I was 26. He was 60.
A psychiatrist raped and traumatized my brain.
After 10 years of meditation and tears, if he was suddenly fighting to be one of the most powerful men in this country?
You bet my raped asshole I would say something, even if it cost me everything.
— End Psychiatry (@EndPsychiatry) September 19, 2018
Please help just woke up with this I'm scared « on: December 07, 2017, 03:44:23 am »
I just got woken up with this, my heart was betting kind of fast, both my hands felt like they fell asleep feeling, then I started feeling really strange I didn’t know what was going on I ran to bathroom I felt weird as hell like I was going to pass out felt very thirsty pain in my chest my stomach bloated right up and I could feel like every nerve in the muscle pulsating this was scary. I did eat some ice cream and had a pretty vigorous hike today hunting can someone help me?
Re: Please help just woke up with this I'm scared « Reply #1 on: December 07, 2017, 04:39:08 am »
Hi, It’s the Ice cream that has bloated you and it sounds like maybe you have a Hiatus Hernia…withdrawal can cause them..the vagus nerve was Irritated by the bloat, hence the heartbeat hard and strange feeling..It will pass as the bloat goes down. the vagus nerve control’s all of this …heartbeat urinary tract ect. Tass.
Re: Please help just woke up with this I'm scared « Reply #2 on: December 07, 2017, 09:22:28 am »
Please don’t diagnose people with hernias or anything else. It’s hell on one’s potential health anxiety and there’s zero actual evidence to prove that that is what is wrong with the other person, but I bet it makes them nervous.
All those symptoms sound like withdrawal. I’ve had every one of them and I’m 110% sure I don’t have a hernia.
Nhbuck, you probably just overdid it today. I bet you dollars to doughnuts that you’ll be feeling better in a day or two. Maybe go easy on the dairy and sugar for a few days and see if that helps. Maybe take a walk tomorrow instead of a hike. I think a little exercise is good, but I know I feel weird If I do too much. Apparently vigorous hunting is too much right now. I hope you feel better soon.
psychodelic drugs after 2 years off clonazepam? « on: November 27, 2017, 08:18:32 pm »
It’s been almost 2 years since I last took a benzo. I feel pretty good. If I drink or smoke weed it sets me back, so I don’t do either. I eat well, exercise, meditate, do yoga. I take care of myself.
I’ve been wondering about psychodelic drugs and how they would affect my brain. I’m in a really good place right now, but theres some things in my life I’m having trouble reaching clarity on. I’m not the kinda person that would take psychodelics all the time or anything. More like once in a blue moon for the experience and the introspective reflection.
So I’m just wondering if anyone knows anything about how this would effect my brain. I’m still sensitive to gluten and marijuana and alcohol, so I’m wondering if it could screw up my brain, and if I’m better off not doing it.
the frito failure « on: November 23, 2017, 03:54:39 am »
After being terrified of my favorite delicious snack for the last 9 months i decided it was time that i try to eat my fritos honey bbq twists once more. I was hoping that i would no longer be sensitive and was going to post a success story about how i ate the fritos with no ill effects.
i proceeded to become extremely drowsy fall asleep for 6 or so hours and have nightmares and woke up feeling all confused.
No success story for me :S
Re: the frito failure « Reply #1 on: November 23, 2017, 04:02:21 am »
So sorry to hear that.
Re: the frito failure « Reply #2 on: November 24, 2017, 06:18:54 am »
We don’t have those here in the UK but I looked them up and read the ingredients and they contain Monosodium Glutamate.
https://www.fritolay.com/snacks/product-page/fritos/fritos-flavor-twists-honey-bbq-flavored-corn-chips click the nutritional facts one.
MSG isn’t good for you even if you’re in good health, it’s a known to spike withdrawal symptoms too.
Avoid foods containing MSG, it’s also a common ingredient in Chinese food as well.
