Klonopin eater goes on hate-filled doctor-bashing rant

Is the System evil or ignorant?
« on: September 01, 2017, 10:44:05 pm »

[Buddie]

Is anyone else ANGRY at the doctor who turned you into a drug addict? I submit that most doctors ignorantly believe if patients take their meds as prescribed, there won’t be any issues. Here’s the problem: Your brain doesn’t give a flying f%@$ about US law or what your doctor thinks. All it knows is that it’s regularly been influenced by a powerful psychoactive and it wants more. We’re every bit as much an addict as anyone else, and our addiction can actually kill if you just stop taking it. It also creates the longest and most horrific withdrawal known to man. (I’ve confirmed this with heroin addicts, alcoholics, meth addicts, anyone who has been through a withdrawal). Heroin addicts feel sorry for me! No one is taking responsibility for ruining lives by the million in the name of the almighty dollar.

Pharmaceutical companies send hot girls to doctors offices to persuade them to hand out their drugs. Wtf?! Our society is so brainwashed by the DSM-V, thinking about which acronym fits them because life sucks sometimes for everyone but there has to be something wrong with you. ADHD, OCD, PTSD, GAD, MDD…choose a f@$!ing acronym so you can become a lifetime customer.

We’ve all gone through he’ll because our doctor’s either didn’t know or didn’t care what they were doing. Our society gives so much reverence to doctors…we trust them implicitly because they went to med school. My doctor literally opened Web MD when prescribing my klonopin. They’re not f@$&ING special, they’re human beings just like anyone. They are succeptible to greed and the powers that be are so god damned cocky they don’t even attempt to hide the fact that the people we trust with our health are being bribed by drug companies. Doctors who prescribe things they don’t understand have betrayed the public trust and should be dealt with accordingly. They’re drug dealers…in every sense of the word. We have a war on drugs that imprisons people for smoking a plant while the system were supposed to trust is getting us hooked on the drugs they can profit from.

Anyone who has suffered as I have suffered must surely feel the same injustice. I got out of the military after serving honorably for 6 years…I told my doctor I didn’t feel quite right. Then I was a drug addict. Klonopin took everything in my life. I barely survived it….and that piece of shit probably did the same thing to someone today.

No one should ever go through what I’ve been through. Helping people who are suffering with hope and advise is great, but shouldn’t we be doing something to stop the system that put us here? The average person has no idea what a benzo is…if they tell their doctor they’ve been anxious lately, chances are they’re gonna join our ranks. How do we save those people?

“I feel naked, mutilated, out of control and entirely in limbo”

Low-dose klonopin taper, psychiatric cocktail, hypersensitivity, irregular reactions, etc.
« on: August 02, 2016, 06:32:20 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi there. My family (historically subject to alcoholism, autism, bipolar disorder, clinical depression, you name it) and I have been trying to properly medicate my depression/mood swings/anxiety since I was just a kid.

After a failed diagnostic trial with Lamictal around age 10, I was put on 25mg Zoloft and 0.25mg Klonopin in middle school: this combination successfully got me through the following 5-6 years. I essentially cold-turkeyed the low dose of Klonopin upon exiting highschool and didn’t notice any effects. Switched from Zoloft to Prozac, which aggravated my mood swings and prompted a switch to Viibryd after a couple months. Varying degrees of depression/hypomania/crippling depression throughout. Had an odd reaction to Viibryd, and was put back on 0.25mg of Klonopin twice daily by my long-time psychiatrist to ease the SSRI withdrawal.

Things worsened rapidly, and after two consecutive, incredibly irrational trials on Lithium and then Seroquel (taking Klonopin and hydroxyzine throughout to ease the insanity of my symptoms) made the decision to get off medication completely and take the naturopathic route. This is after years of treating my chemically frustrated brain medically, mind you.

Started my Klonopin taper with 0.25mg in the morning and then 0.125mg at night. Been at this for about two weeks. My supplements are 5-MTHF (I have the homozygous mutation), GABA, vitamins B & D, and omega-3s. Haven’t noticed their effects, or lack thereof. My withdrawal symptoms include fatigue, confusion, dizziness, blurred vision, general cognitive impairment, body aches, and most importantly, anxiety & panic attacks. I read a little bit about hitting “tolerance” but am otherwise entirely blindsided by my neural reaction to the tapering. I’ve found myself literally cowering in fear half the time. I’m positively hungry to be back on an SSRI, because the past month has been something out of a horror film. For someone who is normally very aware/reflective/fluent, the mental fog that I’ve been subject to feels like paralysis. I am terrified. To make things worse, I’m at a critical nexus in my academic career and am paranoid about sabotaging my progress, capacity, future, etc. because I’ve only just realized how serious my Klonopin withdrawal is. My mental faculties are INCREDIBLY limited, and for someone who’s identified as an scholar since childhood, it’s tearing me apart. Rereading this uncoordinated, poorly written post is almost comedic considering my career as a university academic and publishing success.

