Porn saves benzo addict’s life?

Porn ? Really need advice please
« on: August 27, 2017, 09:10:56 am »

[Buddie]

Hi enveryone.

I’m shamefull about it but i think its also a problem like another.

I was wondering if porn (like masturbating at least 2 Times a day...) can prevent the CNS from healing. Because I know that it takes energy and stimulates the CNS.

I’m in a rough period of my withdrawal at 2.5 months and i’m a afraid of quitting porn and be even more stressed and depressed, like just quitting another addiction…

I don’t know if I should stop because it hurts my CNS a lot or if I should consider quitting later… ?
My symptoms are actually: depression, anxiety, lethargy, weakness and other little things…

Thank you all
« Last Edit: August 27, 2017, 01:23:36 pm by [Buddie] »

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #1 on: August 27, 2017, 02:04:39 pm »

[Buddie]

Hey buddy,

Im willing to bet that it can be taxing on your CNS. And it definitely doesn’t help your practice for self control which can be very harmful for you and your mental health. I understand that this is something that is not easy to admit to people that you do, and asking for help in this area takes a lot of guts, so I totally commend you on this for taking the first step which is asking for helping. And remember that we all need help in one area or another. You are not the only one.

I’m a Christian, and I know that we are suppose to refrain from having religious talks on this forum, but I gotta tell you, if you give this area of weakness over to Jesus, you will be amazed at the victory you can have. I know I can’t overcome my problems by myself.

You may or may not believe, but it’s just some thought I figured I’d give you hat I know has helped me in the past, and he has changed my life.

Anyways, keep up the good fight, and we are here for ya!

Scrappy

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #2 on: August 27, 2017, 02:14:19 pm »

[Buddie]

I agree with Scrappy:)

Keep healing

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #3 on: August 27, 2017, 03:20:52 pm »

[Buddie]

You will find this strange, i’ve never been really religious, but since me beginning of post-benzo i go like every 2 weeks at church to pray and thanks God and Jesus to give me strengh.

I know that i need to quit this and this is a bad addiction, but it’s really worst since post-benzo, i really want to quit but it seems too hard for now… And my psychiatrist doesnt really help me !

So i’m asking myself if i need to quit now or later to heal better…

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #4 on: August 27, 2017, 04:18:18 pm »

[Buddie]

I don’t think the porn is necessarily going to stop healing. If you are exhausting yourself with any activity, that could not be good, cause you need to take care of yourself and give yourself the rest your body needs. This could also be your personal way of stress-relief, and maybe it’s helping? Maybe take a few days off and see.

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #5 on: August 27, 2017, 07:37:10 pm »

[Buddie]

……and risking carpal tunnel is just another worry you don’t need..

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #6 on: August 27, 2017, 08:19:49 pm »

[Buddie]

I don’t think watching porn will delay the healing, but stopping a porn addiction can cause nasty withdrawal symptoms on top of the benzo withdrawal symptoms. This will increase depression, anxiety, insomnia an fatigue. During porn withdrawal your dopamine and GABA levels will go down. During most dopaminergic drug/behaviour addiction withdrawals, the levels of corticotropin releasing factor and dynorphin increase. This will make you feel like shit, until the brain reaches homeostasis in kappa opioid and dopamine receptors. Some people even expierence porn PAWS.

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #7 on: August 27, 2017, 08:47:24 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m no expert but while withdrawing you should listen closely to your body and mind. If it seems to have adverse effects, then cut […]. Masterbation is not an addiction unless it controls you. Porn is another story. If you are addicted and go cold turkey, it could increase you symptoms. I’m not advocating anything here but there are some things to consider. Nothing to be ashamed of!
« Last Edit: August 27, 2017, 08:53:12 pm by [Buddie] »

Re: Porn ? Really need advice please
« Reply #8 on: August 28, 2017, 04:47:30 am »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on August 27, 2017, 02:04:39 pm
Hey buddy,

Im willing to bet that it can be taxing on your CNS. And it definitely doesn’t help your practice for self control which can be very harmful for you and your mental health. I understand that this is something that is not easy to admit to people that you do, and asking for help in this area takes a lot of guts, so I totally commend you on this for taking the first step which is asking for helping. And remember that we all need help in one area or another. You are not the only one.

I’m a Christian, and I know that we are suppose to refrain from having religious talks on this forum, but I gotta tell you, if you give this area of weakness over to Jesus, you will be amazed at the victory you can have. I know I can’t overcome my problems by myself.

You may or may not believe, but it’s just some thought I figured I’d give you hat I know has helped me in the past, and he has changed my life.

