This can't be normal losing hope! 7 month wave that is getting worse! Help
« on: June 11, 2017, 10:01:09 pm »
Ok I’m really getting scared now and I don’t know what to do? Please don’t be made at me I know I keep talking about these symptoms but they really are continuing to get worse and today even more so than yesterday it hit yet another level of increased severity.
I woke up this morning to a new level of suffering that’s even worse than the last 3 weeks combined and I even tried to get up and shave and take a shower and go to church and that was a challenge in and of itself.
I somehow made it to church although I don’t even remember hardly any of it the pain physically and emotionally has been so severe but I made it. Sat in my car for I don’t know how long then tried to stand up and go into the church and could hardly walk the pain pressure burning numbness and physical symptoms in my head were so severe I couldn’t think or hardly stand up I was extremely disoriented and was kinda going in and out of reality it seemed almost I guess what it would feel like having a concussion and severe migraine at the same time. My nervous system was so bad and the anxiety so high I was literally shaking very nauseous light headed dizzy and couldn’t breath and the horrible intrusive and racing thoughts were on so loud I couldn’t think or hardly talk or keep my head up.
I made it into the church and had to set down immediately and could only lay my head down on my lap and couldn’t even focus on what the minister was saying. At the end of church my mom wanted me to come up for prayer and she had to help me up there I couldn’t stand up or walk on my own and after the church prayed for me I just feel on my moms shoulder and started crying and couldn’t move and thought I was gonna pass out.
We we went to eat after church and it was all I could do to get through the meal and had to come straight home and came straight in my room and feel out on the bed. I guess I feel asleep for a little bit but now I’m awake again and don’t wanna be cause this is crazy and the symptoms are so severe now I can’t hardly function at all and I feel like with the physical symptoms my brain and body are completely shutting down and the emotional symptoms are so severe I feel like I’m having a complete psychotic breakdown and losing all sense of reality.
I don’t understand how and why these symptoms continue to get more and more severe but I’m losing it and I can’t handle anymore this is crazy.
I haven’t changed anything with the Zoloft now in 3 months and I’ve heard about the 6 month wave that comes with benzo WD and many I’ve talked to have had a major increase or uptick in symptoms between 6-9 months before improving but this is out of control and it’s getting to the point I can’t handle it it’s so bad.
Its been over 3 almost 4 weeks since this wave hit and it’s. It getting any better just worse. It was so bad this week that I ended up in the ER had to call out one day of work and left early one day and if this continues like this I want survive and I for sure want be able to work.
This can’t be normal and I’m literally hanging on by a thread. In the last 3 weeks I’ve went from bad and coping the best I could to the worst symptoms I’ve ever experienced with this and not being functional at all and feeling like I’m losing my mind.
There is so much pressure pain burning and numbness in my head I can’t walk or talk or stand up for any length of time o feel physically sick and nauseous and like I’m gonna pass out can’t even hardly hold my head up. And the emotional symptoms are so severe the confusion, DP/DR, racing and intrusive thoughts that I really am don’t having a complete psychological breakdown losing it and don’t know how much more I can take?