Crazy person asks other crazy people if it’s okay to eat sushi rolls

Healthy food question?
« on: March 03, 2021, 08:15:27 pm »

[Buddie]

I have been having some issues with food lately, so trying to be mindful of what I eat. Thoughts on plant based foods and sushi rolls??? Love both but don’t want to upset the apple cart!

Cumin sends cult member into outer space five minutes after eating a salad

Cumin issues?
« on: January 04, 2021, 07:35:58 pm »

[Buddie]

Anyone have any reverse or strange reaction to the spice cumin?  and i just felt off! I believe I have read of other BBs suffering side affects from certain spices? Thanks for any feedback!

Re: Cumin issues?
« Reply #1 on: January 04, 2021, 07:41:26 pm »

[Buddie]

I have that and more whenever I eat anything or put anything on body, wash hands etc.

Mayo Clinic recommends psych ward after wife loses everything to Ashton

Nursing Home until I become healed?
« on: December 09, 2020, 09:28:18 pm »

[Buddie]

After 2 years of being bedridden, unable to care for myself, I cannot live like this anymore. My husband has been doing his best to care for me, but I have not seen any signs of improvement. My mental function is gone. I live in extreme pain, with over 100 extreme symptoms daily. I am only 56 years old but living a life of a senior shut-in.

I am wondering if any of you know people who have ended up in a nursing home because of benzo injury? What happens when our only caregiver cannot take it anymore and wants to get on with their life? Then what? I am unable to go anywhere (have even cancelled all my dr. appts. in the last years), cannot shower except for maybe once every 5 days now, live in my unkempt bedroom all alone while my husband is out living his life. But, he wants to be able to travel, do outdoor activities, ALL the things we once enjoyed together, which kept us extremely busy. He has been leaving town here and there to do some activities but has to be back by dark because I cannot be alone in the dark anymore. My mind has been damaged and I no longer have any hope. I have not had any windows and I’m only getting worse.

The guilt is unbearable to me, even though I know I didn’t cause this injury myself. What am I supposed to do?

P.S. It took me a very long time to write this and everything I have to try to make sense of this post. I cannot express myself, even in writing anymore, let alone with words.

Re: Nursing Home until I become healed?
« Reply #7 on: December 31, 2020, 10:13:04 pm »

[Buddie]

Quote from: [Buddie] on December 22, 2020, 10:03:02 pm
longing

First let me tell you that your post makes sense. As awful as you feel, you are very much coherent. Your sentences string together and your word usage is accurate. As challenging as it was to write, your cognitive function seems fine here.

Your husband is tired. It’s normal. Sometimes caregivers feel they aren’t allowed to struggle, because the person they care for is struggling more. But that isn’t true. It is really lonely to be a caregiver. It is hard work. It is frustrating. It’s normal that he wants his partner to share life with him. This doesn’t make him bad or unloving. I don’t say this to guilt you. More to shine a light on the big picture. Who cares for the caregiver?

I doubt a nursing home could do much for you. First, you would have to qualify by virtue of age. You are too young. Many seniors who are very disabled are waiting to get in to nursing homes. Nursing homes are very expensive, too. Also, it would be so disempowering.
It is like saying that nothing can be done and healing is futile. Maybe this age and money thing is only true in Canada.

You say you have over 100 symptoms every day. Bedridden. Cannot even bathe yourself. There is no improvement at all. So, this is a severe and rare case of protracted withdrawal. What have you done to improve your situation? Again, not to doubt you, because you have likely done many things. Recovery is an active process. It doesn’t happen just by waiting for it. Others cannot give it to us, no matter how well they care for us. Maybe if you list what you have done, then we can perhaps add ideas?

I wish you could find someone to talk to. Possibly locate an online therapist?

I have had many tests, even been to Mayo Clinic two times. They just want to put me into the psych ward because they don’t believe in benzo withdrawal. They tell me it’s just a severe case of depression. Well, of course, I’m depressed. Who wouldn’t in my situation? But I was never depressed or had any kind of mental illness until I became tolerant to the clonazepam. I was on it for over 20 years, daily. My life is gone. I have tried many supplements over the time I’ve been suffering, but none have helped. I take a multi vitamin daily and an adrenal support supplement. I have to take .25 mg. Trazadone to help with sleep, which is pretty much non-existent still. This is the reason I was put on clonazepam in the first place. I have chronic daily migraine and for years, I have not slept. My neurologist is the one who put me on benzos and now he has flat out told me that he doesn’t know anything about benzo injury and withdrawal and therefore, cannot help me. He actually told me that if I find someone to help to let him know. I wish his life would have been ruined, like he did to me. Horrible, horrible doctor!