Anyways, keep up the good fight, and we are here for ya!

Scrappy

As a 25 year old woman who is engaged to the best man in the world and continued to have a rocking sex life all through withdrawal as well as look at porn a few times a month I can say it was my saving grace during the worst time in my life aka withdrawal from benzos.

[…] you are not shameful in the least bit, not sure if you are a man or a woman but watching porn is NOTHING to be ashamed of and unless it is causing you to not be able to have real relationships with people or if you feel it is an addiction in and of itself then don’t worry about it, it can help to release the major stress of benzo withdrawal and recovery, provide some temporary pleasure in your life and also just distract you.

Also highly recommend sex and connection with real people if you are up to it, withdrawal is a beast but it ends, I swear. DO NOT FEEL GUILTY OR ASHAMED OF YOUR SEXUALITY and you have zero reason to fear it will effect your CNS whether you quit or keep going with watching porn.

PS. Do you […] and don’t let anybody make you feel bad for how you choose to express your sexuality.

People who took the Ashton cure still sick years out compared to people who went to rehab / detox

Do we all really heal?
« on: May 10, 2017, 10:15:56 pm »

[Buddie]

I think the majority of members don’t fully recover..what do you think?…and for sure some symptoms are permanent…i think GI problems are permanent..i have yet to read any member that has claimed to be healed or written a success story..claim their GI problems were fully cured…and for sure Tinnitus is permanent…I’ve never seen not one member claim there Tinnitus has gone away for good..so that’s my theory..IMO the minority not the majority fully heal..what are your opinions?..and should people give people false hopes or be honest..i understand this is a support forum and that people wanna give hope of a full recovery to all the members who are struggling while tapering and those who are recovering..but no one knows who will fully heal..there are too many people still suffering 3,4,5,6 or more years still in withdrawal and suffering horrible symptoms..and they are short term, long term, c/t, fast taper, super slow taper all different methods of tapering…my heart goes out to all those who suffer for such a long duration.

Benzo Buddies advises suicidal member NOT to call 911

Calling 911
« on: July 18, 2016, 07:54:44 am »

[Buddie]

I cant do it anymore. Not sleeping for 3 months. Hardly any windows for me. Constant excruciating mental pain all day long. Im finished. 911 is being called. I cant function, i cant do anything right now. My body is burning, i cant sleep, and i have no desire for life feeling this way. Benzos have ruined my life and I’ll never be the same. I had hope last week w some windows popping up. Its not like im not trying. I exercise everyday walking 6-8 miles perr day. Im 44 years old and my life is over. All because i took a prescription and followed everyrhing i should have. Yes i had somexrescue doses but i really tried hard. I’m at as loss right now but i know il never ever recover or be the same happy Tim i used to be. Benzos ruined a great life and a good person. I now put my future in God’s hands.
« Last Edit: July 18, 2016, 08:15:55 am by [Buddie] »

Re: Calling 911
« Reply #7 on: July 18, 2016, 03:45:13 pm »

[Buddie]

911 will only give you more med, or put you in detox.

I also do not get windows. I know what your going through. Every dose I take, everything I do, I tell myself that no matter how I feel, I am healing. I take the med to keep the levels in my body consistent, not for relief. I exercise, because I know it helps the healing, and to get a break from being so focused on the shit storm.

Keep doing what your doing. If you have questions about your taper, go to those threads. There is much wisdom inhere.

And, WITHDRAW IS LIVING HELL, no matter what. The only way to do it, is to just do it.

A good option for you would be a cognitive therapist to give you support and teach you coping skills.

Benzo Buddies maniacs demand hallucinating Ashton devotee keep tapering

Paranoia
« on: July 07, 2016, 09:34:17 pm »

[Buddie]

Hello everyone!
I need all the help and advice I can get about this topic. It’s really embarrassing for me to talk about, but it’s a real serious issue and it’s causing severe pain in my life. I was on clonazapam .5 mg 1x a day for 5 years for anxiety and insomnia. I am currently off of it and am going through a Nasty withdrawal. I got off of it because I noticed that things were getting bad for me. Anxiety was getting worse, insomnia would happen even when I took the pill sometimes, I developed ocd on this drug. And this is the topic I want to discuss..the ocd. I have/developed irrational fears of thinking someone is going to kill me. It can be anyone, if my mom just yells at me I think she is going to kill me. Literally. If my brother is sad, I think he’s going to kill us. If I don’t do my check..there is someone in my room going to hurt me. Now that I haven’t taken clonazapam
For a few days it’s getting worse. I did do a taper off of this drug. I realize I’m probably going through withdrawal, but I seriously can’t sleep at night not only because of the withdrawal, but because of these rediculous thoughts. My mind can’t calm itself down anymore, so when a thought comes in…regardless of how nuts it is..it sticks and my body reacts in fear and panic. I’m struggling with insomnia because I can’t get these crazy thoughts out. Last night I thought there were bombs placed in my room. I know I’m sleep deprived and being on clonazapam I haven’t gotten good sleep in 5 years…but how can I control these thoughts. Please talk some sense into me. I’m falling apart. I’m 23 years old, and going through a lot.

