need to take care of yourself and give yourself the rest your body needs. This could also be your personal way of stress-relief, and maybe it’s helping? Maybe take a few days off and see.

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #5 on: August 27, 2017, 07:37:10 pm »

[Buddie]

……and risking carpal tunnel is just another worry you don’t need..

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #6 on: August 27, 2017, 08:19:49 pm »

[Buddie]

I don’t think watching porn will delay the healing, but stopping a porn addiction can cause nasty withdrawal symptoms on top of the benzo withdrawal symptoms. This will increase depression, anxiety, insomnia an fatigue. During porn withdrawal your dopamine and GABA levels will go down. During most dopaminergic drug/behaviour addiction withdrawals, the levels of corticotropin releasing factor and dynorphin increase. This will make you feel like shit, until the brain reaches homeostasis in kappa opioid and dopamine receptors. Some people even expierence porn PAWS.

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #7 on: August 27, 2017, 08:47:24 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m no expert but while withdrawing you should listen closely to your body and mind. If it seems to have adverse effects, then cut […]. Masterbation is not an addiction unless it controls you. Porn is another story. If you are addicted and go cold turkey, it could increase you symptoms. I’m not advocating anything here but there are some things to consider. Nothing to be ashamed of!
« Last Edit: August 27, 2017, 08:53:12 pm by [Buddie] »

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #8 on: August 28, 2017, 04:47:30 am »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on August 27, 2017, 02:04:39 pm
Hey buddy,

Im willing to bet that it can be taxing on your CNS. And it definitely doesn’t help your practice for self control which can be very harmful for you and your mental health. I understand that this is something that is not easy to admit to people that you do, and asking for help in this area takes a lot of guts, so I totally commend you on this for taking the first step which is asking for helping. And remember that we all need help in one area or another. You are not the only one.

I’m a Christian, and I know that we are suppose to refrain from having religious talks on this forum, but I gotta tell you, if you give this area of weakness over to Jesus, you will be amazed at the victory you can have. I know I can’t overcome my problems by myself.

You may or may not believe, but it’s just some thought I figured I’d give you hat I know has helped me in the past, and he has changed my life.

Anyways, keep up the good fight, and we are here for ya!

Scrappy

As a 25 year old woman who is engaged to the best man in the world and continued to have a rocking sex life all through withdrawal as well as look at porn a few times a month I can say it was my saving grace during the worst time in my life aka withdrawal from benzos.

[…] you are not shameful in the least bit, not sure if you are a man or a woman but watching porn is NOTHING to be ashamed of and unless it is causing you to not be able to have real relationships with people or if you feel it is an addiction in and of itself then don’t worry about it, it can help to release the major stress of benzo withdrawal and recovery, provide some temporary pleasure in your life and also just distract you.

Also highly recommend sex and connection with real people if you are up to it, withdrawal is a beast but it ends, I swear. DO NOT FEEL GUILTY OR ASHAMED OF YOUR SEXUALITY and you have zero reason to fear it will effect your CNS whether you quit or keep going with watching porn.

PS. Do you […] and don’t let anybody make you feel bad for how you choose to express your sexuality.

People who took the Ashton cure still sick years out compared to people who went to rehab / detox

Do we all really heal?
« on: May 10, 2017, 10:15:56 pm »

[Buddie]

I think the majority of members don’t fully recover..what do you think?…and for sure some symptoms are permanent…i think GI problems are permanent..i have yet to read any member that has claimed to be healed or written a success story..claim their GI problems were fully cured…and for sure Tinnitus is permanent…I’ve never seen not one member claim there Tinnitus has gone away for good..so that’s my theory..IMO the minority not the majority fully heal..what are your opinions?..and should people give people false hopes or be honest..i understand this is a support forum and that people wanna give hope of a full recovery to all the members who are struggling while tapering and those who are recovering..but no one knows who will fully heal..there are too many people still suffering 3,4,5,6 or more years still in withdrawal and suffering horrible symptoms..and they are short term, long term, c/t, fast taper, super slow taper all different methods of tapering…my heart goes out to all those who suffer for such a long duration.

Benzo Buddies advises suicidal member NOT to call 911

Calling 911
« on: July 18, 2016, 07:54:44 am »

[Buddie]

I cant do it anymore. Not sleeping for 3 months. Hardly any windows for me. Constant excruciating mental pain all day long. Im finished. 911 is being called. I cant function, i cant do anything right now. My body is burning, i cant sleep, and i have no desire for life feeling this way. Benzos have ruined my life and I’ll never be the same. I had hope last week w some windows popping up. Its not like im not trying. I exercise everyday walking 6-8 miles perr day. Im 44 years old and my life is over. All because i took a prescription and followed everyrhing i should have. Yes i had somexrescue doses but i really tried hard. I’m at as loss right now but i know il never ever recover or be the same happy Tim i used to be. Benzos ruined a great life and a good person. I now put my future in God’s hands.
« Last Edit: July 18, 2016, 08:15:55 am by [Buddie] »

Re: Calling 911
« Reply #7 on: July 18, 2016, 03:45:13 pm »

[Buddie]

911 will only give you more med, or put you in detox.

I also do not get windows. I know what your going through. Every dose I take, everything I do, I tell myself that no matter how I feel, I am healing. I take the med to keep the levels in my body consistent, not for relief. I exercise, because I know it helps the healing, and to get a break from being so focused on the shit storm.

Keep doing what your doing. If you have questions about your taper, go to those threads. There is much wisdom inhere.

And, WITHDRAW IS LIVING HELL, no matter what. The only way to do it, is to just do it.

A good option for you would be a cognitive therapist to give you support and teach you coping skills.