I need to know I'm not alone and these are wd sx
« on: February 10, 2015, 04:38:46 pm »
traumatized80
This is a lost of the hell I’ve Bern enduring …. it’s not a complete lost but I’m sp acared to be 16 months pit and still suffering so grately. I don’t have all of these sx anymore …but enough to make me question my sanity and ability to endure every single
Melting brain
Burnjng brain
Burnjng acid body
Melting face
Objects moving
Body floating upward
Body Being pulled down
Severe body abd head pressure
Buzzing of body head
Terror in mind and body
Panick
Impending doom
Black hole depression
Paranoia
Severe dr/dp
Lsd trip
Everything looks black and white
Sounds traumatizing
Smells intense and traumatizing
Hearing robotic voices in head
Severe akathesia
Tinitus so loud it kept me awake
Body cramps abd aches
Hair feeling wet or growing
Icy hot on skin
Fiber glass on skin
Dreaming while awake (eyes closed)
Adrenal surges
Hearung voices in head
Hearing conversations between others inside head
Room breaking up into puzzle pieces
Internal vibrations
Ears full of fluid
Ears feel wet on the outside
Confusion
Rapid speech 2000 miles a minute
Pacing the floors
Agitation of the body to the point of biting self
Pulling hair out
Scratching face till it bled
Scared to shower
Scared to get off couch
Positive or negative thoughts bring terror through body
Body literally feels like toxins ate running through it
3am waking with terror and blood curdling depression
Scared of Shadows on my room
Sounds send terror through my body
Smells are too powerful and send signals of trauma through me
Don’t feel safe
Urge to hide in the closet
Sobbing uncontrollably and begging my mom to make it stop
Heart rate 200 when standing
Electric current through body thst is actually painful
Feels like a brick is sitting inside my head on my brain
Brain feels literally numb
Don’t have any feeling that my son is actually mine
Visions/flashes of me putting a gun to my head
Literally feel my brain short circuit
Feels like fire crackers shooting out of my brain
Brain zaps
Feel lethargic at times but body won’t rest
Irritability
Emotions too much
Soaking the bed in sweat like I took a shower in the bed
Severe anxiety and depression mixed together
Zero sleep …too revved up ..body amd mind
Inability to feel love or joy
Thought of sex makes, me cry
Mouth burning with tongue ice cold
Stinging all over body
Inability to eat
Then eat a ton
Hissing inside Brain
Hysteria
Jerking all over body
Low blood sugar feeling
Ptsd surrounding hospitals and my experience
Feel there is no way out
Inability to find peace
Inability to distract
The trauma is on my mind 24 7 and follows me to sleep when I can sleep
Stomach issues
Csn hear mysekf crying inside mysekf
Terrified abd rumination over bipolar and mental illness
Legs feel paralysed with terror
Can not see the future …don’t think I’m going to be here
Head feels to light at times
Breasts always feel odd
I feel like on a terrible lsd trip
People distorted
Desire to run n get help
Vione inside me while talking to people thst says they know ur mentally ill
Feels like a force wants me dead
Feels like the hulk is inside me and going to burst out abd kill everyone
Feels like a tiger is, eating my insides
Can not take naps… body and mind won’t allow it
Vaginal agitation
Fear of harming others mainly son
Complete fear of losing it completely/psychosis
Visual hallucinations
No connection to people
I know mike is my husband but it’s like a dream …
Broken sentences in head thst make no sense
Complete inability to feel calm peace or relaxation
Chills up body
Hot and cold flashes
Inability to regulate temp
Cant get words out
Feel the extreme need to pace
Complete restlessness
Night terrors
Flashes of my past causing terror
Stinging like fire ants eating me
Mind racing about the reaction no matter what im doing
Everything looks like a black and white horror movie
Agitation
Rage
Felt like the devil possessed me
metallic taste in mouth
Re: I need to know I'm not alone and these are wd sx
« Reply #1 on: February 10, 2015, 05:08:19 pm »
traumatized80
Guys I’m really scared
Re: I need to know I'm not alone and these are wd sx
« Reply #2 on: February 10, 2015, 05:28:15 pm »
[Buddie]
Traumatized, you’re not alone on a lot of those symptoms.
Some of your symptoms I either have or had earlier including:
Melting face
Objects moving
Body floating upward
Body Being pulled down
Everything looks black and white
Sounds traumatizing
Smells intense and traumatizing
Hearing robotic voices in head
Hearing voices in head
Hearing conversations between others inside head
Room breaking up into puzzle pieces
Scared of Shadows on my room
For me, it’s a part of the depersonalization / derealization.
Do you feel safe? Is your husband with you?
It sounds like you’re getting slammed with both mental and physical withdrawal at the same time. That’s a lot to handle. Hope you’re feeling better soon. 
Re: I need to know I'm not alone and these are wd sx
« Reply #3 on: February 10, 2015, 05:36:50 pm »
[Buddie]
Quote from: traumatized80 on February 10, 2015, 05:08:19 pm
Guys I’m really scared
I’m so sorry you’re still suffering like this, and my heart goes out to you. I too had many, if not most, of the symptoms you mention at one time or another. But, though it took a full two years, I finally healed. Have you had any improvement at all in any of your symptoms? Even a small improvement is a sign of healing. It can take some of us a long time to heal, but eventually we do heal.
Also, it would help you to get more support if you’d take the time to Create a Signature. This will allow others to see where you are in the process so they can better support you.
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Re: I need to know I'm not alone and these are wd sx
« Reply #4 on: February 10, 2015, 10:24:32 pm »
traumatized80
[…] I have seen improvement but when I get hit I get hit hard I mean full blown Think I csnt hold on one more second…anguish …dr/dp..burning acid ..extreme desperation ..crying hysterically …telling my husband I’m not going to make it…. panick and terror all night mixed with severe depression and electric jolts …. I can’t even put into works the torture …and at 17 months.
Re: I need to know I'm not alone and these are wd sx
« Reply #5 on: February 10, 2015, 10:27:53 pm »
[Buddie]
Well I’ve not had vaginal agitation, or LSD trip, but just about every other one of those things I’ve experienced in either small doses or tidal waves during my tolerance and taper.