One of my family members thinks that if I would just start smoking weed that all this will go away. I tried it…one puff…one time about a week ago. I became even more depersonalized and it was awful! Not for me. I hear it helps others though.

If I have to continue to exist in hell like this, I won’t. There are many who have not been damaged nearly as much as I have. Why does God not listen to me? I have been a christian all my life and have always prayed, but it’s like He’s not even real to me anymore.

“I cried for an hour to my parents”

Upset
« on: December 06, 2020, 09:09:26 pm »

[Buddie]

I did ok with coffee yesterday. Was fine for 6 hours after.
Then I got super stressed. I took my kids to a bday party and my dog groomer called me during it demanding I pick up my dogs half finished because she had a vet emergency with another dog at her shelter.
So I had to leave the bday party, get my dogs and bring them home and then go back to the party. I was really upset.
Then my symptoms started up.
I didn’t know if it was from cake, coffee or stress.

Then today I got another bill from my lawyer. This lawyer gave me bad advice that started a fight between my ex and me. She told me to withhold my kids and she had been wrong. She just billed me again for the left over charges. I emailed her and reminded her that it was her fault I needed her services in the first place for bad advice.
Then I cried for an hour to my parents about stress and finances.
Took a few sips of coffee
And now I’m buzzing.

I don’t know if I’m reacting from coffee/sugar or stress.
I guess I’ll lay off the coffee and see if these symptoms keep happening
They’ve happened before. So I’m not confident it’s from coffee….

Two mini brownies sends kook over the rainbow

Terrifying episode
« on: November 14, 2020, 02:23:12 am »

[Buddie]

I just ate two mini brownies and my heart rate sky rocketed over 100 bpm. Is this normal!!??

Re: Terrifying episode
« Reply #1 on: November 14, 2020, 02:31:56 am »

[Buddie]

Yes. It is. I avoided sugar, caffeine, chocolate etc. Also, gluten can provoke this. Your heart rate will settle. Maybe just don’t do that again. I hope you feel better soon. Try to breathe slow and deep.

Re: Terrifying episode
« Reply #2 on: November 14, 2020, 04:03:45 am »

[Buddie]

Thanks […]

it didn’t feel like a panic attack but my heart was doing it by itself. It slowed down but it was like I was given and injection of a stimulate or coke. Not that I’ve ever tried any illegal drugs but I can imagine that is what it might feel like

Benzo Buddies kooks discover new fear: lawn fertilizer

Lawn fertilizer exposure - please talk me out of anxiety over this
« on: November 02, 2020, 06:02:32 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi guys,

I’m having major anxiety attacks over this… I’m hoping it’s irrational? My neighbor had her grass fertilized today. My husband noticed that some of our garbage had blown into her yard, so he walked into the yard while the sprinklers were running to pick it up then immediately got into our car to drive it up the driveway. I have to leave to pick up my child from school in the same car and I’m having near panic attacks about having to get into the car with fertilizer residue all over the driver’s side floor. I’m worried about inhalation or any kind of exposure to it. I don’t know if I’m reactive to fertilizer at all, but I feel so fragile in this state that I worry about anything and everything. Is there any reason to worry over this? Please help… I feel like I’m drowning in anxiety.

BANANAS SENDS KOOK INTO NEVER NEVER LAND

Bananas
« on: September 09, 2020, 04:10:40 pm »

[Buddie]

Before my rescue doses caused a setback I used to eat a lot of overripe bananas as they were beneficial for my GERD, which before this setback was one of my only real withdrawal symptoms. I ate one ripe banana today and it revved me up. Is there some theory on why this is the case? Could this be because of rapid changes in blood sugar level? Or is it because of tryptophan in bananas?
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Six-foot-six kook claims to look eight months pregnant from a benzo withdrawal symptom that doesn’t exist

Benzo Belly Relief?
« on: August 31, 2020, 08:44:27 pm »

[Buddie]

Hi People.

Apologies if this question has been raised before, but one of my worst symptoms 20 months since finishing my taper is benzo bellly.
I’m a tall man at 6 feet 6 inches and always used to be a string bean.
At the moment I look like like a string bean who’s 8.5 months pregnant with twins!
I have read that the only thing that really helps benzo belly is time, but has anyone found anything that really helps to relieve the symptoms?
My poor stomach has never been so ill and is completely solid as if I have a bowling ball in my tummy.
I also have a lot of trouble breathing due to the size of my stomach to the point where I’m gasping for air and start to panic a bit.
Any updated thoughts on how to combat this dreadful benzo belly symptom would be very very welcome.

Thank you! X