I really can’t take this paranoia anymore it’s ruining my life
« on: January 08, 2021, 03:46:36 am »
Hi everyone. I hope that you all are hanging in there tonight. I am not. The paranoia, which has been probably my worst symptom, is just getting worse and worse. I went to my girlfriend’s house last night after not having seen her for a week. Every little thing she said I felt like she was messing with me, criticizing me and trying to control me and judging me. I ended up getting upset with her over a game of cards. I felt like such a jerk. I don’t feel any love towards her and she just irritates me yet I don’t believe her when she says she loves me and I’m afraid she’s gonna leave me any second. It sucks because just a few days ago all I felt was how much I missed her and loved her. These emotional roller coasters make me feel like I’m bipolar. I feel so scared of everyone. I feel like I don’t wanna be around anyone because I’m so paranoid that everyone thinks I’m crazy or messed up. I feel unlovable and utterly worthless, and like I don’t understand how anyone could wanna have anything to do with me. When she tells me she loves me or friends tell me they love me I just think that they’re full of shit. I don’t believe anyone and I have no feelings except for anger and fear and deep sadness. I don’t feel like I’m in my body ever. I feel like I’m watching myself from up above. What have I become?
Benzo Belly help
« on: October 24, 2020, 06:50:26 pm »
Will be down to 1 and 1/2 V on 11/02/2020. Suddenly, I’m having symptom added that has me bloated. Anyone else have this and if so, what did you do about it? Any suggestions guys?
Re: Benzo Belly help
« Reply #1 on: November 18, 2020, 12:38:56 am »
Bloated as in intestinal flatulence? Yeah, that’s part of Benzo Belly. Avoid fried foods, legumes, cruciforus vegetables (Broccoli, Cauliflower, etc) – basically any food that can cause gas buildup. Buy GasX, Phazyme or generic Simethicone capsules or chewables to relieve buildup. Constipation usually is in tandem with this, so you might need Miralax, Metamucil, Sennakot, generic versions of these, or something to get bowels moving. Eat simple foods, avoid seasonings. Oatmeal, bananas, potatoes, cooked carrots, sweet potatoes, rice. plain chicken, fish, as examples.
Will accidently getting dog medication on skin cause damage?
« on: May 27, 2020, 06:48:16 am »
Was looking at the active ingredient of Frontline(isoprinil). It is used to treat fleas, lice, heartworm, mites, and who knows what else. Apparently it affects GABA receptors and that stuff has a half life of half a month.. Has anyone gotten that stuff on their skin? Were you alright?
Re: Do people here have difficulty regulating body temperature.
« Reply #3 on: October 10, 2019, 12:57:15 am »
Yes. I struggled to keep my body temp between 95-103 in the beginning. If I went out in the cold it would start to drop below 95 very quickly like in minutes. If I turned on the heat in the car my temp would start climbing. The sky was the limit. I carried a thermometer at all times for safety. My temperature would go to dangerous extremes quickly. I once had a 106 fever from driving in a hot car. I basically had to try to be in a 73 degree room at all times.
No problems with it currently. That symptom is gone.
« on: June 12, 2019, 06:34:38 pm »
I just got out of a terrible set back from off gassing from furniture.
A specialist told me to wash my clothing in Enviroklenz laundry enhancer to remove the Chems.
I am not worse than before from breathing in Mag Oxide and Zinc Oxide.
It says mag stays in the system for 27 hrs. So I read its a GABA acting metal? Now this means im in the thick of it again?
« on: May 09, 2019, 01:28:17 pm »
Please help me design a shake that will help my extreme benzo withdrawal. I’m having trouble getting solid food down. High carb stuff makes my condition worse. I desperately need something to decrease the electricity in my brain. I threw some broccoli and celery and spinach in the blender this morning but couldnt hold it down. Disgusting. So i added some banana. But its got alot of sugar since its a carb. Also idk if i should add a few blueberries. Any suggestions? I cant tolerate cbd oil. And I’m not touching anticonvulsants with 10 foot pole. Let food be the medicine. There’s gotta be something that’ll help me.
Anyone with a problem in hair dyeing?
« on: May 04, 2019, 07:41:53 pm »
I dye my hair for 30 years and I never had a problem.
Now, whatever dye I use, immediately after my head is filled with little pimples.
I went to a dermatologist but did not find a skin problem,
just told me not to dye my hair, but I do not want it.
Is there a possibility that this is a w/d symptom?
Trying to quit after 22 years
« on: October 17, 2018, 08:31:26 am »
Hi. I was referred to this site by a health professional. I was prescribed 4 Mg./day of Alprazolam (Xanax) in 1996. I was told Xanax was not addictive. Found out otherwise the hard way. I tried to do a very slow taper off the Xanax 10 years ago. During a span of 2 years, I managed to go from 4 Mg./day to a small speck of a 1 Mg. Xanax per day. When I stopped taking that small speck, I went “insane” and ended up in the psych ward. The Dr. at the hospital switched me from 4 Mg. Xanax/day to 4 Mg. Clonazepam/day. I’m going to try to quit the Clonazepam and am hoping the other members of this site could give me some advice or tips on what to expect and how to cope without meds. I want my old self back, if that’s even possible after 22 years of taking such a high dose. I’m afraid I have permanent brain damage from these truly horrible pills. Hoping for some good advice here!