Dr. Jenn retires after being disabled by wave: “I don’t want to be a leader… no more coaching ever!”

Re: We are losing soldiers in the fight. Jennifer Leigh and Recovery Road
« Reply #5 on: August 15, 2017, 06:01:47 pm »

[Buddie]

Hey everyone. Colin or mods may pull this as I’m breaking anonymity here. I’m jennifer. My site will be taken down in six months. I’m
Retired from coaching. My set back is severe. After a very lengthy time of feeling healed I’m
Back in the snake pit. I will not risk my health ever again so I must stop working with benzo clients. The stress, as you can imagine, is too great. Baylissa’s site Baylissa dot com, is still up. I talk her her every morning. She’s still helping benzo people. She’s not leaving the community. I wish I was more well and could help. But I’m not and I can’t. It was an honor and a priveledge helping so many of you. Even though I’m in a set back I continue to believe that we do heal. Some take longer. But the outcome is recovery. Hold on. Don’t give up. Be good to yourselves.

Re: We are losing soldiers in the fight. Jennifer Leigh and Recovery Road
« Reply #6 on: August 15, 2017, 06:41:54 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on August 15, 2017, 06:01:47 pm
Hey everyone. Colin or mods may pull this as I’m breaking anonymity here. I’m jennifer. My site will be taken down in six months. I’m
Retired from coaching. My set back is severe. After a very lengthy time of feeling healed I’m
Back in the snake pit. I will not risk my health ever again so I must stop working with benzo clients. The stress, as you can imagine, is too great. Baylissa’s site Baylissa dot com, is still up. I talk her her every morning. She’s still helping benzo people. She’s not leaving the community. I wish I was more well and could help. But I’m not and I can’t. It was an honor and a priveledge helping so many of you. Even though I’m in a set back I continue to believe that we do heal. Some take longer. But the outcome is recovery. Hold on. Don’t give up. Be good to yourselves.

jen,

i will pray for you. i will pray harder than i have for anyone yet. this can’t go on for long. god has to stop this and restore you your life.

Re: We are losing soldiers in the fight. Jennifer Leigh and Recovery Road
« Reply #7 on: August 15, 2017, 07:16:18 pm »

[Buddie]

Thank you. That’s very kind of you. I’m praying too, for all
Of us. Hopefully In another few weeks or months I’ll be back on my feet. Out in my garden. I’m working on a novel to distract me. Friends are cooking for me and taking care of me. God walked me through this once before. No reason to believe God will stop and let me walk the way to complete healing on my own.

Please know that we heal. If I didn’t believe this I wouldn’t have done the work I did all these years. I’ve seen clients get well. And I saw my own healing. I went from deranged after my cold turkey to functional. I even taught a class at Stanford. Had a bad wave from doing to much, then recovered from that. The last six months before this setback were the best in many many years. But, I guess I did too much. I’ve probably got a much more fragile CNS than most due to my years of trauma before Benzo’s. I over estimated my capacity for listening to others pain and suffering. It finally took its toll on me, along with The physical extertion I put myself under. You can avoid a setback if you take care of yourself. If you are an over achiever like myself, you’ll want to really watch yourself and slow down.

When I crawl out of this setback I’m dedicated to taking life easy. I don’t want to be a leader. I don’t want to be responsible for people’s lives in any way shape or form. No more coaching ever. I just want to write. Grow flowers. Be among friends and family. Hold my grandchildren. And appreciate every sunrise I’m given. This is my wild one and precious life, no matter how shattered it feels at the moment. It is mine.

Kooks compare their struggle with drug addiction to Martin Luther King and the civil rights struggle

New Blog About Community Silence Versus Action
« on: June 23, 2017, 07:33:29 pm »

[Buddie]

https://www.benzoinfo.com/single-post/2017/06/23/After-60-Years-of-Silence-A-Highly-Funded-Organization-Can-Finally-Help-Us-Can-Our-Community-Organize-to-Tell-them-How

Re: New Blog About Community Silence Versus Action
« Reply #1 on: June 24, 2017, 05:09:35 am »

[Buddie]

This is so important. Just reading this document chokes me up. I would fill out this FDA Report a thousand times myself if I could, but I can’t do it even once because I’m in Canada and it wouldn’t count.

What I can do is bump this.

Kooks add ‘inability to chew’ to list of 90,000,000 benzo withdrawal symptoms

Chewing...please help
« on: June 02, 2017, 10:40:39 am »

[Buddie]

It is about 4 weeks after stopping clonazepam. During this period i have muscle weaknesses in arms and legs, off balance. But the major problem is; I have difficulty chewing food; for example eating a bread or biscuites and hard foods are difficult. It makes me scare. Does anyone has chewing problem during withdrawal? Please help.
I will appreciate your sharings.

Kooks complain reputation of being lunatics impossible to shake, decry lack of progress against Big Pharma

I am told cult members are trying to figure out how to be activists i.e. doctor-bashing nutcases and not appear insane doing so.

Good luck.

Cult realizes it’s only a handful of self-pitying kooks, clinging to harmful beliefs invented by a madwoman

The rest of the internet has glowing positive reports about benzos.
« on: April 19, 2017, 01:26:19 am »

[Buddie]

It seems that the rest of the internet loves benzos and does not share the negative experience that we do. They don’t believe in side effects. They don’t believe in withdrawal syndrome.

They either don’t withdrawal at all or have a minor 2 week withdrawal, and this is with heavy doses. Some have gone on and off of the meds over decades, dozens of times and never experienced kindling or any problem going off whatsoever.

I’m in several support groups for issues like insomnia and IBS. Whenever a question comes up about what meds they’re taking or what meds cold be helpful, benzos are always eagerly suggested. Whenever I warn about the dangers of benzos, 10 people come to the aid of the person who mentioned the benzo to argue against me.

I have been banned from groups. I have been told I am fear mongering, am negative, am lying, am selling something, or have an underlying disease, and that I’m wrong. It is so frustrating. What is going on here?

Are we really a like a 5% minority of super sensitive people with weak gaba function or diseases? (5% LOL not even close, try something like 0.000001% of all benzodiazepine users – editor)

Re: The rest of the internet has glowing positive reports about benzos.
« Reply #1 on: April 19, 2017, 02:05:10 am »

[Buddie]

My doctor says that what I went through with Klonopin was rare. However, coming on this board assures me that I am not the only one who has suffered horrific effects from benzos. I’m curious as well to know the percentage of people that go through what we have gone through with benzos.

Re: The rest of the internet has glowing positive reports about benzos.
« Reply #2 on: April 19, 2017, 05:58:28 pm »

[Buddie]

Its true. The majority of people have few problems getting off benzos. But you were banned, so that’s good because they were not good sites for you to be on. “I Don’t Want to Belong to Any Club That Will Accept Me as a Member.” Groucho Marx. lol.