Benzo Buddies cult hero Parker goes back on benzos, panic ensues

Re: Parker new post?
« Reply #4 on: July 13, 2020, 03:39:21 pm »

[Buddie]

I think there is still a lot of confusion for BB members. Parker posted that she reinstated and this was placed in the Success Stories?? I know success stories have to be approved by admin. This is very confusing.

Reinstatements do happen but have been posted in an appropriate section. This was upsetting to say the least for many members. A brief explanation would be appreciated. Success stories are the only hope many people cling to. What happened here?

Re: Parker new post?
« Reply #9 on: July 13, 2020, 06:28:27 pm »

[Buddie]

I wish her well too.

But this just goes to show that not everyone who suddenly disappears from the forum goes on to heal. I’ve always wondered why someone as active, influential and devoted to the forum and people on here as Parker would suddenly disappear without telling ANYONE why she left, What happened, etc. If you look back at Parker’s posts before she “disappeared” she was literally posting multiple posts a day. For someone to just up and leave without coming back at all, something must have happened or they reinstated. People kept telling folks on here “well healed people don’t hang out on this forum anymore they move on with their lives”. That certainly isn’t the case here, and provably many other cases out there.

I’m glad she came back and told us. It’s a little odd she posted In the success story section, but at least now we know what happened.

Re: Parker new post?
« Reply #10 on: July 13, 2020, 07:16:44 pm »

[Buddie]

Oh, so that is why I couldn’t find it. Thought was going mad….
I am glad she is ok.
If I could reinstate and stay on I would.
I should have done that in December 2017 when tried and it still worked before damaged was caused to muscles and joints instead of listening to ppl on here saying not to and drugs are bad etc.
They were the right thing for me.
Now can’t take anything and body literally crushing itself.

Re: Parker new post?
« Reply #12 on: July 13, 2020, 07:29:11 pm »

[Buddie]

Well the truth here is that she did not go on to heal. That’s what I mean by people on here making assumptions about people leaving and healing. False reassurance.

Re: Parker new post?
« Reply #22 on: July 20, 2020, 01:23:52 am »

[Buddie]

It’s just completely bizarre to me that someone who KNOWS how horrific Wd is and how long the suffering is would willingly put the poison in their body again. I’d die before I physically put another pill in my mouth. It’s different if the wd wasn’t as bad or long, but Parker was on here for like 7 years..

It’s like someone who almost died of peanut allergies would risk eating it again.

Re: Parker new post?
« Reply #27 on: July 24, 2020, 10:19:33 pm »

[Buddie]

I don’t think Parker healed and then went on drugs after. She was 32 months off and still bad.

Years wasted tapering the Benzo Buddies way only to realize you’ll never feel normal again without psych drugs

Skeptical About Healing
« on: June 12, 2019, 04:50:52 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m really tired of feeling skeptical that I’ll ever get better. I’m 14.5 months off now, and over 12 months off all alcohol.

I’m dealing with intrusive thoughts, anger at my family for no reason, depression, anhedonia, fear, and the list goes on. I have burning in my calves still and facial pressure.

I’m just worried I’m never going to feel normal again without trying other psych drugs. I’ve done everything I can. I drink lots of water. I have been exercising daily (I am still very active). I get between 10,000 to 17,000 steps a day and do at least a half hour of cardio. I notice no immediate benefit from working out. I don’t really notice it later in the day either. I eat better, for the most part. No other drugs. No alcohol. I have recently tried caffeine again and notice it doesn’t hurt or help me at all.

I get constant reassurance from a few people who have gotten better that I will get better but it doesn’t help and I need to be hearing it all day. But I can’t do that all day. I’m just over this. Want to feel normal and enjoy things again.

Cult nerves on edge as kooks realize their heroes never recovered

Whatever Happened to Matt Samet?
« on: May 16, 2018, 05:01:39 am »

[Buddie]

I am well into my 5th year and no end in sight. I don’t get windows, just alleviated symptoms for short periods of time. I “get” this is going to take a very long time. However, I follow the long term protracted users to give me guidance and I’m just not seeing it. Matt Samet’s last post in Mad in America was from 2015.

Resolution for the New Year: Lay Down the Burden of Proof

Does anyone know of he has healed? Also, Jack Hobson-Dupont has not reported a success story. Any news of him?

Re: Whatever Happened to Matt Samet?
« Reply #1 on: May 20, 2019, 07:33:19 am »

[Buddie]

I’m going to assume that 6 years later Matt samet has not recovered from his setback. Very disheartening. I do hope he is okay.

Benzo Buddies member: site 90% negative doom and gloom

Questions for those who are healed? A more positive section to add?
« on: November 05, 2018, 01:26:35 pm »

[Buddie]

Is there a specific place that members can post questions SPECIFICALLY to those who have healed?
I have not been coming here for support/encouragement as much lately because (for obvious reasons – nobody is to blame) it’s all VERY negative and gloom and doom here.
Why is that? Well, because 90% of the people here are suffering. Everyone wants to (understandably) be heard and discuss their journey/symptoms/suffering.
However, the encouragement from success stories and the sprinkling of responses from those who are healed are TRULY a blessing.
For me though, if I post a question about a symptom I have and get 12 responses from people who are “2 years out” or “36 months out” and still suffering from that symptom, it tends to throw me into a panic. So I don’t post or ask much anymore.
And if I go into a forum specifically for my “symptom” (for example: anxiety)… even just the topics that are listed can throw me into a wave for days.
It would be AMAZING to have a positive place besides success stories to get support and encouragement.
And I would hope to think that once my healing is complete I would participate in this positive section and encourage others through their journey as much as I possibly could.

