— The NY Evening (@TheNYevening) February 17, 2018
Threw a tantrum like a little kid humiliated « on: February 14, 2018, 03:59:03 am »
I don’t know why but looking back just now I realized I threw somewhat of a tantrum when I was at a facility well it was called a facility bit it was terrible. Now I feel so embarrassed I don’t know why I did that I was so pissed and scared at the time I thought they were trying to keep me there. I was just cold turkeyed just before maybe that’s had something to do with it
Re: Threw a tantrum like a little kid humiliated « Reply #1 on: February 16, 2018, 05:34:20 am »
It would […].
I was sitting on a very crowded and cramped bus stop about 3 weeks ago and it was really hot. The bus had those air brake things, and as each bus arrived and departed the air brakes made a horrible hissing, squealing sound.
I kept enduring until I just screamed at the final bus and told it to shut the F up. Everyone looked at me. Aarrgghh.
I was so embarrassed but did apologise to those around who looked at me strangely. I never do stuff like that, it just overcame me.
I was in early WD and my apology was accepted.
It gets better.
Re: Threw a tantrum like a little kid humiliated « Reply #2 on: February 16, 2018, 11:30:15 pm »
Vyea I just got into a big fight with my dad and I told him off he asked to help and I told him no and he kept going. And I started a fight with him and cursed him out I don’t feel to bad about it I’ve walked on eggshells a lot and it felt good to say f-u to him
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Think I found something that could help, if not cure BZD withdrawal. « on: February 10, 2018, 07:04:48 pm »
The further I get out, the deeper I’ve been looking into alternative healing methods. The two that have really stuck with me are growth hormones and stem cells, but moreso stem cells. They seem to have almost magic like regeneration properties and are used for all kinds of autoimmune diseases and even M.S. (which is similar in symptoms to benzo wd)
The problem is that the most effective kind aren’t available in the US and are super expensive. You have to go to Panama to have it done and it can be upwards of 20k based on my research. I’m gonna keep digging and will see what more I can find, just wanted to share because I truly believe this could have some benefits.
If anyone has already tried, let us know.
Here is one of the few things that sparked my interest on the subject:
Millions of dead and damaged and you try to side track and just shit all over the dead. Psychiatry inspired the holocaust and scientology funded CCHR who is the biggest antipsych watch dog in the world. Wake up. Your attitude is dispicable.
— End Psychiatry (@EndPsychiatry) February 5, 2018
This anxiety is intense. « on: December 15, 2017, 10:59:41 am »
It’s like nothing I have ever felt before.. It’s like being stuck in the middle of a panic attack, but while being somewhat calm. Foggy mind, but disassociative fearful thoughts are completely ripping my focus away from reality and forcing me to put all of my attention on things that I normally wouldn’t be this afraid of. It’s almost like constantly being startled and tunnel visioning on a man with a gun aimed at you, except it’s all happening for no reason. My mind is just shooting forceful terrifying thoughts at me and they override any of my thoughts, completely disrupting my thought process.
Seems like adrenaline dumps, because suddenly I am overwhelmed with a feeling of panic, like I’m about to go crazy.. It immediately gets hard to breathe and I feel like I’m going to pass out.. But it leaves almost as quickly as it came, leaving me with tremors in my stomach and legs.
All of this just seems to happen totally unprovoked and without cause. I can’t help but worry that something neurological might be wrong with me, because I feel so spaced out and unable to think or control my thoughts. It makes me feel like I’m losing it.
Anyone else had this?
- In 2001, the American Religious Identification Survey (ARIS) reported that there were 55,000 adults in the United States who consider themselves Scientologists. A 2008 survey of American religious affiliations by the US Census Bureau estimated there to be 25,000 Americans identifying as Scientologists.
- The 2001 United Kingdom census contained a voluntary question on religion, to which approximately 48,000,000 chose to respond. Of those living in England and Wales who responded, a total of 1,781 said they were Scientologists.
- In 2001, Statistics Canada, the national census agency, reported a total of 1,525 Scientologists nationwide, up from 1,220 in 1991. In 2011 census the number of scientologist raised to 1,745.
- In 2005, the German Office for the Protection of the Constitution estimated a total of 5,000 – 6,000 Scientologists in that country, and mentioned a count of 12,000 according to Scientology Germany.
- In the 2006 New Zealand census, 357 people identified themselves as Scientologists, although a Church spokesperson estimated there were between 5,000 and 6,000 Scientologists in the country. Earlier census figures were 207 in the 1991 census, 219 in 1996, and 282 in 2001.
- In 2006, Australia’s national census recorded 2,507 Scientologists nationwide, up from 1,488 in 1996, and 2,032 in 2001. The 2011 census however found a decrease of 13.7 per cent from the 2006 census.
- In 2011 support for Scientology in Switzerland was said to have experience a steady decline from 3,000 registered members in 1990 to 1,000 members and the organization was said to be facing extinction in the country. A Church of Scientology spokeswoman rejected the figures insisting that the organization had 5,000 “passive and active members in Switzerland”.
- Benzo Buddies currently lists 39,257 members. In actuality, less than 1% of that figure are active members. A simple way to prove this is by checking who has posted, easy for any member to do (most members have posted once, or twice). Another way to prove this is by looking at any of the cult’s so-called benzo petitions – you will find most of them can barely manage 200 people (worldwide).
The Wisdom of Tom Cruise « on: November 05, 2017, 05:17:16 pm »
Often think of the 2005 interview with Matt Lauer and Tom Cruise and how right Cruise was.
My draw-ring for today:
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Re: The Wisdom of Tom Cruise « Reply #1 on: November 05, 2017, 06:05:01 pm »
It’s haunting now to look back and know that he was right…about these poisons. Great artwork!