OCD rages out of control after brainwashed kook stops psych meds

Re: Summer Jumpers Support Group!
« Reply #30 on: June 08, 2017, 09:34:16 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi all,

I’m currently on 0.25MG of Klonopin and 25MG of trazodone for anxiety and OCD. I’ve cut down to the 0.25MG about 2 months ago and want to get off completely by the end of the summer and be symptom free!

I’m thinking of doing a cut to 0.125MG, holding that for a couple weeks, then either jumping entirely or cutting again down to 0.0625MG for a couple weeks, then jumping.

I’ve been on the klonopin for a total of 8 months.

Re: Summer Jumpers Support Group!
« Reply #31 on: June 08, 2017, 09:50:06 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi and welcome!
I made cuts in the same fashion that you did. You have dissolve tabs?
What are you doing with your trazodone? Are you cutting it or leaving it?
How have your OCD symptoms been? Mine are a bit revved up. I do a lot of repeating thoughts/sentences in my head until they “sound right”. Plus some weird twitching etc occasionally in public

Another Ashton failure: Nine months off benzos and jerking around like a fish out of water

Never a 100% window... Normal?
« on: June 10, 2016, 11:40:51 pm »

[Buddie]

I’m 9.25 months off and have yet to experience a 100% window. For me, a 100% window would be to sleep an adequate amount of hours and to NOT have any Hypnic jerks while trying to fall asleep. My best window to date was a night of 7 hours sleep, but still had a few little jerks going to sleep and a lot once I woke and tried sleeping again. Never a day without my worst symptom and feel like I may never be rid of them… Especially since I’m experiencing relentless jerks 75% of the time, maybe getting up to 4, sometimes 5 hours each night.

Anyway, I’m hoping I’m not alone in having never ending horrible symptoms… Without a single day off! Can anyone relate? Especially if you are as far out as me? Hopefully ill hear from those who were like me, but are now getting big windows!

Is the need to hurt someone really a benzo withdrawal symptom? Involuntary yelling? Laughing hysterically?

involuntarily yell out loud and symptoms such seazure
« on: April 07, 2016, 12:19:57 pm »

[Buddie]

I’ve calculated with doses of xanax, I’ve used 9 years for social phobia and panic attacks. I used other drugs from the group of antidepressants, antipsychotics and antiepileptics, on end off. Before every social situation, I increased the dose, because of the phobia and panic which is always held in front of others, and I would be ashamed. At first it took 2 mg xanax at once to come to 20mg 2 years ago. Call me a drug addict now, it would be too much for me. I’ve never worked out hedonistic initiative, only I could function. Before my last tablet, I used Prozac and Eftil, antiepileptik. Both I threw in a month. Last year, before the jump when I’m home I used 2.5 mg, at once and when I expose social situation 5-6mg at once, continuous up and down.If I was alone at home,I am not at all neaded xanax,but would immediately arise widhdrowal. All 9 years, I used High doses at once-lower doses of 3-4mg at once,I’m in social situations-I’m alone at home, continuous up and down. I reduced xanax 26 days. Today I am 6 months and 2 days off. From the first day I have seazure, but I’m awake. Aggressive throwing body, with loud involuntary yelling,these attacks lasted 6 hours,rage, screaming into a pillow, cry, but it sounds like laughing hysterically…PLEASE HELP ME..Is this normal?Is this seazure or weight widhrowal???

Re: involuntarily yell out loud and symptoms such seazure
« Reply #1 on: April 07, 2016, 01:18:29 pm »

[Buddie]

I can not stand this anymore, every day I have these attacks. Sweating, the need to break something or hurt someone, I’m falling off the beds to muscle spasms and shaking. When it passes the rest of the day and night I still yell- twitch-yell. As if someone had turned me into electrisity work- does not work. This symptom is here for more than 3 months. A violent throwing body and head over 56 days and night. One month ago I shook my head to the left to the right like I was at rock concert. It was hard for me all this to tell. I barely wrote this. I can barely walk, I do not talk to anybody, because of the sensitivity to sound and I have all the possible symptoms on list and more. I’m new to the forums and i’m looking for support and advice. Would help me gabapentin? Are they real seazure, What if we damages the brain? Thanks in advance everyone. God help us!

“SPIDER-MAN I SENSE DANGER”

What's the point of holding on?
« on: December 04, 2015, 11:26:09 am »

[Buddie]

What’s the pointing of existing when nothing is getting better? I am so sick and tired of this and there’s nothing anybody can write to make me feel better. Sick and tired of this hell. I didn’t sign up for this, I am tired, tired, tired. It’s all temporary. Yeah, right. I hate this, hate this, hate this.

Maybe I should just stop taking the stupid pills and whatever happens, happens…..

Kooky Monday: Cult member claims thirteen doses of Klonopin, spread over a month and a half, caused head to jerk about like Linda Blair in the Exorcist

Will my head jerks and twitches eventually go away?
« on: January 18, 2016, 07:43:34 am »

[Buddie]

I’m 27 days benzo free hallelujah! I was taking a 0.5 mg dose of clonozepam every 2-3 days for a month and a half in all I think I only dosed like 13 times in a month and a half.Im still having head jerks and muscle twitches/spasms.Do these go away and is the head jerking a common side affect?Because when I start having my moments of doubt I’ll be thinking it’s anything from MS to CNS damage even though this didn’t start happening until day 7 off clonozepam. Just really frightened about the head jerks will they eventually go away and is it most likely the side affects of not having the clonozepam in my system?

80,000+ lurkers watching freak show?

 

Re: How many members are here on BB?
« Reply #8 on: Yesterday at 03:43:47 AM »

Colin

Hi,

816 unique posters to the forum from 2012-06-28 to 2012-07-28.

The 90-9-1 principle suggests that there are 99 lurkers to every individual poster. Of course, there will be much variability in the ratio between communities, but there are always far more lurkers than posters.

Re: How many members are here on BB?
« Reply #9 on: Today at 06:23:51 PM »

Carol (geddeca)

Wow 99 to 1.
I would never have believed that.
Once I found BB I believe that I joined up right away.
I was so relieved to find out what happened to me and to connect with others.
i posted a question on the same day and somebody answered me.

It was a miracle to me.
Thank you again Colin.
Carol