Thoughts?

Benzo Buddies members feel worse after long drug tapers

5 years off
« on: October 10, 2018, 07:52:30 pm »

[Buddie]

I will be five years off everything December 4. It is very disheartening to be this far out and have so many symptoms. I’ve been in a wave since the end of May of this year. The worst symptom that I have is air hunger, dizziness, anxiety, DADP as well. And just when I thought it was going to be OK my head has a tremor. Can anyone on this board relate to me this far out? And for those of you that are not as far off as I am please don’t think that my story is going to be your story. I’m Looking for support.

Re: 5 years off
« Reply #1 on: October 10, 2018, 09:18:15 pm »

[Buddie]

I have severe breathing, fatigue and mental problems now. How many windows a week were you having before this wave and have you taken any other meds or supplements during this time

Re: 5 years off
« Reply #2 on: October 10, 2018, 11:32:34 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on October 10, 2018, 09:18:15 pm
I have severe breathing, fatigue and mental problems now. How many windows a week were you having before this wave and have you taken any other meds or supplements during this time

I was feeling good end of May n boom!! No new meds or supplements at all!!!

People who joined Benzo Buddies not healed seven years later

Difficult topic - potential for trigger
« on: June 05, 2018, 05:36:07 pm »

[Buddie]

Why are there people still not healed 3,4,5,6,7+ years out? Is there a common theme to this?

I just don’t understand it when the “stats” show that everyone heals between 2-3 years at the latest from the studies that were done. More than that, how do these people who haven’t “healed” this far out manage to live? Are they now working or is someone supporting them financially? I just don’t get how people can simply exist with an illness like this without going completely nuts. Maybe I’m just a lightweight because I am just (and I mean just) getting through each day now at 19/20 months.

Re: Difficult topic - potential for trigger
« Reply #1 on: June 05, 2018, 09:14:02 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on June 05, 2018, 05:36:07 pm
Why are there people still not healed 3,4,5,6,7+ years out? Is there a common theme to this?

I just don’t understand it when the “stats” show that everyone heals between 2-3 years at the latest from the studies that were done. More than that, how do these people who haven’t “healed” this far out manage to live? Are they now working or is someone supporting them financially? I just don’t get how people can simply exist with an illness like this without going completely nuts. Maybe I’m just a lightweight because I am just (and I mean just) getting through each day now at 19/20 months.

Hello […], I think there are many reasons why some of us are taking many years to recover. i am obviously one of them. It may be genetics, underlying health conditions, many complicating factors, sometimes it is very difficult to know. I am lucky, I am 63 and retired, I have a pension and I am okay financially. Not everyone is so fortunate. I am sure you are not a lightweight. For me, I got through it hour by hour, suffering was intolerable, but nevertheless, I got through it. I have very supportive friends but not much in the way of family support. BenzoBuddies was my lifeline for a very very long time. I used many different strategies to distract … as best as I could. But basically I existed ..

None of the stats we have are robust but I think we generally accept that most people will recover in a couple of years and a minority will take longer and a small minority will take even longer. It is important to remember that even when we take quite a number of years to recover we generally improve as I have done so although the first few years were hellish, that does not mean the next few years will also be hellish. I am still not recovered but I am not suffering .. that is all over. I am no longer existing but I am not living either .. but I can cope perfectly well now. Of course I would much rather be living a normal life.

So as much as you are suffering right now, it will get easier. It is extremely unusual for that not to happen. I only know a handful who seem to be getting worse and I have been around for a long time and that may be due to other health issues, I don’t know.

I have never been particularly well so I have had a whole lifetime of coping with illness and disability and that has probably helped me to cope, others will not have that experience to draw on if they have been used to good health.
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Re: Difficult topic - potential for trigger
« Reply #2 on: June 05, 2018, 10:17:11 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on June 05, 2018, 05:36:07 pm
Why are there people still not healed 3,4,5,6,7+ years out? Is there a common theme to this?

I just don’t understand it when the “stats” show that everyone heals between 2-3 years at the latest from the studies that were done.

I am not aware of any study that says that everyone heals within 2-3 years. MOST people certainly heal within that timeframe, but it Ashton herself is pretty clear that this isn’t the case for everyone.

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More than that, how do these people who haven’t “healed” this far out manage to live? Are they now working or is someone supporting them financially?

I am 7 1/2 years off and have seen significant improvement in some symptoms, others not so much so. I was able to start a business when I was about 3 years off and I have recently moved back out on my own again. Every day is still a challenge but somehow I manage to hold it all together.

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I just don’t get how people can simply exist with an illness like this without going completely nuts. Maybe I’m just a lightweight because I am just (and I mean just) getting through each day now at 19/20 months.

You aren’t a lightweight, you are just projecting. MOst people feel better and become more functional with time, so you will probably be better off in a few years.