Re: the frito failure « Reply #3 on: November 24, 2017, 07:34:27 pm »
urgh sorry to hear about this, unreal how sensitive we are
the frito failure is catchy though….
i think ill call my experience the “coffee catastrophe” …where a half cup of coffee kicked me into a massive wave, the effects of which im still feeling it seems like 2 months later
Feel like I completely screwed myself and now feel hopeless « on: November 20, 2017, 10:07:02 pm »
I can’t help but feel like my failed Valium crossover and then all of the one off updoses that I very stupidly took to help me sleep have completely screwed me up. I’ve never felt so physically sick or mentally off. It’s unbearable I’m bed ridden and absolutely overwhelmed with terror and irrational thoughts 24/7. I don’t know what to do anymore I think I kindled myself so badly. I just wanted relief. This is my history:
Last year I did a daily liquid microtaper from February until November. I would liquefy one of my .5 mg tablets in 100 mL’s of milk and take our 1.2 mL’s a day until it was gone. So I got down to 1.5 mg’s around November of last year when I was slammed with symptoms/side effects and after seeking advice I decided to updose to 2 and then ultimately reinstate back at 2.5. This did not stabilize me at all and I wish more than anything I had just held at 1.5. In May of this year I had a failed Valium crossover. I then went back to 2.5 and tried a dry cut going extremely slow and only got from 2.5 to 2.375 cutting at a little less than 5% but I felt so terrible that I again went back to 2.5 and actually tried going to 3 mg’s for six days to see if I could get relief and did not so I then went back to 2.5 which is where I am now and have been for a few months with occasional 5 mg Valium updoses mixed in.
struggling to leave my room any adive or input would be helpful « on: November 15, 2017, 03:46:47 pm »
ive only been leaving my room for bathroom n shower n to eat n do landry other then those small thing ive spent the better part of the last 5 weeks just laying in bed all day watching movies or tv on my laptop !! monday i got out of the house for about 2 hours just to do some things in the yard n had two attacks while i was outside im on 1.625mg of ativan daily the window started slowly closing on me this summer and has pretty much shut me in my room where i keep all light out so it pitch black n i feel some what at ease still have attacks once a day or more but some days our good days and i dont have any ! has anyone been in this position before ? if so how do i over come it ? i need to be able to atleast get out side cut my grass take the trash out ect !! im in a pretty lucky situation im 31 with no kids or a job and my mom lets me live here for free n pays what little bills i have but i used to do all kinds of remodling projects for her and painting and yard projects but now i cant even cut the grass and input would be very helpful i have everything i need to start a titration but the alcohol to disolve the ativan but havent started because of fear n the situation im in
vension « on: November 03, 2017, 12:55:46 am »
I just ate some venison for supper and my symptoms flared right up what the fuck is going on i dont get it
Re: vension « Reply #1 on: November 03, 2017, 04:15:20 pm »
guess im the only one thanks for the help this website is unreal
Re: vension « Reply #2 on: November 03, 2017, 05:27:28 pm »
This should crack you up! I hunt chipmunk for the pelts. I was skinning them in the woods by the fire and had the idea if I ever had to survive out there I could eat chipmunks. So instead of just feeding the coyotes I cooked one on a stick. Very well done I might add and it was delicious just one test bite. For days I wasn’t feeling well and thought back to that incident when I went into a relapse. It’s so crazy how my mind keeps trying to find a definitive reason for feeling so bad over and over again. I’m fine now and you will be too. It’s just the physical and mental nature of the benzo beast! Take care and keep fighting. By the way always cook wild shit well done.
An In-Person Support Group « on: October 31, 2017, 04:49:37 pm »
I have heard of these for us, I am remembering now as I type this out. How do we get more going, what is the protocol?
Any thoughts…? Thanks ahead of time.
(I’d like to start one in my area, maybe for victims of pharmaceutical violence in general. I’m only in the thinking and planning stages though.)
Re: An In-Person Support Group « Reply #1 on: October 31, 2017, 04:59:37 pm »
Well I just saw that we aren’t supposed to even mention or talk about this in general. I can’t delete my own post though, I have found.
I don’t see the harm in discussing this and being non-specific about location, kind of a depressing rule if you ask me.