All of my previous medications have been tiny doses because of my extreme sensitivity. xxx I have very few resources and am in urgent need of advice, information, and support. Currently, I’m supposed to travel overseas in two days and am wondering if it’s safe to get back on an SSRI to ease my symptomatic (& figurative) paralysis. Please, please, please help.

Benzo Buddies lunatic rages at Roche Pharmaceuticals

I am Fuming right now after a call with Roche pharmaceuticals
« on: June 02, 2016, 07:15:05 pm »

[Buddie]

So I just called Roche Pharmaceuticals, the company that produces/makes Klonopin. I explained to them that I am going to be tapering off Klonopin and wanted some advice. They WOULD NOT help me and could care less when I told them some of the discontinuation effects that klonopin has on people. They told me it was out of their control and they also could not help with a taper plan. I explained to them that my doctor did give me a taper plan that was a little too rapid for me in the past and I am preparing and I just wanted a second opinion before I started my taper. I told them I was calling them for a second opinion since they make the pills and know how the pills are chemically produced. The answer was exactly as the “I’M SORRY, WE CANNOT HELP YOU”. Anyway, if I ever doubted benzobuddies in the past, now I really don’t. You were all right from the beginning. Doctor’s pharmaceutical companies and all the rest of them are completely helpless and useless. I guess it is up to us to be our own doctors and just help our selves and hope for the best. Sorry, I just needed to vent. ROCHE PHARMACEUTICALS are pure evil!!!!!!

Kook claims dozens of symptoms after two months of sporadic Klonopin use

This is why you don't stop Benzos abruptly
« on: January 13, 2016, 06:36:32 pm »

[Buddie]

Sorry if this post is going to ramble. I just wanted to let people know that abrupt discontinuation of a benzodiazepine has real consequences and risks even if it was only used intermittently on low doses . To get an idea of how bad it can be, just look at what I am going through.

On September 11, I stopped using .25 mg of Klonopin. My use of the Klonopin before that was probably 1-3 times a week over the course of 2 months. Since my discontinuation of the drug, I have experienced a lot of symptoms. The physical symptoms have been:

Akathisia / Restless Leg Syndrome
Paresthesia ( Primarily Stabbing and Burning sensations in my feet but other areas of my body as well)
Muscle Twitching and Tremors
Vibration feeling in my chest, head, and thighs
Brutal Insomnia
Ringing in the ears / Tinnitus
Heart Palpitations ( pounding heart, fluttering / probable pvc’s )
Elevated Heart Rate after exercise ( Heart rate stays higher for longer than my normal after exercise )
Jittery feeling after any significant physical exertion ( exercise, going up a lot of stairs, etc.)
Chest Pain
Respiratory Depression
Electric Shock Sensations
Full Body Jerks
Sugar / Alcohol Intolerance

The Mental Symptoms have been:

Anxiety
Depression
Benzo Rage
Suicidal Ideation

BTW, I would like to mention that these symptoms hit me like a bolt out of the blue. 3 days after stopping the drug, these symptoms started up and then I was in hell for a couple of weeks.
I have had some medical testing done regarding the heart palpitations and chest pain ( EKG, blood work to check for possible heart attack, Chest X Ray for cardiac myopathy ) and everything came back ok. I am going to have some more testing done though I have a pretty good suspicion that the chest pain is not cardiac related ( localized not diffuse, pain is associated with movement and manipulation of the area, pain is measured in seconds ).

I am currently over 4 months off the Klonopin and I still am experiencing some physical symptoms ( diminshed paresthesia, heart palpitations, chest pain, akathisia, sugar intolerance, muscle twitching, tinnitus ) but amped up mental symptoms ( high anxiety, anger, depression). All of this is compounded by the fact that I am working in a high stress job and trying to be a good father / husband.

To put it briefly, I was an idiot and stopped using this stuff abruptly. Please don’t do I what I did. You are rolling the dice if you CT and you can end up in a world of hurt like I am or worse ( possibly much worse ). Tapering is hard and tedious but you will likely save yourself a lot of anguish by doing it.

Good Luck Everybody

A coupe of great inspirational movie quotes:

“You , me or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t about how hard you hit. It’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done!”
Rocky – Sylvester Stallone
Movie: Rocky Balboa

“And we can stay here, get the sh!t kicked out of us…or we can fight our way back into the light. We can climb out of hell…one inch at a time.”
Coach Tony D’Amato – Al Pacino
Movie: Any Given Sunday

Re: This is why you don't stop Benzos abruptly
« Reply #1 on: January 13, 2016, 07:43:40 pm »

[Buddie]

First let me say I am sorry you are going through all this. I know how you feel.

Last week I ended up in the back of an ambulance and in the ER because I had quit xanax C/T and I was taking a very high dose. I blacked out/passed out and had a seizure, it was very scary. I don’t remember anything except waking up with EMT’s standing over me asking me if I knew my name. Thank God my husband was there and my kids were not.

Thankfully I am ok now, I am trying to taper down my dosage by .5mg once a week until I get to .25mg then I plan to jump CT from there. I also use cannabis to help curb the withdrawal symptoms, and cannabis has also been known to be effective at curbing seizures so hopefully I won’t end up at the hospital again.