Re: Are we telling people the wrong thing ? « Reply #118 on: November 08, 2018, 03:15:37 pm »
This thread is veering far off course now.
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My first post on this website after registering some months ago « on: October 15, 2018, 12:35:13 pm »
Finally I decided to write my introduction.
I did a cold turkey on June 21st 2018. I vividly remember that day.
Since then I’ve never touched benzos and throw away everything.
The reason for me going CT (which I absolutely discourage) is because, before quitting, I didn’t know what was making me feel the way I felt. Dr/dp, Insomnia, anxiety, almost run into panic attacks, chest pain, fatigue, headache, brain fog, depression, lethargy, and many more..
As soon as I realized that it was because of the benzo I was taking, I quit immediately.
Little did I know, that you should taper.
The benzo I was taking is called Lormatazepam (Minias – Italian brand). I was taking 7 drops (ca. 0.85mg) intermittently. I started to take them once a week, or once every 2 weeks – when I really couldn’t sleep. After 5 months at this pace, I started taking them almost all nights. In what were not even 2 weeks, I reached tolerance.
The 21st of October it will be exactly 4 months that I am benzo free. Even though I am not having all the symptoms that I was having the first 2 months, the struggle is still a lot.
I fell in severe depression, and my headache doesn’t want to leave me! Not even for a second. I still had dr/dp episodes, but not so strong as the first month. Sleep is coming and going in waves. I can see the improvements, but it feels like the road is still sooo long.
Wish me good luck!
Thanks for reading!
I want to be free « on: September 27, 2018, 09:33:32 am »
I have been taking Clonopin for about 25 years. From 2mg to .5mg presently Dailey.
Hiding your actual feeling for family and friends. Feeling so bad!!!! « on: September 14, 2018, 10:34:57 pm »
I am really suffering terribly last months, but don’t speak about my symptoms anymore with family and friends. After so long I don’t want to bother them. I get the question “how are” you several times a week and actually the answer in my head is always bad, because that is what it is. The only reason why I am posting so much is because I need to share my thoughts somewhere. Sometimes with response which I appreciate. I am feeling so hopeless and the only thing I think; what if I don’t wake up tommorow? I am fine, wow the fact that these thoughts are going through my mind is something I could not imagine. I used to be the opposite always positive and happy, but don’t see light at the end of the tunnel right now. The fact that 18 months came and went by with 0 improvement is so depressing. Sorry for my negative post.
For all the (long) term sufferers how do you stay positive and what do you do to distract your mind on the worst days? How do you handle your emotions?
Some positive words are appreciated.
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Re: Hiding your actual feeling for family and friends. Feeling so bad!!!! « Reply #1 on: September 14, 2018, 10:42:05 pm »
I can really appreciate your words. I too am trying so hard to keep how I actually feel to myself . I still breakdown with my husband on occasion . I cry most days and just wish the day away. I was always the happy person at the all the events now getting up is a struggle . I feel like I am falling farther and farther away . I am sorry I do not have any encouraging words but wanted you to know how much I understand . Sending you a gentle virtual hug as it is all I have right now
Re: Hiding your actual feeling for family and friends. Feeling so bad!!!! « Reply #2 on: September 14, 2018, 11:00:15 pm »
Thanks […], too tired and sick to help others right now. So understand your comment.
A bug hug for you too!!
Re: Hiding your actual feeling for family and friends. Feeling so bad!!!! « Reply #3 on: September 14, 2018, 11:23:41 pm »
We have each other. We can lean on each other. Cry on each other, and no explanation needed. You Don’t have to exert the energy of faking how you are feeling. We know it’s hard. You are significant and only human. There is no judgement here. No one goes to battle and is happy, rested, feeling and looking their best. Just know that your brothers and sisters in this battle understand, support and validate your journey.
Family Is Fed Up!!!! « on: August 19, 2018, 09:16:29 pm »
I’m the caregiver for my elderly parents. Today they said they’ve had enough of my debilitating symptoms and that I’m choosing to be this way. That I need to see a psychiatrist because they can’t take it anymore. It’s been 2 yrs. and NOTHING is better. Which is true. I don’t know what to do. This is destroying my family. I have no siblings. I tried to explain.
Re: Family Is Fed Up!!!! « Reply #1 on: August 19, 2018, 09:50:00 pm »
I can so relate!
Re: Family Is Fed Up!!!! « Reply #2 on: August 19, 2018, 09:54:26 pm »
I’m devastated. It’s my own fault for taking the medication no one forced me.
Re: Family Is Fed Up!!!! « Reply #3 on: August 19, 2018, 10:10:20 pm »
Quote from: [Buddie] on August 19, 2018, 09:54:26 pm
I’m devastated. It’s my own fault for taking the medication no one forced me.
You didn’t know… None of us knew.
Re: Family Is Fed Up!!!! « Reply #4 on: August 19, 2018, 10:34:30 pm »
Now, I have to pay the price. It’s been a nightmare and it keeps getting worse. I’m losing everyone I love. I either have to go back on or lose my life. It’s that real.
Re: Family Is Fed Up!!!! « Reply #5 on: August 19, 2018, 10:34:56 pm »
Your parents are fed up? Doesn’t sound like they appreciate what you are trying to do. Can you let them go find their own help? I am sorry but your priority needs to be YOU right now and they could be preventing you from healing. Bye Bye Mom and Dad! That is what I would do. Sorry.
BenzMom Introduction « on: February 05, 2018, 06:33:25 pm »
I am the mother of two children who was placed on Xanax over 15 years ago shortly after my daughter was born. In the course of those years I went off and on Xanax for about 5 years then my mother who was battling a long term battle with a malignant brain tumor became very sick. The Xanax led to other drugs all prescribed by my dr but I like many others needed more not realizing I was dependent. My mother passed away and other tragedies followed in my family. This past August I entered a rehab facility in another state for 5 weeks and gained my life back. I am off of Xanax and all other meds I was on for almost 6 months.
Thank you to this forum.