Please help, desperate, got fleas in house but flea spray affects GABA
« on: August 08, 2017, 09:50:04 pm »
My friend brought his dog in my flat and the dog has left fleas, ive been bitten.
I’ve tried vaccumming, but I am so depressed and anxious and stressed about other things including withdrawal that I only have the energy to vaccuumm part of a room a day, ,whereas to get rid of the fleas, eggs and larvae you either have to vaccuum every day for a week or use flea spray with insect growth regulator in.
The problem with these substances is that they all have chemicals in which, on doing research, affect gaba in a bad way, I wont ramble.
I even tried to find a respirator online so that I did not breathe in any of the vapours, but there is so much choice that I am totally confused as to which respirator to buy to prevent me inhaling the fumes of the flea spray, as you have to keep windows shut while it works when you spray.
Has anyone ever used any of the strong flea sprays in withdrawal?
Did they react with you in a bad way?
I am desperate to hear of anyone’s experience with these flea sprays, they worked for me when i wasnt on valium but I am scared to use them given what I have read online about them interacting with GABA.
« on: August 03, 2017, 05:34:41 pm »
Does anyone experience symptoms after being out in the sun?
« on: July 15, 2017, 03:17:28 pm »
So, I am 67, 13 years on Xanax, 3 off. Did 3 decades drinking diet soda. So, June 1, 2017, I went off the sodas and, of course, aspartame. This morning looked at how old I look and feel. Each passing month seems worse. I was wondering what I would look like and feel like if I had never taken any of these poisons. Too late now but a real sad commentary on where I took myself. Sure many of you feel the same. 😢
« on: June 30, 2017, 08:39:58 pm »
…so basically I can start a yawn but I never finish it. So there’s no relief. It’s like when you yawn and someone sticks their finger in your mouth (yes my wife is strange) so you can’t finish it. Except this happens to me all of the time. I think it’s just because I’m thinking about it now. Kind of like insomnia… if you think about it enough, it just keeps happening.
Anyway, anyone else with a similar experience or am I just totally off the mark here…?
Like the failed owner of Benzo Buddies, BALA is delusional re: active membership i.e. the majority of BALA (or Benzo Buddies) members are not active, don’t do anything except sit and moan 24/7 about how doctors fucked them over.
BALA is even giving away money and still can’t get more than a handful of addicts (less than 1% of their tiny membership) to fill out the form.
I wonder if, out of desperation, the BALA gurus will start sending in fake complaints to the FDA?
Welcome to the real world kooks. Stay on your meds.
I just screwed a blanket to the wall to cover the window. The sunlight is too much, it’s scares the shit out of me when it shines through the window . I need complete darkness or I get worse.
Feeling like such a failure...
« on: May 26, 2017, 09:48:48 pm »
Tonight my husband took me out to a local historical attraction. It was a pleasant evening. The weather had cooled off and I knew that walking would be good for me. I had asked him to take me out this evening for some air. Plus I was excited to be able to face what anxiety I’ve been having and work through it. Prove to myself I was safe. I had been feeling a bit jumpy and anxious all day but yesterday when we went out, I had quickly dealt with it and felt really decent.
Tonight all of a sudden the panic hit me hard. I told him as we were walking up the steps to the memorial I felt anxious. My breathing was funny and my heart of course was pounding. We sat for a while and I calmed down. We talked about it and took some pictures and even though I was anxious I was working through it. Off and on the anxiety just kept hitting me. As soon as I calmed down it was back.
Then we stopped to get sandwiches for dinner and while I waited in the car I started feeling awful. My head was hurting, my neck hurting…I swear to God I started feeling “withdrawal” symptoms but I know it was just my anxiety.
I thought I couldn’t take it anymore. I wanted to jump out of my skin! My pulse was normal but I just felt like my while body was vibrating with flight or fight you know?
I had .5mg of a Xanax in my pocket that I carry around FOREVER but I never take it. Like a safety thing. I know, stupid. I broke down and said screw it. I was so angry and just to wanted to feel better for once since starting this weaning…so I let it start dissolving (not a oral tab btw ) on my tongue. I could feel the saliva building up and taste it on my tongue, the xanax, and then I opened the door to the car and spit it out! I was so ashamed for being weak ya’ll. How could I do this??
I worry I sat myself back and I just feel like a big loser because I couldn’t handle the freaking anxiety and I wondered why I thought I could ever do this.
I am only coming up on three weeks and I read all of you doing so well and I’m like WHAT A FAILURE!!!
Thanks for listening.