Re: Paranoia
« Reply #1 on: July 09, 2016, 12:23:33 am »

[Buddie]

Hi […], you did the right thing and stopped taking the pills. I cannot say they gave me OCD but I do know the bad thoughts are part of this. I have all kinds of crazy intrusive thoughts and we just have to tell ourselves the reality of the situation. Like your mom or your brother probably are not going to kill you, well I don’t know them maybe they will, just a little joke. That is beside the point my craziest thoughts are around suicide and I have to tell myself I’m never going to go through with it so why do I keep telling myself I will. I cannot answer that question myself. But I’m sure it is all part of this difficult thing we are going through.

Re: Paranoia
« Reply #2 on: July 09, 2016, 06:06:35 am »

[Buddie]

You were tapering too fast. I would go back to .5 and try again tapering much slower. OCD feeds on anxiety and so once you will go back to .5 you will have relief. It may take a few times until you learn how your body reacts to the withdrawal so don’t look at this as a failure. I now gone back to my original dose again because I tapered too fast. Everyone has different way they react to withdrawal and take different time to taper off. You need to give yourself time and keep trying.

Cult members unable to work due to brainwashing

I am in a predicament
« on: February 04, 2016, 04:54:06 am »

[Buddie]

Hi guys

So I am up to 11% on my taper, still having withdrawal such as anxiety, paranoia and obsessive thoughts.

My gp has signed me off work and will not sign me back on until he is assured that my symptoms are under control.

Work are making noises about me returning to work or be dismissed under health grounds

I am a member of the union and am waiting for them to call me back to advise

All of this is just making me feel worse and constantly increasing my anxiety

I feel under pressure to go back even though I know I’m not ready, I have a very stressful job and at the moment I struggle to cope with normal day to day stresses.

Any idea how I can go forward and stop worrying so much about losing my job

Many thanks

Re: I am in a predicament
« Reply #1 on: February 04, 2016, 10:38:21 am »

[Buddie]

[…],
I understand your condition as well. I have experienced it myself. I almost fainted when my manager called me for some regular scrum meeting. He obviously was curious with my condition and I was marked as ‘sick person’ by team. Since I cannot maintain my job at that time, I decided to resign, unfortunately.

Sorry that I don’t have any idea what’s the best for your situation. But if I you still can maintain your anxiety at working place, I suggest you to prepare some countermeasure when you are in anxious condition.

In my case, my pdoc suggest me to prepare some plastic or paper bag in case of sudden panic or anxiety attack. I asked to breath from that bag so I can obtain more Co2 to avoid hyperventilation.

My I ask when you drink your medicine daily? Since I move to my new environment, I decide to let myself suffer at night rather than at working place, so I move my medicine intake time at morning before going to work, later cut it into 2, and divide it for morning intake and night intake.

Wish you get better soon.
Contiki

Re: I am in a predicament
« Reply #2 on: February 04, 2016, 03:38:14 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi:

I had a very similar situation and had to end up signing off from work, due to my benzo/other psych drugs problems. But they were very nice and gave me 5 years of my full salary. Now I am ready and willing to work outside of my home, but it has been very difficult for me to find a job, as I am not young. There’s an old NA motto that I go by to get rid of any anxiety: You can’t change other people. You can only change yourself. AKA the ball is in their court right now. So pls try not to future trip. Also, the lower the dose you are on the smaller the cuts have to be. I think, right now, you may want to slow down a bit or try liquid titration.

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Re: I am in a predicament
« Reply #3 on: February 05, 2016, 12:24:41 am »

[Buddie]

I assume you’re in the US since you mentioned a union. Did you formally go on fmla? Under that you are protected from being fired. They have to give you a job back, it just doesn’t have to be the job that you had. That’s what you need to decide on. Can you handle giving up your current job? You can’t blame an employer if they need to backfill your position if you have been out for some time. Is there a way to negotiate with them? Maybe work half time or work from home? I have a very stressful job too but I was counseled to try the up front approach with my managers to work out a solution that worked for them and me. Everything worked out well in the end.