Healthy food question?
« on: March 03, 2021, 08:15:27 pm »
I have been having some issues with food lately, so trying to be mindful of what I eat. Thoughts on plant based foods and sushi rolls??? Love both but don’t want to upset the apple cart!
I'm in the process of suing my old psychiatrist for 40 million dollars
« on: February 05, 2021, 06:24:03 pm »
So I decided I’m not going to sit back and let doctors get away with what they do and I would rather get rich by getting the money I deserve. So I’m going to sue my old psychiatrist for 40 million dollars by getting a judgment against them in court.
It’s really not difficult, you just come up with a number for all of your time lost and income lost and all of the suffering and pain that you deserve compensation for oh, and you provide the proof and you ask for a jury instead of a judge. You go to the court and you file the paperwork with or without an attorney.
I called an attorney in the mountains where I used to live and I said I want their assistants to guide me through the legal lingo but I’m going to do it with or without them and they sound interested. I said I‘m going to sue for exactly 40 million dollars because I was on them for 20 years and I will need money for the rest of my life going forward as well so I’m asking for 20 million in the past and 20 million going forward.
I already have a great story for the jury and everybody will be on my side because nobody trusts the government or Psychiatry anymore. There’s nothing that Psychiatry can do about it and they’re going to get sued and I’m going to win whether they like it or not.
« on: February 09, 2021, 07:31:43 pm »
Anyone else tongue sort of fizz the whole time?
Not sure if WD or related to neck stiff.
Gets worse when even slightly stretch neck or back which also causes odd liquid heat down spine and through head that feels dangerous. Like something pulling on spinal cord or vagus nerve.
Re: Fizzing tongue?
« Reply #1 on: February 09, 2021, 08:41:28 pm »
I’m not sure about “fizzing tongue” but I definitely have had tongue symptoms since jumping off (didn’t show up until about a week after my taper). For me it feels like a burned or scalded tongue. Not until the last couple weeks has it dulled down in severity (now that I think of it, it does feel kind of like a light “fizzing” sensation at this stage, but before, it was like I burned my tongue on hot coffee). It’s located specifically on the tip and edges of my tongue. In addition, I have experienced episodes where I produce an excess amount of saliva for no apparent reason, and I think I am tongue thrusting to accommodate the feeling, so I sometimes will have a scalloped tongue appearance. When it’s at it’s worst, I also have a sensation like my jaw is tremoring (not visible to eye but it’s a very unnerving feeling).
The tongue/mouth sensations have been my most persistent symptoms (in windows it’s even there, just dialed back some)
« on: January 04, 2021, 07:35:58 pm »
Anyone have any reverse or strange reaction to the spice cumin? and i just felt off! I believe I have read of other BBs suffering side affects from certain spices? Thanks for any feedback!
Re: Cumin issues?
« Reply #1 on: January 04, 2021, 07:41:26 pm »
I have that and more whenever I eat anything or put anything on body, wash hands etc.
Problems with saliva
« on: January 07, 2021, 01:48:42 pm »
When I gave up clonazepam, I noticed that I started having problems with saliva in my mouth. At times it disappears altogether and returns after one or two days. It doesn’t depend on diet or lifestyle. It is difficult to understand the logic of the body’s work. Has anyone faced such a problem?
I really can’t take this paranoia anymore it’s ruining my life
« on: January 08, 2021, 03:46:36 am »
Hi everyone. I hope that you all are hanging in there tonight. I am not. The paranoia, which has been probably my worst symptom, is just getting worse and worse. I went to my girlfriend’s house last night after not having seen her for a week. Every little thing she said I felt like she was messing with me, criticizing me and trying to control me and judging me. I ended up getting upset with her over a game of cards. I felt like such a jerk. I don’t feel any love towards her and she just irritates me yet I don’t believe her when she says she loves me and I’m afraid she’s gonna leave me any second. It sucks because just a few days ago all I felt was how much I missed her and loved her. These emotional roller coasters make me feel like I’m bipolar. I feel so scared of everyone. I feel like I don’t wanna be around anyone because I’m so paranoid that everyone thinks I’m crazy or messed up. I feel unlovable and utterly worthless, and like I don’t understand how anyone could wanna have anything to do with me. When she tells me she loves me or friends tell me they love me I just think that they’re full of shit. I don’t believe anyone and I have no feelings except for anger and fear and deep sadness. I don’t feel like I’m in my body ever. I feel like I’m watching myself from up above. What have I become?
Can’t walk. This has never happened WTF?
« on: December 26, 2020, 05:55:01 pm »
Hi everyone. I hope your holidays were OK. I’m actually just happy that they are over. I don’t know what’s going on with me I have never had this happen in benzo withdrawal. I have had difficulty walking and I’ve had pain in my legs and feet and lower back, but not to the point where I actually cannot walk around the block. I mean I can but it’s so damn painful. I was supposed to help my girlfriend do a photo shoot outdoors today and I couldn’t go because I can’t stand on my feet. My right heel feels like there’s an internal bruise, they’re shooting pains going up my legs from my feet, and my lower back is killing me. I’ve been popping ibuprofen like crazy. I’ve been laying in bed since last night, and they were shooting pains in my legs even when I’m not putting any weight on them. My primary care doctor is great. He tells his patients that he can’t believe he actually has one patient that got off of Clonopin. He’s been practicing for 35 years and said that he has never seen one person successfully get off of it. I called him this morning and he called me back. He says he has no idea what it is. He said that some of the symptoms sound like gout but other ones don’t. I wanted to tell him that I think it’s benzo withdrawal, but I don’t want him to think I’m crazy because that seems to be the look I get when ever I offer that is a solution to my physical pain. I’ve read a lot on here about different messed up physical symptoms that people have, and I’m wondering if this particular group of symptoms is something that someone else’s experience. I usually ride my bike and or walk 3 to 5 miles a day. I can’t even walk around the block without being in extreme pain. I have tried to stay physically active throughout my benzo withdrawal, but I’m stuck at home now in bed. I work and have worked full-time throughout withdrawal, and I have never been bed ridden because of physical symptoms and am terrified that I’m actually getting worse 16 months post taper.
Any insight or encouragement would be much appreciated. I’m stuck in bed all day. Thank you.
Paprika and cayenne
« on: December 21, 2020, 01:28:21 pm »
Has anyone ever had reactions to either one of these?
I’m already in a wave and went to my moms and she really wanted me to try a bite of her new meatball sauce. It had both these things in it and I felt extremely worse afterwards. Genuinely curious if one of these things made me worse or it was just a coincidence.
Re: Paprika and cayenne
« Reply #1 on: December 21, 2020, 02:45:35 pm »
Paprika is pretty tame. Hard to believe anything in there would rev you up. Cayenne is spicy. I suppose if you’re not used to the capsaicins, it could cause a reaction that the mind escalates.
There’s nothing specific about chile peppers that I’m aware of. I eat them pretty much daily.
Does your mother add MSG to her sauce?