My home is one big mess « on: February 28, 2018, 10:30:33 am »
I’m really ashamed, but that’s the truth. I don`t usually like this, but I can`t clean. I live alone.
Is it just me who has this, how are you? Do you have any tips?
Re: My home is one big mess « Reply #1 on: February 28, 2018, 11:31:01 am »
I too had this the first 6 months or so when I was in acute phase. I am normally a very tidy person. I have always like things organized & put in place. I was in such bad condition that I was not physically able to do ANYTHING. I literally sat in my chair with laptop or lay in bed for 6 months. It actually may have been longer (I would have to go read my journal but I still am not able to go back & look though that journal PTSD issues ) Anyhow, I do remember at the time telling myself “it is ok, you can deal with this later”. So I lived in squalor for all that time because I truly had NO one to help me. So just tell yourself that “it is ok & that you will deal with it later when you are better able to cope”. That is all you need to do…
Re: My home is one big mess « Reply #2 on: February 28, 2018, 11:49:01 am »
My house is also much more messy than before because I have less energy and I need to save it for the essential. It’s a benzo-home
Re: My home is one big mess « Reply #3 on: February 28, 2018, 11:57:21 am »
Same as you guys, it was on of the first things to go south. I think it began due to the mental anxiety of the unknown road ahead, I would find myself needing to be distracted positively and not doing things like house work. Then I could not lift a finger without my heart racing and suffering symptoms as I cleaned.
Ironically, I feel soooo much better if the place is clean though
Re: My home is one big mess « Reply #4 on: February 28, 2018, 01:14:00 pm »
I was keeping up until the valium sedated me so badly. Now, unfortunately it has gotten away from me. My husband does quite a bit but he works all week as well. oh well, it will be here when I feel better again. We’ll tackle it then. I am predicting a lot of stuff that has needed to be thrown away will get thrown away then
Re: My home is one big mess « Reply #5 on: February 28, 2018, 02:01:32 pm »
The worst part is when my friends come with my food, they have to wait in the doorway, I don`t want to let anyone in. It feels so bad! But maybe I can clean tomorrow? No….
Re: My home is one big mess « Reply #6 on: February 28, 2018, 02:08:55 pm »
I have been messy for a while now, and I really think benzo brain is to blame. I mean, even back when I was still taking them, as prescribed, I had a hard time managing and keeping things clean. I stopped caring what others think about my mess a while ago. I’ll let people in. You would be surprised how many people have times where their places or someone they know is so messy. My old landlady used to come once a month and clean my house with me. That was always so much easier to have someone else to clean with.
I had a cleaning person for a little while, but I think I was too friendly with her, because I felt like she was taking advantage of me. She would mop all the floors and then dump the buckets in the bathttub and leave a giant muddy mess in my bathtub and all my floors would be sopping wet. Then when I asked her to dry the floors she would come up with weird excuses. In fact, she had a ton of excuses. One time I asked her to clean the oven and she told me a whole sob story about how she was chemically burned from oven cleaner. It was so annoying cause she could have cleaned the oven with just regular soap and water, instead of just taking up all that time to tell me the story.
Oh I am very talkative today.
Re: My home is one big mess « Reply #7 on: February 28, 2018, 04:22:46 pm »
Whenever I go into rough patch, my place is an absolute mess. I’m embarrassed about it, but my OCD thoughts about recovery are so overwhelming that I lose sight of connecting with the normal part of myself. Once I get over the hurdle, then I start cleaning again. But then I get into another rough patch. This has been going on for years, and I see no way of it ending until I start feeling really well.
You’re not alone, believe me!!
Re: My home is one big mess « Reply #8 on: February 28, 2018, 05:49:56 pm »
My entire life is in disarray because of this. And it isn’t that I lack the physical ability to do something about it, it is because my organizational skills are so bad that if I move things around I have a very hard time finding them again. The lack of motivation to do anything productive is the icing on the cake. Those two things make it very difficult for me to keep everything clean and organized.