Do you need to go blind in order to join Heather Ashton’s benzo cult?

Freaking out
« on: September 25, 2018, 08:15:49 pm »

[Buddie]

The side effects have gotten a little too much for me this week because they are hitting areas that are huge triggers – my eyesight. I’m an artist and design for a living. I’ve been able to work throughout this ordeal but now things are complicated because I have visual snow. I need to go for an eye exam to rule out actual eye damage, but eye exams are a huge stressor for me. I have fainted in my last two exams, and that was WITH Klonopin. What the heck do I do now? My fear is actually enough for me to want to skip out on the appointment completely which I know is stupid but I don’t want to faint. I don’t know what to do or how to cope right now. I cried hysterically earlier. The exam isn’t until Thursday morning.

Re: Freaking out
« Reply #1 on: September 26, 2018, 10:22:35 pm »

[Buddie]

I cancelled my appointment. I can’t do it :(

Benzo Buddies failure: 33 months off and worse than ever

33 months off updates
« on: September 27, 2018, 12:29:48 am »

[Buddie]

Hi BB

TODAY I completed my 33 month off paxil cold turkey, still suffering hard
My symptoms
– anxiety
– depression
– mental fog and bad cognitive skills
– no emotions
– insomnia
– senstive to all stress situations even small things
– anger and hate
– irritation
– low self esteem
– vision and hearing issues
– neirve pain
– fatigue
– cant work out
– intrusive thoughts
– negative emotions
– fear

I thought I would be finished by now but it seems a long road to take, I cannot live my life as normal people do. I hope this ends soon.

Re: 33 months off updates
« Reply #1 on: September 27, 2018, 01:16:39 am »

[Buddie]

Congrats on the milestone, although you probably don’t feel very celebratory.

Did you taper off of benzos too?